#i'm blathering

[itspileofgoodthings]

just the tighter you hold on, the more you need to let go. the only freedom is in release. you have to. you have to LET GO. you have to let go of the things you want so badly 

[gayassdbz]

I'm watching Gilmore girls and while it makes me miss my sister but boy I love this show

[graysonsnightwing]

I gave my friend an Assassin's Creed book for Christmas today, and she was so happy she almost cried and just her look made me happy. Now she's texting me to tell me the book is awesome and beautiful, and even if I tried, I couldn't have made her happier. She's had some rough times, and just thinking about her happiness I'm melting

[meanderfall]

Also can there please be a fic with Gabriel interacting with all sorts of biblical figures? (yes i know, timeline-wise it wouldn’t really work, but the entire timeline is completely fucked anyway so what does it matter?)

I really really want because like, this would be pre-fall of Lucifer wouldn’t it? This would be Gabriel before he became hurt and bitter and cynical. How would he even interact with them? The same sort of detachment that the other angels have? Or is he playful and curious? God’s soldier, but prone to mischief?

Maybe that’s why he grew curious in the first place. Because you’re supposed to listen to God and do what He says. But here we have a whole bunch of mortals constantly challenging God and asking Him questions. Still faithful but almost defiant sometimes in attitude.

[ba-in-bs]

You know, for the longest time I thought it was just my sense of awkwardness that made it impossible for me to take a “compliment” from strangers - and then I realized that it was an effect of me not realizing or being comfortable with my body being up for commentary 24/7.

[yeahwellyourface]

I met a guy yesterday.  And it was through work, so there was no way I was going to hit on him.  And he was incredibly polite and wasn't hitting on me.  So, it wasn't a bad situation like that.  But we talked and it was so much fun.  We had very similar interests, he's a little older than me, but not much, so it's not creepy, and it was nice.  He is also very happily married.  He said so from the beginning and there was no confusion about that.  And I have no problem with that.  I am happy for him and his wife and I wish the best for them!  

But it was interesting how I think we both felt a little sad.  Like neither of us wanted anything bad to happen to his marriage, the conversation wasn't even like that.  But it was definitely one of those moments in life where you wonder "what if."  If things had been different.  If we had met before he met his wife.  If they had never settled into a life together.  It's our own little AU.  I may or may not see him again, and that's okay.  

But it's just so fascinating how we have these moments in life when you meet someone, or there's a small change somewhere along your path, and things could be different.

[therearenohooksinme]

uh 

crushes are so weird 

when I was in junior high I used have this huge crush on this guy a year older than me. we even lived on the same street and I used to be able to walk home from school and he'd walk with me 

one time I was walking home and he came up behind me and like "you walk so fast, it's hard to keep up with you." we also sung together in choir (which met every other day for rehearsal so I guess that's where the crush came from) and one of my friends back then told me he might have liked me back... 

nothing ever came out of it though 

in high school I never had a crush of similar intensity... there were people I was attracted to, but no one who made me feel they way the guy in junior high did 

or so i thought 

now here I am in my first year of university wondering why I never knew that I had a crush on this person 

maybe because it's the type of crush that feels subtle one day and completely encompassing another... 

like, (if you feel that sort of attraction) sometimes you look at your friends and you think, 'damn you're fine' 

and looking at this person now, I feel the same way i did then, only now I know about how I feel and it's odd? like a good kind of odd because thinking of this person makes me think stuff like: 

"I like you a lot... I could also grow to like you more" and "there's so much good in you" and "I could spend time chilling with you like lying in a park somewhere and I wouldn't even complain"? 

and seeing people reblog or talk about their crushes used to make me happy because I like seeing other people happy, but now that happiness is also because I feel I can relate because oh my god

but the idea of someone having a crush on me seems absurd because for the longest time, though I could acknowledge that there were some attractive parts of me, I never thought that anyone could (at the risk of sounding like a kid in kindergarten) like me 

and even if someone admitted it to me i'd stay up wondering if they actually meant it? Like hearing someone talk about their crush and wondering, are they talking about me? They might, but I can't be sure... like someone could say they have a crush on me, talk about this crush and i would feel like: 

I don't have the right to think that they're talking about me 

//lies down

[embwood]

Equestrian challenge day 25

Your dream trailer: Huh. So embarrassing Emma moment. I haven't actually taken a horse off property in a long time. And the two occasions I did I just went trail riding. In any case, trailers aren't really my top concern. But if pressed, I'd get a really big ramp trailer so Hessel can fit on it comfortably and eat hay to his heart's content. And there would be a separate tack room for all Hessel's fancy stuff. And I'd hitch it to my minivan for shits and giggles. And people would laugh. Until I unload the gorgeous Fresian that is Hessel and we'd win at any competition.