#i'm easily scared

[wanderingmind867]

Some people have PTSD from war. I don't have that. But I do have vivid memories of all the horror media I've experienced in my lifetime, and I think I may have something like PTSD from that. There was this horror show I had a hyperfixation with online once. I obsessed over it for months. Then I had constant nightmares and a fear of sleeping. The fear has tamped down a tiny bit, but the memories...they remain. Vivid images of the nightmares remain seated in my soul. And it makes me wish I could just black out all the horror memories forevermore.

I don't like this. I don't know how other people deal with this. Do other people find horror so easy to deal with? I wish I knew. I wish I could find some way to handle all of this better. sigh...

I wrote this recently, but it didn't get any notes. So I'm reposting it, if just because I want to know that people understand how much thing that scare me are lodged in my head. It's awful.

[konigsblog]

gaz is easily frightened for someone who's enlisted in the military. (i may, or may not be inserting myself here...)

you could easily scare him, especially by tickling his sides or the back of his neck. if he's busy working in his office on some reports that are due, tickle him, and watch him let out a high-pitched scream and jump out of his skin...

[vafa1808]

I'm the only one who has this for covering the screen on spooky week?? (The little one is for when I read the comments tho)

[wanderingmind867]

Is there a fear of everything? If so, then I have it I almost certainly do Because I can be nervous about anything And I don't know how I'm supposed to deal with that

I'm scared of heights Scared of storms Scared of darkness Scared of being alone

I'm afraid of horror movies Afraid of horror games Afraid of horror generally

I've been put off of puppets Put off of stop motion Put off of classic animation All by different horror themed things

Loud noises make me flinch I almost scream when people walk up behind me I jump a foot in air each time

I'm a paranoid fellow A neurotic fool Stress could kill me at any time

I don't know why other people aren't like this, too I feel like I'm the only one living with constant frayed nerves Constant stress Constant fear Constant unease and distress

[wanderingmind867]

I'm easily scared, and yet sometimes dark things can appeal to me. It's why I make no sense to myself! I jump at shadows, but I can enjoy the odd poem by Edgar Allen Poe or shows like The Munsters, The Addams Family and other dark comedies. Shel Silverstein was a weirdly dark poet sometimes, and I don't hate all his work. I love some ghost type pokemon. I love Henry in Fire Emblem Awakening.

But horror movies and video games and stuff can sometimes leave me with nightmares for months at a time. I'm sensitive. But I think things I can find relatable or whimsical are what keep me around.

What's the connection between the things I mentioned? I think it's that they're more whimsical or relatable than pure horror. When I think horror, I think of things that unsettle me or trick me. Things that seem innocent, but trick me and traumatize me. Coraline did that. That british horror thing with puppets seemed innocent, but it was a trap. The trap snares me and disturbs me permanently. Jumpscares, gore, psychological horror, it all gets to me.

But these other things aren't that bad. Edgar Allen Poe has some really scary stuff, but some of it is just sad. The Munsters and The Addams Family are intensely silly and whimsical with their creepy stuff. If it's about monsters or about dark things with a gleeful tone...that isn't scary. Whimsy usually overpowers there.

So I'm a riddle, even to myself. But I think there's a thin line between scary and charming, and I never know how to draw the line.

[wanderingmind867]

Some people have PTSD from war. I don't have that. But I do have vivid memories of all the horror media I've experienced in my lifetime, and I think I may have something like PTSD from that. There was this horror show I had a hyperfixation with online once. I obsessed over it for months. Then I had constant nightmares and a fear of sleeping. The fear has tamped down a tiny bit, but the memories...they remain. Vivid images of the nightmares remain seated in my soul. And it makes me wish I could just black out all the horror memories forevermore.

I don't like this. I don't know how other people deal with this. Do other people find horror so easy to deal with? I wish I knew. I wish I could find some way to handle all of this better. sigh...

[sproutswings]

archive 81 is so good! fiction podcasts my beloved

[adbrien]

When I'm alone downstairs at night and I hear weird noises :

The rational part of my brain : Don't worry, it's just your family upstairs or the wood is cracking, you know, the usual.

The paranoid part of my brain : GHOOOOOOOOOOOOST!!!!