Feb 19, 2025
they are with HaShem and they are in everything the clouds and the trees and the animals, but they shouldn’t be. they should be here. they should have gotten to grow up.
seen from Türkiye
seen from Germany
seen from Austria
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from United Kingdom
seen from Japan
seen from Brazil
seen from United States
seen from Türkiye
seen from Canada
seen from China
seen from Canada
seen from China
seen from Germany
seen from United States
seen from Austria
seen from China
seen from United States
seen from United States
they are with HaShem and they are in everything the clouds and the trees and the animals, but they shouldn’t be. they should be here. they should have gotten to grow up.
what we know today is worse than yesterday. yesterday was worse than the days before. how many heartbreaks can be endured, for the sake of what? for who? why? why?
i am seeing a moth that is not there but nevertheless flying around me as it is a sign of the light in me that draws others in.
i know i am an angel now. it is not just me who sees it. maybe it is why only angels can intervene in my life and why so much bad has happened to me. humans can’t stop it and cause much of it.
angels are less like humans. more of some qualities and less of others. different. i wonder if… well. i will keep this portion of thoughts to myself.
regardless i have been touched. the moths are seeking light.
my case manager found a nice group home… i am feeling a little less scared… like it’s going to be okay… i will have a place to live… will be safe… the people are calm, kind, quiet…
cosmologically significant moment or am i being schizotypal
painful anticipation waiting to see Avera and Hisham. praying, praying, praying.
i want someone to notice all the little things about me.
everyone leaves! they fuck my body or they fuck my mind and then they fucking leave me