fic where rookie luca is billeting with his captain ilya and one day, when ilya is out, a package arrives. it doesn't have a name on it, just ilya's address, and luca was expecting something in the mail, so he takes it to his room and opens it. inside the discreet shipping box is another box with a brand that luca recognizes. he has some toys of the same brand squirreled away in a box inside a bag in the closet of his room in ilya's house.
there's a note inside, taped pristinely on the inner box. it's thanking the customer "roz" for his patience and support while they ensured to fulfill his order with the highest quality materials, as well as adding a link to their website with the request that he fill out a survey related to the molding and customer service process. what? molding?
luca knows he shouldn't open the next box. he's already gone too far; he should just put the box where ilya would find it and maybe he'd be able to meet his captain's eyes in a few years. he knows this. he still opens the box.
he's not sure what he expects or anticipates, but he still chokes a little on his own breath when he peels the tape off the box and it's a dildo. not just any dildo, though, and not like luca's--his are plain, brightly colored things with the default textures that they came off the production line with. luca's aren't nine inches long and thick enough that his hole clenches in a horny kind of terror. luca's don't have the uneven veins that he's only seen up close in porn. he takes another look at the note, at where it thanks roz for his patience with the molding process. this isn't just any dildo.
this is ilya rozanov's cock.
he's seen it before in the showers--it's hard not to, even when luca avoids it at all costs for fear of popping a boner in front of the entire centaurs roster and god himself--but fuck, he's never seen it hard like it must've been when ilya made the mold of it.
he really, really should give this back. fuck, he's probably sending it to his girl, the one he refuses to talk about but always texts with that enamored look on his face. he could give it back and apologize and lie that he thought it was his and suffer the humiliation of having to explain that he likes it up the ass, as much as it would be awful and roz would be mad at him for it. he could throw it away and pretend it never happened.
he does none of these. he takes it in his hand and feels the weight of it, brushes a finger along a vein that he imagines would pulse on the real thing. instead, he takes it to his on suite bathroom and turns on the shower.
a few hours later, ilya asks him if luca had seen any packages come, saying that he was expecting a delivery today. heart racing and throat aching, luca has to clear his sore throat. he says no.
he doesn't know that ilya has a camera on his porch.
luca probably reacted to ilya rozanov dating/hookup rumors the same way fangirls in 2012 reacted to one direction getting girlfriends or being seen with a girl
going absolutely feral, foaming at the mouth, so jealous he could barely sit still, that feeling of dread and that ball of despair in his stomach
Luca slips up and calls Ilya some variation of Dad/dy in front of the Cens and everyone jokes it off and grins at how cute/how very high school it is, meanwhile Ilya just starts making a 25 step plan on how to get Luca into his bed. (He only reaches about step 3 before Luca caves)
what are ur thoughts on how ilyuca might go down in the most angsty and grey shaded manner using canon interpretations?
As much as I love sweet ilyuca fics and haasollanov fics and love to read them... I think if ilyuca went down at ALL, with canon exactly as it is, it would be inherently angsty and grey shaded AT BEST.
Even looking past the Shane of it all, canonically, Ilya IS going through it with his depression at the time that he and Luca have their first one on one conversations that go anywhere beyond hockey. Canonically, Luca did grow up idolizing Ilya and it isn't clear whether he's entirely grown out of that. And, as much as fanon Luca loves to freespirit and explore, canonically Luca tells Ilya explicitly that he isn't looking to just hook up and have sex.
SO for them to have anything that ISN'T questionable, Ilya would have to be broken up with Shane first, he'd need to be examining his options in therapy to ensure he's not just self-soothing OR self-destructing by pursuing Luca, and he'd have to have an honest conversation with Luca about what they're doing.
For the MOST angsty and morally grey option?
I think, obviously, Ilya wouldn't be broken up with Shane. Maybe he'd mention Luca in therapy but maybe only as a temptation - never that anything is actually happening, and he'd redirect conversation if Galina ever got curious about something he's said, like it may have given him away. He would dodge any explicit 'define the relationship' discussions with Luca like they were the Matrix bullets to his Keanu Reeves/Neo...
And he would seek Luca out to self-soothe the FUCK out of himself every time he gets hurt or frustrated by Shane or the timeline Shane is still determined that they should stick to.
I don't think he'd mean to start. He'd be at a pretty low point in one of his mental spirals and he wouldn't purposefully pick Luca up - maybe they'd end up the last ones out on a rare occasion that Ilya has gone out with the team or last in the showers after a practice or home game.
Or maybe Ilya would drink too much and Luca would help him home from the bar. And for extra angst, maybe he's still a little drunk when they kiss/hook up that night, so Luca feels super guilty right after/scared he took advantage. So Ilya has reassuring Luca to focus on so he doesn't freak out over having cheated on Shane AND hooked up with "his rookie".
Maybe this also makes keeping them a secret without actually talking to Luca about keeping them a secret easier. Because Luca can assume at first that Ilya doesn't want people to know they started like THAT. Then he begins to suspect that Ilya is just being sweet, telling Luca it's okay, but it actually WASN'T. Ilya actually DIDN'T want this. He must want it now, at least a little, because it keeps happening, but Luca doesn't ask because he's so afraid it will stop. He sort of hates himself for it, but he doesn't want it to stop. It started as a ridiculous crush, but now Luca is FALLING, and Ilya is obviously ashamed to be hooking up with someone so young, so psycho over him that he shot his shot while Ilya was fucking DRUNK... But Luca won't be a baby rookie forever. And he will be SO good to Ilya. He will be so good FOR him, and maybe one day Ilya will really forgive him and want him enough that he doesn't feel like a guilty pleasure Ilya keeps secret and-
Of course, Ilya doesn't know any of this. He's just thankful Luca doesn't actually ask what Ilya thinks he's doing. Seems content to keep it between them. He told Ilya once that he isn't looking for just sex, but maybe he only thought that until he got a taste of "just sex" with Ilya? Or maybe he's still looking, and Ilya is just an opportunity he couldn't pass up along the way. (Or maybe he's content because they don't treat the "just sex" the way "just sex" was in the early days for Ilya and Shane. Luca has none of the emotional defense mechanisms Ilya and Shane had even back then - he cuddles and clings after like no alternative has even crossed his mind, he's way too openly fond and happy just to be near Ilya. He makes it abundantly clear that he is here to please Ilya, says things it would maybe cost Shane - and him - actual blood and flesh to push past their teeth, and it's ADDICTIVE, especially while Ilya is feeling so insufficient in regards to his place in Shane's life-)
I think Ilya would be ready to fess up and beg forgiveness after the first time. And then he'd start the conversation off in his signature roundabout way that would wander accidentally into a topic he and Shane are always almost fighting about, and they'd make up about it later. But in a dark, angry, hurt place immediately following that call, Ilya would have a stray thought like that it's probably a good thing he's already found someone to fuck like Shane's left him because it surely won't be long til he does. Or even something like 'Fine. Talk to me like you hate me. I've found someone who fucks me like they love me and I didn't even have to switch countries for it.'
Ilya would be horrified by the thoughts, and he and Shane would be fine hours or just the next morning later, but the ideas would stay with him. That even if Shane never finds out about Luca, he'll get sick of Ilya eventually, so nothing Ilya does will matter in the long run. Or that maybe if Shane is so happy to keep Ilya locked in his little box no matter how it hurts Ilya to be there, then Ilya isn't the bad guy for doing what he can to survive no matter how it might hurt Shane if he knew about it. Probably he'd go back and forth between thinking both things, sad and desperate for comfort and distraction, to vindictive and punishing the Shane in his head, to devastated and punishing HIMSELF...
I can't imagine Ilya, at his worst, wanting to bring someone else regularly into a bed he shares with Shane, so I think he'd take a page out of Shane's old book and purchase a place close to Centaur facilities for him and Luca to meet at. (And I think it would please that vindictive part of him when he first does it, then off and on between times that he feels like an even bigger pos for doing it).
I don't know where it would go from there. How it would end. Or if it just... wouldn't. If it would just become a thing Ilya and Luca NEVER discussed fully or directly. They would just stop for long stretches of time where Ilya would act like it had never happened and Luca would be noticeably heartbroken but let everyone think it was the end of another relationship he was mourning and not the SAME relationship he's been hopelessly wasting himself on for his entire adult life.
I don't LIKE the idea of that ending. It's especially bad for Luca, at least at first. I don't think he'd leave the Centaurs. Between the mixture of initial hero worship, being guided through his first ever sexual experiences with someone as intense and commanding as Ilya, Ilya's careful avoidance of ever outright lying or making any promises, and Luca's own maybe misplaced or at the least overindulged guilt, Luca would never work up a healthy enough sense of outrage or bitterness at Ilya for being with him while he was obviously always intending to be with Shane. He'd stay and he'd stay accessible to Ilya and that wouldn't do either of them any favors.
And in such an ending, I think Ilya would struggle for much longer but much less obviously with his depression. He'd treat too much by just starting their secret meetups back up with Luca. Big dips into depression, particularly bad arguments with Shane.
It wouldn't do Ilya and Shane any favors either. Shane would eventually HAVE to pick up on something between Ilya and Luca, even if he thinks the tension is because there's something there they've never explored rather than something that's been brewing for years. No telling what he'd think about how fights are different with Ilya now and why Ilya's depressive episodes are the way they are.
If anything got things to really go off the rails, I think it would be Ilya getting jealous enough about someone new Luca's with to try and hook up with him even though nothing is going wrong between Ilya and Shane or with Ilya's depression. Of course he'd be successful, even though Luca is with someone, because it's Ilya JEALOUS. Over LUCA. Luca would definitely cheat on his new person for Ilya, even if it had been years since the last time Ilya wanted him.
In my imagined scenario of this? They still have the place Ilya got for them. Because he gifted it to Luca and Luca never got rid of it or because Ilya didn't. But either eay, they go there and hook up and then Ilya CRACKS. Because he's not even self-soothing with this anymore. He's just doing it. And he HAS been going to therapy all this time, even if he's been fucking with the process by constantly lying about the Luca of it all. And he just suddenly can't NOT think about everything he's refused to think about this whole time. What he's doing with Luca and why. What he's been doing to Shane. What he's never told Shane did to him. He says EVERYTHING to Luca and Luca gets so freaked out... he calls Shane. Shane has to come and talk Ilya down from what Luca is afraid is a complete mental fucking breakdown. And Ilya confesses all of it again, quietly, to Shane.
Shane wouldn't leave him. Or let Ilya leave their relationship. Ilya and Luca would stop sleeping together, finally, I think. With all of the truth out. But I don't think either could ever cut the other out of their life. So it would be a messy, imperfect future for all of them but especially Ilya and Shane. They'd probably fuck about it, in one way or another, for the rest of their lives. It would rarely be pretty. But it would be satisfying to both of them in their own, equally but differently twisted ways, to stay together- to Shane because keeping Ilya would be a fucked up type of winning, and to Ilya because keeping Shane would be a fucked up kind of reassurance. (Ilya may have fucked around on Shane, but no one has taken him from Shane - not even Luca fucking Haas - and no one ever will. Shane may not always make Ilya feel very good about himself, but he has never left, no matter how badly Ilya has fucked up, which makes Ilya believe he never will.)
CW: handwavey age gap, light daddy kink, crying during sex
poolboy! Luca who works to get money for his hockey training trying to hide his fanboying over his latest client, retired hockey legend Ilya Rozanov. He also tries to hide his near constant hard on but that’s a bit more difficult when every time he comes around Ilya is either shirtless and in some low hanging sweats or wearing some mouth watering suit as he got back from whatever it is that retired yet still revered hockey players do in their spare time (he knew exactly what it was that Ilya did. Luca obsessively kept up with the news on the charities and camps that took up Ilya's time)
Anyway, Ilya fucks Luca in the pool shed.
Luca distantly registers how Ilya's hands are the only thing keeping him from face-planting onto the wooden floor of the shed. His briefs and pool shorts are bunched around one ankle and the pads of his beaten up sneakers barely touch the ground. Who knows where the fuck he shirt went.
Ilya's behind him, fucking him mercilessly. He knows the older man is still fully clothed, the shirt against his sweaty back, the feel of the well pressed pants meeting his bare ass with each thrust. It feels filthy, being fully naked, while Ilya only pulled out his dick to fuck him in the pool shed.
It also feels so fucking good.
Ilya whispers, rough and dirty, into his ear. Calling him a pretty, pretty boy, asking him if he likes his cock, if it feels good, if he wants more.
Luca is breathless. He's never had a dick as big as Ilya's before, and even if he had, no one has ever fucked him so good. Every drag against his prostate, every sharp thrust or roll of Ilya's hips, every kiss or bite Ilya places against the back of his neck leaves him dizzy. The only thing he can get out is nods and punched out whispers.
Yes, he likes Ilya's cock, Yes, it feels good. Yes, he wants more.
And Ilya gives it to him.
He plants his feet, hands firmly gripping Luca's waist as he brings them face to face. Luca legs tremble as the wrap around Ilya's waist. Ilya grins, "Good boy."
Ilya fucks him like a fleshlight. He moves Luca's body up and down his dick, giving him no time to think, to adjust. All he can do is feel. How Ilya stretches him, how it ignites the heat unfurling low in his stomach. Each drag has his dick rubbing against Ilya's abs, it's euphoric.
Luca must've moaned or whimpered. he couldn't tell you what. Whatever it was, it made Ilya chuckle. "That's right," the other man grunts, "show me. Let me hear how good I make you feel."
"Good. 's so good," Luca gasps out. "D-daddy you feel so, fuck, so good."
The title slips unbidden. Luca doesn't get time to take it back or to feel embarrassed. Ilya moans.
"Baby," Ilya's voice is rough, his sweat mixing with Luca's as he presses them forehead to forehead. "So fucking good for Daddy, yes?"
Hearing Ilya call himself that, it sends a rush down Luca's spine. His hands slip from where they had been tremblingly wrapped around Ilya's neck but it doesn't matter, not with the way Ilya presses their entire bodies against the shed walls. Not with the way Ilya keeps thrusting into him. Not with the way he turns Luca's face, whispers sweet nothings and licks the tears Luca didn't even realize were leaving him.
"Again," Ilya demands.
Luca doesn't refuse.
Daddy. Daddy. Daddy.
He whimpers, cries, yells. He comes with the title on his lips, Ilya's dick pulsing in him soon after.
(He worries about not finishing the work for the day but Ilya just laughs outright and tells him not to worry about it. When they're tangled up in the bedroom later, he even offers Luca a more pleasurable job instead)
Centaurs teasing Luca about his cute crush on their Captain vs Centaurs being tight lipped, full ‘see no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil’ on the way Ilya looks like he wants to eat Luca whole
