Marine training and all these years apart did nothing to steel Rosi's heart
he tells himself that Doffy is evil, that he's too far gone to be saved, that he isn't to be trusted, a ticking time bomb, that he needs to be brought down for all his wrongdoings and atone-
he just can't bring himself to truly hate his big brother
these childhood memories of huddling for warmth together, of sharing moldy food they found in the garbage, of running away from the angry masses-
there was a time he put Doffy on a pedestal higher than anyone else
yes, he is a monster in human disguise
yes, he needs to be stopped
yes, it's Rosi's purpose to keep his brother in check
but he still holds this memory of his protective, loving big brother in his heart
still has hopes that he is buried inside somewhere in that fearsome beast
the fact that Doffy shows him that same old kindness at times, that same old wish to protect his little brother from harm, a glint of the past when they were still close-
it's enough to burn down the last little fence around Rosi's heart
he knows he could never shoot Doffy