i want hbo sam and dean to be some weird looking mfs like
- they’re both tall as all hell, but lanky. the combination of a lifetime of too much diner food and not enough actual nutrition sort of fucks with you. their strength is surprising because the muscle mass they do have is hidden under baggy ass clothing
- only buying baggy ass clothing after years of wearing johns old clothes and not getting used to clothes that actually fit
- dean with a crooked nose from being broken in so many fights and sam’s eyes getting bad from reading ancient books under passing streetlights that he has to wear reading glasses
- freckles and crooked teeth, skin littered in scars from random hunts and funny things like a burn from a rogue firework
- dean with several terrible, uneven stick-and-poke tattoos he gave himself on the road. some are sigils, or random symbols he made up, some are things like the day he killed his first vamp, his mom’s initials
- dean feeling awkward after hell, his body free from scars and the tattoos, with only the handprint seared into his arm to mark him
- dean telling cas about the first tattoos he gets back, starting with mary’s initials. cas asks him why he would do that to himself, to desecrate the divine vessel god gave him. when dean tells him it’s because his body may be made by god, but it doesn’t belong to him. deans body belongs to himself. that’s it. not to god or his parents or even castiel, who rebuilt him from atoms, just him.
- sam with nails bitten to the quick in anxiety, fucked up cuticles and constant dots of blood at the corner of his nails from insistent picking
- sams eyes goes black at random when he’s using his powers, usually when he’s doing telekinetic shit that uses more power than he’s used to
- injection scars on sams arm from when his tolerance became too high for coke to do anything for him
- tiny scars on dean’s face after purgatory where he’d nicked himself shaving.
- both of them having the grubbiest fucking nails you’ve ever seen when they were younger. from hunting, digging up graves, digging themselves out of their own graves when John forced them to practice, they’re broken and chipped and absolutely fucked. dean would paint his nails black to hide it, sam’s biting habit made sure his nails never were long enough to get exceptionally nasty
- cigarette burns on their arms from when john would get angry and drunk
- staggered walks, pained movements, worn-down bones and chronic pain that doesn’t make sense for two people their age.
- sam with brighter eyes, warm hazel with a golden tint...john doesn’t remember his eyes looking like that before mary died
- sam with a bunch of religious tattoos in an attempt to make his unclean body holy in any way he can. when he gets his first one it stings like a motherfucker, which they tell him is normal, but he’s 200 miles away from that tattoo shop by the time he realizes it’s not going to go away.
- terrible choppy hair cuts when they were kids. dean had steady hands when it came to everything else except this, and when sam gets to college he just starts growing it out. he has never paid for a haircut and wouldn’t even know what to ask for if he did, plus it’s the early 2000′s and shaggy hair is ‘in’
- they both have various ear piercings. as sam gets older in college, he takes some of them out, but always keeps the first ones in with silver studs. dean keeps all of his in.
- sam being entirely self conscious with his body, and taking a long time to even trust jess enough to see him, because he thinks he’s this evil, broken thing that doesn’t deserved to be loved. jess thought he was the most beautiful person she’d ever seen
- sam has her initials tattooed over his heart after she dies. it burns like his other ones do, and he likes to think that means something
- dean gets blackout drunk and gets an ass tattoo of a pentagram. no you cannot change my mind on this.
- the wounds they stitch up themselves always come out as wonky, raised scars, no matter how neat the stitches
- dean with a long scar across all the knuckles in his left hand from accidentally cutting himself with the knife he slept with under his pillow
- they both have weird ass hands from broken knuckles healing incorrectly, over and over again. they both think, to themselves and never out loud, that they look more like weapons, and less like people. they sometimes wonder if they are people, anymore. if they’d ever been.