#ihopeyouneverseethis

[ladidadadida]

Look, I'm not paying google for more cloud storage space, and I don't want to actually get rid of my photos. I don't post on any actual socials (you know the ones where people you know can actually see you). I have an actual tumblr.hell and all but I just sorta wanted to nest this away from it. I have a hard time getting rid of photos that bug me or remind me, but I also don't look at them. This one was.... Rough. To put it lightly. TBC in another post before i delete it out of my drive and off my devices for good

[endogenous-morphine]

I'm 21 and I still haven't learned to deal with my emotions. I build them up like towers and let them weigh me down.

[themisfortunateking]

Three things that have remained relatively constant in my life:

1. I am selfish 2. I hurt 3. I royally fuck things up

[sojokes111-blog]

I'm drunk

i have no idea what to think of anything anymore I want 'I did type your name her but then edited it out oops' to be here n I don’t want to have to leave as soon as he does fuckmyself always timing I’m the worst for it and the shitty part is that I don’t even realize that I’m in a wierd way doing it to myself if you back up “why” all these shitty events in my life happen it’s all my fault I hate it , it makes me hate myself and wanting and doing are different things words are turning into nothing I need something real at some point

[galingmo]

Pushin' me to the breaking point ..

Lately, I've been thinking a lot about the past. It's not uncommon for me to over think things but this .. this just takes the cake. It's been so long, but I really can't forget what we had. At that point of my life, when you were in it .. I felt like I was on top of the world. Everything was going right for me. I felt like I had no problems and I didn't have to worry about a single fucking thing in the world. That's how much of an affect you had on me. You may never realize it, heck, you probably don't even give 2 shits about me but I truly did feel this thing they called "love" .. It's fucked up. I can't get over it, I've been through little crushes but to be honest, you were always in the back of my mind at the end of day. I constantly ask myself "what if" ? It haunts me daily and it's amazing I'm still not over this. I've tried multiple times to rekindle whatever we had before but it's clear you want no part of it .. it hurts but I'm one of those people who believe shit happens for a reason. I miss you though .. I truly do miss you. 

"Can't help but think about it all the time .. and you know what's on my mind" - J.Cole