Pmdd with sevika
She’s your gf and she love you .
Fluff ,comfort,Sevika x reader
Butchfemme relationship,established relationship
You’re having your period soon,the next week probably,it’s not unusual,it’s normal,most uterus owners get periods
What’s not normal is going through the five stage of grief in span of seven days ,yes ,it’s pmdd/pms,pre menstrual dysphoric disorder.
You have it every month ,you know when you have it and get a bad idea like ending everything is “just a phase “,but knowing doesn’t actually make you feel better and it definitely doesn’t lift the big rock of sorrow and gloom on your heart,the feeling of suffocating,wanting to be hit ,or hit someone,it’s very confusing really,you have a hard time understanding yourself let alone describe it to someone else
That’s where conflict rises with sevika , your girlfriend, not that she’s impatient with you or anything,she just doesn’t understand where her sweet loving and gentle spirited girl goes every month and getting swapped by an evil hater ill mannered and short tempered witch -your words,not sevika,she’d scold you if she heard you talk about yourself like that-
So,despite your fears of her not accepting you ,you sat her down one day ,and told her you have pmdd,how your hormone levels completely control your brain chemistry and your brain function,and then you describe how you felt ,empty,numb,depressed,extremely enraged and heated, having self identity crisis ,dysphoria,extremely sensitive and all that without and actual real life event reason so you feel like you’re going insane
Sevika sat down quietly and listened intently ,asked a ton of questions- understandable,and she told you she understand now.
“So you go through hell once a month regularly”
She tried to lighten the mood a bit after you teared up talking and explaining,then reached out and raised your hand and kissed it dearly before interlocking your hands
“I’m so sorry you endure this shit,you totally don’t deserve to be in this mess,you don’t deserve the pain,is there anything I could do to help? Is there any medication that helps?treatments?”
You smiled warmly through your swelled up eyes and tightened your hands in hers
“Having you with me and understanding me eases my pain and worries by a lot ,love. And no,there are no direct treatments,I can take mood stabilizer like SSRIs,but I don’t wanna go that route unless I actually have to “
Sevika nodded in understanding and then grabbing into her lap ,telling you she’d take good care of you now that she’s aware and that it doesn’t make you any less of complicated in her eyes at all ,of course all that while her hands warmed up your body in admiration and her drowning you in kisses and laughter in a way that made you feel like you never experienced any sadness or pain in your life,she had this kinda effect on you
Now ,you can say she didn’t disappoint at all,she’d actually mark when you will have your period so she knows when you’re pmsing,and treat you extra specially and carefully in that time,she cares for you sleep schedule a lot ,making sure to tire in fun activities like going for a walk saying she simply wanna walk with you or turning the music on and asking you for a dance -sevika hated to dance,that’s kinda like last resort for her- or ask you simply to go with her to the gym,or spice things up between you and wreck you completely,you always get sleepy after spicy scenes,this way you’d be in bed before 10pm begging for sleep
Next,your diet,she’d start taking over the kitchen at those times,you would be too tired anyway to cook or function,she makes sure you’re having high nutritional value foods-especially protien and magnesium rich food,it was tiring everyday coming up with new recipes with good nutritional values that you actually like,but sitting down and watching you get happy and giggly when you taste the delicious food literally makes her day and makes her want to cook more just to see you all giddy
Of course,even with all this structure,you still could all the complex emotions that makes you irrational and confused,that unintentionally you take out on sevika,not that you mean to hurt her,you always feel hella awful when you act bad with sevika - mostly ignoring her,snapping at her,accusing her of made up scenarios,trying to light arguments with her-and you hate yourself for it ,but sevika is patient,she’d ignore you ignoring her in a gentle non-punishing way,giving you space , not talking back when you’re snapping-or simply saying that you’re right and she sorry,whatever she thinks will put you at ease, assuring her completely that she loves you in any and every scenario and that even in “if” situation she won’t do you dirty,and she keeps sheepishly silent when you try to argue ,listening to you actually and hearing you ,reminding you that these are not your thoughts and she’s not against you
Truly,9 out of 10 times you get your pms it goes on a lot more peaceful and less stressing that sometimes you just think you don’t have it anymore,all that thanks to sevika .
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Okay yeah im pmsing so bad i have to imagine Sevika comforting me ,and yall it helps,in Sevika magic i trust .
This for all my pmsing girlies out there
