Yeah, right!
The one who's haunting you is C. Bite me, Carmy!
Sydney is always on his mind, unconsciously.
For Carmy these words are synonyms:
Sydney = Menu = Star = Love/Passion/Purpose
All he fucking thinks about is her menu and how to get the bullshit star for her and of course, he's constantly freaking out about not being good enough trying hard enough to achieve it.
Syd's not just in the Polka dots sauce
She's everywhere because he created every single one of those dishes for her and for her bullshit star.
The colors of her headscarves inspire him too, she's all over
Everything she in the past said she likes, made the cut
He gives her flowers, he made himself for her:
He subtracted and pushed but only kept the ingredients she likes
He is connecting through food with her because it is the only way in which he knows how to show his love, he's not great with words, she's just not seeing it because she only sees he's not running stuff by her first, but in his head he doesn't have to because he's already following her wishes/tastes as it is.
Bonus track: Acid, as usual, in this context it means that he knows her the menu is imbalanced. He obviously doesn't perceive himself as the "acid" in her dishes, ofc, but Carmy is aware they are out of sync and is trying to fix it. Syd is being patient with him, because he's not the best communicator, which he conceded, btw. But she's also oblivious to the fact that he is giving her the control of changing it all if she wants to. She can't see past her frustration and he can't say the words. AWESOME! KILL ME NOW PLS!
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