wow antavriel’s story is actually really fussing sad ahahahaha oh my gosh
literally was so gosh dang happy. full of life and wonder and so so SO excited to do fun things!!!! and spend time with his stars!!!! and his brother!!!!!! and live and love and learn and be and do and ahhh!!!! so excited!!! so loving and gentle!!! protecting and watching over, kind and forgiving like none other!
and then the corruption happened. and everything was torn apart in him, he went through the most horrible pain and suffering hes ever felt in his entire life all by himself, in the dark. and then he felt it slowly take over his mind and soul, eating him alive.
and now he does these awful awful things, because of this corruption. it’s not antavriel, it’s not him doing this. it’s a black hole, it’s a void, taking the curious, loving most wonderful parts of him and molding him to fit its little glass. turning him into a monster, all so it can have a home. nice and warm, so so warm. mindless control. mindless hunger. this isn’t antavriel, it’s anti.
and when he gets his light back, and the darkness is casted out, what is left? a star, who is left knowing that he killed his own people. he killed stars, he killed humans, he killed anything and everything he COULD kill. torturing and hating and devouring, just as he was devoured.
but it wasn’t antavriel. it wasn’t him, it was the corruption, it wasn’t his fault. he never asked to be torn away from his twin, he never asked to feel his body be ripped apart, he never asked for any of it.
but poor antavriel. he won’t see it that way, he won’t see that he was out of his mind, he won’t see that these things weren’t him, these actions weren’t his own but the corruption’s hunger and need for blood and power and death. he won’t see it, and neither will anyone else except marvin. and even when they turn the universe back, saving all the stars and people and antavriel, saving the universe from tipping over because the sky was falling apart with anti’s presence.... he still won’t see it. and sure, they saved them all, antavriel and morilius and the the royals of the milky way and any other galaxy they keep. they saved the universe! they saved antavriel!
but everytime antavriel looks at his brother, or chase, or johnny or sille or the cashier at the gas station who looks like she hadn’t gotten sleep in six days, all he hears is pain. all he sees is the blood on his hands, and it tears him apart. the only thing he can do to cope is to isolate himself and smother all his friends in kindness and love and beg and beg and BEG his brother to take away those horrible memories.
just. poor antavriel, yanno? and don’t get me started on morilius bc his is just as fussing sad listen-
