A/N: I’ve noticed it may be a bit confusing with the timeline, so I’m considering writing dates before each paragraph... I’ll have it done by next week. ;)
Previous chapters: 1 | 2 | 3
22/3/2020 - 2:02 am
“Is that how you feel?” He asked.
His reaction caught you off guard and you found yourself speechless.
“Y/N,” he said and looked down before he spoke, “I’m not sure where you got all those accusations from but don’t you think you’re throwing them at me a bit too soon?” He asked.
You closed your eyes and took a deep breath. You wanted to calm yourself down before you spoke again. The guilt washed over you. You felt really bad for what you said. “I’m sorry,” you said, ashamed.
Why did you ruin every good thing in your life? What would he think of you now? You lowered your head and felt apologetic for even bothering him. He didn’t deserve this anger you had locked all up inside yourself.
He went up to you and lifted your chin slowly. The tears ran down your cheeks as you opened your eyes again. But he didn’t look mad at all. His gaze looked at you with warmth.
“I have no idea what you’re struggling with and I’m not saying I’ll ever understand but let me help you with what I can, and I’ll do my best to understand. Even if it means you just need someone to listen,” he said sincerely.
The look in his eyes made you believe every word he spoke.
“I’m sorry,” you whispered. “I didn’t mean to offend you. I don’t know why I said that. I just feel overwhelmed right now, and I’m sorry for letting it out on you,” you continued, “Forgive me.”
You couldn’t grasp the thought of losing him. Without him you would only be left with all of your problems and they would eat you up. You wouldn’t be able to get through every day. Although, it probably was a bad idea to let him distract you from reality, you felt too weak to want otherwise.
“It was my choice to follow you home even when I saw you weren’t in the best mood. Don’t worry, okay? I want to be here for you,” he responded.
“Thank you,” you said.
He let go of your chin and pushed your forehead back playfully, “Now, let’s get you home and sobered up,” he said with a smile.
6/4/2020 - 5:42 pm
That day, he listened to everything you had on your mind. The following week he made sure to call you every now and then. And little by little you opened more up to him. You told him about your struggles and desires, and he listened with care and joy. With time, you also asked him about himself and his life and he slowly opened up to you as well. He had told you that he struggled with being lonely the past few weeks, and that he felt joy helping others when he could. But the reason why he invited you out was not because of that. He pointed that out because what you said had bothered him. He wanted to make sure that you knew he decided to invite you out because he thought you were attractive. When he was told by Hyunwoo that you had some interest he couldn’t hold himself back from asking you out.
It’s been two weeks since that day at the bar. You had received flowers and notes from him on different occasions, reminding you to cheer up and to remember to take care of your health. His small gestures filled your heart with warmth and happiness. You hadn’t got to see him because of tour preparations, but you tried to show your appreciation as much as you could. You had used some of the time, when you were waiting in-between shootings and meetings, to braid a bracelet. You didn’t realize how happy you had become before everyone around you started commenting on it.
“You have ten minutes,” your manager said with a warm smile.
You had asked for permission to stop by Monsta X’s preparation room, and you quickly nodded your head before heading towards it. When you arrived at the door, it was open.
“Y/N?” Minhyuk asked, when he saw you.
“Uh.. I..” Before you could say anything, he interrupted you, “Looking for Hyungwon?” He asked.
You gulped, a bit taken aback that he knew. You didn’t want the information to get into the wrong hands. But you could trust Monsta X, right? They were close friends, almost family, with Hyungwon and you couldn’t imagine them ever wanting to hurt him in any way.
“Yeah,” you replied shyly.
6/4/2020 - 5:51 pm
“Give me your hand, please.” You told Hyungwon, after the two of you found somewhere private to talk.
He did without hesitation, and you pulled up the bracelet from your pocket and placed it in his palm, “It’s for you,” you said.
He looked at it and the corners of his lips raised a bit.
“Don’t laugh,” you said and frowned, “I know it’s not that pretty...”
“It’s pretty,” he said and put it on his wrist. You smiled when you saw it fit him perfectly.
“Thank you for the flowers,” you said.
He smiled, but you could tell something was bothering him. He noticed your worried eyes and stroked your hair.
“Is everything okay?” You asked.
It looked like he was deep in thoughts. He didn’t respond, which made you look at the clock and realize you were late for your schedule.
“Call me, okay?” You said.
He slowly nodded his head and you waved at him before you walked away. How weird, you thought.
Hyungwon knew that he wanted to protect you. He had noticed his feelings for you and your feelings for him kept growing. He didn’t want to let it affect you. He feared your relationship with him would be the end of your career.
9/4/2020 - 2:32 pm
“Shownu!” You called as you saw Hyunwoo.
He turned around surprised and his eyes scouted the room. “Y/N!” He said with a bright smile, when he saw you.
“How are you?” He asked.
“I’m good! Thanks, how are you feeling?” You asked, walking up to him.
“I’m great. I can’t believe we’re almost done promoting your album. I bet you’ll miss seeing this face everyday,” He said, giving you a cheeky smile as he lifted his sunglasses.
“You bet your ass I will miss that face of yours,” you said with a laugh.
“Really? But I guess you’ll miss a certain face more,” he said with a lifted eyebrow.
You pushed his shoulder lightly, embarrassed.
Hyunwoo had turned out to be a protective, responsible and positive person that you could rely on. He felt like an older brother, and for some reason he made you feel safe.
“I actually meant to ask you something,” you trailed off. You felt like he was the only one you could talk about Hyungwon with.
“Anything,” he replied.
“Hyungwon seems a bit off. So I want to surprise him before tour starts, but I’m not sure if it’s a good idea. Do you think he would like it?” You said.
“Sure he would. But what do you mean, “off”?” He asked.
“I just noticed he looks more tired than usual,” you said as you recalled how worn out he looked a while ago, “I don’t want him to overwork himself or worry about anything that is out of his control,” you said, thinking about all the problems you had told Hyungwon about.
Hyunwoo clicked his tongue, “Hm, maybe I should speak to him?” He said.
“You don’t have to,” you stated, “But can I ask you for a favour instead?” You asked.
“Depends,” he said skeptically.
“I was wondering if you were able to secure a free schedule for Hyungwon someday before tour? It’s for the surprise,” you said.
“Count me in,” He said with a wink.
You smiled, “You’re the best.”
He grinned, “Always.”
Hyunwoo succeeded in managing a day off for Hyungwon. However, it was the day before you had to leave for tour. You didn’t want to bother Hyunwoo anymore and appreciated his help. You thanked him and contacted Hyungwon.
Somehow, Hyungwon seemed really cold, when he agreed to meet up. It made you feel a bit more insecure and nervous but you hoped for the best.
18/4/2020 - 1:47 am
You turned the lights off in your room and crawled into bed. It was going to be a long day tomorrow, you thought. It was unimaginably hot so you had pulled out a nightdress and decided to wear only that so you felt more cool and comfortable. Your mom would usually tell you to sleep naked if you felt hot but it made you feel a bit uncomfortable, so a nightdress was perfect for you. Tomorrow, you had to pack your stuff for the tour and prepare your surprise for Hyungwon. So you had to get plenty of sleep tonight.
As you closed your eyes, a sudden knock was heard on your door.
Your eyes shot up. Who would be at your door at 2 am?
You felt a bit scared and listened. Maybe the person would just go away?
You heard the knock again and got up. Were you supposed to keep quiet? You gulped as you walked closer and slowly got the courage to speak.
admittedly i’ve had him for a while, but only now am i adding him to this tumblr.
please meet Hyungwon!
https://instantlyiconic.tumblr.com/hyungwon_bio
have fun with him <3
