#idkwhyimhere

[ldk-why-lm-here]

I'm afraid to turn off the light at night

Not because I'm scared of the dark

The dark has never bothered me

Instead I'm afraid that once I'm alone,

led in the dark with nothing but my thoughts

All that can't touch me in the day

will come, find me and pounce

Catching me while I'm vulnerable

All the anxious thoughts will come running,

charging at me

And I, defenceless, will be able to do nothing

except for cry.

Cry because of everything I've ever done and everything that I haven't

while my brain fights itself,

torn in two,

convincing me I'm awful

and reassuring me that I am not.

So I keep the light on

and stop myself from sleeping

until I can't stay awake any longer

then I suffer from tiredness

all day long

and the cycle repeats

day after day

night after night.

- 𓆟

[weiologist]

It’s Wei韡!

I made the mistake of making my art tumblr my secondary blog even though I don’t really use the old one. And now I found out that you can’t promote your secondary to primary. 

So I just deleted my old (trash) tumblr account and created a new one in hopes that I could make it my primary blog of my new account (but that didn’t work). So now I’m stuck here. Might not bother using this, maybe??

Find me on my art tumblr @weiology. 

[ask-omori-ageswap]

epicly puts a lot of eggs back into maria backpack like a boss

maria...

[ldk-why-lm-here]

I miss who I used to be,

when I knew who I was and what I wanted to be.

When I felt like me.

Recently I thought I had that back

I knew who I was and what I wanted to be

Best of all I felt like me,

But that was only briefly

A quick tease of the way things could be.

Now I'm back to acting like someone else wishing I could help it

Will I ever feel that again?

Will I forever be stuck in a cycle of finding myself and losing me again?

I think the worst thing I'll ever lose is myself

- 𓆟

[ask-omori-ageswap]

dare someone to steal someone else property for pie

I'm so stupid

[ldk-why-lm-here]

What am I supposed to think

When I see so many people and companies

Use and hurt the people that work for them

While they watch, believing that these lives

are less valuable than their own because of

the country they're from.

When I see the people I once looked up to

Being exposed as abusers and criminals

That use their status

As leverage to gain power over the ones who

trust them

When I see normal people like me

Turn a blind eye to the horror and hatred that

is happening around them

Not doing their part to help the world we're

all appart of

It's hard to want to keep going

And trust that there is good in the world.

- 𓆟