Astrology observation
- Thinking of lessons and different points in the chart. With the IC/MC axis representing the higher self and lower self polarity.
IC being the higher self (where you are pushed to for growth).
MC being the lower self (where you are pulled away from/indoctrinated/ what you succumb to time and time again).
With applying these themes to the signs in my life I noticed a pattern of deficiency that always comes back to self. My own Leo IC/Aquarius MC relating to validation and acceptance. I value and accept the world but don't receive it and don't put myself to be in spaces where I am seen. In fact I accept the world as is and reject myself. So "who is going to value me?" or "Who is going to accept me?"
With a Cancer IC/Capricorn MC, I take care of everyone else, "who is going to nurture me?" I know a couple people with this placement who do not pour into themselves but will never let anyone else go with an empty cup, always making sure the world is straight and putting themself as an afterthought.
Taurus IC/Scorpio MC. Desperately needing to feel stable, to be grounded and have a foundation. Wanting to be that source of stability for everyone else while simultaneously throwing themself into a void. They do not feel grounded themself. I catch and hold everyone else, "Who will be there to catch me?"