Does anyone else suffer morbid curiosity? I'm sure someone else does on this planet of billions, but i'm looking for validation for my ability to scare myself. When something freaks me out, I often get an urge to want to know what it was. And even when it doesn't scare me at first, I go down a rabbit hole and end up giving myself trauma of a most severe variety. Since that deltarune game has been everywhere lately, it feels like it reopened the part of me that once might've fixated on undertale many years ago. Before you ask: I never played the game; I merely watched a couple playthroughs. And that game feels like a perfect example of morbid curiosity in action. Why? Well, because my other examples are too scary to mention. This one is at least somewhat tame. So let's get in with it.
Undertale was a game of unanswered questions, yeah? Well, my brain can't sit still with unanswered questions. When i first heart people talking about that gaster character (about other mysteries too, this is just the one i'm using as an example), it made me feel like I needed to know more. And guess what. Just guess. Everytime I saw photos of that character, my brain would flinch with fear. The more I learned, the worse I felt. But I couldn't stop. I got my answers, but I also got a lifetime of fear. And I don't even remember my answers now, so look at how useful it fucking was!
So there. See the power of morbid curiosity? Have you too felt it's pull? And if you have, how do you resist it? Because I feel like the only way to fight it would be to get parental controls, but for horror. I don't need sexual parental controls. I need ones for horror, ones I can use as a grown adult so I don't have nightmares. I also feel like having someone available to summarize everything for me would be a good complementary aid. If I can't look it up, and I can only get a truthful but watered down version of things from other people, I think I'd be safe. So whenever you hear me saying I wish I could block out all horror media, know that things like these are why I say those things.
