Apr 30, 2016
I'm stupid. I'm a horrible disappointing sister. I let down the only person who made me feel important. I'm high. I'm so fcking crossfaded rn I could throw up. Things are moving in slow motion. If I pay attention to one thing for long enough, it will start feeling like it never ends. The drive here was bad. It was so bad & im never doing that again. I'm learning from this shitty experience now, to not do anything around her. I broke her heart. I'm a price of shit. I don't even want to talk to anyone. I just want to sleep & hurt myself for by telling myself I've failed at something that should never be failed at. Telling myself how sad alma looked & sounded. I need a barfbag.
