#guardsup

[pncrealty]

Oh My✊🏽✊🏽✊🏽 I thought Everyone was my friend🤭🤔🤣🤣🤣...Until I saw 👀 The Light...I never confronted them...I just put distance between us🤣 They never knew the reason😎 It’s all Good...No Animosity...No Love lost...I still say Hello✊🏽 #JustKnowTheDifference #Life #TrustNoOne #GuardsUp https://www.instagram.com/p/CMRvikOBweY/?igshid=47lylfkd2009

[effortlesslychicsaaje]

Read this and it like it this is exactly how I am feeling GUARDED🙅🏾🙅🏾🙅🏾🙅🏾 #guardingmyheart #guardsup #patientlywaiting

[libranheart]

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Late night feels@dirtyartclub #dirtyartclub probably one my top 10 #heavystarch #fantasyprone #beatshadmelike #guardsup

[jennyraaa]

More than you, me. I can't stop being selfish, I'm sorry.

[yumeekim]

As long as I know what I deserve, that’s all that matters

[ashooox3]

[wishingwanderingwriting]

guarded

so there's this thing inside me that's triggered whenever I have feelings for someone, and basically I deny the feelings and act like I don't even like the person when I actually do (a lot) like I don't even mean too, it's just an impulse, like permanently built into me. I've been doing it a lot with him (yes, I'm going to keep him nameless throughout this entire thing, to save him form embarrassment) I'm mostly like that when there are people around, I don't like to be vulnerable in front of people. When me and him are alone then I'm okay with kissing and cuddling, whatever. But around people, no way jose. I don't even walk beside him sometimes when we're in a group of people. I'm fine walking 5 steps ahead or behind. All our friends know we have a thing... I know he's told his friends from home, and so have I, but still. We aren't official, I don't plan on us being official anytime soon. Like I broke up with my boyfriend of a year and a half because I didn't want to be attached to someone anymore, so getting together with him would be unbelievably hypocritical of me.

[iloveyoudoofus-blog-blog]

Got a Douche bag ex boyfriend?

Yeahps I do too. We all have had our fair share of going out with that one guy who hurt us the most and was just fucking one big of a fucking asshole. No matter how shitty that one guy treated us, we cared and fell in love with him anyway. Why? because we care too much and forgive too easily, at least I am in my case. You go through hell and back just for this douche bag and what do you get in return? Shit, thats what! Fuck the whole being nice, caring too much & forgiving too easy BS. I've been through too much shit at a young age way too early and all for just one hell of a fucking douche bag pathetic lame ass worthless asshole. 

This time will be different. Got my guards up high and any dude that gives me BS is dead mean. I ain't willing to go through another roller coaster ride any time soon and more importantly with any douche who aint worth it. This time around ill take my time, focus on myself and if another guy comes along, he better be ready. This time, It will be a bitch being with me. Like the saying, "if you cant handle me at my worst, you sure as hell dont deserve me at my best." If that makes sense. LOl

* sorry for the swearing & all the anger. Aint mad at all, just wanted to vent a little & jus ramble on about whatever :)

Vise versa for guys ^___^