7/3/23
Well tomorrow is the 4th of July and the fireworks have already started..
I don’t experience fire works the way I used to, this whole week now gives me anxiety at every turn once I start to experience the effects of all the festivities, I feel a strong urge to get away from everything.
I have none epileptic seizures, I’ve had them for at least two years now.. this has completely changed my life
I have many triggers, two of which are flashing lights and surprising sounds.. the 4th of July now gives me seizures.
I just had my first seizure this year from fireworks, it happened while trying to let my dog out to potty before bed.. it was a bad one, my arms seized so hard I felt as though my right arm might bend to far backwards, I felt an extremely sharp pain in my elbow, I can’t express how scary it is to have your own body hurt itself while you are trying to stop it from happening, but there is absolutely nothing I can do to stop it once it’s starts.
I am really not looking forward to tomorrow night, last year I stayed out in the country for the 4th and did yoga and watched the sunset and I was able to mostly relax and stay away from all of it, but this year I will be in town.
Please think really good safe thoughts for me, I am very nervous about what tomorrow night will bring and how my brain will hold up with all of it.
