I am awake(? maybe that is a stretch my eyes are simply open) watching nyfw feeling inspired, have none $$ or skills dont need it, thoughts are enough what if i couldnt hold? couldnt speak? all i would have are my thoughts you know. last therapy session might not even be one, reached out to job, told i would get info...waiting on it. therapy scheduled for Mexican independence day. i want to talk about many things but 1. insecurity 2.acceptance 3. childhood anxiety
i know now i want to see my living ancestors less, catholic, and thats to be imagined but the love sticks to something else when they look at you. maybe not mayb i am blowing things up with hot air, hoping the fire whisks it away.
i will be once what fire has always done. my wirsts hurt with no support, instead of desktop holders, they should make gloves with them embedded..! ideas swirling who says posts have to be so short, no one is reading but me oh what a wonderful lonely world ive built.
What more is there to say? i have set up what i needed to and i will be here when i am-- thanks for tuning in!