Shane wants to figure out if he's gay before he gets drafted—and no, the way he felt when Ilya Rozanov smirked at him with a cigarette between his lips in Saskatchewan has nothing to do with it. Unfortunately, the random guy he hooks up with to try and make sure one way or another takes a picture, and Shane gets outed before the draft. In the ensuing scandal, he goes seventh overall, to Ottawa.
It turns out, having the worst thing you can think of happen to you when you're seventeen years old can end up being pretty liberating. And land you an unexpected best friend.
Relevant Tags: Canon Divergence - Shane is drafted to Ottawa, Shane Gets Outed, Friends to Fuckbuddies to Lovers, Mutual Pining, Fluff, Everything Goes Right, Mixed Media.
Tbh Ilya’s depression was present in Heated Rivalry book too. He didn’t suddenly just catch depression like common cold. There are multiple instances in Heated Rivalry, when Ilya is feeling lonely but he doesn’t know the term for it yet. And I think, in those moments, he was having some really depressive thoughts. One particular moment which stands out to me is the, “I’m coming to the cottage” scene. Unlike the show, Ilya doesn’t have any of his friends over in that scene in the book. In fact, I think he doesn’t even consider any of his Boston teammates his friend. And since Svetlana too isn’t a friend of his in the book, he also stops taking to her. He was definitely lonely here and started to develop symptoms of depression, even when things were kind of looking up with Shane.
"The Back of Pride Night", Shane Hollander, Ilya Rozanov, Scott Hunter [Hudson Williams, Connor Storrie, Francois Arnaud] from Heated Rivalry, the bonus rear cover from the [REDACTED] zine
Mar 2026
I messed up a few things with this one, mostly because it was going to have a big title text over the top of it. Shane and Scott's hands on Ilya's back look horrible (again, they weren't actually meant to be visible), and while I'm tempted to go in and change it, I'm not going to because hey, guess what? People make mistakes too. The little rainbow bit was a colour swatch from another part of the image, and I messed up the layers when I was overlaying it. If you know how hard it is to differentiate between 700+ colour layers, you'll understand my plight right now.
(Also, the first time I did this, I spelled both "Rozanov" and "Hollander" wrong and had to argue with my own brain even after I fixed it because I'd stared at it for so long they'd ceased to be words)
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Luca Haas interest in Ilya CONFIRMED. Ilya Rozanov interest open to interpretation. Kip's breadcumb emulated.
Luca is NOT a starry-eyed kid with a childish crush. (But he WAS a starry-eyed kid with a crush. And now maybe he's trying to feel out whether Grown Luca and Real Ilya have a shot to shoot.)
+ the power of Ilya Rozanov's direct, exclusive attention
THIS is the most glaringly obvious sign of ilyuca / haasanov in this chapter. Luca is giving such 'you all look like hot lumberjacks' energy - if not with the purposefulness that Kip had, searching Scott out, just thoughtlessly honest. It's what he's being honest about here that mimics Kip's little breadcrumb.
AND ILYA.
I don't personally think that CANON Ilya, who is with Shane, is actually "interested" when he says 'Interesting' here - maybe not even without Shane, because of age, or his position as captain. I think it's more likely he's on the lookout for another baby gay to mentor, as per his consistent role in the GC universe. BUT. If you choose to see potential interest, real interest, in Ilya for Luca, that line here is... interesting. 😉
On the topic of choice, I don't know if it's so much I CHOOSE to see Luca's bashfulness here as evidence- and the things he says as hedging - or if I just can't help picking up what Luca is putting down...
But I DO have ideas about what Luca means when he says 'particular'.
I think it's clear, from the fact that Rachel WAS writing a book for Luca, that when Luca says "to do that with", he's talking about finding men. And Ilya's talk about it being difficult to find someone "careful" is him reaching out about that. Maybe Luca gets that, maybe he doesn't.
But I also think when Luca says he's joking about "that" being the problem / the reason why he can't find anyone, he's not talking about the poster. He's just finished joking about that. And Ilya doesn't respond like he's still talking about the poster being over his bed. He asks what Luca means by "problem". Luca is "joking" that his infatuation with Ilya is the distraction. But I don't think he's actually joking. And he just plays his momentary drunken boldness off as a joke while staying vague enough that maybe he could be talking about still having the poster, as if it's actually a believable bit, pretending to still have it. Ilya is maybe concerned for a SECOND. But Luca moving on quick, being vague, allows him to let it go.
I just KNOW Luca is flustered right now because he's getting alone time with Ilya:
I just know his adrenaline is pumping. He feels a little breathless. He's telling himself he's ridiculous but feeling excitement like it's anticipation anyway. And that leads to some quasi flirting. Telling Ilya of course HE is the favorite. Luca can't compare. Luca used to have his poster. Luca is giggling and blushing. He's feeling it.
And maybe there IS a smidgen of leftover hero worship going on here, but Luca ISN'T actually the child the others tease him about being. He doesn't come off as a starry-eyed kid who still sees his childhood crush as larger than life. Ilya, who is a good judge of character and incredibly perceptive, doesn't TREAT HIM like a starry-eyed kid who maybe can't see Ilya for who he really is. Ilya feels comfortable teasing Luca about having that poster. Feels comfortable talking about sex. (For all but that solitary moment of the conversation, when he maybe wonders if Luca's not-joke really DOES reveal a problem. He's assuage but then definitely stays close to the jokes about Luca's age as an occasional pressure valve.)
Luca conducts himself like an adult who knows where his childhood crush ends and where his interactions with his captain should be contained... He just also conducts himself like maybe, at least with some liquid courage in him and under the influence of Ilya's direct exclusive attention and the level of comfort Ilya is showing talking to him like this and teasing, he thinks maybe it's not ENTIRELY impossible he could shoot his shot. Hypothetically.
And I just know he huffed like that when Ilya called him a kid with such frustration 😂
The rest of this is maybe just me interpreting to suit the ship 😝 But:
Ilya asking Luca to draw something ILYA WILL PERMANENTLY ADD TO HIS BODY.
Don't you know he fills entire SKETCHBOOKS with options he obsesses over for WEEKS after this! MONTHS!
I BET Luca's cheeks picked.
I'm sure we could write 100 fics JUST about what's going through Luca's head when his cheeks pink.
And speaking of what's going through Luca's head... What do you think is in his head HERE:
I'm not saying Ilya Rozanov would CANONICALLY be down for something with sweet, stammering, rookie Luca Haas.
(If we got serious and had to make a call, I'd say 'for sure no in a world with Shane' because jealousy and yearning etc. but 'maybe if not for shane')
But sometimes, as a little treat, I read this and think I'm not NOT saying it 👀
so shane can come untouched, right? at this point it's almost a novelty the way ilya can get him to do it, and it's so easy to get him there too especially with penetration. shane has prostate orgasms all the fucking time it's literally one of his fav ways to come and one of ilya's fav ways to get him there. but the thing about these orgasms is usually ilya is on top and only looking at shane's face, or behind and only looking at shane's hole. he rarely ever actually gets to see shane's cock when he comes like this, and he realizes how fucked up it is that despite making shane come like this so often, he's never fully been able to appreciate the spectacle of it yk?
so i think ilya proposes fucking in front his bedroom mirror so he can get a good look, because he wants to see. and even though shane feels a little self conscious abt it (i'm imagining this during their situationship era) it's also ridiculously hot to him so of course he says yes. so that's how they find themselves standing in front of ilya's full length bedroom mirror, skin to skin, ilya pressed firmly against shane's back with his cock buried deep inside of him. and shane's head is lolling back against ilya's shoulder, knees bending slightly to give him a better angle (and also bc he can barely stand up when ilya's fucking him like this). ilya's pace is slow, deep, precise. he pulls out slow and fucks back in slow, adonis belt slapping firmly against shane's ass every few seconds and making his cheeks jiggle like he's in a porno. but ilya can barely even pay any attention to that because he's too distracted by what's staring back at him in the mirror.
shane's cock, standing at full attention and bobbing with every thrust, drooling beautiful syrupy precum profusely from the tip onto the floor. it's unfuckingreal to ilya, he can't stop fucking staring at it. he knows shane gets wet but this is ridiculous. is it like this every time? does he leak this much whenever they fuck? has ilya just never noticed before? it's like a fucking faucet the way it just steadily drips down onto the hardwood. and ilya feels fucking insane. he keeps fucking shane slow like that, eyes hooded and fixated on that fat and leaky cock, and shane's making little noises that go right to his own cock which is still hitting shane's prostate with every slow thrust. shane's hand comes up behind him to cradle the back of ilya's head, fingers digging into his curls, his scalp, and ilya knows he's close, can see it plain as day in his blissed out expression.
ilya's own fingers dig into the soft flesh of shane's waist and he tugs him impossibly closer, murmurs, "are you gonna come for me, hollander?" all low and sensual, and shane can barely speak, can only give a desperate nod as his eyes squeeze shut and his cock bobs in the mirror. "yeah? you gonna show me how you come from just this?" and he punctuates the words with the slow pounding of his hips, burying his nose in the side of shane's face and keeping his eyes fixated on where shane continues to leak. it only takes a couple more hard thrusts and then shane is keening with a rough and guttural edge to his voice, and at this exact moment ilya stills inside of him, stops moving, just grips shane's hips tight and remains seated fully inside of him while he watches shane's cock work its magic.
and oh, what a fucking sight. completely untouched, shane's cock stutters and bobs of its own accord, and then he's erupting in steady bursts, whimpers and moans flying past his lips as his balls tighten and twitch. and ilya can barely fucking believe his eyes, flummoxed that shane's cock has just been doing this all the time they've been hooking up and he's been missing it. he's truly never seen anything like it, the way it moves like it's its own entity, the way it pulses and throbs under the low light, the way it spits cum in long, thick strings, the way it makes shane all pink and warm in the face. and when the cum finally tapers off and switches to a slow and leaky dribble, any restraint ilya had been holding onto goes out the window. a practically inhuman sound falls from his mouth and his jaw drops, chin resting on shane's shoulder as he feels himself be pushed off the edge.
he manages to get out a slurred "i'm coming" but he sounds drunk, and he feels drunk too. shane's eyes open and they both make eye contact in the mirror as ilya empties himself, vein in his forehead throbbing, eyes rolling a little bit. shane's grip in his hair tightens, an encouraging gesture, and ilya moans again when he sees shane's spent cock, going soft now, twitch a little bit in the mirror, one last small dribble of cum oozing from the tip.
safe to say, it's not the last time they try that.
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