#im.. crying

[bangtanniesmagicshop]

ive only listened to life goes on once but ive already fallen in love with it, from the instrumentals to the lyrics to their vocals to the music video,, its such a precious and beautiful song that i’ll treasure forever

[bellasredchevy]

proposal rewrite because smeyer can’t be trusted. partially inspired by a submission to this blog from @rockett-to-the-purple-moon

it’s simple. there’s no coercion. doesn’t read like a chapter out of the art of the deal

happens after the fight in eclipse

edward only asked bella to marry him that one time in new moon. he respected her point of view and understood her qualms. he knows it doesn’t mean that she loves him any less

bella tries to have sex with edward in the scene at his house but instead of pushing it too far she stops and asks why he doesn’t want to. edward gives her his reasoning and she respects it and doesn’t push it

that night is still in both of their “top tens”. they spent all night in each other’s arms, truly alone for the first time. bella realizes that it could be like this every night if they were married. that’s when she thinks about marrying him for the first time

jake doesn’t stay behind at the tent in eclipse and therefore there’s no reason for him to get upset and storm off or for him to force that kiss on her. he fights, but still gets injured picking off a newborn they’d missed

bella loses her mind. she absolutely goes crazy with worry and guilt. she screams and cries and won’t see reason about why she has to stay at the scene of the battle instead of going with him to billy’s. this is when she realizes that her reaction is stronger than being upset if a friend got injured. she’d rather die than see him in pain

after the volturi leave and she goes to billy’s to see him. she knows she loves him deeply but has her “who she should be vs. who she is” epiphany

this is when she makes up her mind that she wants to marry edward. it was always going be him. why not make it official in every conceivable way?

after she grieves for the loss of jacob she asks edward if they can go to the meadow

when they get there he pulls her into his lap and starts playing with her hair. they’d often enjoyed comfortable silences together but she’d been acting strange since asking to come to the meadow and he can feel the nervousness radiating off of her

“what are you thinking about, bella?” he asked after a moment

bella bit her lip

“you are going to drive me utterly mad.” he paused. “should i be worried?”

“no,” she said hastily. she didn’t want him getting worked up. after taking a deep breath, she said “if anything... i should be worried”

he shifted them so they faced each other. “what’s wrong, bella?” there was an edge to his voice; she could hear the creeping panic

she averted her gaze, trying to work up the nerve

“bella—”

“marry me, edward.”

he froze and fell silent. he looked at her incredulously

after several moments, she couldn’t stand it anymore. “please say something,” she whispered

edward’s jaw, which had gone slack and fell open, snapped shut and set hard in his face. “what about all the reasons you mentioned before? you don’t want to be like your parents, you’re very young, you’re scared of what people will think—”

“i don’t care what people think. i don’t care about any of it”

he fell silent again

an awful realization settled over bella. she tried to swallow her rejection and disappointment and resolved to respect his decision. “if you’ve changed your mind, that’s fine... i understand... i didn’t mean to pressure you...”

his face softened. he gently took her face in both of his hands. “look at me, bella.”

she met his gaze. she found only pure love, joy, and devotion there. it hurt to look at; she loved him so much she felt she might literally burst with it sometimes

he opened his mouth, and closed it again, apparently deciding on something else to say. “what’s changed?”

“i realized that there’s nothing i’m going to want remotely as much as i want you. i want to be with you, forever. you are my life. i want to start living it.” she paused. “but if you no longer want to—”

“bella, i’ve waited for over a century to find you. to find someone to share myself with, to open my heart to. my entire existence is meaningless without you. literally nothing in the world would make me happier than to be your husband.” he looked like he would be crying if he could

bella was crying. she hastily wiped away her tears. “are you sure?” she asked in a shaky voice

“i have never been more sure of anything in my existence.” he paused again. “are you sure? i don’t want you to feel rushed. i don’t mind waiting—really, i don’t. we don’t have to get married at all, if you don’t want to. as long as we’re together, i am and always will be the happiest man in all of time”

“i’m sure about you, edward. the rest doesn’t matter as much, but yes, i’m sure i want to marry you.”

suddenly, they were on their feet. he swung her around in his arms happily, both laughing the whole time. when he set her down, he kissed her with all the unbridled joy he felt. she returned it with her own happiness. it shone out of both of them

abruptly, he broke their kiss. he looked at her warily. he slowly fell to one knee and fished something out of his pocket

when she saw the ring, she gasped, both in awe of the ring and because she didn’t expect him to have one already. “did you know i was going to do this?!” she exclaimed

“no,” edward chuckled. “i always have it with me, just in case”

“in case of what?”

“in case you changed your mind,” he said simply

he suddenly looked somber. “it was my mother’s. the only thing i have left of her, really. if you don’t like it, we can get you something else, but if you do, would you do me the tremendous honor of accepting it?”

bella could only nod; she felt another lump growing in her throat. she loved it

he slipped in onto her ring finger and looked at it there for a few moments before standing. smiling again, he kissed her

they both pulled away at the same time, laughing softly. they leaned their foreheads against each other. tears of joy teemed in her eyes again

“i love you forever, bella swan”

“i love you forever, edward cullen”

[partihaus]

the world is brighter than the sun, now that you’re here.

[timberwolf-in-the-pines]

a Soft boy

[proteuus]

my prof posts stats about the tests after we take them and there are people getting %s in the 20s and 30s oh my god skskksk

[dogteefs]

i love girls so fucking much lmfao

[lostherlemons]

i just counted and my shugo chara fanfic has 219 ocs