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[chiarrara]

now that you mentioned kirara, let's see kirara for the ask game 🥺

AHHHH hi bestieee YAY OK

How I feel about this character

so much affection, she's so cool. I wanna know everything about her, I wanna see her animated, I wanna know about her experiences at school, I wanna see how she and kin got together. she and higuruma are probably competing for my favorite side character, at least in the second half. i wish she'd had more to do in the end stretch!!

All the people I ship romantically with this character

literally just kinji. i love them <3

My non-romantic OTP for this character

megumiiiii, they should be best friends!! she can help him figure out why he's such a little asshole sometimes once she sees he's not really a bad guy, and i just love them supporting each other. megumi would really grow to respect her very quickly and admire her too for following her own path. and she would appreciate him for being ride or die and no nonsense in such a chaotic world. ahhh i'm so happy you put this in my mind lmaoo

My unpopular opinion about this character

to me, kirara is a trans girl, and i'm not debating it. i don't care. the evidence is there in my eyes, and my mind is made up. if you believe differently, that's your business not mine. be blessed <3

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

i wish she would have self-identified. i don't need a whole gender speech, but in the english translation at least, neither kirara nor anyone who knows her since she fell out with the school (hakari) ever refers to her with a pronoun or names an identity.

I just went and scanned the japanese, and in a thought bubble to herself she used "watashi" which could be feminine or could be gender neutral. so net zero info gain.

again, to me, there's enough to indicate she's a girl, and gege doesn't like to spell things out like that so i'm not gonna get shocked about it now. but it would be nice to have so people didn't come to me saying kirara "uses they/them" because that's what panda who hasn't seen her since she transitioned used to refer to her without asking <3

[disneyismyworldforever]

Just two chapters more, then all caught up on hmbomt, and I love all it so far. @lokisprettygirl, your writing is just so beautiful. I was wondering if I could a chapter come out on Wednesday, March 23 of the series. I would love you forever.

[chiarrara]

19 and 30 for the writing asks :)

hiii ty <3

19. if you keep them, share a deleted sentence or paragraph from a published fic

i don't have a whole lot published, and what I do have is either very short or very old. so I'll give you some of my freewriting for chap 1 of the vampmegau that may or may not be retooled or repurposed at some point:

20. the most interesting topic you’ve researched for a fic

probably like the general history of elite families in Japan, the daimyo system, and the governmental & educational structures in pre-meiji era japan. also the rise of buddhism and the different sects of shintoism. I didn't understand most of the religious stuff.

basically i tried to speedrun japanese history for world building in a jjk fix it fic extended universe thing... it was very interesting!

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[chiarrara]

chia i can't,,,,, how is this show so good???? its so much more than just a simple fighting show!!!!! i have the brainworms!!!!!

anyway, sorry for getting so excited in ur askbox lol 😅, i wanted to ask whos ur favourite character!! (though i may not have met them yet, im still at episode 8 of season 1..)

it's so good!!!! I don't know what they put in this show but it's got so much heart and it makes me 😭

Sakura is an eaaaasy pick, he was just like. made in a lab for me. Yuuma Uchida VA, blushing tsundere boy, heart of fucking gold and serious emotional problems. I love him dearly.

Otherwise, I adore Kotoha, she's such a sweetie. Self-confident cool girl. My FAVORITE favorite is Kaji, you've technically met him but you won't really get to know him til the end of S1 and top of S2. But I pinned him early, I knew I would like him and I was validated!!

Ohhh wait you probably picked him out too, he's the one who looks like Toge 😅

[chiarrara]

1, 7, 13 for the wip game

1. Current WIP

vampire megumi au <3333 which, I am still insane about, but my mind has been elsewhere for a few days. tbh this started as a daydream plot that I just wanted to write for writing's sake, something easy, campy, and fun, just so I could prove to myself I could do it. but it kind of got away from me. it became too big and important, and now it feels like it's getting stifled under this arbitrary expectation of perfection that I wanted to write this work to avoid.

It's this hole I feel like I fall into with so many things and I really want to figure out how to get out of it, because it'd rather have something out there that's just okay, than never get it done because it had to be flawless. and I think y'all that have been interested in it want that too. I don't feel like I can really learn how to write, like the actual active process of it, if I'm cutting myself off before I even get started. so I want to figure it out. some metatextual angst for you on that one, i guess

7. WIP that is my "no one understands him/her/them like I do"

I think this one has to go to the oldest of all my WIPs, my 2017 conceived and plotted Otayuri friends-to-lovers best fic I've never written, that I to this day have never given up on.

It originally came about from my conflicted feelings about the anit-shipping, and specifically anti-Otayuri, discourse that was really taking off at the time. Obviously, that discussion has grown to absolutely eclipse the level it was at back then, and my feelings on the subject have evolved a lot as well, but at the time, I found myself feeling conflicted over the arguments that were being presented and I wasn't sure how to reconcile them with my own thoughts and feelings. So, I gave the problem to the characters to work out instead, and it became one of my favorite things my mind has ever created.

The timeline spans 3-4 years post-canon , it covers multiple relationships, deals with the blurry lines between love and friendship, and explores how to move forward when you're not on the same page or even in the same stage in life. And it's all drafted pen-to-paper, so I still have it :) This notebook is like gold to me, it's one of my most treasured possessions, I try to keep it safe wherever I go. I love this story a whole lot, so It would make me really sad to never actually get to write it. I hope someday soon I finally feel ready to dive in and tackle it <3

13. WIP I started to torture my blorbos (including me)

I was trying to think of one for this, because I don't really write straight up angst too much or whump?? or whatever it's called, like really really painful shit for the sake of it, but then I remembered I had this daydream plot going for a while that was post-canon, and Yuuji, Megumi, and Nobara moved into an apartment together with like, whatever Zenin money Megumi would be able to collect post-massacre. And the whole thing was basically Megumi with severe PTSD, becoming overly-attached to Yuuji, sort of twisting the whole idea of living for someone else into Yuuji being the only thing he stays alive for.

In general, I like to explore Megumi post-Shinjuku because I feel like a lot of what he would reasonably go through is hand-waved or brushed off so things can reach a new status quo at the end of the manga, which is fine, but I think there's a lot there that could be explored. Especially as a parallel to Geto, like what does it look like to survive past the point that you break kind of thing. I sort of started doing that in you can't find the words to say and if I ever continued that I could probably combine the two ideas....they might have actually been the same thing to start with, now that I think about it. But I don't really like that fic that much right now, so if I follow up on it, I think it'd be good to take another pass at it.

[chiarrara]

hi chia my beloved, 7 and 15 for the fic writer ask game pls

hi griffin, funny seeing you here, you come here often? ...would you like to? 😉

7. your preferred writing fonts

handwritten. i know it works best for me, but i never do it. otherwise, I've been getting really effected by the entire environment of a word processor. idk if i have a preferred font, it's just that sometimes i have to change locations or work in a weird place. like tumblr drafts. very risky.

15. favorite weather for writing

middle of the night, inside in bed, headphones blaring one song on repeat, dim lighting. whatever's going on outside is none of my business.

HOWEVER

the most inspirational season to me is summer. i want to *have been* out in the summer sun, in the warm night air, cicadas and stars and sun til 9pm. out on the water. then i really want to sink into a fic, because that stuff sinks into your bones.

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[chiarrara]

live footage of me in the car on the way home, listening to daydream, (because i’m obsessed with your au and wanted to immerse myself in it a little bit) well!

my state after hearing “always be my baby” “i am free” and “when i saw you” back to back thinking about itafushi. it’s raining and now i’m very soft and soggy but. 100000/10 listening experience thanks to you. and thinking about them smoking on the hood of the car. the school dance. T.T that entire thing is so vivid okay that’s all thank you <3

also, the bit about gojo skipping “one sweet day” yeah okay well that put a foot of soil over me. your brain <3

ahhh I'm literally kicking my feet and giggling at this!! I'm so happy you actually listened to it! I've been living this au all day everyday for like weeks, it's so cool that anyone else is in this little world with me all of a sudden 💗

I really felt like you can't get the the full experience without actually listening to the songs that are playing in those scenes, so I'm over the moon rn 🥰

oooooh I have plans for when i saw you... that's such a good stretch of the album <3 I'm so so glad the scene on the car and at the dance and everything came across!! i had such a clear image in my head, I was replaying those scenes over and over, I really wanted that to translate. I'm so soft rn thank you for saying this 🥹

YEAHHH the stsg angst is unavoidable, always lurking.

thank you so much for sending me this!! I am insane about this little world in my head so I'm very excited to talk about it <33 you made me so happy fr

[chiarrara]

hi chia hiii. 5 and 12 for the ask game?

5. Old WIP that is rubbing the back of my neck

Stuck on the Puzzle my looove <3 I adore this fic, I really do. It's my other old as balls 2017 conceived Otayuri fic, but technically this one came second, so it's not the oldest one I have. And it's the one I actually started to write! I felt very brave posting the first chapter in 2019, but I still haven't gotten around to continuing it. It is fully plotted out, so all I have to do is actually write it. And I really really want to finish it someday. I think it's a little bit tropey now, and it's definitely a lotta bit melodramatic, but it's so much fun and it comes from my skins ass, gossip girl watching, '08-'12 high school nostalgia, so I love it to death no matter what.

And it has JJ as a recurring side-problem. Love him.

12. WIP that is "Porn without plot except there is intricate plot if you are brave enough to see it"

I don't be writing smut like that if you'll believe it..... I don't. I'd like to. I should. Anyway...

The closest I think I can get to that is a SatoSho + Almost SuguSho like...two-shot I started working on one day based on this art and the tags on it, which just set my mind off on some isolated messy teen makeout bullshit which was really fun, but I never finished it. And imma be real, I don't remember how physical it actually got so...

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My submission to the SatoSho Discord's Weekly prompt: Kabedon

I guess the other option is all this nonsense I've been talking about megumi wanting to fuck his sister which is developing at an alarming rate, but hasn't actually gotten to the titualr "megumi fucking his sister" quite yet. But it could. Weird if that's the first porn I ever write... dunno how I feel about that.