#i hate creating

[meandyouinlesdeux]

8/8/25

todays been quiet...whatever. honestly.

i get up at 9 am every day. i called my friend the other day and offered to pick them up from there classes, sense i live legit five minuets from their campus, and theyve said they wanted to sometime, so i wake up at 9 am every day in case todays the day they want me to go get them. i wait for them to go home an hour later, then i go back to bed. so i went back to bed today, woke up at like 5pm ish. i fucked around for a few hours, showered, made dinner, and thats been it. i wanna work on my script, i wanna work on making music...but i actually dont. i just want it *done*. see, hate, hate, hate, hate, HATE, making stuff. i like when its made, but i hate the process. its miserable for me. i hate having to do things. i just want them done, so the second i get bored i usually fuck off and go back to watching youtube or whatever. which means nothing ever gets done. im kind of mad that it keeps happening.

im running out of money. i have no job offers, i have to start working on something, be it music or YouTube, i dont care which. i just need money.

[akamikazae]

*keeps refreshing tumblr every 15 seconds because I'm procrastinating writing as I'm very very stuck and unsure about this direction that I'm about to take the long fic, and have been putting off the decision for at least a two years, but now it's time to decide and I don't know what to do--- also procrastinating drawing because I realized I'd been on the wrong layer for 2 hours and I don't want to think about having to redo it all and or find a way to fix it*

[chrishansenfromdatelinenbc]

Me, looking at hakkencoser or any image ever of Peter nureyev (note: I do not know who that is. I just see them Everywhere): I have to go on T right now RIGHT NOW

[dreamerbunnyyy]

Working on an OCs design is enough to drive me to the nearest asylum, it needs to be PERFECT otherwise I won't get happy, if it's not perfect then why post it, why create a story around a shitty design?? IT NEEDS TO BE GOOD Let me tell y'all, Satan is not real because if he was he would have already signed a contract with me so I could get perfect artistic abilities, I would've sold my soul a LONG time ago bro istg

[a-lil-insect]

Pros of drawing traditionally: more fun! get to use my silly markers and colored pencils! enriching!

Cons: I am Bad at it. So hard. Drawings dont turn out the greatest. Man. How to draw good ?

Pros of drawing digitally: its so easy! drawings turn out super well and my skill is at its current peak! yipee yipee yipee

Cons: boringgg aauuuu where is the joy. where is the getting marker and paint stains on my fingers. where is the feeling of satisfaction and joy of having made something with my hands.

[staywild-wolfchild]

You know, my art blows donkey dick, but my writing used to be sort of ok.

Maybe I need to start writing fanfic instead of butchering Astarion's beautiful face 🥺

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