I’m done with not being able to sleep at night. I feel bad about the things i have done in my life to many people. Most of those people wont even see my apology. Others will know what i am talking about. I am so sorry for the thins that i have done to piss people off and upset them. I never meant any harm. I am sorry. And i know that that wont make anything better. The people that I have wronged have probably forgotten about me or what I did to them. That’s good, they have moved on. But i cant let the past go that easily.I carry thing with me that I hate every single fucking day. I know that people will look at this and get angry with me and say “That everyone goes through shit. You’re not special”
I’m not trying to be special. I want to feel better. This post doesnt make me special. I know i dont deserve it, but I am lucky to have at least half of my family love me. People who know me personally might think that since Im saying sorry that Im going to commit suicide. I am NOT. I am getting better, and want to continue on that path. Within the last 5 months, ive switched schools and gotten better grades, I am happier than before, I get to see my cousins children grow, Ive gotten a girlfriend, which is huge for me and I love her to pieces. In order for me to continue on this upward trend, I need to forgive myself and apologize to those Ive done wrong.
I am sorry. I hope you have a good life ahead of you,
