Long Roots
"By the time Kasmeer Meade lifted the veil enshrouding Viathan Lake, The Tower of Nightmares already stretched out far into the horizon, further below the soil than any eye could see. It was here, among the haze of delirium, that the Pact Commander was confronted with a long-buried terror that challenged his very self, clawing to uncover a terrible truth: once a nightmare spreads its roots beneath one's skin, it becomes impossible to excise. And forever is far too long a time for a mortal."
[Tower of Nightmares episode additional content set during the meta event as applicable to my personal canon and Commander Maelmordha's story. 9k words. Trigger warnings for basic fantasy violence, unreality, swearing.]
The thick walls of bramble and relentless push of the Toxic Alliance felt like they would never end.
His sword worked tirelessly, stalwart in the face of the onslaught. The heart of the Tower was drawing near, and yet each new enemy planted another seed of doubt within the Valiant's mind. Each step forward felt like a step back - their destination, though oh so close, seemed ever further away.
"Kas!" He hollered, blade locked with one of haunting, blue thistle. The mesmer ducked and weaved past several courtiers, extending her hand with a glimmer of pink magic. A sickly green krait slithered behind her back, spear poised - for a brief moment, he saw a look of shock ghost over Kasmeer's features before the clone shattered, blinding the smug serpent.
"Here." She responded, and a blast of magic sent the nearby courtiers reeling.
Maelmordha breathed with relief, hands squeezing tighter the hilt of his greatsword - Solstice. Here and there, the enemy was stalled by encroaching constructs of flesh and plant, brought forward in formidable numbers by the combined might of two necromancers. Among the commotion, he could hear Marjory's chanting, and another bone fiend joined the fray.
"Out of my way!" He snarled, gold eyes locked with the toxic green of a nightmare knight. She returned a look of glee and insanity, a breath filled with poison panting past painted lips. Maelmordha leaned forward, his own might challenging that of his opponent - before abruptly relenting, only for the courtier to find the Commander ducking low and an armored leg swiftly sweeping her own.
The knight's eyes widened in surprise before her body met the ground with a rustle and a thump, one hand raised in vain as a blade pierced the soft space between arboreal armor. The necromancer ripped out his weapon and kicked the corpse viciously, sending it rolling into another courtier.
He didn't dwell on the look of agony in the knight's eyes before she died - he couldn't. Not here, not now. Still, his heart pounded, a rampant rhythm threatening to hasten the spread of poison throughout his system. He could only pray Marjory's antidote would hold up, but the clock was ticking for all of them.
They had to get to the top, and quickly.
"Go! Go! Go!" The Valiant hollered, a powerful bash from his weapon's crossguard denting another courtier's helmet. Delaqua's flesh golem bulldozed several krait, with Kas teleporting a short distance forward to blast a nightmare sorcerer from behind. Their gazes met in wordless understanding, and the trio ran past reeling foes, falling in formation.
The corridor was tight and covered in foul-smelling slime. Every step could prove to be treacherous, with heads of thistle quickly sprouting from the tangled mass below. The trio ran as fast as they could, ignoring the chain of explosions following them like a shadow. The air quickly filled with toxic clouds, small, sharp fibers threatening to shred lungs. Maelmordha rolled forward, just out of reach of the spreading haze. He shared a quick look with the other necromancer, and four hands extended - joining their efforts in sealing the passage behind them.
The flesh golem dissolved into a wall of meat and sinew, a green glyph rapidly appearing upon its surface. The Commander chanted something in a long-dead language, and within seconds, the dwarven seal was ready to reinforce the barricade.
"Nifty." Marjory commented, giving a small nod of approval. Maelmordha breathed a sigh of relief, returning a tired smile. "I know."
Gold eyes scanned the chamber extending far and wide before them. A sickly, yellowish glow tinted the walls, each fibre of nightmarish plantlife pulsing with lazy currents of magic. No enemies rushed out immediately to greet them, and - frankly speaking - as much as it likely didn't bode well in a tower full of Scarlet's trickery, he was thankful for the moment's rest. The Toxic Alliance really didn't know how to throw parties.
"How much farther can it be..?" Kasmeer rested her hands against her knees, strands of blond hair falling over the mesmer's soft features. Blue eyes, momentarily closed, were likewise filled with profound exhaustion. The three of them were hardly an army. Even with the Seraph's forces hard at work on the lower floors and covering their advance, the upper levels' security was brutal. The tight, winding corridors were no place for an entire army, or even just a large squad - a vanguard had to be formed to scout ahead and dispose of the many traps spread across the Tower. Braham and Rox had done a fine job on their turn - it only ended with the charr sustaining some superficial injuries - but they had run out of the safe amount of antitoxin and Maelmordha's party had since swapped them out to take on the final floor.
Braham, of course, insisted he could keep going - norn style. The comments about Eir secretly tailing him to steal the glory of his kills, however, strongly suggested he should stay at a station and recover.
"Not too far now, hon." The detective placed a gentle hand on the former noble's shoulder, the only ghost of reassurance that could be afforded in such a place. "I promise."
The Meade fought back tears caused by the biting vapors, and nodded, shaken by a slight hiccup. "I'm not a little - hic! - girl, you know." She forced a small giggle, interrupting herself with another hiccup. "I can hold my own. I've got your back."
"I know you do." The detective smiled back, before readying her weapons once more. The mesmer followed suit.
"We're almost there. Just a little more." Mael affirmed, amber eyes filled with conviction. Even for him, it was hard to maintain perfect composure, and it was evident he, too, was deeply drained. A crimson glow which should have burned far brighter was strangely dim against the all-encompassing yellow. And the seeds of doubt continued to grow; After all, they did not know just how much more ground remained to be covered, nor how many more foes the wretched Tower could throw. They did not know just how much taller the damn thing had grown since they entered.
Wait... was it... really growing in their eyes?
The walls seemed to stretch, and the ceiling climbed higher and higher. The Commander squinted, and blinked a few times. His vision began to swim, and a wave of vertigo threatened to seize control of his senses.
"Everything okay, Boss?" Jory's voice reached his ears, and he snapped out, glancing at the other necromancer. "Yeah. Yeah, I'm fine. How long can your antidote hold?"
As much as he tried not to let it, a tinge of worry did slip through in his tone, something the Delaqua certainly picked up. Her own brows furrowed, an inscrutable expression hiding her innermost thoughts. Even she did not fully know, but the sword over their necks grew ever heavier, the strings of time holding it in place fraying thinner by the minute.
"You know what? Hold the thought." Mael sighed, waving away the reply before it could come.
"More hallucinations?" The mesmer asked, looking around cautiously. Between the twisted watchwork horrors and creeping shadows, the lines between what was real and what was not had already begun to blur.
"What if you're hallucinations?" A familiar lilt assaulted their senses, toying with their thoughts. The three looked around instinctively before Marjory audibly cursed. "Damn! I can't stand this hag. Is this mesmer magic?"
"I don't think so? At least not the kind I'm familiar with." Kasmeer responded in a hushed tone.
"Whatever it is, we're got to move." Mael scowled, all too aware of the magic wearing down his senses. They had to get through fast, or what Scarlet said may soon prove to be true. The moment they stopped being able to recognize each other, it would all be over.
He attempted to walk forward before a loud ringing assaulted his ears, vision blurring for a moment before a group of Aetherblades appeared seemingly from thin air. Kasmeer and Marjory must have noticed them too, already aiming their weapons and slinging spells. The Commander grit his teeth, forcing all his senses to sharpen in spite of the toxic fog. It was some kind of mind magic, thrown in ontop of the poison. How else could he explain the fact they all saw it? Yes, precisely. They were seeing only what Scarlet wanted them to see. She couldn't actually read their minds like she claimed - else she would have been more creative than simply conjuring images of her own minions.
Right?
He charged forward, swinging his sword in a wide arc and cleaving a human pirate at the waist. Instead of blood, more dark fog erupted from the wound, and the hallucination dispersed. Not too far behind him, one of Marjory's minions trapped and speared an asura, and Kasmeer's rose light bolts sent a charr to the floor. More shadowy figures emerged from the fog, taking on the shapes of Aetherblades mixed in with Molten Alliance and Toxic Courtiers. She really was throwing everything and the kitchen sink at them, now.
Mael extended his left hand, focusing dark power. On cue, a dark claw emerged from the ground as though a shark surfacing from deep water, ready to snatch up its prey. Shadowy claws grasped at the attacking apparitions, ripping them to shreds. He whipped around, swinging one-handedly at a sneaking krait, keenly aware of the blade heading far too quickly for his side. Before the wicked weapon could taste his sap, Kas' bolt nailed the creature right in the head, sending its slippery girth ragdolling across the floor.
"Owe you one." He called to the mesmer, before entering Death Shroud and dispatching several more foes with ferocious abandon.
"Don't mention it." She called back, closing her eyes for a moment before a trio of mirror images stepped towards the attacking illusions, ready to fight fire with fire.
The fight was dragging on. Scarlet was testing his patience, and he knew all too well she enjoyed every second of it. The sole thought pissed him off - a smug villain, sipping her wine somewhere cozy while simply watching all the carnage she wrought. Without a single care for all the lives she ruined, all the pain she caused - in his eyes, she seemed like the embodiment of Nightmare itself.
The Nightmare that choked his people. The Nightmare that stole Dreamers away from the Mother and turned them into crazed killers. The Nightmare that turned sibling against sibling, and forced him to plunge a sword through the hearts of his kin. Was it strange? Again he swung his sword. That he loved them, still. Time and time again, a macabre dance of death. Sap splattered against metal, real and warm among the flood of illusions. He pitied them. Wayward saplings, so often turned against their will. A courtier let out one last, guttural gasp.
His heart broke but his blade could never.
The black guise of a Reaper shielded his features, eyes green with necrotic magic. Again he slew a courtier, a head of thorns sailing through the air. It felt fleshy, felt real. No smoke trailed from the wound, and he felt the thud when they fell. Why did Mother bear him so full of death? If the Nightmare could not be cured, then let his scythe be their panacea.
All around him, courtiers and hallucinations fell to blade and magic, flesh construct and shattering clone. Yet more charged, and one by one, bodies piled and smoke dissipated into the yellow hue of putrid air. As though puppeteered to the tune of the arduous, unforgiving rhythm of combat. And then, when the tide seemed to finally abate...
The Aetherblades suddenly seemed different. Their eyes no longer gazed with reckless fervor, instead cold and empty and white. Lips discolored, rotten teeth loose in blue gums - but the bodies yet moved, and walked towards him unfettered. By the Pale Tree, if Scarlet thought she could make him feel bad for killing her damn pirates...
But he realized they were no pirates. The signature gear and techy blue uniforms were nowhere to be found. Instead, all sorts of tattered cloth and armor clung to their wasting corpses, and mixed in here and there he recognized worn-down Lionguard, Inquest, even charr Legion outfits. What was going on..?
"Jory! Kas!" He called out to the two, only to find them... staring absently as though they didn't even notice the fresh wave of hallucinations, ironic as such a descriptor was. He cursed under his breath when a zombie - a Risen..? - attempted to claw past his guard. The Valiant bared his teeth and pushed the shambler away with necrotic magic, a whirlwind of corrosive green circling the tip of his sword before running the beast clean through and exploding it to smoking pieces.
It was then that the ringing noise intensified, and he felt the smell really hit him. Unprepared, he felt the rations in his stomach attempt a prison break, and he swallowed back the bitter taste building in his throat. Wait. This was too real. But the Risen - if they had invaded this high up in the Tower, wouldn't the Alliance have fought them, too..?
The Commander repositioned, and searched for the detective and her partner. Whatever spell had befallen them, he had to get them out of there... before...!
Marjory stood there, shell-shocked. The Risen seemed to ignore her as dark eyes focused on something further in the back of the chamber, staring right past Maelmordha and the tide of rotting corpses. Her brows furrowed, disbelief marring her confident features. He called her name - she seemed to snap out just enough to abruptly rush forward with her hand extended. A shriek of betrayal and terror tore through the air. "No! What are you doing! He's just a -"
"JORY!" The Commander hollered, pushing past several Risen to grab his fellow necromancer by the back of her clothes. Cursing under his breath, he fished out a vial of the antidote in mist form, and attempted to press it against the woman's nose.
"You know what they say... too much of a good thing..."
Maelmordha ignored the whisper and focused entirely on his companion. He was only hoping the dose would not be too high, the way they were forced to take more and more in shorter and shorter intervals. And he knew Scarlet reveled in it - their inability to fully discern mind magic constructs from hallucinations borne of deadly poison, like a murderous game of coin flip. And she made them flip it time and time again.
Tails, keep fighting. Heads - take a shot. Eventually, you'll feel your organs fail - not because of the poison, but the medicine.
However, the detective seemed lost in her own world, shock morphing to anger as she abruptly thrashed, slapping the vial out of Maelmordha's hand. It slid across the floor, and she focused her glare on the nearest Risen, cutting it down with axe and dagger. "You're monsters! All of you, corrupt monsters!"
Maelmordha was not fully sure his companion was all there, but at the very least, she was defending herself. The same could not be said about Kasmeer. Kasmeer, the elegant, determined Kasmeer - reduced to a shaking mess with her back pressed into the vine wall of the chamber. Her eyes, wide and rimmed with tears threatening to spill. Wracked with hiccups and hugging her staff like a child. "No, no, nononono... hic! What do you mean...? I-I can only save one of them...?"
"Kasmeer! This isn't real!" He screamed in vain, attempting to break through the nightmares come to life. But the haze grew thicker, and heads of blue thistle began to grow slowly along the borders of the room.
"You're second, you know?" A playful voice once again whispered in his ear, too close, almost warm against his ear. "Always have been. Always will be~" He shivered in disgust.
"NO! Don't make me choose! Please!" The mesmer cried out, panicked blue orbs meeting the Commander's gold. The tears, pushed forward by terror and the biting smog, now ran freely down the fair skin of her cheeks. "I'm sorry." She hiccupped again. "I'm so, so sorry. I have to - I have to save her..."
"Kas! Snap out of it!" The Commander seized her by the shoulders, shaking vigorously. But still the mesmer cried and reached out towards Marjory, who was all but locked in a killing frenzy. He cussed and reached for his belt, finding the last vial of the antidote.
He opened it and pushed it in Kasmeer's direction, the blue mist within quickly absorbed in her hurried breaths. The necromancer held her tightly with one arm, the other opening a small rift through which to summon a makeshift wall of bones to stem the tide of the Risen.
"Can't tell what's real or not... it's just a simple game of find the difference..."
He instinctively reached for his belt. It was empty. For a moment, he pondered asking Kas for one of hers once she came around, but he was clearly still lucid, no…?
It took the mesmer a few seconds before she fully returned to reality. "Boss?" She blinked. "Are you...? Is Jory...?"
"Calm her down and get her another dose, quickly!" He ordered, and the former noble nodded, appearing in a rosy portal next to her companion. Several krait emerged into the chamber and attacked, but she repelled them swiftly.
Relieved, he focused his attention back on the Risen. He still did not understand why Scarlet suddenly made her nightmare minions bear the likeness of Zhaitan's horde, but the ringing cacophony of sounds and woeful array of smells competed with sane thought. Cleaving another foe, he thought back to Scarlet's - it was her, right...? - words, but he was unable to summon them to the forefront of his mind. Something about... differences...?
"Riannoc and you! Only one was real among the two!"
What the?
"What does he have to do with this?" He growled.
Why did she bring up Riannoc...? This was all real, right...? Jory saw them too. Called them corrupted monsters. Kas was fighting them, protecting Jory as she recovered her senses.
It's real. It's all as real as the long days and nights you fought them. As real as the foul stench of Orr infused into your flesh. You will never feel clean again. Never free of all this death.
The fighting... it all dragged on so much. He wasn't sure how much more he could take. Doubt continued to spread root in his mind. Maybe he should call Kas and Jory for the antidote...?
"You should thank him, really. He taught you the most valuable lesson of all. Fear."
He shivered. Thoughts running back, as though attempting to unearth some hidden anxiety he wasn't aware he harbored. What was she even on about...?
"And you killed his best friend. All over a pitiful sword. Like it could ever save you."
Maelmordha shook his head. Focus, he willed. The greatsword rose again, a guillotine against the dead.
"All because you think you're such a walking beacon of justice."
The golden patterns on his blade ignited, shining brighter just like the time in Orr. What was justice, if not deliverance from evil? From corruption?
"Who lets you judge what's evil and what's not?" The voice felt different, somehow. Too targeted, but he couldn't quite tell. He swung again, cast another spell. Gold eyes reflected necrotic power, green flame rising like the dread deep within his stomach. Sword against armor, ringing like the alarm bells in his mind.
"Momma wanted a knight, didn't she? A good little weapon. Someone who doesn't ask questions. Someone who can fill the hole he left in her heart."
He blinked. The constricting landscape of toxic plant took on a different shape. The ground was slick with mud, and insects darted around. The only life yet remaining in the area, primitively attempting to feed on the bodies that floated in the mire. Bodies that rose, innumerable, sunken soldiers unable to find rest from the long war that puppeteered their withered strings. And he felt sick. For the first time since Orr, he felt so deeply sick to his core he felt like he might faint. Every trained façade, every bit of tolerance built up over the years crumbling like a castle built of sand. Washed away by the Orrian tide, the impossible spectacle of it all unfolding before his eyes. An army this significant may well march on the Grove, and there was nothing in the Realm of Torment itself he could do to stop it. Alone. All alone. Left to die. He didn't want to die.
"Do you understand now, what fear is?"
He recognized this voice. And it was not Scarlet.
A wheezy, guttural rasp snaking past lipless bone. Half the speech of a man, and half the spectral hum of a ghost. The thing in front of him should not speak, airways decayed and bygone lungs but hollow space in the abyssal chasm of his ribcage.
He didn't know what it said about him that he could somewhat read Mazdak's emotion even with the lich notably lacking skin to form an expression, but he could tell the dragon Champion would have been smiling. Tasting his terror without a tongue, a sort of unfathomable and utterly monstrous enjoyment of suffering only ever seen in ones as vile as him. A being who only existed to feed Death, with any other notion as irrelevant to him as snow to Caledon. There was not a shred of conscience behind the green embers that dwelled in hollowed sockets, and for a moment he wondered just how a man once living could ever be reduced to such a state.
It was worse than the Risen. Mazdak was no shambling corpse, devoid of thought and soul, but a hero from an age long gone. Someone who used to love, to care - about his people, about the world he lived in. But now? Under Zhaitan? The person he had been was reduced to sprawling rot, an entity so drunken on destruction that any semblances of his humanity were likewise shorn from his being.
Despite the fear that threatened to paralyze his senses, Maelmordha's mind refused to buckle and instead clung to one unexpected, yet burning question: Did he agree to this?
Was the lich a willing servant, or yet another victim?
And if it was the latter - then how could Tyria itself allow for a force to exist that was so wicked, it could warp a soul once noble to a horror beyond words?
It took every bit of his strength to stand fast, and tighten the grip on his blade. Even when his eyes were filled with his predecessor's vision, and he fought bitterly to dismiss the haunting image of his own demise - staring from the treeline like a hawk.
Mazdak took a look at the weapon in his hands, golden etchings running down the length of slender steel. The death-fire in his sockets seemed to sizzle with disappointment.
"I killed you once." The Valiant growled, adjusting his grip. Solstice's handle was cold against his palms. "I will do it again."
"You? Unworthy even to bear the sword you were born to retrieve?" The lich mocked, and his words felt like ice entering his veins.
Mazdak was right. Caladbolg was not here to help him. The only blade never forged, capable of ending the undying monstrosity once again standing before him. And yet...? If the lich was truly still alive, then even the Mother's Thorn had failed. Hadn't it?
"You don't have the sword. His legacy was all you were. And you weren't even worthy to continue it." A disembodied feminine voice continued, and he instinctively swung behind himself. "Ooh, that must sting."
"Scarlet!" He screamed in anger, glow flashing brighter like indignant fire.
Not only did he have to deal with Mazdak, Scarlet was still here and her fucking Tower was still up and thriving -
"Little sapling scared of the lich. With how you're running around like a headless chicken to find me, it's blind luck you managed to get him, really. Have you ever wondered why you weren't chosen as the Knight of Thorn? Ha! The necromancer scared of death. Don't make me laugh, sprout."
He swore he would find her and make her choke on her words. He would take each vicious insult and shove it down her throat in cold steel. He wasn't unworthy. The sword was meant for Trahearne, to help him fulfil his Wyld Hunt. The Commander grit his teeth, fighting back the rage that stripped of reason. No. She wants you to lose your composure. Exertion only makes the poison course faster.
This anger, it felt... it wasn't him. He swallowed, feeling his heart pounding in his ears. Did she...? Did she want to make him jealous...?
To make him envious of Trahearne. The idea of envy never occurred to him. He never questioned the Mother's decision. Cadeyrn felt envy and it sent him down the path of Nightmare. Such a feeling must not be allowed to ripen into evil. And yet, despite everything in his mind vehemently denying the very notion of it... maybe it was true. Maybe the Mother simply loved the Firstborn better. He didn't even know what hurt more. The idea he was naught but a replacement for Riannoc, or the idea he wasn't even deemed worthy to walk in his shoes.
After all, he was Thirdborn. Supposedly. They even discontinued his generation's very name. If you have twelve children, and then you have a thousand, can you ever love the thousand as you did those first twelve? No, of course not. And you can't be blamed for it, either. After all, you wouldn't even be able to keep track of their names.
Yes, he was scared of death. He was so very scared he would die alone with no one to hold him. With no one to hear him. No one to care. Utter silence. He wasn't Riannoc. He wasn't the brightest sun in the Dream. He was but one of thousands in Her eye - his light would go out with a whimper.
He recoiled at his thoughts. No. Don't let her mess with your mind. She doesn't know anything of the Mother's love. She's a madwoman. A madwoman who bombed an evac site. All those citizens...
The Commander let out a hitched breath. Yes, Maelmordha. Think of the real reason you're doing this. Of every person you need to avenge. Of the slaughter you have to prevent.
Find... the way forward. And up.
Risen blocked his path. He swung, parting waterlogged flesh. On the other side, the lich quirked his head in faux curiosity. Like a cat, toying with his prey.
But he knew it, so deep down. Yes, it terrified him, but the light yet shone within the darkness. This wasn't real. None of it was. It couldn't be.
...Right...?
"You know you're just a replacement, right?" The whisper felt alive, like worms eating him from within. "Human mothers do that thing sometimes... when a child dies, they get a little doll to cope. Tricks the mind real good."
No. Don't you dare.
"I don't care what you think of me. So what if I am unworthy?" He challenged, breaking into a sprint. Each heavy step harder than the last, bogged down by mud and gore. With righteous fire in his heart, the Valiant sneered. "So what, I say?!"
Scarlet clicked her tongue. "Struck a nerve, doll boy?"
Who cared if he was just a flawed replica? Who cared if he was scared? He had done it scared. And he would do it again.
He'd never run.
Not even when the lich stepped forward and opened his arms in plain mockery, inviting the steel which faltered against immortal flesh. Not even when he anticipated the touch of bony fingers wrapping around his neck, drowning him under the mud, horde of rotting fingers ripping at his flesh. No. He charged, putting his strength in the only thing a mere mortal could do. Bring the blade down, and cut.
Mazdak's body merely dispersed in black smoke, a dark chuckle echoing far into the distance. The tip of Solstice caught on something below the swamp water. Maelmordha cursed under his breath, and tugged hard. Much to his surprise, something tugged back - and the voices weren't done with him.
"Your Marshal doesn't love you, Little Lionheart. I think he should learn to let go."
He did his best to ignore it. But it was getting hard when half his thoughts suddenly didn't feel his anymore. A passing glimpse of madness, pulsating at the rim of his vision - before receding. Like the bile that inched its way up his throat.
"You're just a ghost of his late dear. Soon, you'll be a ghost proper. And then I'll get my hands on him, and pick him apart."
"You won't touch him." He stated with absolute conviction. Like thorns he'd allow her to hurt his Starlight. A mixture of rage and pain bubbled in his entrails, every bit of focus spent on keeping his mind on track. If he were only to let his thoughts slip - the bog would consume him. Swallow him whole like a snake.
Don't you dare insult Trahearne. He of all people understood death was final. He would never do this to him. He would never love him for who he wasn't.
Riannoc was dead. He was alive. Alive, dammit!
"For how long? All things die. Some learn to see the bigger picture. A world beyond the fear of impermanence. Your Mother could never see that."
"Don't speak to me." He hissed at the skeletal sorcerer, pure anger and venom dripping from his words. "Killing and corrupting, it's all you ever did! Don't act like it had a meaning!"
The presence below the water continued to pull, threatening to overpower the Valiant and drag him under. He couldn't let go of his sword - his only lifeline, yanked to and fro in a deadly game of tug-of-war. A bead of sweat formed at his temple, muscles of tightly wound vine flexing with all their might before the underwater grip relented, and the greatsword was finally dislodged from the hold of bony claws that rose from the murk.
More and more undead rose from the bog, and he looked around frantically for Mazdak. Another phantom laugh captured his attention, and he whipped around to find none other than Trahearne - the image of Trahearne - locked in a cage of razor scrap metal. Surrounded by laughing, rotted krait, the man's violet glow dim and gaze struggled to so much as rise to meet his own, and with a sinking feeling of horror he realized the Firstborn's legs were crushed in multiple places, snared in heavy chain.
But most hauntingly of all - his eyes were no longer the sunrise gold that matched his own, but a gaunt white alight with necrotic fire. Skin rapidly rotting away and leaves withered and crisp like autumnal shed, the Marshal extended a hand that seemed so brittle it could splinter and crack away from his wasted body. Even when his eyes seemed so void of understanding, the Marshal's parched mouth moved. And he begged. For the only cure he could still be given.
The Commander recoiled in horror, feeling a tear slip past his guard and chart a path down his cheek. No. Stop. Sylvari could not be corrupted. Sylvari could not become undead. It was impossible.
But, just if... could the Dream feel this? Silence would be more merciful.
"Stop. Just stop doing this." He pleaded, knowing the words would fall on deaf ears. And yet, through it all, he was half pleading with his own mind, to just stop - end the wicked gauntlet of tricks it was so viciously set on playing. How much longer?
How much longer before he was stuck in this nightmare without return, and it became his only reality?
Oh, he knew. He knew that the moment he took his love's hand would mark the moment he became trapped in this delirium forever, but still his heart broke. Still he yearned to hold it, even if doing so would not ease that kind of pain. Only one thing could.
And yet, Trahearne was not the one who needed him now. It was his allies - the Priory, the Vigil and the Seraph, Kas, Jory, Rox and Braham all fighting in the Tower. He retracted his fingers, watching the apparition dissolve into dust as the scrap metal that made up its twisted cage disappeared without a trace.
"Forget the sunrise, Dawn child." The black smoke reformed, and the hooded lich stepped forth once more, staff in skeletal hand. "Only in the night... do you find out who you really are."
"Enough!" Maelmordha could feel the teardrop break off from the very bottom of his thorns. What else could he do but deny this madness with every last bit of sanity he had left?
"I may not have Caladbolg..." Though he had tried so hard to be brave, his voice did break. And yet, his blade could never.
So what if the lich could only be slain by the Thorn? So what if he was unworthy to wield it? No matter the mockery and torment the Tower inflicted upon him, he held onto one truth like a drowning man. One true absolute in the shifting hellscape of nightmares, a glimmering strand of hope alight in the darkness choking the very life from his lungs. Even if he himself was but a phantom, a stray speck of color splashed upon the canvas the Mother had so meticulously prepared - even if, despite his victories, his heart would never be pure enough for the Thorn, and never his own enough to be loved for who he was - one thing was certain.
"...But you're not real. So, I don't think I'll need it!"
As if on cue, bony hands rose from the murk to grab him, a last-ditch effort to slow him down and drag him below the mud. But he pressed onward, jaws clenched tightly, grip on his blade tighter yet til the sap drained from his digits.
...This fucking Tower was about to lose its head, Mother be his witness.
Even as Solstice swung in a vicious arc, again did the undead Champion spread his arms wide, an action somehow both benign and infinitely terrifying in ways the Valiant could not articulate. And yet, it was not really an act of ridicule - merely a neutral acknowledgement of fate.
And so, the lich's skull was cleaved clean off his shoulders. It sailed through the air, still laughing.
No holy flame enveloped the body, no ashes left in the wake of the Commander's strike. It did not burn as it did bathed in Caladbolg's ire. Instead, once more did black smoke erupt where the monster had stood, sending away the grim memory. Returning it to where it belonged - branded into his mind, buried in his nightmares forever. The final tomb for the wretched devil, sealed as it should be.
He had once learned Deldrimor alysidomancy, believing it to be enough to hide away the horrors of this world. Instead, he would commit them to memory, where they would remain - and hurt not one more soul.
"In the end, you did fail to kill me." Mazdak's tone was almost... gentle. Like a parent patiently explaining a fundamental truth to a petulant child. "No matter what you believe. What legends and heroes help you find rest at night. So long as fear and war rule this world. The darkness never dies. It only moves on to a new vessel. Remember this, sapling. We have long roots. And they run deeper than that puny thorn can ever cut."
"Maybe." Maelmordha replied dryly. "But you have no more power. You're just a memory. You and Riannoc alike. And for that much, if I must, I will be a vessel."
In the end, the lich was correct. His visage would live on in his nightmares.
A final laugh acknowledged his words. The dark one's voice echoed with a singular promise, and fell silent at last. He felt the doors of his mind close.
"...Well, sapling. Either way, we'll see each other again. Let this be a truth you take to the grave... and beyond."
Something burned his nostrils. Past all the gore and rotting meat, the crisp herbal scent almost felt like a shot of vodka up his sinuses.
"....Boss!"
His eyes shot open.
Kasmeer and Marjory were standing next to him, weapons bloodied and worried looks plastered all over their faces. The sylvari blinked a few times, feeling a residual dampness upon one cheek. A gloved hand rose instinctively to wipe it, but his mind came up blank.
"Kas... Jory?" His speech was slightly slurred. "What happened?"
"You were fighting the Toxic bastards, but then you got your sword lodged in a vine and stopped moving. You looked extremely confused and started talking to yourself." The other necromancer explained calmly, dark eyes carefully scrutinizing his own before she took out some kind of device to blast light right into them.
"Jor - what the!" The Commander yelped, but she shushed him and quite decisively secured his lower jaw. Were he not still recovering from whatever went down in his mind, he might have felt just a little bit heated downstairs at the sudden dose of manhandling. Hey, now. He couldn't control all his thoughts all the time, right?
Something proved quite harshly by Scarlet's hallucinogen, the Valiant realized bitterly.
The Delaqua discarded the empty vial. "Last one, hon. Honestly, I'm quite surprised any of us are still moving. We've each taken at least a horse's dose of the stuff."
"A what dose?" Maelmordha was both mortified and frankly not fully aware what kind of measuring unit the detective was talking about. Maybe it was best he didn't know. "What did you put in the - you know, nevermind. Thank you. You saved me."
"Don't mention it." She returned a cheeky smirk. Guess they were all still a little high over having survived such odds. "Or, at least, do so later - we'll settle the score over at the Dead End."
The area around them was littered with corpses. Positively a small army had been butchered here - and the three of them, caked in blood and gore - stood panting in the midst of it. The path forward lay open, eerily quiet, as though the worst was yet to come. But for now, the physical threat had abated. The same, however, could not quite be said about the toxin in the air.
A thought suddenly occurred to the Pact Commander, and he whipped around to inspect the way they came through.
"Your seal gave when you started going loopy." Marjory explained. "But Kas did a fine job covering our rear. Thanks for having her back, before." She cast the mesmer a fond look. The former noble met her gaze and blushed lightly.
"We saved each other by the skin of our teeth." The mesmer breathed out a heavy sigh. "The second I saw it falling, I fixed up an illusion to redirect the pursuers the way they came."
There was a distant noise down the hallway, but it was not the furious yelling and hissing of the Toxic Alliance. He could hear Seraph shouting orders, and the occasional scream as an enemy straggler was swiftly finished off. The top floor should be firmly under their control, now - the antitoxin injector should be able to be safely brought to their position, and, with it, additional supplies for the way forward. All that remained was conquering the heart chamber and whatever lay there. He wondered how Rox and Braham were doing.
"Great job, Kasmeer." The Commander praised, very much grateful not to have taken a Toxic dagger to the back.
The mesmer nodded. "I guess we showed it, huh? So, now what?"
"Now we cut out the heart of this plant and watch it die." The detective replied with conviction. There was almost a tinge of excitement in her voice - eager to see the wretched Tower fall after the horrors it had wrought. "But the enemy knows we're here. They're probably barricading up there as we speak."
That much was true. If they wanted to ensure a swift victory, pushing onward immediately was probably their best bet. Maelmordha had seen enough, however - enough of the hallucinations and side effects of the antitoxin itself to know rest was paramount.
"We're in no shape to assault the heart right now. Let's swap out with Braham and Rox, let them secure the perimeter, and get a breath of fresh air first." After a moment of thought, the Commander had made his decision. Kas and Jory mulled it over for a while before agreeing.
"Definitely need everything to clear from my system." The mesmer complained. "I think I'm going to be sick."
"The Priory will be set up here with air purifiers soon." The darkly clad woman mused.
"And the enemy has no supply lines nor ways to deliver reinforcements." Maelmordha added. It was a checkmate, all things considered.
The only way they could somehow lose was if whatever the Alliance was doing in the heart of the Tower was already nearing completion. Considering the thing had been growing for months, a few hours likely wouldn't make any difference. He was more than willing to take that gamble for the sake of his allies.
Strangely enough, the voices of their companions which had been steadily drawing nearer have once again begun to grow quiet.
"Hey, Kas?" The Valiant chatted. "Your illusion?"
"Oh! Right!"
The night air was crisp, carrying a subtle coldness typical of the onset of Scion. Here and there, torches illuminated the darkness, moving in orderly patterns as the Seraph patrol ensured the campsite's safety. The lake was black and still, fouled by venom and the blood of many slain krait. Its water was almost too dull to reflect the moon gazing from above. Its face was so starkly white against the deep night - as though it were a blind eye, oblivious to the bloodshed happening below. Several members of the Priory were still up and about, taking as much time as possible to document the events and study samples from the very innards of the Tower. Meanwhile, the Vigil accompanied the Seraph during night watch, taking alternating shifts to ensure maximum battle readiness.
Kasmeer, Marjory and Maelmordha - as well as Braham and Rox - were making sure to rest plenty. With bodies on the cusp of being overwhelmed by poison and medication alike, a good night's sleep was crucial. With how petite she was, Kasmeer was finding the fatigue even worse - keeping supper down proved, in itself, quite a challenge. Thankfully, according to the Delaqua detective's research, all adverse effects were bound to clear come morning. And so, the duo were now asleep in their tent, with Marjory having spent the evening gently doting on her favourite mesmer.
Uncharacteristically, Braham was out for the count the moment he laid down to rest. Past all his bravado, the norn was extremely tired and closed off the day without his usual excited banter. Recounting legendary feats had to wait this time, especially when one's eyes threatened to close while still standing. Likewise, Rox gladly took the opportunity to sleep without interruption. After the five of them had taken the brunt of what the Tower of Nightmares could throw, their allies were making sure they received quality time to rest without being plagued by unnecessary worries. The night was uneventful. No enemy soldiers attacked under the cover of darkness, and the hills themselves were quiet as well. Not a beast reared its head, nor a traveling herd of centaur felt brave enough to assault the gathered forces.
The only sound was the metallic footsteps of patrolling soldiers and the occasional bout of snoring from Braham. The only sight, the steadily moving fires and the distant glow of the thistle-head of the Tower, not yet destroyed, but mostly conquered. Though the smell was unpleasant, no poison menaced the camp - especially with the Priory's air purifiers acting as additional insurance.
At the first light of dawn, the time would come to put an end to the noxious plant and what remained of its wretched guard.
But to some, dawn was still quite far away.
Gold eyes opened in thick darkness. The Commander blinked slowly, casting a glance past the entrance of his tent - as if checking up on the patrolling Seraph and Vigil to ease his mind. The sylvari rolled over on his opposite side, attempting to force his eyes shut. But the pitch black behind his lids offered no dreams, nor any relief - it was as though his mind was wide awake, even when his tired body oh so desperately wished to sleep.
He couldn't say this hadn't happened before. He was not sure if it qualified for insomnia, but he had wasted many a night with thoughts running wild. Now and then, a nightmare pried him from his bed, a scream lodged in his throat before anyone could hear. Visions of Orr replaying in a weary mind, or simply unnamed anxieties he could not soothe. Like electricity jostling his nerves, simultaneously restless and patient, tension building as if he were a coiled spring, ready to leap at the slightest danger. Explaining to himself there was no such danger was pointless. A calm mind trapped in a body convinced it was a mere prey animal.
...Well, first of all, he was a plant. So, checkmate there. He sighed.
Maelmordha let his upper half rise slowly, bringing both hands to weary eyes and rubbing them softly. Idly, his thoughts wandered; What was it this time? A night terror he could not remember? Lingering illness, maybe? No, he felt physically fine. All the symptoms from Scarlet's poison were gone without a trace, all thanks to Jory's work. A job well done, indeed.
Nonetheless, there was something that gnawed at him. Perhaps the worst kind of fear was one he could not pinpoint - like a dire premonition or the feeling one might get, wondering whether they had left the stove on at home. The Valiant's features contorted bitterly. At times, he simply experienced that feeling. Something insidious, without logic nor reason to its name - and yet, still it continued to grow, feeding on his doubt. Like roots spread too far and wide beneath his surface, far too deep to remove without hurting some fundamental part of his being.
"Don't hate your mind. It's trying to protect you in its own way." His Luminary would sometimes say when the anticipation of his Wyld Hunt weighed too heavily on the little sapling's shoulders. He had not spoken to Aife in quite some time, and, frankly, he'd be rather surprised if she still viewed him as someone prone to suffering from anxiety.
After all, he was the famed Commander. Second of the Pact, slayer of Zhaitan. Playing the fearless card was second nature, but a person wasn't ever but a deck of cards, were they?
You could only make so many moves before the game ended.
Would that time come, he wondered - where he slipped up, and the Pact saw he wasn't as infallible as he posed as? There was a thin line between bravery and arrogance, and where he only tried to keep morale high, some may eventually see him as a fool. He was a realist at heart and an optimist outwardly. Perhaps the best combination for a leader to be, but would he have any water left if he always kept pouring it to the rim for others?
He massaged the bridge of his nose, resigned to losing sleep. The events of the day were slowly coming back, including the voices. Ah, right. He had hallucinated some nasty things. Were they the real reason he couldn't quite get some rest?
He supposed a walk to clear his mind wouldn't hurt.
The Commander got up, threw on his overclothes and picked up Solstice, just in case. The presence of the sword was a comfortable weight upon his back. He gave a sleepy greeting to the patrolling Seraph, earning some glances from the night owl Priory scholars. A slight smile crossed his features; They looked just like novices cramming before a big exam.
He circled around the camp slowly, making sure not to leave the range of the patrols. The grass felt crunchy under his boots, dried and dying from the poison running through the land. Soon, he thought, as if offering a mute apology.
The Tower had already taken and ruined so many lives. He supposed it was naive to think that all would be well after Zhaitan had fallen - what with the other dragons out and about - but a sylvari terrorist run amok was not on his list of potential worries until after the whole fiasco had already started. How could a non-Nightmare stray from the Tablet's teachings so badly? No, not just the Tablet - Ventari's teachings were only their fertile soil, not the entirety of who they were - how could Scarlet become so utterly void of compassion, so horribly sick as to create the horrors she had? And yet, her madness felt different, somehow. Different from Nightmare, anyway.
He almost wantes to say deeper. Like there was something so dark and wicked underneath it all that the Court itself would tremble. It was not cruelty for cruelty's sake. Scarlet did not care about the Pale Tree. Nor about any sylvari, it seemed. This was bigger than corrupting the Mother.
The visions returned to him. One by one, he mulled them over in his head. Though fragmented and dim, they offered some insight into what had troubled him. Things he had never considered - or, at least, not consciously. Scarlet and... Mazdak. Neither voice was real. Neither had any right to know. And yet, somehow, his mind had selected them as vessels for its own, dark thoughts.
So, in a way... maybe, all things considered, it was a good thing?
He never truly understood why Mazdak terrified him more than Zhaitan itself. After all, he was but a servant of the dragon, a much greater evil. Zhaitan's reach was unparalleled, quite literally like an all-consuming tide. The power that raised up a whole continent - a wave that leveled Lion's Arch. What could even compare to the destructive might of a dragon? An entity so ancient and alien. Zhaitan could not be reasoned with. Zhaitan did not care. Or, at the very least, it did not see them the way they saw themselves. To Zhaitan, the only goal was to rid the world of life entirely. Suspend them all in hellish undeath.
So why did he find himself not fearing fear itself? Why did he still dream of the hollow skull with necrotic fire burning in its sockets..?
Was it because Mazdak killed Riannoc? The man whose Hunt he was supposed to succeed. He still recalled the long nights spent wondering whether he'd simply end up the same way. Waking up horrified, so staunchly convinced his fate was predetermined. After all, how could a mere sapling do better than a Firstborn?
Ah. Alas, he was forgetting Riannoc had been a sapling, too.
He let out a sigh. Hand once again rubbing mechanically at the bridge of his nose.
Mother... she bore him so full of death. And yet, for so long, he ended up living in terror of it. How can a necromancer of this much power be scared of death? A question that would follow him for as long as he lived, he was certain. It was hard to expunge such a primal fear. However, in the end, that only meant he valued the time he had, and made sure to protect the ones he loved.
Wasn't Mazdak a hero, once...? What spurred him to join Zhaitan? Did he even have a choice?
Perhaps it was the prospect of being given the choice and still taking the offer that terrified him the most.
He looked at the ominous shape of the Tower looming in the distance. Its thistle-like crown pulsed faintly with blue light. Inside, it harbored crazed fanatics. Was it the same with those who worshipped Zhaitan, perhaps? People could be persuaded to bow to strange and horrific gods if they were only convinced they would be granted deliverance. How many saw undeath as absolution from the finality of their end? How many grovelled at the beast's claws for life eternal? Even in such a state. He scowled.
Even if the whole world was to rot, so long as they got theirs. He stared at the parched ground. Hm. Guess there was a pattern.
Well, there was no point dwelling on the minds of madmen. And yet, with how close he himself felt to the edge - back in the Tower - it chilled him to the bone.
He returned to his tent quietly, pulling the covers up and hugging himself tightly. This, too, would pass. All these doubts and insecurities. Everyone was cursed to live with theirs, with no way out in sight. The only trick was to hide it well. There was nothing else.
Golden eyes slowly fell closed, but before the world could tumble away into a night devoid of dreams - a robed figure stood at the very edge of where torchlight could reach, its head missing. And still, somehow, the shadow spoke.
"You cannot hide your shame from them forever."
Oh, yes. Forever was far too long a time for a mortal.














