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me struggling with adhd: hasn’t drank water or eaten anything all day
me: hmm why have I felt dizzy and exhausted all day? I wonder if it’s a chronic flare up?! Why’s the room spinning?! Why is everything so fuzzy!!
Little brother got upset about my make a wish and later told me my heart defect isn't that big of a deal
This is deformimisia.
I'm sorry...a heart deformity "isnt a big deal"? In what universe is that true?
sooo this week it's congenital heart defect(CHD) awareness week, coinciding with the holiday of hearts, valentines day! due to it being the most common birth defect worldwide, and still receiving such little representation, allow me to tell you some facts
heart defects are the most common birth defect, with 1 in 100-110 babies being born with them. this is as common as autism and red hair
there is a wide range of defects and combinations, with lots of variability even with people who have the same diagnosis
a quarter of babies will need heart surgery within their first year of life, i was one of those
in this day and age, 85-95% of us make it to adulthood, with the number dropping to 75% with critical defects
the most common heart defect is a VSD(ventricular septum defect) with is a hole in the middle wall of your heart
more critical defects are Transposition of the Great Arteries, Hypoplastic left/right heart syndrome, and cardiomyopathy in which the heart can't pump blood properly. this often requires a transplant
heart defects might structurally be fixed after surgery, but most patients will need more intervention throughout our lives due to valve problems, heart failure, and rhythm problems. i have had three surgeries, at infancy, 3, and 19
due to the nature of heart defects, we are often disabled without it being visible, and we are often not believed due to our younger age
things like drinking, drugs, taking medication, or going on vacation are not something we can just do, and oftentimes need to be approved by our cardiologist
the first ever heart surgeries were performed on children with heart defects in the 1960's; without us, modern heart surgery wouldn't exist
the rates for PTSD and mental health issues within CHD kids and adults is very understudied, but is estimated to be very high. i got my PTSD diagnosis last year at age 21
although these facts are overwhelmingly negative, it is important to understand that each of our experiences are unique and varied. a different life isn't a bad one, and even though we have our struggles and go through a lot, we find a way to thrive. in my opinion, CHD kids and adults are very strong people who are very good at finding the positives and to be grateful for the life that they have been given. our chances are better and better the more medicine grows, and we often have fulfulling lives.
you have met a person with a heart defect whether you knew it or not, and i hope that with this post you know a little more now! (and if you have the money, donating to a charity organisation focused on heart defects within your country/region is always a good idea) ❤️❤️❤️❤️
for more info
https://www.heart.org/en/health-topics/congenital-heart-defects/about-congenital-heart-defects/common-types-of-heart-defects
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Congenital_heart_defect
So, they doubled down and just undiagnosed me with a heart defect I've supposedly had for over ten years, spent ~$16,000 monitoring, and missed out on life opportunities for.
Children's Mercy Hospital gave me the diagnosis when I was a kid and I had repeated visits to monitor it because they told my family my aorta might aneurysm and I could die. I had a Mitral Valve Prolapse that was causing blood to backflow into my aortic chamber, and it would only get worse with time.
Each visit up until I turned 17 looked dire. My aorta was "stretched to the maximum safe diameter and high risk for emergency," and I needed to come back for another scan ASAP. Several times this happened.
When I turned 18 and aged out, I went to an adult hospital. The adult hospital had a look and went, "hey wait. This is minor. Possible heart defect?"
And at 22, at a new clinic, my scan came back clean. I mean 100% clean, no backflow, no prolapse, completely normal aortic size, no evidence there was ever a problem. I have a completely mundane heart.
So that leaves me wondering. How did Children's Mercy fuck up that badly? Did they lie to my parents? Because heart prolapses DO NOT HEAL. They are a permanent defect, and I know damn well that SEVERAL echocardiograms would've provided enough info to make a correct diagnosis.
So, either they fucked up ROYALLY, or I'm a goddamn miracle human.
Sketching and drawing was something i loved to do. I could focus so well, i used to dive deep into it. Now i'm getting PEM Crashes and worsening of symptoms from just doing a small little tiny bit. I can't focus my eyes and coordinate my hand. My battery runs completely low. I feel it draining me second by second. My doctors are right, i should not do commissions or projects. I thought i'd be back at it now. But seems like its not time (yet).
Part of a German brochure concerning medical care for adults with congenital heart defects and postcards with slogans and puns concerning the heart. The campaign was meant to raise awareness for continuing follow-up checks for adolescents and young adults with heart defects when they transition from pediatric care to adult cardiology.
The slogans read:
Bleib im Rhythmus - Stay in rhythm
Herzflattern - Heart flutter
Herzklopfen - Heart pounding
Hart aber herzlich - Tough but warm ("Hart aber herzlich" was the German title for the 1980s US TV show "Hart to Hart")
Herzschmerz - Heart ache
Lass den Muskel spielen - Let the muscle play
Da geht dir die Pumpe - Makes your pump go wild
The abbreviation for adults with congenital heart defects in German is EMAH (Erwachsene mit angeborenen Herzfehlern)
Sky from Beetlejuice has a congenital heart defect!
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A summer day in the backyard takes a turn. Jay will need the support of his family to get through this battle.
Chapter 13 is now up!
Read on Ao3 or below the cut.