There was this one time my classmate asked if I was asexual
She asked this during our ICT class; see I’m usually a good student who almost always listens in class and the teachers typically classify me as one of the model students in our batch, but fuck that, our teacher for this class is so frikin unworthy that I just tuned out anything she said just for that moment.
So yeah. When my classmate asked that I was really confused bc she just did that out of the blue, and we weren’t actually that close to each other, plus the fact that I’m quiet, reserved, a nerd, and am actually one of the loners in class whose friends are in other classes, but despite my confusion, I proceeded to tell her anyway that no, I’m not an ace, I’m heteroflex.
The conversation wasn’t just between the two of us; there are like, six of us who were in on the conversation and out of all of the five people who heard what I said, none of them knew what heteroflexiblity was. I explained to them that heteroflexibility is being mostly attracted to the opposite sex and slightly or somehow attracted to the same sex. Well– I actually said, “I’m mostly straight, but there are times I’m attracted to girls too.”
And then, the girl who asked me if I was asexual (I shall call her girl number 1) plus another person in the group who I thought was straight (girl number 2) went all wide-eyed and were like, “OOOH MY GOSH,” and I just went, “???”
Then they went and said:
-Girl number 1: “There, I just found my sexuality”
-Girl number 2: “I JUST FOUND MYSELF AAAA THANKS”
At that moment I didn’t know if I should’ve been pleasantly surprised or if I should’ve expected that. Fyi we’re in an all-girls school and gays/lesbians, bi’s, and pans are legit everywhere. There are some asexuals (my best friend is one of them), some with lesser known sexualities (demisexuals, [hetero/homo]flexes, etc; I fall under this category), more or less half of the students are straight, and a lot who are either unknown or confused; heck, I’m pretty sure a lot of the students who identify themselves as straight in our school are questioning whether they actually are straight, what with the amount of queers. I was actually like that before, like I thought I was straight then all these gays and bi’s showed up and I wondered if I was actually straight.
Anyway, I found it pretty funny that the two of them reacted that way, like I just told them my sexuality and suddenly I solved one of the things that I’m pretty sure caused them to have existential crisis at one point in their lives before. I’m glad I actually told the truth this time, not like the other times I chickened out and said I was straight.
This happened three days ago I think? And now, all I can think of is why girl number 1 asked me if I was asexual in the first place. Do I seem asexual? Do I look asexual? Do I act asexual? And then I flashed back to the time when my bi friend said that I seem bi, or that I have “the aura of a bi” (which seemed bullshit at that time but was actually kinda true bc I’m heteroflex, which is under the bisexual umbrella).
Annnnd this led me to think that I seem like an ace on the outside, but once you get to know me you’ll see how 5% gay I am.
