i might as well be drunk in love
âslut!â by taylor swift
benny cross x fem!reader / 1.4k words
idea: youâre drunk, and benny takes care of you after a long night out
tw: drinking, swearing, so fluffy itâs sickening
notes: this is my first big piece that Iâve wrote and omg it took FOREVER !! i havenât been able to stop thinking about âthe bikeridersâ she literally consumes my every waking thought AHH !! anyway i hope you guys enjoy reading this:)
itâs just about 4 in the morning and you and benny just made it back home to your place. youâd been so busy this week due to picking up more shifts at the library so you would be able to pay off the rent by the end of the month, groceries, and afford to buy a little more thread to stitch up a pair of your jeans and the large tear on bennys jacket. not only was that stressful, but throughout the week you had to deal with some grouchy elderly women, preverted college boys (âpinkosâ as zipco would call them), and multiple groups of chaotic elementary school students who were checking out their books for the semester, and only to have a slice of toast, scorching hot coffee with no milk OR sugar, and fucking prayer holding you together. so yes, this night out was a well deserved one. but whoâs kidding? you needed that shit! now here you are, barely getting up the stairs to your apartment as benny holds onto you for dear life.
as you both stood outside of your apartment door, benny began digging for his copy of keys in his pocket while leaning you up against his side and adjusting his hold on your hip. he draped his jacket over you before you hopped onto his bike to head home, leaving him in his tattered sleeveless black shirt against the cold chicago air.
âsorry baby, turns out the key were in the other po-â
âyâarms are so pretty honey.. like-i like how they feel âround meâ you cut him off with slurred words as you drunkenly gazed up at him.
âcanât believe i get to see them all tâtime, for mâself, a-and nobody else gets ta have âem but me.. aâlike when they hold me when itâs real cold..o-or hot.. or âround the pillows or the flowers ya get me.. or when yaâ cuddlinâ lula.. oh i hope sheâs not tâcold, vâmissed her so much.. sheâs probably sad that her mama and daddy were gone all night-â at this point benny could only chuckle as his girl jumped from talking about his arms to their sweet black cat lula, it made his heart swell.
once he got you into your apartment he began walking you straight towards your bed, as your giggles and drunk thoughts echoed down the hallway âno b-benny i donât wanna tâsleep yet, i wanna watch tâbakinâ show on channel 6, they be makin some.. some of them valen..tines treats a-and i wanna tryâ
you began to whine as benny sat you down at the edge of your bed, kneeling in front of you as he begins unbuckling the straps of your red kitten heels
âyeah we can watch some baby, dâworry, jusâ wanna getcha out of these ând this dressâ
âthought âya liked me in this dress? grabbed these heels to match with emââ you said sadly, your eyes starting to droop.
benny looked up at you and could see the slight pout on your face, so he moved his left hand to caress your thigh âoh yâknow i love this dress, but that tiny little nightie aâyours, that pretty pink flower in the middle that barely covers you up, takes the cake for meâ he says as he moves closer to you âre-eally?â âyeah baby, sheâs mâfavoriteâ
his voice gets muffled as he places some kisses on the tops of your thighs, still looking right back up at your sleepy eyes âbut i love everythinâ that you wear.. especially when you wear nothingâ he says with a smirk on his face, and had stopped your whining and shut you up instantly.
after getting your heels off benny helps you stand up to start taking off your clothes. the jacket was first to go, as he tossed it on top of your vanity chair. he then pushed the straps of your red gingham dress down which slowly began to fall to the floor. you were left in the dainty lingerie set youâd picked out for the night; the blush pink fabric with the lacy details matching the drunken flush on your face. benny takes his time to get a look at you, rubbing his callused hands up and down your sides. he knows that all the shifts youâve picked up and the deadlines of payments have been making you stressed, so he just wants to take care of you tonight, although it wonât come close to repay you for all the sacrifices you make for him.
after benny unclasped your bra, he swiftly moved to your side of the bed and grabbed your linen night gown âarms up for me babyâ you obliged, sleepily raising your arms above your head you momentarily close your eyes, enjoying the feeling of the soft fabric against your skin. but you felt something else. something running along your legs. was that fuzz? you didnât wear socks with your heels tonight and benny already tossed your dress into the laundry bin. you were stumped until you heard a rumbling sound from beneath you. purring.
âoh lula! l-look honey sâlula! sheâs purring up âgainst me!!â you gleamed to benny, as he too was receiving affection from lula.
âsheâs happy that her mama and daddy are back home, right honey? home?â benny ever so slightly teased, but out of love of his girlsâ adorable rambles.
âyeah. homeâ you said with a smile. now after changing benny walks you over to your side of the bed. he sat you down facing him, but paused briefly as he realized he forgot to take some of your jewelry off.
âone second mama, forgot to get this necklace and these hoops off, i know you sleepy but iâll be quickâ he said, quickly and gently taking them off âi told yaâ i ainât sleepy.. gotta.. we gotta still watch our show âmember?â
âyâright baby, our showâ a chuckle left his mouth; of course he remembered, but he wanted you to take the credit for remembering about it as you were fighting to stay awake.
âwhat would i do without you baby? hmm?â âdâknow ben-baby, but donât worry, y.. yaâ have meâ âand you have me baby. mâsweet babyâ
bennyâs words became muffled as he held your jaw and kissed you deeply before placing your jewlery down on the nightstand. you were finally lying down after benny got you comfortable. he then quickly stripped down to his boxers and swapped his black shirt for a white wifebeater before joining you in bed.
just by looking at you he could tell that you were barely awake, but sticking to his word, he turned the tv onto channel 6, as clips of a dessert with chocolate and some kind of fruit in it come across the screen. strawberries? or raspberries? hell, cherries? he could not tell.
as the sounds of the baking show filled the room benny shifted you closer to him, so you could rest on his chest. âdid you have a good time tonight baby? i know youâve been excited about this meeting all weekâ
he asked you softly. you let yourself finally close your eyes, knowing that it was okay to rest now âsâso fun.. ears are ringinâ a lil.. but had so fun with tâgirls, and tâclub,â benny notices that your sentences are making less sense as you are just moments away from knocking out, but he was able to make out one coherent sentence of yours before that âbut i had tâmost fun with yaâ tonight.. yaâ lit up mâwhole night honeyâ seconds away from slipping into your own dream land, he had to admit, you saying that so effortlessly made his breath hitch in his throat.
he didnât have a care for anything outside the club until he met you, and you have completely flipped his life upside down because of it. it gave him meaning to ride home late at night knowing he was coming back home to you. it gave him purpose to always come back to you, regardless of whatâs going on through his mind.
you are there for him, you are there to care for him, laugh with him, cry with him, and to just love him for the person he is. you are there for him. you are it for him âand you light up my life baby, my lightâ
he reaches his hand over to turn off the little lamp on his side of the bed and when he turned his head back to look at you, you were fast asleep; soft snores leaving your mouth. he could only smile, knowing that you can get the deserved rest youâve needed âlove you so much sweet girl, with my whole heartâ he kisses the top of your head as lula leaps onto the bed to join her mama and daddy for cuddles.