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“You had a husband and kids who loved you before you suddenly decided Nihilego were more important… I just want to know what happened. Did they promise you Dad, too?”
She freezes and seems almost to shrink, closing her arms around herself and looking at Gladion as if he’s just slapped her. She has spent so long-- so many years-- trying to block out all the unpleasantness that thoughts of him bring her that she wants nothing more than to simply shut down, ignore these questions and let the sweet venom guide her off to the thoughtless refuge of sleep.
“You?” she hisses, enraged. “The both of you left me, just like he did--!”
And yet here is Gladion now, calm and questioning. And yet there is Lillie, drifting back to the cottage in Cerulean to show off her newest Pokemon, her newest badge.
There is not much else Lusamine can do these days other than reflect. She slowly deflates, searching her memory. Did the Nihilego promise her Mohn?
She remembers their voices in her head and under her skin, everywhere around her, Such loneliness in you, Mother, such terrible pain... We can take it from you, Mother. You will hurt no longer. We can give you love, we can give you him. We can give you everything...
“Yes... In the beginning... If I only followed them, I-- knew I would find him... But-- But no, when they came to me, I... I no longer had need of him. Nothing else...” And yet...
There was a time she had tried to wrench him out of them. A time when, faced with the Beast’s beauty, she had felt o nly
ḅ̯̫͖̘̉̌̾͒̐͊ͩ̈͝l̜̳͙̯̈́̉̿̃̍̇͠i͋͏̫̥̤̺̝̣̫n̶̲̩̍ͩͪͦ́̎͐̊ͤ́d̫̹̺͕̣̩̠́͌͆ͪ̾ ̖͈͈̊̓̉̌̇̕͢ ̛̥̫͙͉͕͇̠̞̥̔̎̋̓ͨͪͩ̓ ̵͉̱́͟ ̡̟̱̝̲̣̯̞ͦ̎̓͢ͅ ̮̖ͮ̓̌͝ ͚̬͋̈́ͧͬ̽̈̽̿͢͡ͅr̗ͤͧ͒̊͟ä͔̭̳g̱̭̒̍͌ĕ̤͈̲͍̬̘̞̹̌͢ ̾̍̆ͭ͛̏ͪ͏̛̫͉̻
for ̨̥͕͖̫̣̺̥͂̏͋̅ ̗̝̻͉̼͚̉ͪͩͥͣ̃͝
those f̸̨̬͉̺̬͇̞̗̭̯̪͂͐ͩ̓̔͛͗̒͘ǐ̡̩͚̗̜̱̫̟̯̖͖̋͛̆̃ͪ̈̽͜l̷̛̯̬̬͕͇̝̠̹̊̉̈͗ͤͪ̃̈̔̽̓̀̐͐̂̿͂́͜͜ͅt̢̛͍̙̼̙̹̣̭̞̝͖̹̭͙͕̫̓̍̏ͨ̍̄̎̌̂ͪ͟ͅḩ̷̨͈̠̼͎̼̲̻̻̼̪̤̗͍̰͈̃̎ͮ̈́́͜y̵̭̣͖̞͂͋͊ͪ̇̂̒̉̇͌͒ͮ̌͐̎ͨ̓̓́̀̕͘ͅ,͑̈́̋̈́̀͒̇ͭ̊̽̎ͮ̂̊̔͠͏̵͕̬͎͖̪̦̺̞̮ ̓̾̍͗̓ͨͤ̊ͧͦͦͮͩ̑ͥ͞͏̣̯̻͍̲̗͔̣̟̰̺̭̳͇
ẉ̷̷͓͉͈͖͔͍̬̥̺̘̪̅͋ͥͭ̽͟r̷̠̯͚̫̯̝̺̎͊̿ͦ̈͂̒ͯ̀ͬ̋̂ͦ̓́͜͜e̵̎̀͐ͭͭ̔ͬ̽̏̈́͌̉ͯ̚҉̡̺̲̫̭͔̹͇͍̤͎̮̗͔̥ͅt̨̰̳̦̼̱̘̹͇̻̦̯̦͉̽ͨͬ͌̍̓ͭ̀ͅc̡̞̥̫̪̣̪̊́ͧͭ̄̋ͣ̉̒h̴̢̨̨̳͉̭̲̱̯͕̫͔͈͚͔͙̺͓̫̪͌̅ͧͫ̈̓ͧ͊͗̏͑͆̚͜ę̧̙͍̗̥̱͙͈̤̏ͦ͆̉̅ͯ͆ͥͬd̶͔̖̝͈̄̎̏͘ ̴̷̘̺̤̱̝͚̖̝̮ͫ̌̓̍ͅb͑ͨ̓̏̅̔̇ͦͧ҉̛͇̣͖̩͍̳̻̺̞̙̪͞e̶̛̗̟͙̦̹͎̤̣͓̲̱̲̼͖̭͖̥͛ͫ̽͛ͦ̽ͨ̊ͧ͌ͣͥͣͨ̆̐̈̓̀ͅ
a̶̟͎͈̼̙̫̗̝̮̯̘͈̱̣̺̯̎̂̑̍̊ͪ̆̌ͯ͋ͫ̈̀͜͟ͅş̸̧̮͖̟͚̣͉̯̱̂ͩ̊͋̅ͩ͂̊́͋̊͘͡ͅt̢̻̟͔̪͍̩̾̄̏͂ͭ̆ͦ̆̓ͬ͌ͪ͌̀͛̌̍̚͜͠͠
s̸̨̮͈̜͓̪̫̖͓͓̀͊̂̽̇̔̈́̔͆̊ͦ͆ͩ̃͂͆̀
w̶̵͈̝̟̬̯̫͍̺̪̲ͣ͐́́̈̎̈̐͐ͥ̓ͨͭ̀͘hͦ̈̓̈́͐͊̆ͯͨ̇̽͋͐̈͏̳̳̱̺oͦ͋ͬ̑͗̐̂ͭ͐ͥͥ͌҉̝͍͖̝͜ ̶͚̰̖͔̫̱̦͍̜̤͙͈͈͛ͨ͂̂̚͢͝͠t͐ͤ̐́̓̔͛̈҉̀҉͇̫͎̝̲͠o̡̠̜̮͓̟̩̫̤͉̍̈̆ͤͬ͛̌͛ͦ̉́ͅō̦͎̥̯̤̻̗̳ͬ̎͋̂ͪ̇ͮ̍͐͟ͅͅk̴ͩ̐͊̽̀̇̐̄҉̼̰̳̗̰̬͇̯̫̜͖̲̬̞̱̜̜͝
T̵̠̖̘͔̯̭͎̲͙̥̜̩͎̺̟̩̀̓̓͊̓̈̀̊͆ͦ͑͂̆͟ͅ O̢̩̳̮͓̠̝͆ͩ͂̀̒͌ͣ͑ͪ͗̄͘͢ Ơ̔̑̊̚͏̸͉̙̥̫̹͙́ Ķ̵̧̖͇͔̘̩̬̤̦͙̪͙ͥͮ͗̀̑͆ͥ̒̈̂̈́̍̌̓̾ͥ͒͡
It slips away from her again.
“... I... don’t--... I can’t remember. Why can’t I remember that...?”