#iamnotanexperiment

[psychotic-psypport]

Hi. I have a long history of bpd/trauma. My psychiatrist told me recently that I might be having the early stages of a psychotic episode bc I realised that I'm in an experiment and being watched with cameras. Do you have any advice for showering when I feel like I'm being watched? It makes me feel rlly humiliated and dirty. Thank you. If I don't count as psychotic that's okay too and please just ignore this then!!

I have these thick curtains on my window, because that was a place of concern for me, so maybe you need to look at some better shower curtains, so you can feel more covered. Some thicker ones, and maybe something you can put over the top of the shower? If that's possible. Other than that, I would suggest that you get a swimsuit that you can wear in the shower, so you spend as little time without clothes as possible.

I also want to say that I believe you absolutely count. You don't have to have a psychotic disorder in order to have episodes or features or elements of psychosis. Psychosis is psychosis to me, and you are 100% valid.

Along with that, I would never delete your message even if you weren't psychotic. I'm here to talk and I'm always going to welcome anyone who needs to talk to someone. I'd be honored for them to choose me, and I will never turn my nose up at the opportunity to help. Everyone is welcome here, anyone who isn't psychotic just has to be drinking their respect psychotic people juice in this house.

[aprilthebookqueen]

Azure, turquoise, cotton candy? Hope you're doing okay April 💚

azure: favorite type of flower

Lilies! 

turquoise: favorite art work

I am not super well-versed in art work that most people might understand. But, it is a form of art and I am a HUGE fan of venus figurines. (Also an anthropology nerd, but...)

cotton candy: favorite tv show

It’s hard to choose just one, but if I had to choose just one... I’d go with Buffy the Vampire Slayer. This is because it is the show that helped me through when I was really struggling.

If I can have a couple others, the Haunting of Hill House blows my mind. Also the 100 (Though it got less interesting when the Lexa thing happened, but I will still love Octavia to the end of time.)

I am doing okay. Thank you so much. <3 

[psychotic-psypport]

Good luck with your application! I’m sure you’d do amazing at that job, you seem like such a caring person.

Thank you!! I appreciate the message :)

[psychotic-psypport]

Hey some more suggestions to pack for getting admitted to psych: comfy clothes with no laces/ties/strings and preferably no pockets. Comfort objects like stuffed animals or blankets or religious items. Entertainment as you said, books and card games are good, phones are usually not allowed but sometimes radios are. Snacks and a drink if you're going to be sitting in the emergency dept, it can take hours. Generally don't bring headphones, chargers or devices with cameras. Hope this helps 💜💙💚

Thank you for your contribution!

For anon!!

[meansofgrace]

I loved loved Novitiate - it’s about a young postulant deciding whether to be a nun during Vatican II, trigger warning for some eating disorder content though.

oh i’ve heard of this one it sounds good!! thank you!

[martindykewood]

Hi Martin!! I'm sorry you're feeling anxious. What are you most looking forward to about going back to work? Also, I've been trying to get into tma but I can't quiteeee get into it, is there an episode where it 'clicked' for you?

for now theyre registering kids week by week so im hoping in future weeks that some of the kids will be from my school bc so far theyre all from other schools in the district which. theyre good of course but im hoping i can see some of my kids at some point. 

as for tma there isnt a particular ep where it clicked, bc i listened to four seasons in six days, but there are def ways to streamline it i think. u can read the transcripts if u have trouble listening, or u can skip certain eps if u want. theres like, if you want to get to the plot there are certain eps that are rly important, or if you would rather focus on the anthology aspect of it there are certain eps that are just very engaging. it depends on what youre looking for rly and what part of it isnt rly working for you?