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That’s a lot of questions. I like a lot of questions :D
20.) Snow or rain?: RAIN. Definitely rain. As a life-long New Yorker who actually has to live with the threat of the Great White Horror that isn’t racist (so far as we know.......), snow, 3-4 months out of the year, I understand that while it may look pretty and make things super chill (hue) and quiet, it is actually a special kind of hell reserved only for the most awful of sinners.Also, rain is just really nice to listen to.
21.) What celebrity do you look up to?: Tyler Joseph, from Twenty One Pilots. Maybe it’s a little silly, but, seeing somebody like me, with the same (or similar) issues with anxiety and depression and constant crises of faith hop up on stage in front of tens of thousands of people and do what he loves regardless, like they aren’t even there... I dunno man, that’s just really inspiring to me. That could be me. That’s going to be me. He also seems like a pretty chill dude to talk to. He’s funny and seems to have a good head on his shoulders. So yeah, I can’t help but look up to the guy.
22.) Who makes you smile regardless?: Regardless of whatever? Hmm... there’s a few people, mostly friends, but there’s some celebrities, too. Comedians or YouTubers or bloggers who as soon as see they’ve put out something new, I can’t help but smile, it’s like a huge bright spot on my day; I treasure them always. Also? Any tumblr-famous or remotely talented person who deigns to talk to me. Like... what. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.
23.) What would you want your name to be if you were the opposite sex?: Amy, no question. No particular reason why other than the fact that I just really love the name. Something about it has always stuck out to me, and it has a nice meaning to it, ‘beloved’ <:
24.) Would you die for the ones you love?: The ones I love? Yeah, definitely. I can think of a few people I’d probably take a bullet for.
25.) Favorite song lyrics?: Oh God where do I start? I could just say “Literally anything written by Guy Garvey from Elbow because his lyrics are basically poetry”, or “Anything by Hands Like Houses”, but if I were to give a few examples, like a top 5... some lyrics that have stuck out to me over the years have been -
“If I'm a flame, I'm a forest fire speaking savage tongues as I emerge from the hills. I am an avalanche, I am unchained, I'm awoken, I'll unleash hell” from “A Tale of Outer Suburbia from Hands Like Houses “We’re not questioning God, just those he chose to carry on his cross” from the song “*fin” by Anberlin"And no, I'm not afraid, at least not to die, I'm afraid to live and not remember why" from the song “Lapse” by Envy on the Coast
“Through all this, we decipher, and what’s worse? We’re no wiser” from “Cartoons & Macrame Wounds” by Mew
“I want to be you whenever I see you smilin', ‘cause it's easily one of the hardest things to do. Your worries and fears become your friends and they end up smilin' at you" from “Smiley Faces” by Gnarls Barkley
I could list a fuckton more because I have way more music than any sane person should have, but, yeah =P
26.) Have you ever self-harmed?: I... okay, I’m just going to be super open about this one. No - not in the way you’re probably thinking. I don’t like pain. I avoid it at all costs. I’ve tried cutting a few times, actually, but it... I dunno. I also knew scars would be an issue, and I didn’t want to have to explain that. So I kind of just... stopped taking care of myself for a while there, instead. I made the conscious decision to let my health go to shit and basically did everything in my power to help that along. It was stupid, and slow, and eventually became a series of bad habits I’m still dealing with the ramifications of, but I just stopped caring after a while, you know? In time it became my comfort and my way of coping. If it killed me, great. If not, who cares? It all helped to take the pain away. So I dunno. Food was my knife, I guess. It sounds dumb, but... it was what it was.
27.) Sex before or after marriage and why?: Personally? I don’t really care anymore. I was raised in a Christian home under some pretty strict ideas of like... morality and Christianity and what it means to be Christian and shit, so, “No sex before marriage” was something that was really drilled into me and my sister’s heads when that became a thing we were learning about. For a while that was the view I held, but these days, I don’t think it really matters? I’m still Christian (more or less...) but my understanding of that is radically different from my parents these days, and I honestly don’t think waiting until marriage matters anymore. It’s all about me and my partner. If we’re ready for it, then that’s all that matters. If we’d rather wait, then that’s all that matters. If one of us would rather wait until marriage, then that’s all that matters. But I honestly don’t really care either way. Sex is kind of just an extra thing to me, anyway lmao
