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It just occurred to me that I have experienced a lot of stuff this year and a half that I have yet to process

And now the brain wants to process it

Bitch this is not the right time

Cazzo.

#steel rambles #i have troubles compiling a list of things because i was going through 5 fs and just repeating “fuck it we ball” like a mantra #and now that i am a bit... in a slightly less troubled position it's catching up to me #“your brain doesn't think you're in danger anymore time to process all of this baby” fuck you????#i was done processing the old stuff why do i have to process the new shit #you know what putting things in perspective actually makes me go “yeah you actually deserve a break you're not being dramatic”#nut at the same time???? like- fuck????#and it occurred to me because those were like... private things i didn't even really talk in details about it as i normally would #“ah fuck i feel bummed out and tired and sad most of the time and i don't feel like studying and doing stuff” no shit Sherlock #of course i don't i have unaddressed and unprocessed shit in my system :D #and recognizing it is.... kind of weird #because ok one hand “i am fine and i want to be fine” on the other “mate you are not fine acvept it and then you can be fine”#i have grown up enough to recognize i cannot wallow in self depreciation like i did when i was 12 #but there was a comfort in the “woe is me there is nothing i can do”#now i don't do that. i recognize stuff happened beyond my control and that i am suffering the effects of it.#BUT #there is stuff i can actively do. things that are in my power and i am not helpless #which is annoying #but a good type of annoying #yk the “stupid walk for my stupid mental health” thing #so #hufffffff #che palle #and i cannot “now it's nit the time you have exams to do” my way out of it #urgh #boring

Do you know all of these answers off the top of your head? How much research time does a rules question normally take to answer?

There are a large number of questions that I respond to privately because they’re simpler yes/no questions or they’re questions that I don’t feel that a deeper explanation will make for interesting reading. For these questions, I know the answers without even needing to really think.

For a typical question that gets posted publicly on the blog, I either already know the answer completely or just need to verify the wording of one of the cards that are involved to be sure of things.

I’d say about 1 in 15 of the questions I answer publicly on the blog requires some sort of deeper thought or research on my part, be it consulting the rules or policy documents or actually figuring the scenario out more fully.

There’s probably about one question a week where I need to get a sanity check or otherwise consult with other judges I know to be sure about my answers.

#blog stuff #charlotte speaks #hufffffff

I probably shouldn’t be looking at replacement ideas for my laptop when it’s neither money nor time relevant right now so why am I here

#gotta make the cash and THEN look at how to use it #hufffffff #BACK TO WORK <3

Well it's that time of year where everything gets really bad and I'm restless and just want to lay in bed for days doing nothing or crying And its hitting really hard right now

#hufffffff #remi hush #complaining #I'll get better

Holy fucking shit I just watched the last episode in season 1 of htgawm and I am sO MAD THAT THE ENTIRETY OF SEASON 2 ISNT AVAILABLE YET I need a doctor

#ohmygod i cannot even think rn #im so #HUFFFFFFF

in my head there’s an a frame house in the woods, and i live in it, but it’s not really me, it’s this very pretty trans guy, and he’s tall and he’s got this wonderful curly chestnut hair, and he’s me. and i’m skinny and i don’t even necessarily pass but i’m just nice and andro and attractive. and i’m a freelance writer and i live in this wonderful a frame house with lots of wood and windows and i drink brandy in front of the fire and wear lots of white button down shirts. and i have 3 dogs, i have a really fluffy lassie look alike named steve and a borzoi named kevin that i call kevvy bear and a weenie dog named teddy and i have an egyptian mau named ginsberg and i call him ginsey. i drink lots of brandy and wine and there are lots of candles and i have a claw foot bathtub and a wall that’s just a bookshelf with one of those ladders. and somebody loves me and always comes back home with groceries and needs help and with their arms full i run to them and kiss them on the nose and take some bags from them and help them put the groceries away and we always cook together and laugh and fall asleep together on the couch watching movies and sometimes i carry them to bed because they’re so cute when they’re asleep that i don’t want to wake them up, and they’re short so they’re small and easy to pick up and sometimes they wake up while i’m carrying them but they pretend to be asleep because they love it so much when i carry them and i take them and put them on the bed and put a blanket over them and the cat jumps up and curls up at their feet and then i go read until i fall asleep in the chair and then it’s their turn to come and wake me up and lead me to the bedroom and make sure i take my glasses off before i fall asleep. and then we sleep for a few hours before they wake up and make breakfast and i wake up to the sound of the blender because they know i don’t like eating in the morning so they make me smoothies. and we talk about the news because i don’t pay attention to it, but they do, so i wouldn’t know what was going on if they didn’t tell me. and then they get ready for work and i probably fall back asleep and they wake me up with a kiss on the forehead and place a cup of coffee beside me before they leave so i remember to take a shower and start writing.

#hufffffff