"Most of the time people come into consciousness by having an oppositional Force, because of something they've done incorrectly or something they've been holding on to that causes them to build a resistance or blockage; disruption. The more of this we face the more it opens us up as a vessel and as a mind or an intelligence. It's easy to fall into consciousness, what's hard is to return back to unconsciousness, but then again consciously we do it, because to die is all we know, and in order to know ourselves we must live to experience death again; quite beautiful the entanglement is between the two, just as the sun and the moon balancing each other so perfectly. So it's more prevalent for a wicked man to know or to have a sense of knowingness gnosis than it is for a holy man to know. Holy is already in sync and in tune with the finite infinite. Wicked is awake because its eyes have been forced. Therefore to know, is to know that I am wicked ensnared with desire, lust, and flaw. This imperfection is my perfect design, because through this flaw, I find a trapdoor back to myself. It is through the gate of death and the doors of corruption that I forge myself a holy man. So all really must be one, as this original sin or the sin of knowing by sinning is enternal return and a self generated cycle through ignorance one finds knowledge. It's true that I didn't get into this place of knowing by being holy. It was by narcissism, wickedness, and corruption that I found consciousness; myself crucified, so by no means does it make a man holy but it can make a sinner into a whole man or a man whole. Opinion and perception, are the tricksters misleading and guiding us incorrectly, and snaring us, trapping us to fall into ignorance by thinking we already understand. Through the flaw I am forced to remember that this flaw is still holy, as consciousness is a temporal paradox. In a way the higher self kills the lower self so that it can be saved; paradoxical is its nature."
~ SpinallySpiraling
