I know how you feel about the whole not being good enough for the TOME fandom. Back when I made WhiteFlameDiva, I actually put myself out there for once and I felt like I was good enough. I'm not sure what happened, but eventually I started getting ignored and months late I just gave up the blog. Since I have no art ability, I've felt that for longer. All I can do is write not so good fics as an attempt to fix that for myself. I hope it gets better for you, cause I know how hurtful it can be.
the only thing that remotely keeps me in this fandom is the virus blog but even that stresses me out... im being pushed further and further back and im trying so hard...this fandom once made me feel like i had a chance, i was so excited to post art but then i realised around around me at the time was being acknowledged and praised and soon i was being pushed away because my art isnt normal...its not good enough. so i made a vow to myself to keep trying over and over to improve but ive come to notice that in itself hasnt even worked out well...
i know theres so many wonderful fans on tome, you all are lovely people i had a fun time chatting to and it was great, i know some people will look at me and think i dont deserve to be like this but...feeling my dreams shatter before me isnt easy to handle. ive got really bad depression and aniexty and its been torturing me as of late and tomes been the one thing to make me so happy, i showed i think 6 of my friends the series, i draw art whenever i can and always love talking to new fans.
i want to say things will get better...but ive been saying that for years now..
