#hate endings

[robyn-runestone]

And with that, my hate ending tier list is complete! I’m finally free!!!

[dekuspacesleuth]

I'm sad my dash isn't exploding with melancholy homestucks right now. Need to up my follow game. Dash has stagnated.

[doctor-devon12-blog]

I still can't sleep because of how perfect last night was

[angelleticiawang]

Last time / la última vez

今天收信看看ESN的活動 發現這些訊息上都寫著「最後一次」

一晃眼 已來到十二月 學校課程即將結束 聖誕假期即將到來

這幾個月來 我去了哪些地方 我的收獲有什麼 我有沒有好好珍惜在這裡的日子

也許不久後的將來 我就會想： i should have done this, done that 還是要告訴自己 在這個當下 我所做的每一件事情 都是我現在這個moment覺得最重要的 希望我不要忘記 也希望未來不要對現在的自己太苛責

時間 總是悄悄的流逝 不給人留任何情面 等有一天驀然回首 才發現 原來我已經走了這麼遠

[poeticallyinklined]

It's a warm afternoon and the sun is taking too long to set. My body feels numb from the long days I've faced and every love bug seems to want to accompany me as I wait. I start to walk away and finally the sun starts to set which leaves me with this empty feeling. I think about family & friends that have left me, relationships that I wish would've lasted, and dreams that seem hard to reach. When my days end everything tears me to pieces and no one notices it because I know how to disguise it with a smile; endings are slowly taking a toll on me and everything ends like the sun and it honestly breaks my heart. -WJB3, Never Been Fond of Endings

[peakey23]

Endings

So I've realised I hate the endings of things.

I don't even mean big things necessarily, although they are included, they can be tiny things. For example, I love reading books but nearly always hate the endings simply because I always want more, I want to know what happens next. A book can have an epilogue and I'll still want to know what happens after that or more about what happened.

Then there's slightly bigger endings, like when I stopped going to my dance group. I stopped but I avoided it being an ending as best I could by saying I would go back and visit, which I did do, so I avoided the 'ending' feeling.

However, some endings you can't avoid, I'm off to uni soon, which means its pretty much the end of one section of my life, from now on I'm pretty much completely independent, it is also the end of college, and sort of the end of the current group of friends, as we will drift and even though some will stay in touch it won't be the same. These endings I can't avoid, so I just try not to think about them, news flash, this doesn't really work. Instead you keep kidding yourself that things won't change but when they do you realise that by not accepting the end and saying goodbye you miss it even more, and you don't have the chance to do that ending again.

I'm not really sure what the point of this was but I realised this and started a post and just rambled...pretty much what I normally do, but ironically this final little paragraph is a ramble about not really being sure where its headed as a way to avoid a proper ending. So yeah... done now

[misunderstood-misanthropy]

Misanthropy.

So, I find myself running from people again.

Walking downtown, as I am used to since high school, the simple existence of people around me is unspeakably annoying. It never happened like that.

Contact hurts, even with the ones I love. It’s for the sake of my friends that I am getting out of their lives. I hate endings - it’s been a long time since I finished a book I liked, I can’t stand last pages - so there will be no goodbye. One day, there was me. The next one, there wasn’t anymore. As simple as a cloud vanishing with the wind, I am giving up existence in their sky.

There is, tough, one person I owe goodbye to. He won’t even notice that I’m gone, until the day he comes looking for me, and there’s no me to find. So, I’ll talk to him some day. I’ll apologise for being such a depressed unlovable piece of shit. I’ll tell him I appreciate his love a lot, but I can’t love him back, as I can’t love anyone. I’ll tell him to move on. I’ll say that maybe one day I’ll come back, when I’m whole again, and we can be friends. I’ll hope he understands. Probably crying, I’ll walk away.

Alone, I’ll pick up a pencil and a notebook, and maybe a cup of hot coffee. I will write away my pain, my loneliness, my selfishness, and they will slowly go away. Then, I’ll write a way out from the big puzzle that my life has become. That’s how things have always worked in my silly little life.

[theprodigy-oftherepublic]

so I started to read champion last night and

by the page 11 i was already crying

I don't know how I'll make it. I really want to read this book bUT I DON'T WANT TO END THE TRILOGY