Correspondences | Lestat
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Lestat,
"Fuck you. This is stupid."
A letter can only 'calm the animosity between us' if you do not begin said letter with - what? - animosity. Which is what you did. Besides, I think we both have a bit of blame on us, don't you dare put all of this on me you spoiled brat. You dare to tell me that I am the one who growls, snarls, and snaps rude commentary, when you begin an apology with 'fuck you'? Right.
I have cared for more than one of your fledglings. your cast-offs. It merely began with Nicolas, and more recently, Antoine. Did you even really remember him? He barely got a mention in your memoirs - did you care enough to look for him after the attacks from Akasha? Did you dare to ask her if he lived? Did you care?
And as for Louis choosing me - and me refusing to help you - perhaps if you had been more considerate of those you dealt with, it would have happened differently. I waited for a century for your return. You, not Louis. I asked you once before if I could leave with you. When you left Paris, I asked to join you - you refused. Instead, you left me with a broken fledgling that I had to try and fix. I think I did well for what I was given - and then when you returned, it was not for my companionship.
Not because you wanted to see me.
To reconnect.
No.
You wanted my blood. You broke my heart. Again. All I was worth to you was a faster recovery time from your injuries because you couldn't find Marius.And there - the root of my - hatred - of you: Marius. He chose you. He bestowed you with knowledge that he kept from me. Within two nights of knowing you, he told you more of himself than he told me in the two and a half years that I shared his bed. I hated you for that.
He came to you. Pulled you from the dirt. Held you to him. Gave you his blood. His secrets. Took you to the place where he kept the Parents... and he left me. Discarded and alone. For centuries. He knew I lived, yet never once did he think that I deserved to know that he lived. But to you he revealed himself. So you say fuck me?
You have not known suffering. You may have read the pages of my books, know what I went through... but you do not *know* what I went through. What I felt those 300 years beneath the cemetery. What I felt that century in the Theatre.
So yes, I was lonely, and Louis was beautiful, and he was passion contained in a phsycial form. I was drawn to him. You can't blame me, you were drawn to him as well.
Before you start hurling curses and damnations - look in a mirror, Lestat.
You are not perfect.
- Armand
PS. Fuck you, too.













