#graveyardlilies

[birusoda]

Your art is gorgeous, I love seeing it on my dash and in my notifications. I'm sorry your family can't see how amazing you are, but you really are amazing. I hope I get to see you do great things.

thanks! that’s so sweet of you to say! ;;

[rosaofthorns]

Important update. Please read.

Yeah... let’s talk. This is very important and...things are bad. I’ll explain the bare, bare basics but I need help.

So the internet at my house is off, I’m unemployed, and I’m not sure how I’m going to survive the next month or so in an abusive home. I’m only able to make this post because I’m staying the night at my aunt’s but I don’t know when I’ll be able to get on again. So I’m going to kind of... make my situation as clear as possible. I’ll keep it under a read more but I’d appreciate it if people read this post. 

There is a TL;DR at the bottom of this post along if you don’t want to read the whole thing. But I’m begging you to please read this and share it.

So my internet got shut off on April 2nd. The bill owed is well over 200 dollars but my parent’s don’t seem to be interested in paying it. My sister lost her job, and she has been crashing at the house whenever she feels like it. Racking up the bills and then dodging when they need to be paid I guess, I don’t know.

Anyways, I’m here to say that I have next to no contact with anybody I know when I’m at home. The only working phone is my dad’s, and he also has the only car that he takes to and from work. So even if I wanted to get another job, I unfortunately can’t. I’m literally put into a position where I can’t even apply anywhere because I live in the middle of nowhere.

My parents are both alcoholics and junkies. With summer rolling around they’re more prone to get into fights. The most recent fight ended with my mother trashing the house and breaking a few things. Pretty sure that my dad did the same thing to our garage. They both have been trying to get me to do drugs with them as of late. And I’m not talking stuff like weed, I mean like dope. Heavy shit. I’m terrified on what might happen on my 21st birthday in June. They’re manipulative and abusive and I’m terrified when they’ll snap on me again.

The house has no working plumbing at all. That means no water in the house whatsoever. Don’t even have a working toilet. I have to walk about twenty minutes down a gravel road to my nearest neighbor to fill up gallons of water and then carry them all back a few at a time. And now, thanks to my sister, we might lose power. In which case, I... I don’t know what’ll happen. I know that I’ve been teetering on the edge of a serious mental breakdown, but with no wi-fi or a working phone plus living in the ass end of nowhere in the country, I can’t get any sort of help.

My girlfriend and her cousins are trying to save up money to help me get up to Michigan. Even if it’s just for a couple of weeks. I don’t know a definitive amount but I am going to leave my girlfriend’s username in this post along with my paypal information. They’ll have full access to my funds because I can’t trust my family with it. They’re well known to steal from me regardless of how much money I have. Could’ve been 20 dollars or 20 cents - doesn’t matter.

I don’t really know what else to do. I’m trapped in a position where I can’t do anything. So I can only leave the plans here and trust that somebody will read them.

They’ll be driving through Indiana around May 25th. That’ll be the easiest way for them to pick me up and get me up to Michigan. I don’t know how much money it would take, which is why I’m leaving my girlfriend’s information. I’d imagine there would be the cost of a hotel room and then the gas money, but no definitive amount has been set yet. She’d know more about it than I would.

Her tumblr is @sleepybunloaf. If you have any questions, please ask her or ask if you can talk to one of her friends. My paypal is [email protected] and there is a donation button in the top left corner of my blog.

Thank you for reading this. I know that it’s long and a lot to take in, and there’s still a lot I’m leaving out because it would just drag this post on. But any and all donations would be appreciated. Please, if you can, help them help me. I can’t take it anymore.

Tl;dr: I’m trying to escape an abusive home but I’m trapped in a position where I can’t even take steps to get out. And my parents belittle me for it knowing that I can’t get out. I have no water, no wi-fi, and no food. My girlfriend and her cousin’s are trying to help but the soonest they could get me out would, again, be May 25th. Any other questions about how much that would cost can only be answered by them. 

[copperbadge]

Answers About The New Home

snowytumble replied to your photoset “Behold my fridge. For those of you warning me not to eat the butter,...”

SAM! YOU BOUGHT A HOME! And.....the fridge must be exorcised immediately O.O Please say the rest of the place is cleaner?

Somewhat? The walls are...kind of gross. They very clearly owned at least one cat.

niennanir replied to your post “We enter a new chapter in the life of Sam Spamming You Guys With His...”

If you take measurements of your closet (don't forget depth as well) an elfa designer at the Container Store will customize a design for you and then pull all the parts you'll need. I have custom shelving from every major manufacturer and theirs is by far superior in quality and highest in price, just so you know.

That was my plan! Though I find Elfa kind of ugly, I can’t deny it’s both efficient and reasonably priced. 

graveyardlilies replied to your post “We enter a new chapter in the life of Sam Spamming You Guys With His...”

I may have missed something, but why are you spackling your walls before painting? Does that always need to be done?

Not always, but if you have a bunch of holes in the walls, it’s good practice. There were a LOT of rather large holes in the walls, particularly where shelves were mounted, so I wanted to fill them in. I’ll try to remember to take photos of the spackling I did when I’m back there tomorrow.  

memprime replied to your post “We enter a new chapter in the life of Sam Spamming You Guys With His...”

Congratulations on your new home! Did you ever find a subletter for your apartment?

I haven’t even started looking yet -- I only told my landlord I had closed AFTER I closed. I’m in a crunch but I’m hoping my landlord will take last-month’s-rent as a lease-break fee. 

mysweetetc replied to your photo

Sam, so happy for you!!! Also been following you since the mid-oughts and our life milestones have lined up in some odd ways -- this week you got your first home, I bought my first new car! Yay for both of us. Sorry yours involves more cleaning and work.

Aw congratulations on your new car! I hope it’s awesome and fights you less than my condo is fighting me :D 

maxisawerewolf replied to your post “We enter a new chapter in the life of Sam Spamming You Guys With His...”

I sure hope the reno/nesting experiences lead to some domestic-hijinks fics :3

Maybe eventually. At the moment it’s too exhausting to both execute and write about. :D

[rosaofthorns]

I am flesh and I am bone I’ll rise, ting-ting, like glitter and gold I got fire in my soul Rise up, ting-ting, like glitter...

I don’t think I ever uploaded this but here have more of Jerry The hellion has returned, now with detail shots because tumblr kills the quality of just about everything these days

[yurionice-secretsanta]

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[sionnaach]

So, I might have kinda drew you something because reasons, and I thought I'd ask what would be the best way to get it to you? Sorry I'm awkward, I don't usually draw for people I haven't officially met.

IM YELLING OMG!!!

If you like I can dm you my discord if you have it and you can send it there?

[birusoda]

I hope you have the happiest of birthdays! You deserve all the sunshine and love.

thank you, deary! that’s so kind of you to say!

[dippersguideremade]

Hey

first impression: EVAN ROLEPLAYER!!!!!!!!!!!

truth is: i miiiiiiss u we dont talk often enough!!!!

how old do you look: hm. 2.....6?

have you ever made me laugh: very much!!!

have you ever made me mad: not that i can recall!!!

best feature: ur kindness!!!

have i ever had a crush on you: nah, sorry!!!

you’re my: close friend!!!