oh my god. this can't be happening. i had an absolutely fantastic lesson today, Jazzy was as racy as usual but willing to come back, and I got to jump her a few times so yay go me! But then I get off and go to untack and get her cleaned up and one of my trainers, stephne, comes up as she's getting her western kids ready and tells me that if we can't get her slowed down and doing what they want, they might have to sell her.
i love steph, she's like a second mom to me, but seriously?? seriously?!? does she realize how much i adore that horse? how hard i fought and clawed all summer long to get back on her and keep taylor and adisen away from her? i was willing to give up jumping to stay on that horse, and now that i'm finally back on her, she chooses now to decide to consider selling her?? what?? even?! i'm going back out there this weekend probably, and I am going to go up to steph and say "look, i understand jazzy is not my horse, i am not leasing her, i have no say in what you do with her, because she's your horse, not mine, but please, please, give me a chance. i will do anything to keep her here; I will come out every day and work with her, buy her any supplement under the sun, any manual labor you ask of me, anything. but please, please, please, for the love of god, don't send away the reason i get out of bed most mornings. please."