I might need help with my deity connection
So I tried to see what my deity (Venus) thinks of me and I got most of reverse cards and this is how I understood them
1. Hierophant (I should look up some traditional rituals for her instead of improvising),
2. Reverse Fool (again, no improvising- only traditional stuff),
3. Reverse Judgement (she feels my slight doubt in such that deities actually exist and that this is actually real as in what I'm doing right now),
4. Reverse Empress (excess, lots of sexual energy I'm holding back and which I should definitely take out),
5. Chariot (I should have self control and discipline in order to success)
Now, if I'm wrong someone please please correct me.
Then, I asked what does she think of me and I got
Did she just fucking disown me???