#heroinaddict

[pheeedo]

sometimes life gets fucked up , thats why we get fucked up .

[should-b3-higher]

1 year dope free.

September makes it 1 year clean from heroin.

I can't remember the last time I went that long without dope. Years. When I was actively using I knew I wanted more in life. A partner, kids, a better job. But I didn't know how to get there. Cause honestly all I cared about was getting high. Spent every hard earned penny I made on dope and crack and whatever else. I was lost. I just wanted to numb all the fucking pain! Dope makes you feel like there's no worries in the world. You just melt away and say fuck the world! But it's a false happiness. Deep down it never solved my problems or helped me. I had no friends, my family hardly cared about me. So what was I to do??

Well I moved away. over 200 miles away from my connects and "friends". (They were never really friends, just people who used me to get high with). I was lucky enough to be accepted into my best friend's parent's home for very little rent. So I packed up all my shit, quit my job, and with only a handful of suboxone I left my old habits behind and re started my life.

It wasn't easy AT ALL. I was sick for the first few weeks I was there. I stayed in my new room most of the time, and told them "I must've gotten the flu" but I made it through!

I got a job and kept to myself. Having only 1 friend. Started smoking weed

It got me through.

Things weren't always good though. I slipped up and traveled back to where old habits lived. I did that twice in the first 5 months.

Then I met my now husband. We started dating August 1st 2018. He was a savior to me. He only smoked weed and hated drugs. But he never judged me and always encouraged me to continue on the right path.

I did slip up once since being with him, though.

September 2018: Last time I used dope. I had been with my then boyfriend for just over a month and I was feeling overwhelmed. I was falling in love, and things were going fine. So why did I have such an inclination to go get high? I don't know. But I relapsed. And almost died.

My tolerance was very low after a few months of not touching dope. So I stupidly shot myself up with some white powdery dope and next thing I knew I was out cold on the bathroom floor. My boyfriend witnessed all of this. He cried and told me he doesn't want to find me dead...

And I made a promise to him that day. I wouldn't do this to him again.

And now it's been almost 1 year clean in less than 3 weeks!

Recovery is possible!stay strong, everyone!

[kushedgy]

The famous poem “Miss Heroin” or as the original title seems to be “Take me in your arms”. Ownership was claimed by so many people that the author was declared to be anonymous and the poem was dated back to the 1970s at least. I love opium in any form and literature about it, in fact my fav book ever is “Confessions of an english Opium eater” by Thomas DeQuincey. This poem is brilliant, it’s beautiful. It’s the struggle of a condition that has affected millions (and forever will) put into fine verses. A true piece of beauty.

[vanity-sickness]

To all the girls on here in recovery or even to those who are still using;

I see your photos all the time, I read your blogs, and I just want to say you all fucking beautiful, strong, capable ass bitches and you need to hold your heads high and take this world by storm because you fucking can.

We are different than them. We’ve suffered more. We’ve learned. We are strong. Now go out there and show them.

[wickedgamessxo-blog]

[pheeedo]

probably the only pic i would post of myself, tryina stay outta drugs but recovery its still a big word !

[gotprana]

Retox Heroin put my pain on layaway Now I'm indebted to the power I've traded everything Living out of trash bags and cardboard boxes My stomach no longer craving food Just that warm silky embrace taking over my mind and body I'm so frail, I give in and let you take me It seems so beautiful but I know will turn deadly Your my first love and I'd die for you But I haven't forgotten about life without I can't have it both ways It's either all of you or nothing But I'll let you have me until then

[gotprana]

Heroin

Thumb extended to the open road

my soul ripe with anticipation of escape

I gave myself freely to the first offer of sanctuary

Dazed blue eyes, a crooked smile

His allure and smooth provocative ways drew me in

A sweet release of a frolic thru oblivion hand in hand

Warmth or passion enveloped me

How could you light my soul on fire burning so bright igniting my entire being

Beneath silk sheets you grew roots in my heart

At the time was blinded by obsession

That you were draining me of life

But I would have submitted anyways

Our unrequited love story