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[exclusivenetflix]

A note from Sarah (AKA honestlou, brittanymurphyofficial, bruceofficial, etc.,etc.

First off, I want to start by saying that I’m sorry. I know I don’t deserve forgiveness for radio silence for 3 fucking years. 

So, if you don’t remember who I am, I was that weird but friendly 14 year old fucking louis stan. I deleted my blog very suddenly about 3 times that I remember, and I think I have a pretty good excuse haha..

My mom kinda left my sisters and I the year of my first deletion and I got really depressed. I remember fucking sobbing while deleting my account because I thought that it wouldn’t matter and nobody would care that I was gone. And honestly I expect to be completely forgotten by now lmao. Anyway, long story short, I was in a bad place for 2 god damn years and I’m now in a state of mind where I just need to get this off of my chest. I’m so so so sorry to the friends that I had and the people who worried. You didn’t deserve that and it was really shitty. I promise I didn’t say ^ to get you to forgive me and I would be surprised if anyone even replied to this at all ahh. 

Summary: I am fine. I was depressed but not suicidal so I’m gucci. I’m so sincerely sorry and I love you guys so much. You were the best friends I ever had. 

[1971melody]

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hi tienna ily

1: Talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie

my dad took me to see a couple movies at some independent film theaters so we saw Beasts of the Southern Wild and then after that he took me to see Moonrise Kingdom and i like fell in love with wes anderson movies

2: Talk about your first kiss.

THE CIRCUMSTANCES UNDER WHICH IT HAPPENED WERE CUTE AS HELL BUT IT FELT AWK CAUSE I DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO DO W MY MOUTH anyway so it was opening night of my little mermaid show (in which i was ariel but not that day just felt like sharing holla) and i was changing into my costume for the next scene i was in (it was a dress w a HOOP SKIRT it was the worst) and i was staying in the quick change to help my friend change too but she was constantly like “no cameron wants to hang out with you during kiss the girl” and then it hit me like… he was gonna kiss me……….. i kinda panicked inside but i was like FINE and i went to the wings and watched kiss the girl and held hands and at the end of it he pulled me in and kissed me !!!!!!

3: Talk about the person you’ve had the most intense romantic feelings for.

that would be cameron, my ex. i don’t even know what to say anymore i mean i really do love him and despite all the shitty things he’s done and said, and though i definitely acknowledge them as being shitty, i just think the world of him like lately it seems like the only times im not really sad is when im texting him or talking to him or really even when he’s just in the room. 

4: Talk about the thing you regret most so far.

hmm…. im actually not sure like i can’t think of any… maybe i should have fought more to stay w cam but i feel like i couldn’t have under the circumstances

5: Talk about the best birthday you’ve had.

this past one, my 18th, when the day before cam had told me he liked me and i reciprocated the feelings so the next day i was feeling all giddy and then i went to see wicked at the pantages w my mom that night and it was absolutely AMAZING