ordinary hysteria || miles + rosaline [flashback].
ATTN: @rosalinverville
LOCATION: st. peter’s cathedral, basement recreation room
DATE: november 22nd, 2001
Miles was sixteen years old, and fucking miserable.
Eleven months after his father passed and he’d already been handed through six foster homes — not out of misbehaviour so much as an unwillingness to care for such damaged goods, he’d already been assigned a lack of identity, a brief media freak show-slash-sob story. His face had been plastered on posters across the nation, “DO YOU KNOW THIS CHILD?”, begging for information on what they perceived as being his ‘real family’. No one did. Clearly, no one knew Miles, because if they did, they’d have realized that group therapy was the worst place they could possibly put him.
He was already fully unwilling to speak to a therapist in one-on-one sessions, there was no way he would talk about his trauma in a group of his peers, many of whom he knew through school — vaguely, distantly, and distastefully, but knew nevertheless. Still, at sixteen, he was unable to resist, had little freedom or power to dictate his own path, and found himself in an uncomfortable folding chair, picking away at the foam padding as he watched the circle of sullen teens, introductions heading towards him at a panic-inducing speed.
When the leader of the group therapy session motioned to him, he spoke, despite his obvious discomfort. “Miles. 16. My brother went missing, my dad offed himself, and my last foster parents found weed in my backpack. I don’t want to be here, but I gotta be.” He kicked at the floor, scuffing it slightly, and through his lashes, looked up at the faces of his peers. One girl caught his eye. She was staring. Miles didn’t know how to feel about it.
He gripped a coffee with shaking hands, sipping it slowly. Black, acidic and burnt, he wished it was decent coffee, but the familiarity was a comfort. Miles had folded some of the half-stale pastries offered into napkins and shoved them into his bag, not knowing if he’d be getting any kind of breakfast or lunch the next day, and was snacking on a handful of grapes, when his eyes landed on the girl who was looking at him.
Despite his own self-isolating nature, he couldn’t stifle the impulse to approach her, as what the hell her deal was — she seemed far too willing to be here to actually need to be in group therapy, and Miles didn’t like it. It was like she was flaunting her stability, or something. He could only half-remember her name (Rosa? Rosie?) from the introductions, and completely blanked on her soundbite sob story, but he had a gut feeling about her, one that was turning his stomach in a way he didn’t understand.
Stomping towards her in his heavy work boots, he darkened his scowl, and stared up at her. “You got a problem with me? I saw you staring, y’know. I’m not fuckin’... oblivious.”