#high abilities

[minyardstwisters]

forever in the limbo between "i am human and i need to be loved just like everybody else does", "i have bpd. i have hurt people before and i dont trust neither myself neither them to defend themselves around me" and "i have/am ha/g. people are fucking ridiculous i want to disappear from the face of the earth so i dont have to deal with their dumb fucking ass shit anymore SEEING PEOPLE REALIZE THINGS I HAVE REALIZED OVER TEN TIMES BEFORE IS AGONIZING LET ME OUTTTTTTT"

[bethelonging]

masking is so funny to me bc i could hide adhd, high abilities AND autism from every single doctor, psychologist, psychiatrist and neurologist for 20 whole years. yet my classmates would never include me in anything at school and i was only a smart kid for them, never a friend or someone nice to be around. i was always seen as quirky until adolescence where i was quirky but also depressed. unbelievable.

[forevertheobserver]

let me rant a bit

Just yesterday I discovered the reason behind my infinite problems in life, and it's because not only am I a bit of an exotic being BUT because I'm also a neurodivergent. During my entire life I heard I was hyperactive, that I had Oppositional Defiant Disorder (ODD), that maybe I had ADHD — anyways, people suspected I had a lot of things.

Turns out I have Giftedness. A bit funny, if you ask me. And that discover made me think, because silly me thought that people with this condition were genius, those who solve maths problems like it's nothing and they might be the new Albert Einstein or sum shi like that.

However, studying a bit about it, I learned that people with this condition are not always genius in math and science, and that "talent" can be very well directed towards other areas of knowledge and intelligence.

Being honest, at first I didn't believe in it. After I started being conscious about socializing, I thought of myself as a bit weird and off-center in comparison to other kids my age, dwelling in constant brooding because I couldn't understand them, and they couldn't understand me.

Not only that, but I got along with adults better. They had the "mindset" (not quite the word I wanted but ok) I had, they had an understanding of surroundings more profound, and I felt seen around them. I felt like I belonged to somewhere. It was great, but adults are busy people and can't always give you the attention a fellow kid would.

So, due to my incompatibility with them and the absence of adults, I started to isolate myself and started to spend too much time daydreaming about my interests in a imaginary world of wonder, forgetting about the present and a ignoring a proper childhood.

And that's also fcking hilarious because my high abilities ARE in communication and humanities (history, art, languages, that stuff).

It kind of saddens me, because I went to read other people's experiences and they share this trait of loneliness during their growth, precisely the phase of life where interacting with the world is extremely important for the brain.

Anyways, when I was reading about it, I realized that this condition didn't make me incapable of doing certain things, unlike other cases. Quite the contrary, it gives the kid too much information to process. Both the body and the brain are not ready for it, causing problems like anxiety, low self-esteem, isolation, overthinking, and can gradually lead to depression if not managed properly.

People with that condition are subjected to wrong diagnoses, since Giftedness and High Abilities can be mistaken with Autism and ADHD, and even take the wrong medicine, which is unhealthy for the body and can act like a drug in the person's system.

My point is that we (as in society) do not talk enough about this kind of thing, and it feeds an stereotype that unintentionally belittles individuals with these characteristics, when it's an barely-adressed situation where the brain proves itself way more interesting and capable than it's given credit for.

It's not like "omigosh we are soooo suffering and we NEED special attention", no. I just think that more studies about how this condition works and how a person can be born with it would explain better why some kids are a bit different from the others. Nothing too revolutionary, and maybe it can save them from some really bad experiences during their life! :)

Thanks for reading this yapping, I really don't know when to shut up ⚰️

[iammrslupin]

My father and my AuDHD

My father just told me that he wants me to be normal, that I’m just spoiled, irresponsible and lazy, and that I like to live in chaos.

He also added that all psychologists and psychiatrists want is money.

I told him:

“Of course. We all want money, I want money too, and so do you. And I have bad news for you, dad. I’m not normal. I’ve never been normal. It’s not normal to be 6 months old and talk. It’s not normal to be 3 years old and talk like an adult, with erudite wording, read and write, identify car label logos and constellations, write poetry, speak English,” I’m from Portugal, “and know several world capitals by heart. It’s not normal to be 7 years old and solve every single Math exercise in my head without presenting any calculations. “

Yes, that was me. Those are all things he was proud of. But those are also part of my neurodiversity. I have high abilities and giftedness. I guess that comes hand in hand with my AuDHD.

So he just… changed the subject. Did he finally understand? I don’t believe it. But at least, I guess I gave him something to think about. At least, I hope I did.

[helloseptemberlune]

Me: Ok, Google: Tell me what is H.A/Giftedness.

Google: Here is a written footage of your entire childhood.

Me: What-

[bethelonging]

they say "dont stress/relax/be calm" but they dont get it they simply dont understand the feeling of being morally obligated to come with a solution for a stupid problem - which you invented actually bc before you everything was far worse but you insist on being better and better so nothings ever good enough and you gotta always upgrade things - and now youre fucking stressed over a outlook function that doesnt work how its supposed to and somehow it is also your fault

[bethelonging]

we NEED a gifted creature. can we PLEASE get a gifted creature.

[eziethinkstoomuch]

se você me der licença, eu vou culpar todos os meus problemas em não ter amigos com a mesma neurodivergência que eu