Well, being just 20 days away from the end of 2025, I've decided that it was time to write a new entry here. I've been inactive because I'm kind of fixated on the idea of using one single platform to upload stuff to the marvelous data cloud that is the Internet, so I've been bouncing between Bluesky and Tumblr.
I love the potential Bluesky has. But, I find there's much less activity than here. I've been kind of hoping that I would only use Bluesky at the end, but it gets lonely when there is so little interaction and an absence of communities I feel being part of. In that aspect, Tumblr takes the lead.
And the reason(s) behind not knowing where to stay for the long run?
1. Leaving the door open for the possibility of Bluesky becoming THE social media platform, so eventually my friends move over there.
2. Supporting this rather small social media (at least compared to the rest) because actually owning your data is the craziest and coolest thing. And even though Meta can buy them as well in the future, it doesn't seem to be going in that direction at the moment, and because you own your data... welp. You can move somewhere else not leaving anything behind.
3. Chained to the previous point, staying away from fucking Meta altogether. Some might probably remember that I wrote a rant on Instagram a while back. Remember the good old original Instagram? where everything seemed simple, there were no Ads, the feed was chronological so you knew exactly where you left on your last scroll, and the social media thing was a little bit less...social? You know, where only real people were there (mostly) and your followers (and following) counts were comprised only by friends and dear ones? Not to mention that the data was not being constantly scraped by a big corporation to train their own fucking AI models?
Yes, there are plenty of other cons. And yes, I'm aware that it might sound too picky, even utopical in these times wanting the "real" social media back. But, I miss it. And I've been craving that for a long while. When Bluesky appeared in my The Pragmatic Engineer subscription, I first saw the cutest logo (a blue butterfly) and then the term "open social". That caught my eye right away. And I've been obsessed ever since I understood how it works.
But yeah, I don't wish to stay much longer on this point. What I mean is, I hate Meta and I wish people stopped using it. And even when there is rage and discontent and some people leave for good, it is still very prevalent. Everybody seems to be still there. There are new posts everyday.
As I see it, Instagram stopped being meant for people and its only purpose now is to serve to companies and little shops (artists have to basically live and breathe inside that application in order for their content to be seen).
Anyway, yeah. Even though Tumblr is still my tribe I was kind of hoping on moving away. I'm not entirely sure why though, so I can't explain it. And posting here today means that I will stay here. For a little longer at least.
Okay, enough ranting. Where have I been? I haven't posted about it because I know very few people read these things and to be honest, I've been processing stuff. For starters I left Uni around mid year. I had a conversation with my best friend where it hit me that I wasn't even sure why was I studying what I was studying. I mean, I already work of that. I am, technically, a Software Engineer. Even when I don't have the degree that proves it.
And what did I do after stopping attending to classes?
I read The Artist's Way. I played the piano. I painted little things. I bought myself a Cricut and started doing little side projects. I browsed more on Pinterest. I taught myself to crochet and completed two projects. I read more books. I played Animal Crossing and got K.K to show up on my island. I played Minecraft with friends on our own server. I took care of my health and exercised a bit more consistently (more than ever in my life, tbh).
And you know what? plenty of the stress I had, disappeared. I am still a bit stressed and anxious, and I had two episodes of what I think were panic attacks, for the first time in my life. Probably because of all the stress I had accumulated over the years and being under the uncertainty of not chasing a degree for the moment. But I feel a little more at ease.
I know that I want to study something, but I don't know what. And I won't beat myself up anymore about it, I will just live my life, in the best possible way I can, and be very aware of my instincts and interests. See if, at some point, I want to dive deeper in them.
All these doubts and feelings pushed me away from my parents and friends for some time. I still see them, but, when I'm overwhelmed by life and thoughts I tend to stay very quiet, and even forget replying their messages. But I'm working on getting my life together, in baby steps.
