#the loudest

[osclogy]

[batwynn]

I had a pretty bad day yesterday (too sick to push through read the news dreading going back to bigot land to live in a tent) so I grumped around in bed most of the day until I couldn’t stand even that anymore and stomped outside into the night to spend an hour looking for frogs and hanging out with the perpetually single Woodcock.

100/10 experience and highly recommended. Did not cure me, but snapped me out of the trapped feeling for a while. So, you know, touching grass hunting for frogs and chillin with a bird should definitely be a part of your mental health tool kit.

[scuderiamint]

red bull racing hatecriming max verstappen on the first day of pride month with that horrendous tire strategy

i said Oh Im Sure

[speedyboyehlers]

this is very old-- and we’re still very loud-- i love my winnipeg <3

[ermalmoodotd]

Today’s mood: glad to see Ermal has added some new hideous shirts and glasses to his collection

[nerdyskeleton]

hooooooly shit i love you fic so much i fell into blackmadhi hell the other day and i!!!!! love your fic!!!!! so very much!!!!!!!!!!! it so freaking cute and funny and you managed to make a case in each chapter which is damn impressive. keep up the amazing work askd;fla

AHHHH oh my god thank you so so much! that makes me so happy to hear I’m gonna pass out. I’m glad you find it funny! I try so hard to put humor in when I can and I always hope it’s successful but never am entirely sure haha. also the cases are so hard I don’t know why I did that to myself lmao

but seriously I’m like sobbing my eyes out thank you so much for this!! (also the wedding planner is great A+, although I’m behind on the updates rip)

[loudwritings]

You haven’t even seen the end yet, not that you’d care.

You knew it would end this way. You knew that text would lead to me wanting to stay. How could you be so fucking careless? The way you disregard my heart doesn’t make sense. The way I allow you to is reckless. But how could you be so fucking selfish?

What were you thinking that night? When you told me everything would be alright, I believed you. I fucking believed in you. I never imagined you’d treat me like this. I guess it comes with the curse of a wish.

Pennies & stars filled the better part of five years, dreaming you’d come back & erase my fears. Fear that you forgot the memories I never can, fear that I’ll never again call you my man.

Your return filled my heart with a love I’ve hardly known, until you crushed me like a hammer to stone. Standing at your feet I would’ve given you my all, but from the start you were plotting my fall.

So now I stand here with the pieces in my hand, of a heart who’s only mistake was loving the wrong man. Only, this isn’t a lesson from which I can learn. You broke my heart & left me to burn.

[loudwritings]

Whoa, this is not where I thought this was going...

I need to get it all out. I need to write this down. I want so badly to text this to you, but I don’t even know what I want to say.. So maybe this will help. To my readers, I’m sorry. This is going to get messy. But then again, so is my life. Sooo here we go.

You say you don’t understand why things went the way they went. You say you don’t understand why she used & manipulated you just to get her own mind right. You say you don’t understand how someone can lift someone up so much & get nothing in return. You say you don’t understand how you were always there for her, & she took your love & ran it into the ground. You say she wasn’t appreciative. You say she wasn’t understanding. You say she didn’t try to give you what you gave her. You say all you did was give & all she did was take. You say when she got all she wanted, she disappeared like a ghost in the wind. You say you don’t get how someone can do someone like that.

Well can I ask you something? What makes you so damn different from the bitch that broke your heart? What gives you the right to tear me apart the same way she did you? You don’t understand, can’t understand, so floored that someone can be so fucking heartless. You got exactly what you deserved if you ask me. You’ve taken my love and shredded it to pieces ever since I’ve known you. Even now, after you’ve felt a piece of what you’ve been dishing out all this time, you still want to ruin me. If you ask me, you deserve more than what she did to you. If you ask me, you didn’t get enough.

You still haven’t learned your lesson on how to love someone. Maybe you truly loved her, & maybe I’m just not good enough for your love... but knowing the kind of hell she put you through, & then using me the same fucking way is absolutely heartless. If you can’t see how you’re doing me worse than she ever did you, then you’re an idiot. If you can’t see how you’re hurting me worse than she ever hurt you, then you deserve every bit of what she did & so much more.

I’ve loved you through every fucking step of this bullshit. I know it’s pathetic, & I’m trying to get over it... But if you have any respect for me, or any belief in karma, please let me go. It’s so fucking obvious that you’ll never be ready to accept the love I’ve been trying to give you all these years. It’s so fucking obvious that you’ve never wanted anything except late nights from me. So please just leave me alone - for good this time. I don’t want these games. I wanted to be with you. I wanted a life with you, but your only goal is to use me to pass time. I’m so tired of being the girl you reach out to when you’re lonely. I’m so tired of being there for you when you need me. Either be there for me, or step the fuck away from me.