#ic ramble

[militibus-ex-umbra]

"I am so lonely. All of the other employees Shido has are scared of me. No one talks to me. No one wants to be my friend, they think I am unstable."

"They send me from target to target committing mental shutdowns and psychotic breakdowns in their name. And as I get better at it, they fear me more and more… I am a victim of my own success."

"Black Mask… I don’t even get a real name, only an alias. I am capable of so much more and no one sees it."

"Some days I feel so alone I could cry but I don’t, I never do, because what would be the point? Not a single person in the entire universe would care."

"Take it to your grave."

[fighting-shadows]

Carlos: "I like the type of folklaw where you'll have say for example some guy who goes through a trauma at the hands of cruel people who wouldn't accept him cause he's sorta quirky in some way... lets say for example sake he feeds the crows. So the towns people heckle him and dude runs away like- you laugh now, but you won't be laughing when I come back and eat your kids! And from that point on when ever anyone sees crows around they lock up their kids like- oh no! Crows! Dave the birdman is here to eat our kids! And it just goes on in legend forever more even if nobody's kids actually got ate"

"What do we learn from these legends? Don't be a prick! Fuckers wouldn't be dangerous if people had been a little nicer to em!"

[ask-mater-dolorosa-blog]

I wo+nder if Kanny knew abo+ut Psi and me.

[pangoxpangolin-blog]

Oh well, I won’t sweat these silly questions I’m just gunna maintain my calm composure, after all they call me Mr.Calm. Actually no one calls me that I’m just being silly.

[the-cold-general-blog]

The bear awakens.

After returning from the spring festival, Aleksei seemed to have changed. He seemed more distant than usual. Colder. More preoccupied. And seemed to spend less and less time in the armory and training grounds, and more in his office. All while forbidding everyone to speak to him, and as the general, only the king would be able to negate this order. But for the king of Haliano to catch wind of this, someone would have to talk to him, indirectly ignoring the order he put out. That was how he saw it anyway. So he assumed, that for now, he could continue to work. But work on what? That was a mystery for all but him. Not even his most trusted subordinates knew. But it was no secret that it would be something big. Something huge! Something that would send a shock throughout Haliano, and possibly even throughout Pervale. But that point was still a while away. For now, he stayed mysteriously locked away from everyone.

[saintedfury]

So Tired

[The note I have on this piece says it was a prompt reply, though I did not note who sent it, and posted in September of 2015]

Every time I close my eyes I can see his face. Hear the whimpers with every breath. Remember the way he struggled to be strong, to ‘be a man.’ He just wanted to prove himself. To the end he wanted to prove himself.

In the end, he was the one that knew what to do better than me. I was too slow, too poor a shot.

Why didn’t I take Johnny with? They wouldn’t have gotten a block and they certainly wouldn’t have gotten five.

Maybe then [there is a deep dark scratch through several lines and multiple layers of ink as if the page had been scratched at in rage.]

Carlos deserved better. He was a good kid.

Why the hell did you even let him join?????? [The question marks continue for several lines.]

It’s your fault. Not just because you pulled the trigger. He’d be alive if not for you.

[More deep dark lines mar the paper’s surface—eventually they lead toward a single word inked over several times]

BUTCHER!!

That’s what they call me. I never paid it much heed. But it’s true. Maybe I am the monster they say I am. Evil. Cold-hearted bitch. Angry orphan. Thief. Bloodthirsty. Murderer. Heartless. Whore. Vicious. Butcher.

The Butcher of Stilwater—blood-soaked, sadistic monster.

That’s me.

***

Of all people I expected he would understand.

After Aisha he was in the same hole. Nights when he couldn’t sleep, couldn’t keep the pain under control he’d end up in the same kinds of places. On the docks, in the basements of bodegas and warehouses across town, in what people who didn’t know better called the “wrong side of the tracks” (in Stilwater there was no wrong side).

I swear if I have to tell him I’m not going back to the medics again I’m going to scream!

I know he’s concerned and he’s just wants to take care of me, like I would him or Troy. But he should know. He should get it

Maybe it is just masochistic bullshit.

I’m just tired of the argument.

Troy told me once that he thinks I just feel an irrational need to punish myself.

My grandfather always told me pain reminded you that you weren’t dead. Maybe I just want to feel alive, lose myself in my own damn pulse.

[eldritch-sanctum]

“That”

“That was quite an adventure, wasn’t it?”

“I shall be a cat again soon.  First I have some business to take care of that requires appendages.”

[big-bad-bowser]

You know what makes this king mad? When people tell me I'm an easy boss, you know what how is it even fair if Mario can go invincible huh?

I recently got to use a power ups against him too, I wonder how MARIO would like it if I curb stomped him with an invincibility leaf?! Some call me cheater, unfair, nasty, and cruel, but I've been playing this game more fair than Mario since day one!!