All it takes is a bit of Courage
“You only need a minute of courage to face embarrassment and what happens next is history” as tweeted in twitter by a friend of mine. Making a decision is like picking a fruit from an unknown tree, you’ll never know what it tastes like unless you pull yourself together and take that bite.
Indeed, life is a mystery- we never know what’s behind the door.
I was young back then when I used to imagine myself in other people’s shoes. “I wonder what does it feel like to live their life? To live in the capital of the country?” I used to ask myself out of my endless curiosity. Sometimes I’d even ask my parents about their lives back when they were still living in Manila, and they’d go talk about it enthusiastically, they’d tell me the things you can see in the ginormous cities, they’d transform reality to a dimension of their experiences for hours, but those hours were only seconds for me. Every word they say leave a feeling of envy in my heart.
It wasn’t long till the time for me to make the decision that will forever change my life come. For me to choose whether to stay in my comfort zone, to continue living with my parents, like a joey living in dependence in the pouch of its mother, living a dream, or to go beyond and venture to a new world and make my dreams come true, to live in the capital of the Philippines. I thought about it for years that it made me cause a heavy rainfall to my bed with my endless tears. But as dependent human to God, I prayed. I prayed every single night, and my prayers calmed me, God eased my uncertainty, like a parent caressing His child to halt his cries.
Time was really not in my favor. Time continued to perish like a sand in an hourglass falling to the other side. Time was swift that I couldn’t catch up. So I made my decision before time swallow me to oblivion. I had no other choice. With my uncertainty still residing in me, I made a choice with no accurate outcome. But all decision is a risk taken. I decided to sever my ties with my fear of living in solitude. I was the most uncertain person at that time.
Time came for me to live my dream. With no knowledge about the life I’ve chosen, I charged in. I was like a knight in a cavalry in an onslaught with no idea if I’ll survive or not. But what’s fun in life if you remain in only one place, if you don’t go see how wonderful the world is? So I gathered all my courage, I held back my tears, it was time for me to leave this boy in me behind and become a man. I challenged my greatest fears and with my valor I succeeded, with bravery I survived.
Surviving means being bold. There will always be a point in our life when we have to make our greatest decision. It may be between life and death, bliss or sin, or between love for others or love for yourself. But it doesn’t matter what ever the risks are, what’s important is you have the valor to accept the result of your action, faith in yourself and in God, and the willpower to do your best to make the most out of your decision.
My decision may have degraded my integrity, but with my efforts, with my firm conviction, I deterred what was degrading me. I uplifted my own morale with the guidance of God, and now I am serene that I will survive. I am thankful for once being the most uncertain person in the world, because my uncertainty led me to reality.
