having absolutely normal thoughts about guitarspear.
about the possibility of one or both of them being on the aroace spectrum, especially lute. how she has such strong feelings for adam but at the same time finds herself frustrated with his misogyny. how she might not feel much of a sexual attraction to him, and she never realizes why, because she’s a hardened war woman and a part of her just sorta thought she was broken in that sense.
adam who’s hypersexual and them eventually forming a weird sort of relationship where adam can fuck who he wants but he’ll always come back to lute at the end of the day, the one woman who will actually love him without sex. and sure, he wants her, but he respects her wishes.
i’m thinking about cooking up an au where adam either never dies or somehow comes back and the exorcists disbanding and lute being really lost for a while. i definitely need to put adam through some soul searching so he’s less of a dick, but i think that’s also something that lute would establish with him before getting together; at least within the au. like “sir if you want to make this serious you’re gonna have to start respecting me and treating me as an equal”
current canon lute couldn’t do that tbh, which is part of why they’re so doomed, lute is just willing to kinda listen to his misogyny and put up with it because of how attached she is. i don’t think i’d ever like adam if he was Real, but thank fuck he’s fictional so. anyways. realistically i think if adam isn’t willing to change for lute their relationship wouldn’t work out- she has the possibility to be a good influence on him IF he’s willing to drop the massive superiority complex. which is unlikely tbh, since it’s a pretty core factor of his character.
ANYWAYS. this makes me think a little about sinner adam, falling after dying, going through the absolutely gut-wrenchingly traumatizing experience of being rejected by Heaven Itself after living there for millenia. i love traumatizing my blorbos. anyways he does some soul searching yada yada and eventually ends up back in heaven. THEN, after all that, he’d finally be ready to have something real with lute; especially after realizing how much he genuinely misses her in hell. like i don’t think he’s in love with her in the same way(arospec adam my love) but he definitely still has that major attachment.
i could get WAY into adam’s trauma surrounding lilith and eve as well. i know it’s been discussed to hell and back but the sheer amount of abandonment issues that gives someone is INSANE. i think he’s a very insecure person at his core, which is why he’s such an ass. obv that doesn’t make it okay but like, for the sake of a “he gets redeemed” scenario.
yada yada, him being scared that starting anything with lute will result in her leaving him. it’s a sickening concept but god i yearn for the angst. methinks adam has a very very strong inner need/desire to Feel Wanted, to feel like an object of importance, worthy of praise. lute is willing to give him that, yes, HOWEVER, she’s also subconsciously aware of the fact that his behavior isn’t okay, as much as she wants to push it down. i think that’s a pretty serious part of their canon relationship- lute being so desperately in love with him that she’s willing to ignore his behavior, and adam being so stuck in himself that he’s willing to ignore lute’s feelings for him in favor of being allowed to continue being an asshole.
anyways yeah lute is a delulu manic pixie dream actually-kills-people girl and adam is a daddy issues abandonment issues deeply insecure toxic-masculinity alpha male. my favorite alloromantic asexual x aromantic allosexual duo
is this too wild of a rant for the hazbin fandom? shrug.
