I FORGOT TO POST THIS YESTERDAY I FELL ASLEEP LMAO
All you’ve wanted for the last few days has been to relax. By yourself. You finally have a few minutes to yourself, in your own bed. Your boyfriend Hobi is making dinner in the kitchen with his friend Jin. Jin. God, fucking Kim Seokjin. He’s been unusually touchy today and you can’t for the life of you figure out what has gotten into him, but it certainly isn’t helping the constant swirling in your abdomen the last few days.
Jin’s fucking attractive, okay? Especially since he’s been letting his hair grow out. You asked Hobi not long ago if he would be ever interested in having a threesome, and he said sure, but when you told him you wanted Jin as a third, he just laughed and said “I can try, doubt it though.”
Men are useless sometimes.
You were hoping maybe he’d agree before the rest of their friends return from their military service at the end of the month and your house becomes the usual hangout again. You shrug, if you can’t get what you want, you’ll just have to do it yourself. All you need is five minutes… maybe ten. And with both of them busy, you finally have a chance.
You root through your bedside table drawer searching for your favorite toy. There it is! You take a deep breath and relax back against the pillows, pressing the power button and feeling the vibrator whir to life in your hand. You immediately slide it down your body under the waistband of your shorts and panties, feeling it touch you directly as you purr in delight. You tease yourself for a little bit before finally slipping the toy inside your entrance, relishing in the feeling as you push your shirt and bra up with your free hand and fondle your breast roughly. God it feels so good. It shouldn’t take you long at all at this rate.
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“How much longer?” Jin asks from where he checks his phone across the counter.
“I dunno, maybe like five minutes?” Hoseok responds, stirring the food in the pan again. “Not much longer.”
Jin puts his phone back down and sighs. Feeling a bit awkward, but knowing each other so well, Hoseok immediately catches on. “What’s wrong?” He turns to face the older boy.
“Nothing just… can’t stop thinking about what you asked earlier.”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean…” Jin sighs again. “Did Y/N really ask to have a threesome? With me?”
Hoseok snorts. “Hyung, I wouldn't lie to you about something like that.”
“But why me? Why now?”
The younger boy shrugs. “You’d have to ask her. Maybe because she knows the house is going to be busy when the others come home from service?”
“But why me?” Jin repeats.
“Don’t know.” Hoseok takes the pan off the hot burner and places it on a cool one. “She thinks you’re attractive and knows you think she is too, so why not?”
Jin narrows his eyes in suspicion. “She wouldn’t know unless you told her.”
“It’s not like you’re inconspicuous about it.” Hoseok throws his hands up in defense when he sees Jin’s stare. “I’m just saying, it’s kind of obvious sometimes. Is that why you’ve been all over her today?”
“I haven’t been all over her.” Jin scoffs. “I do have respect for your relationship, you know.”
Hoseok just rolls his eyes. “I’m just saying hyung, she’s giving you a in, and it won’t be around for much longer, so do with that information what you will.”
“And you’re okay with it?”
“I’m happy when she’s happy.”
“That’s such a bullshit answer.”
“If she wants it, it’s fine with me.” Hoseok assures him with a smile. “Not like I haven’t seen your dick before.”
Jin sighs again, raking his hand through his hair. “I’ll think about it…”
“Whatever you want, hyung.” Hoseok turns away and opens a cabinet to pull out some plates. “Now, can you go tell her that dinner is ready please?”
Jin nods as he stands up. “Where’d she go?”
“I think she went to our room to get something.”
Jin heads out of the kitchen and into the living room, turning down the hallway and walking all the way to the end where your bedroom sits, surprised to see the door is closed. Maybe you went to take a nap? He knocks lightly, but when he doesn’t hear a response he cracks the door open and peeks his head inside.
The room is dim, with only a string of lights above your bed turned on, but that doesn’t stop him from seeing exactly what you’re doing. He hears your heavy breathing, hears the faint buzzing noise; he sees your hands, one down your pants, one gripping your breast, he sees your eyes closed, your head thrown back, chest heaving as your pleasure yourself. He smells the faint smell of sweat and the sweet smell of you in the air. Holy shit. He can’t tear his eyes away from you. He knows he shouldn’t be watching but god you’re so hot like this. He takes one last look before forcing himself to close his eyes, backing away and quietly shutting the door.
Damn. Jin adjusts his suddenly hardening length in his pants. Should he let you finish? No, he doesn’t know how long that could take, and Hoseok might get suspicious. Jin pauses a moment to calm himself down before knocking loudly and purposely on the door again.
“Y/N-ah?”
“Shit.” He hears you curse, your hushed panic on the other side of the door before you respond. “Y-yeah?”
“Dinner’s ready.”
“O-okay! I’ll be out… in a second.”
He hears your heaving breathing and has to choke back a whimper as he walks up the hallway, trying to relax before crossing the living room back into the kitchen. “She said she’ll be out in a second.” Jin states as he joins Hoseok at the table.
“Why is your face so red, did you run back and forth?” Hoseok jokes.
“Hm? Oh, uh no, just got a little hot is all.” Jin states, taking off his sweatshirt for effect. It’s not a lie. He can feel his cheeks burning as the image of you plays over and over in his head.
Hoseok’s eyes go wide at this. “Hyung, your neck is really red. Do you need some ice?”
Jin shakes his head as you walk into the room. “I’ll be fine.”
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You’re so close. So very close to your high. It feels amazing, you want nothing else at this moment. Nothing else except-
Knock knock. “Y/N-ah?” It’s Jin.
“Shit.” Your eyes open wide, quickly moving to silence the buzzing of your vibrator before responding. “Y-Yeah?” Your response is breathy.
“Dinner’s ready.”
Damnit. “O-okay! I’ll be out… in a second.” You can hear him walk away and flop back down against the pillows. Fuck… Well. You’ll just have to finish this later.
You sigh, tucking the toy back into your nightstand and slamming the drawer shut in frustration. God you hope Jin didn’t hear you. You check yourself in the mirror, putting all of your clothes back into place before you walk out of the room and down the hall into the kitchen.
“Mm smells delicious.” You state, placing a kiss on Hoseok’s cheek as you walk past him to take your seat between him and Jin. When you sit you smile at Jin only to notice just how red his face is. “Jin, are you alright? You’re really red.”
“So are you, baby.” Hoseok states, looking over you with worry and reaching out to place his hand over yours, feeling how hot your skin is. “Are you alright?”
“Hm?” You reach a hand up to feel your cheeks are still flushed from your activities.
“Do you want me to turn the air up? Is it too hot in here?”
You shake your head to reassure him. “No, I’ll be fine in a minute. Not sure what this is.”
The three of you eat in relative silence, which is strange because usually Jin won’t stop talking. You chance a few glances in his direction, but every time your eyes meet he quickly looks away, blushing.
After dinner and dishes, the three of you retire to the living room to watch a movie. You curl up against Hoseok’s side where you sit between him and Jin, who is seated as close to the arm of the couch as he possibly can be. His body language is screaming that he doesn't want to be close to you, but for the life of you, you can’t figure out why. He wasn’t like this before dinner. About halfway through the movie, Jin gets up to use the bathroom and you pause it for him before laying yourself across Hoseok’s lap, still feeling a bit of your arousal from your unfinished business from earlier.
“Hi gorgeous.” Hoseok coos in your ear as you stretch across him.
“Hi baby~” You smile as his whispers turn into soft kisses behind your ear and down your neck. You sigh softly at the feeling of his lips on you, but when he wraps his arms around your waist to pull you closer, you know these kisses have a purpose. “Hobi,” you warn. “Jin’s still here.”
“So?” Hoseok’s hands slip under your shirt and begin to wander along your abdomen. He tugs on your earlobe with his teeth and your eyes squeeze shut as it takes everything in you not to give in to him.
“So, I’m pretty sure Jin doesn’t want to watch you fuck me on the couch.”
“Well, maybe not just watch.”
You shoot up in surprise for the second time tonight at the sound of Jin’s voice to see him sitting back down in his seat on the couch. “Jin!” You try to push Hoseok off, but he’s insistent. “I didn’t hear you come back. Sorry, Hobi was just stopping.” Hoseok’s lips leave your neck, but he stays close enough that you can feel his breath on the wet spots he made, and it sends a shiver of desire down your spine.
“No, I wasn’t.” Hoseok smirks, placing a hot kiss against your pulse point. “Didn’t you hear what he said?”
You stop fighting Hoseok to look up at Jin, puzzled. “No, I didn’t.”
“He said ‘maybe not just watch’.”
“Wait, really? Hobi asked you?” The room goes quiet as you wait for Jin’s answer; as if everything around you is made of glass, and if any of you move the wrong way, the moment will shatter around you.
Jin’s face flushes bright red. “Yeah, he did and, w-well… I mean.” He glances up at you from beneath his long lashes. “If it’s okay, I think we could t-try.”
You’ve never seen Jin this shy before, usually he’s a little cocky, but this side of him is so soft. You climb back into your seat, sitting on your knees in between the two of them, facing Jin. “Are you sure? Tonight?”
He nods, finally meeting your gaze, a little steadier with his decision. “Yeah. I’m sure.”
You squeal with delight as you throw your arms around his neck, surprising Jin as you hug him tightly. “I’m so excited!” You exclaim as you sit back on your knees. “Can I- Is it okay if I kiss you? Hobi, is that okay?”
“Fine with me.” Your boyfriend chimes in from behind you.
Jin rubs his neck, a tell-tale sign that he’s nervous before he nods. “S-sure.”
“Don’t worry.” You offer him a sweet smile. “We’ll go slow, yeah?”
He lets out a breath, relaxing a little. “Okay.”
You reach a hand out and cup Jin’s cheek before leaning closer to him, feeling his eyes on you which makes you laugh. “Close your eyes, don’t make it weird.” You giggle.
“Oh, right. Sorry it’s been a while.”
He closes his eyes and waits for you. You rub your thumb across his smooth skin, studying his features up close for just a moment before you focus on his lips, his beautiful plump lips. You silently thank Hoseok for being the best boyfriend before closing the gap and pressing your lips against Jin’s. He’s stiff at first, and you chuckle, smiling against his mouth. You slide your hand down to his neck as you repeat the motion and feel him relax this time, responding to the brush of your lips this time with his own. His lips are luxurious. You thought Hoseok’s lips were pillows, Jin’s are deluxe. You can’t help it when you tilt your head, wanting to deepen the kiss, but Jin allows you, following your lead.
All the thoughts float from your mind as you gently push Jin back against the arm of the couch, leaning over him and straddling one of his legs. You feel his hands slide up to your waist as his lips part, his tongue snaking out and asking for access to your mouth. A small moan escapes you as you let him in, feeling his tongue press against yours, the taste of wine still present from dinner.
Jin’s hands squeeze your waist, a few of his fingers slipping under the fabric of your shirt and rubbing your bare skin. You’re so lost in the feeling of Jin’s hands and mouth against you that the feeling of Hoseok’s hands on your ass makes you jump. You break the kiss with Jin and look over your shoulder at your boyfriend, his hands rubbing your ass over your shorts.
“Your ass looks so damn good in these shorts.” He groans. “But I didn’t realize how hot it would be to watch you make out with Jin hyung.” To emphasize his statement, Hoseok presses his hips against you, and sure enough through his shorts you can feel the beginnings of his erection.
You sit up on your knees, turning your head to capture Hoseok’s lips this time. He responds quickly, hungrily, his hands sliding around to your front and slipping under your shirt, tracing over your stomach before moving up and giving your breasts a squeeze as you gasp into his mouth. Jin sits up, his hands grabbing your waist as he rubs his thumbs over your hips, mesmerized by your reactions to Hoseok’s touches, memorizing every brush of skin that has you keening.
Hoseok’s mouth moves down to your neck as he grabs your shirt, yanking it off over your head and tossing it onto the floor. It takes no time after that for him to unclasp your bra, pushing it off your shoulders so that it falls into Jin’s lap. Hoseok grabs Jin’s hands from where they rest on your waist and drags them up your body, placing them on top of your breasts before his own hands slide back down your stomach.
Jin squeezes you gently, making you whimper for more. His hands grab you roughly a few times before he rubs his thumbs over your nipples, finding out how sensitive they are as you practically melt in his hands, his head dipping down to press kisses along your abdomen as he does. Hoseok’s mouth is working the expanse of your neck and shoulder, distracting you while his fingers pop open the button of your shorts and then slide the zipper down. He wastes no time slipping a hand under the fabric of your underwear and dipping his fingers into your already soaked folds.
“Hobi~” You breathe out his name as he circles your clit with experience. He knows exactly what to do to get you riled up for Jin, and he’s pulling out all the stops tonight.
Jin sits back to see what Hoseok did to get you to make that noise, and is shocked to see his friend's hand already in your pants. This causes him to get up on his knees with the two of you, pinching your nipples repeatedly as he reconnects his lips to yours. You feel Hoseok use his free hand to take off his shirt behind you, and then wrap that arm around your waist, pressing the warmth of his skin against your back and his hard length against your ass as his shirt dangles from his preoccupied forearm.
You quickly tug at the hem of Jin’s shirt, silently begging him to take it off. He smirks against your mouth before removing the fabric from his body, pulling it past your lips as he tosses it to the floor. You quickly pull him against you, wrapping your arms around his neck, as you press your breasts against his chest, his tongue slipping back into your mouth. One of Jin’s hands slides down with Hoseok’s into your shorts, but he moves farther, his long fingers finding your entrance quickly and tracing merciless circles around it before he finally plunges two of them deep inside of you.
“Oh fuck~” You whine, burying your face in Jin’s neck.
“Oh my god you’re wet.” Jin mumbles in amazement, making Hoseok chuckle.
“Told you hyung.” Hoseok finally rubs the pad of his middle finger across your clit and your legs shake from the pleasure as you moan into Jin’s skin. ”Isn’t she tight?”
Jin pumps his fingers inside you a few times as you hold him closer. “Incredibly.”
Hoseok pulls his hand away and you whine in protest, moving to look back at him, but he quickly shushes you. “Let’s move to the bed baby, it’ll be more comfortable for you.”
You nod, allowing Jin to also remove his hand before grabbing it and slipping his fingers into your mouth, cleaning your juices off of him as he watches, awestruck.
“Goddamn.” Is all he says as he watches you stand up. You take his hand and tug him along with you, leading both boys back to the bedroom where you quickly climb onto the bed to wait.
Hoseok sheds his shorts, leaving him in just his boxers before gesturing for Jin to do the same. Jin obeys, sliding out of his jeans before joining you on the bed, watching as Hoseok digs through his nightstand for a few things, giving you a chance to look down at Jin’s lap, seeing how hard he is in his boxers, his length straining against the thin fabric, much like Hoseok’s is. Jin looks thick and your body shivers as you think of what he’ll feel like inside you.
When Hoseok finds what he wants, he jumps on the bed with you both before pushing you onto all fours. He grabs your shorts and tugs them down, depositing them onto the floor before giving your ass a nice smack.
“Hyung, will you do the honors?” Hoseok plays with the waistband of your only remaining garment. “Or would you rather stare at her ass all day.” He jokes when he sees where Jin’s gaze is focused.
Jin’s hands move slowly, but purposefully, grabbing the waistband of your underwear and tugging them down over your ass inch by inch, groaning when they reveal your dripping wet center. He pulls them off the rest of the way, his eyes never leaving you.
“Isn’t she pretty?” Hoseok puts a hand on each cheek and spreads them apart, showing you off to his friend as you arch your back for them.
“So pretty…” Jin breathes.
“Hobi…” You whimper, feeling a little two exposed as both of these boys stare at your most intimate parts.
Hoseok moves back towards your head, cupping your chin so that you’re looking up at him. “Are you okay with Jin hyung feeling how tight your sweet pussy is baby?” He asks softly, a vast difference from how dirty his words are. You can only nod, your core throbbing at the thought. “Good girl. Hyung lay down.” Jin obeys quickly, laying down on the bed next to you as Hoseok moves behind you, whispering in your ear. “Go ahead and ride him, baby.” He punctuates his sentence with a quick kiss on your cheek, watching as you move towards Jin, grabbing the elder boy’s waistband, much like he did to you moments ago, before tugging the fabric down his legs, watching his cock finally spring free against his abdomen.
The sight of it has your mouth watering as Jin’s face and chest flush a bright pink color. You quickly move to straddle his waist, leaning down to press a sweet kiss against his lips before sitting back up and taking hold of his length and lining it up with your entrance. You look down at him one more time and he nods, watching you closely as you sink down onto him.
A moan escapes your lips as Jin slips inside you, guided by your wetness. You shut your eyes as you sink down farther, your face and body rapidly growing hot from the feeling of him inside you as Hoseok whispers words of encouragement from behind you, also enraptured by the sight of Jin’s cock disappearing deep inside you.
“Fuck~” You groan when he’s fully seated inside of you. He feels incredible, stretching your walls so deliciously. Jin isn’t fairing much better than you, his chest already heaving as his hands fall to your waist, squeezing it tightly to beg you to move.
You get the message and begin to move your hips, bouncing yourself up and down on his length, bracing your hands on his chest to help you move. He feels so good inside you, you think you might burst, your skin pricking with an electricity that has you panting already. After a few minutes of bliss, you feel Hoseok’s hand on your lower back, rubbing small circles against your skin before he pushes you forward into Jin’s chest, exposing your ass to him. You sit up enough to look over your shoulder to see Hoseok has his boxers off already as he scoots up to you between Jin’s legs, rubbing his own cock to slicken it for you.
“Couldn't let you two have all the fun.” Hoseok teases before you feel his tip at your puckered rim. “Deep breath baby, just relax for me. You know the drill.”
You nod, giving him the okay before resting your forehead against Jin’s, relaxing the lower half of your body as the younger boy pushes his hips forward. He goes slow, like he always does, but tonight, your ass seems more greedy than usual, taking his length in quickly, with little to no need for adjustment. You groan as he continues to push in, sometimes you forget how long Hoseok is until he does this, but god does it feel good, so good that you have to hold back your orgasm, not wanting to cum just yet. You force all your tension into your hand as it squeezes the sheets next to Jin’s head, and Jin rubs your side soothingly, until he starts moaning with you, able to feel Hoseok push against his own length through the barrier of your body.
Once Hoseok is as deep as he can get inside you, all three of you let out a heavy breath as his hips still for a moment.
“Damn you took me in so well tonight baby.” Hoseok praises, his fingers tracing along your spine. “You look so good with all your holes filled.”
“Hobi, p-please~” You whine. He places a hard smack against your ass before he starts to move his hips, slowly pulling out of you before quickly pushing in again, and under you Jin begins to do the same, fucking up into you as Hoseok pulls out and vice versa. They quickly pick up the pace, both boys gripping your hips, as you whimper between them.
God you’ve never felt so good, so full. With both of their cocks spreading you open relentlessly, it’s no surprise how quickly you’re brought up to the edge of release, especially with how close you were earlier. Just a few more well placed thrusts and then…
“Fuck~” You come undone, your entire body shaking from the pleasure that pulses through you. Your orgasm is quick as the boys continue to fuck you through it, your legs growing weak as it passes.
“Damn that was fast” Hoseok slows his pace to a near stop. “You came already?” You can only nod, burying your face in Jin’s neck. You hear Hoseok chuckle behind you. “You want another one, don’t you baby?”
“Yes~” You whimper against Jin.
“Hyung help me get her on her side.” Hoseok instructs.
Both boys maneuver you onto your side without slipping out of you, sandwiching you between their bodies as Hoseok grabs your right leg and holds it up for you. You wrap your arms around Jin’s neck as they both start up their pace again, their delicious breaths and moans now directly in your ear as they fill you over and over again, now both sliding into you at the same time.
It burns for only a minute before your core decides it feels good again, letting the pleasure back into your senses as your nails dig into Jin’s back. You pull your head out of the crook of his neck before pressing your mouth to his again, sliding your tongue past his lips to taste him for a moment before turning over your shoulder and doing the same to Hoseok, switching between both of them as one of them focuses more on kissing you, and the other focuses more on fucking you.
It isn’t long before Hoseok’s breathing get heavier against your lips, he always gets so worked up when you let him fuck your ass, it’s a miracle he hasn’t cum already. He breaks the kiss and presses his forehead to yours before squeezing your thigh where he’s holding it, signaling to you that he’s close and to focus on Jin.
You turn to the older boy, your tongues tangling as you squeeze around his length, earning a delightful groan from the back of his throat. His own breathing is ragged, signaling his own impending release in closer than you thought.
“Jinnie~” You whine, using the nickname you only pull out for special occasions. He only grunts in response, too far gone. “Jinnie cum for me, please.” You beg. “I want to feel you cum.”
“Fuck…” The hand that was helping Hoseok hold your thigh up suddenly slides down your body to your center and begins drawing quick, tight circles on your clit, just the way you like, causing you to throw your head back in ecstasy. “You first.”
“J-Jin~ Hobi~!” You cry out as your second orgasm slams into you without warning, your entire body convulsing from the sheer bliss and gratification, panting as your high swirls around and through you.
Hoseok is next, you hear him groan behind you as he slams into you one last time, filling your ass with his hot release as he kisses your cheek, whispering sweet nothings in your ear.
With the feeling of your core contracting ruthlessly around him, Jin isn’t far behind, thrusting into your wet heat once, twice, three more times before the pleasure takes hold of him too, and you feel his cum spurting inside you as he moans softly, rutting against you to drag out the sensation.
The three of you lay there tangled together for a long time, reveling in the after-glow euphoria as your breathing returns to normal. Jin is the first one to speak.
“Holy shit… I had no idea it would be like that.” He laughs, pressing a kiss to your forehead. “That was…”
“Amazing.” Hoseok finishes for him.
“Really amazing.” Jin nods.
You hum your agreement, absolutely loving the feeling of being sandwiched between their spent bodies. “Can I ask what made you decide?” You turn to face Jin and Hoseok sits up on his elbow, curious to hear the elder boy’s answer.
“H-honestly?” Jin looks away sheepishly. “I kind of saw you earlier…”
“Saw me? What do you mean?”
“Before dinner? When you were, you know… in here… alone.”
You gasp with realization and smack his arm. “You perv!”
“It was an accident! I swear!”
“And you didn’t say anything?” You smack his arm again laughing.
“What am I missing?” Hoseok asks, clearly confused.
“Tell him, Jin.”
Jin sighs. “When you asked me to get Y/N for dinner, I knocked but she didn’t answer and the door was unlocked so I just… you know, peeked my head in. and she was, well…”
“Masturbating!” You squeal.
“I couldn’t see anything!” Jin admits. “Only your boob was out!”
“Was she using her vibrator?” Hoseok giggles, unphased by the situation when he sees that you are too. Jin nods. “Baby I told you not to use that when we have people over. Remember what happened last time? And now this time?”
“I really needed it!” You pout. “And I didn’t even get to finish.”
“Wait, what happened last time?” Jin asks.
“Nothing!” You deny.
“Joon got a bit more of a show than you did.” Hoseok explains.
“Hobi!”
Hoseok shrugs. “What? It’s true.”
“Yeah, but Joon didn’t get to fuck me after.” You point out. “Trust me if you guys used that thing you’d see why I use it so much.”
“Hm, maybe we can do that next time.”
“Next time?” Jin questions again.
“What, we still have a few more days before the boys come back.” You state, rubbing your hand along Jin’s chest. “Was once enough for you?”
Jin looks at you before looking over your shoulder at Hoseok for an answer.
“Don’t look at me.” Hoseok smiles. “She asked you.”
“Fuck, how do you resist her?” Jin smiles back at both of you.
Hoseok shakes his head, placing another smack against your ass. “I don’t.”
Summary: After the death of your uncle, you make friends with his estranged roommate, a handsome young man, around your age that disappears for days at a time. When you find out something you're not supposed to, you learn exactly why the locals aren't particularly welcoming towards him. You want to help Jeongguk, but will he trust you enough to let you in?
Pairing: Siren!Jeongguk x Reader
Genre: Fluff, Smut, Angst
Word Count: 18k (I have nothing to say...)
TW: Sexually explicit content, mentions of suicide/death, physical altercation, drowning mentions, near death experience, drinking, verbal altercation, panic attack
A/N: tumblr literally won't let me post this in one part it's so long so part 2 will be up immediately!
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"Red sky at night, sailor's delight.
Red sky in the morning, sailor's warning..."
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It’s overcast and misty where the boat finally stops. The late winter sun has just started to sink below the horizon, not that you can tell with all the clouds, but they are a slightly darker shade of grey. You wake yourself, stretching after the long trip from Busan, and grab your things, thanking the captain as you step onto the creaking wood of the old dock. The pungent smells of salt and low tide immediately assault your nose, your raincoat doing little to keep the relentless mist off your face, but you tug it closer nonetheless. You pull the paper out of your pocket and double check the hastily scribbled address that’s starting to smear. Honestly, you don’t even know if you’re in the right place.
You look to your left and see nothing but the ocean, as far as the horizon. You can’t help but stare out at the crashing white foam of the waves, wondering how you ended up here on this miserable island. Well, you know how you ended up here, but you begin to think about what life choices you could’ve made to bring you to this point.
When you say island, you don’t mean a tropical paradise with palm trees and coconuts everywhere. You mean the North Pacific; a small fishing village off the coast of Korea that means little to the world. Honestly, if it sank into the sea one day, you don’t think anyone would mind too terribly.
You scan the surroundings to your right and see a row of dismal buildings. You tuck into the closest one that you can enter, jumping when the door slams shut behind you, causing everyone in the place to look up at you.
You seem to be in some sort of a bar, a small number of people scattered at tables, having probably just got back from being out at sea; a hot bowl of some sort of stew, and a beer in front of each of them. You walk up to the counter where a man stands on the opposite side, cleaning a glass.
“Excuse me?”
The man, older, rather large, and a bit scary looking, turns to you. “Yeah?”
“Uh-um, sorry to bother you, I was wondering if you knew this address?” You hold the paper out to him.
He takes it from your hand and squints at it for a moment before looking up at you in surprise. “Hogeun’s place, huh?” He questions, his voice thick with the island’s harsh satoori.
“Yes, I’m here to collect his things.” You explain. “I’m his niece.”
"Y/N?"
"Um, yes?" Does this man know you?
"Wow, I can't believe it’s you. You're all grown up now.” He laughs. “Last time I saw you was maybe 20 years ago."
"We’ve met?"
He nods. "You don't remember?"
"No." You shake your head.
"You were pretty young, maybe four or five? But I guess when your mom stopped coming around you did too. I'm Donghyun." He reaches his hand across the counter and you shake it. "I was friends with your uncle, so if you need anything let me know, yeah?"
You nod. "Thank you. Um, his house is...?"
"Right, sorry." He hands you back the piece of paper. "Follow the road east to the cliffs. When you get to the fork go right and follow that to the lighthouse. His place is the only one down there.”
“Thank you.” You nod politely as you take your leave, thanking him once more as you head out the door.
As you step outside, pulling your coat tighter around you, you look around to see there’s only one road in this town, so you set off to follow in the opposite direction of the setting sun, but just as you step off the curb, a voice startles you, making you jump as you nearly miss your step.
“Hey there missy!” An old man you hadn’t noticed before is sitting in a chair next to the door of the bar. He seems to revel in the fact that he scared you. “Not often do we get travelers here. What brings you to Gageodo?”
“I’m here to settle my uncle’s estate.”
“You Hogeun’s niece, eh?” He raises an eyebrow. You only nod, not sure how much information you want to give to him. “Old Hogeun kept some strange company. Some a them is monsters out there in the sea.” He points out toward the ocean. “You best read up on how to deal with ‘em.”
“Um, right.” You nod again before trying to turn away, but the old man stops you with a yell.
“You best heed my words! They can be dangerous!”
“Are you saying there’s… mermaids? In the ocean here?” You scoff.
“I didn’t say it…” He looks around to make sure no one else is listening before whispering. “But I ain’t denying it either.”
“Right. I have to go.” You turn and head toward the road, ignoring the man as he continues calling to you, hurrying yourself along until you’re out of earshot.
It’s about twenty minutes before you reach the eastern cliffs, finally seeing your uncle’s home emerge from the shadows of the heavy forest that covers the island. You recognize it from the picture he sent you. With the ocean to the front, and the forest to the back, the house sits modestly between them with the old rundown lighthouse in the distance. A grand view for a one story uh... house? Can you even call it a house? It looks more like a shack. You sigh and dig the spare key out of your pocket, walking up to the door and unlocking it, letting yourself in.
You fumble for a light switch, but can’t seem to find one so you turn on the flashlight on your phone to aid you. When you find the switch, you flick it on and the whole place seems to whirr to life.
You have to admit, it’s bigger on the inside, sparse, but somehow cozy. There’s hardly any furniture; a table, and two old wooden chairs, a small, very worn couch in front of a large television, which is probably the newest thing in here, but that’s it for this room. You take your time exploring the rest of the house; two bedrooms, one bathroom, a decent kitchen, and a creepy basement.
In a normal house, you’d expect to see pictures hanging, things on the walls, little adornments that make a house a home, but this… this is just a house. It isn’t until you nearly trip over a dresser drawer that you find a picture inside. It’s in a simple dark green frame with a stand on the back of it, and when you look on top of the dresser, you can see the square where it once stood, the only spot not covered in dust, but what gets you is that it’s not a picture of his late wife, or friends, it’s a picture of your mom, his sister, leaning over your much younger uncle as he holds an even younger tiny baby you. She must’ve sent it to him before the fight they had. It warms your heart that he kept the picture after all these years.
You were very close to your uncle. Back when you were little, he got into a fight with your mother, his older sister by about twenty years, that alienated him from the rest of the family and cut off any contact you had with him. When you got older, you took matters into your own hands and contacted him. The two of you became close as you kept him updated on the rest of your family. You’d always get a card on your birthday from him with some money in it; the older you were the more money you’d receive, he even sent you a spare key to his house, asking you to come visit; unfortunately, you never had the chance. That’s why you were the one that got called out here when he passed away; your number was the only one they could find.
You place the picture frame back up on the dresser where it belongs, wondering why he put it away. Maybe he was afraid your mother would be the one to empty his place? You shrug, and walk into the spare bedroom, lifting your suitcase on the bed to unpack it, knowing you’ll be here at least a week to sort through his things.
You head to the kitchen, deciding to start sorting tomorrow as you open the fridge to see what kind of food there might be. You’re disappointed as you only see a few wilting vegetables, some eggs, an assortment of sauces and pastes, and a few other scattered foods in take-out containers that have probably been in here longer than you want to think about. There’s also an entire case of beer, and half a container of orange juice. You’ll have to go get some groceries tomorrow.
Your stomach rumbles as you crack open a beer, taking a swig as you search the pantries for anything edible. Instant oatmeal. Well, it’s better than nothing. You grab a packet and toss it into a bowl, adding hot water from the kettle and waiting for it to set. When it’s ready, you grab it and your beer and head over to the couch, turning on the tv to find something to waste the time.
It isn’t long after you eat that you find yourself dozing on the couch, the trip here from home having taken its toll on you. You turn the tv off, placing your dishes in the sink before locking the front door and then heading into the guest room. You put on your pajamas and climb under the sheets, the bed squeaking as you get comfortable, and then quickly drifting off into sleep.
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You’re startled awake by a loud banging noise, trying to wake yourself up enough to get your bearings before you realize it’s coming from the living room. Did someone break in? You check your phone to see it’s about three in the morning. What on earth? You slip a sweatshirt over your pajamas and grab the baseball bat from the corner of the room you stashed earlier before very quietly opening the door to the room to investigate. You don’t see anything, but you still hear the banging. You walk further into the living room to hear someone knocking rapidly on the front door. You’ve only met two people, who could be bothering you at this ungodly hour? The banging continues until you hear a voice above it.
“Hyung! Hyung let me in, please!”
You stand in front of the door, slightly terrified. Should you answer it?
“Hogeun hyung, please!”
At the mention of your uncle’s name, you lean the bat against the wall, step forward and unlock the door, opening it to see something you never thought you’d see. In front of you stands a soaking wet young man with dark hair that just barely covers his wide eyes. He looks like a stunned deer as he takes you in just as you do him, searching for something, his breathing ragged as if he ran here.
“Can I help you?” You ask.
“Are you…? Are you Y/N?”
You look at him surprised as your name leaves his lips. You’re starting to get tired of people knowing you before you know them. “Um, yes?”
“W-where’s Hogeun?”
You look at him, confused. Does he not know? “He’s not here. He’s-”
“Oh, can I come in?”
“I-”
“Please?” He pleads, his voice desperate. You step to the side and allow him to enter; he does so quickly and shuts the door behind him, locking it and relaxing a bit.
“How did you-”
“Hyung told me you might be coming to visit soon. Where is he? Is he sleeping?”
“Who are you?”
“Oh! Sorry. My name is Jeongguk.” He bows politely. “I’m a friend of your uncles.”
“A friend?” You ask in disbelief. Your uncle never mentioned Jeongguk which immediately makes you suspicious… But on the other hand, your uncle told Jeongguk about you.
“I know this sounds ironic since he’s your actual uncle, but he’s like an uncle to me. Or like a brother. He helped me out of a pretty bad situation once and I’ve been helping him ever since.”
That reminds you. “Right, um speaking of bad situations, were you running from something?” You ask, remembering his frantic entrance.
“Running? Um…” He hesitates obviously not wanting to discuss the matter.
“Yeah, you seemed to be in a hurry to get in here. Like you were in trouble.”
“Let’s just say the people in this town don’t like me very much, okay? Now, where’s Hogeun?”
“You really don’t know?”
“Know what?”
You sigh, walking over to the sofa and taking a seat on it. Jeongguk follows close behind, taking a seat next to you, obviously comfortable in this home, by the way he tucks his feet under himself. “I'm sorry to be the one to tell you, but he…” You pause, taking a deep breath. “Hogeun is dead.” You whisper. It still hurts to admit it.
“W-what?” You look up to see Jeongguk’s doe eyes go even wider in shock. “What are you talking about?”
“They-” You take a deep breath, holding back your tears before continuing. “They found his body at the bottom of the cliffs a few days ago; the police said he must’ve jumped. They called me to come get his stuff sorted out, that’s why I’m here.”
The room goes silent. You look at Jeongguk to see his face twisted in what seems to be rage before he speaks, so low you almost can’t hear him. “Hyung didn’t jump.”
“Jeongguk-”
“He didn’t!” Jeongguk suddenly yells. “He-” Jeongguk stops and looks at you, seeming to contemplate something before continuing. “I know hyung. He didn’t jump.”
“I’m sorry, Jeongguk but there isn’t really any other explanation…” You sigh. “How come you didn’t know? It happened almost a week ago now. Where have you been?”
“I-” Jeongguk stops, closing his mouth and looking at the floor. He’s silent for a few moments before he suddenly gets up and walks toward the kitchen.
“What are you doing?” You ask, watching as he rummages around on the table and in drawers, looking for something, ignoring you. You get up and walk over to him. “Look, I’m sorry you had to find out like this, but I don’t really know who you are or why you’re here and it’s very late, so I’m going to have to ask you to-”
“Here.” He suddenly shoves an envelope in your face.
“What is this?” You take the envelope from his outstretched hand.
“Read it. I’m going to sleep.”
“What?” You turn as he walks away from you toward your uncle’s room. “You can’t just- this isn’t your house!” But it’s too late, Jeongguk has already disappeared into the room and shut the door behind him. Before you can huff off after him, you feel the envelope in your hand and sigh, lifting it to see what it says.
In case of Emergency: For Y/N
That’s your uncle’s handwriting. You take one last look over at the closed door before tearing open the envelope to find one of your uncle’s letters inside, addressed to you.
Y/N,
I wish I was writing to you under better circumstances, but unfortunately if you’re reading this, it’s likely something has happened to me and I’m sorry that you have to be the one to pick up after my mess. You’ve already met Jeongguk, I hope; he’s a good kid. I hope you two become friends and show him the same kindness you showed me. He’ll watch over the house so you don’t have to go through the hassle of selling it. Take anything you need; the account numbers for my bank are written below. Everything in them is for you as a thank you for letting me back into your life. Hopefully it’ll help. I hope you get things sorted out quickly, ask Jeongguk for help if you need any. He’s a little strange, but he’ll be good to you. Give the family my love and apologies, especially your mother.
Hogeun
Well, at least that’s one thing you don’t have to worry about. You turn and walk over to the door Jeongguk disappeared behind and knock lightly, when there’s no response, you open the door just a crack and peek inside to see Jeongguk fast asleep on the bed. You sigh and close the door again, there’s no use waking him. You head back into your room and shut the door, crawling back under the covers and closing your eyes to drift off.
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You wake up to a loud clap of thunder, startled as you shoot up in bed. Man, are you always going to wake up to loud noises when you’re here? You stretch, checking your phone to see it’s a little after ten in the morning. You sit up, shivering. It got cold here last night. You’ll have to look at the thermostat after you eat something.
You grab your sweatshirt and slip it back on, remembering the intruder you had last night as you stand and make your way out to the kitchen. You manage to find some rice, grab the eggs, and a few vegetables that still look edible. You shrug and slice them up before throwing everything in a pan with some soy sauce, and sesame oil, making a very sad looking fried rice. Well, it’s better than nothing. As you dump about a quarter of it into a bowl, you hear a door open behind you and Jeongguk comes stumbling out, still half asleep.
“Is that food?” He asks, running up to your side.
“It’s not much, just some fried rice.”
"Can I have some?" He asks hopefully.
"Sure, there’s plenty. Take what you want."
Jeongguk grabs a bowl and dumps the rest of the rice into it before grabbing a spoon and walking over to the table, sitting down as he immediately begins stuffing his face.
"This is amazing." He groans.
You can’t help but giggle at his enthusiasm. "Thanks, it would've been better with fresh veggies, but-"
His eyes widen as he looks at you. "You can make it taste better?"
"Well, yeah. I'll just have to get some things at the grocery store."
"What else can you make?" He asks, scooting closer.
"Uh, pretty much anything as long as I have a recipe. What do you like?"
"Everything! I love food! I used to love when Hogeun cooked!"
"Oh? What did he cook for you?"
"Mostly seafood stuff. He'd tell me what he'd want and I'd pick it up fresh for him. Crab, tuna, shrimp, mackerel, whatever he needed."
"Is there a fish market nearby? Do they have a lot of variety? I thought they sold everything to the mainland?"
"Oh, um..." Jeongguk hesitates. "I have a friend... One that fishes and stuff."
"Oh, if I give you a list can you get some stuff for me?"
"I can get anything from the sea that you need."
"Okay. Um, thank you. How- uh, how old are you anyway?”
“Twenty-seven.”
“Oh, okay, I’m twenty-eight.”
Jeongguk simply nods as he goes back to eating like he's starved. When he's finished, he puts his bowl down and looks back at you. "Okay, I'm ready." He states.
"For what?" You ask as you continue to eat.
"To go to the store."
You chuckle again. “After I eat. And I’m going to shower first.”
"How long will that take?" Jeongguk tilts his head in what seems to be confusion.
“Maybe fifteen or twenty minutes?”
“Hm.” Jeongguk seems to pout at this.
“I’ll try to be quick.” You take another bite of your breakfast. "So, where are you from? If you don’t mind me asking."
"I'm from... Uh... The island."
"This Island?"
"N-no, the big one, to the south."
"Jeju?"
"That's the one." He nods satisfactorily.
"Right..." You shake your head.
After you eat, you excuse yourself to jump in the shower, wanting to wash the bus and boat feeling off of you. You wash yourself quickly, not entirely sure if you trust the lock on the bathroom door. When you’re finished and clothed, you grab your hair dryer and plug it in, starting to dry your hair when you see Jeongguk poke his head around the corner, observing you closely through the open door.
“Can I help you?” You ask over the whirr of the dryer. He mumbles something, but you don’t catch it, turning the dryer off to hear him better. “Hm?”
“What… What is that? It’s loud.”
“My hair dryer?” You wiggle it at him and he nods. “It’s for drying your hair faster when it’s wet. Your mom didn’t have one?”
He shakes his head. “I never met my mom.”
“Oh, I’m sorry.”
He shrugs, tossing your sympathy away with his shoulders. “She died when I was born. It’s not a big deal.”
You don’t know how to respond to that so you turn back to the mirror. “I should be done in a few minutes, okay?”
Jeongguk nods, heading back to sit on the couch and wait as you finish drying your hair. When you’re done, you throw on your rain jacket and boots and grab the keys to your uncle’s old rusted, red truck. You and Jeongguk climb in head back toward town to buy some food.
Jeongguk also does not know where the grocery store is, so you drive around for a bit until you find it. It’s about as big as you expected, which is to say not at all, but it’s the only one on the island. You pull into a parking space and lead Jeongguk inside, watching his eyes go wide in amazement at all the food.
You putter around the store, grabbing this and that every so often to add to the baskets you and Jeongguk are carrying, trying to think of meals Jeongguk might enjoy. You occasionally ask him his opinion, but he just says yes to everything, following you around like a lost puppy. Surprisingly enough, as you're rounding the corner where the meats sit, you nearly run right into Donghyun.
"Y/N!" He smiles brightly at you.
"Ah, hello!" You smile back. "Fancy meeting you here."
He shrugs, "Picking up groceries for the bar on my day off."
"Oh, are you closed on Sundays?"
He nods, eyeing the nearly filled basket in your arms. "I guess you don't have much food at the house?"
"Ah, no not really. Plus Jeongguk eats like he's starved."
"Jeongguk? Do you have a dog or something?"
"No, he's my uncle's friend.” You explain. “Do you not know him?"
"No, I can't say I've ever heard the name before. His friend you say?"
"Yeah. He’s right-” You turn around to see Jeongguk is no longer behind you. “He was just here… Well, he's about my age, tall, brown hair, big eyes."
Donghyun's eyes go wide as though he knows who you're describing, but he doesn't say anything further, he simply shrugs again and shakes his head. "Oh, I saw Hajoon stopped you yesterday?"
"Hajoon?"
"Crazy old man, sits outside of the bar."
"Oh, right yeah. He was talking about mermaids or something." You laugh. "Can you imagine?"
"Yeah that's what I figured. He’s a nice guy, but I think all those years on the ocean turned his brain to seawater. So just... Don't pay attention to the things he says."
"Alright. I mean, I figured with the mermaids and all."
Donghyun smiles and nods. "Hey, why don’t you come by my house tomorrow? My wife and I would be happy to have some company to cook for.”
“Really? That’s so kind of you.”
“Absolutely. Our house is the one right behind the bar. Come by around seven, and bring your friend if you can find him!"
"Thank you, I'll see you then." And with that he walks off.
As soon as Donghyun disappears down the next aisle, Jeongguk’s voice startles you from behind. “Who was that?”
“Where did you go?”
“Hm? I was just around the corner. I found this.” Jeongguk holds up a box of sweet cakes. “Hyung always had these.”
“Alright.” You grab the box from him and stick it in his basket. “Come on, I think we have enough.”
After your shopping, you head back home, walking in the door to find you forgot to change the thermostat. You put everything down in the kitchen and then walk over to check it.
“Holy shit, why is this only set to 60 in March?” You ask out loud, quickly turning the temperature up to 70. “Haven’t you been cold?” You ask Jeongguk as you put your groceries away.
“Cold? Not really.” He shrugs.
You shake your head and whip up some quick sandwiches for lunch before you begin organizing your uncle's belongings. Keep, donate, and trash are the three labelled boxes that sit adjacent to you on the floor. Keep- photographs, letters, money left in sock drawers; Donate- old clothes, out of date electronics, anything Jeongguk doesn’t want to keep; Trash - ashtray, empty cigarette cartons, beer bottles, shoes with holes in them.
It feels strange to you, compartmentalizing someone's life like this. Especially someone you knew. Someone you loved. You think about your own important things, what would someone keep of yours? Some clothes, maybe jewelry, probably your camera once they found it where it’s stuffed in the back of your closet, shelved with your dreams.
You sigh as you throw the last shirt in the closet into the donation box, finished with the guest room. You look at the time and realize you've been doing this for seven hours. No wonder you're hungry, it's nearly nine o'clock. You pick yourself up and make your way to the kitchen, cooking a simple stew for dinner to help stave off the cold outside.
You earn several grunts of happiness from Jeongguk as he continues to tell you how amazing everything tastes. When you’re finished eating, you do the dishes quickly before joining Jeongguk on the couch, grabbing the remote control and turning on the tv. "What do you want to watch?"
"Watch?" He questions again.
"Yeah, you know, watch. On tv? Like a show, or a movie?"
"I don't know. I never had one." He points at the tv.
"Okay." You pull up Netflix , and start scrolling. "Stop me if you see something interesting." You scroll, not really focusing on the screen, but more on Jeongguk's reaction to it. It looks like he's really never seen a tv before; his eyes are blown wide in awe as he stares at it.
"That one!" He suddenly shouts, causing you to refocus on the screen.
"Boys over Flowers? Really?"
He nods. "I wanna watch that one."
"Okay, if you really want to." You click on the show and the first episode starts up.
You watch Jeongguk as he stares at the screen, enraptured by the scenes in front of him, and you take the time to study him. His hair is long, down to his shoulders, and a dark chocolate brown, almost black. His eyes are a lighter shade of brown, but sometimes you swear they shimmer like golden topaz when he gets excited. He’s on the taller side, his tan body toned and muscular beneath the clothes he borrows from your uncle’s closet. His nose is a little big, but it suits him, especially when he smiles, his eyes crinkling up and his lips pulling back to reveal his cute smile, reminding you of a rabbit.
There’s something about him… Something almost inhumanly beautiful as your eyes follow the lines of his body. Once he looks over and catches you staring, causing you to blush and pull your focus back to the tv. After the first three episodes, you decide to go to bed, the day's events finally catching up to you.
"Jeongguk, I'm going to bed." You state. He only nods, watching the final scene of the episode intently until the credits begin to roll. As you get up, the 'are you still watching' screen appears and Jeongguk panics.
"What happened?" He whines.
"Nothing, it just wants to make sure you're still watching." You hand him the remote. "Just press the 'okay' button and it'll keep going."
Jeongguk presses the button and is relieved when the show starts to play again. Knowing he's content, you take your leave and head off to bed, shutting the door behind you.
As you settle in, you have to admit that Jeongguk is slightly amusing, but he's a bit strange. Especially with all the things he doesn’t seem to know about. Is living on this island really that different than living on the mainland? Something about him feels off to you, but you can't seem to put your finger on it. Hogeun trusted him, so he can't be bad, right?
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When you wake up the next morning, you have to check your phone for the time because it's so dark out it might still be night. 10:33 am. You get up and stretch, walking over to the window and peeking through the blinds to see it's pouring down rain again. Or is it, ‘still’? You see a bright flash of lightning in the distance. What a miserable place. You miss the sun. You sigh as you slip some pants on and walk out into the hall to see your uncle's bedroom door is open. Jeongguk must already be awake. You head towards the main room to see the tv is still on and is currently displaying the "More you might enjoy" screen from after you finish watching something in its entirety.
"Jeongguk, did you watch that whole show last night?" You call out, but there's no response. "Jeongguk?" You call again as you search the kitchen and bathroom, but Jeongguk is nowhere to be found. "That's weird…" You comment to yourself as you walk into the kitchen. Well, maybe if you make some breakfast, the smell of food will summon him. You cook up some eggs for a delicious egg sammy, but surprisingly, Jeongguk doesn’t crawl out of wherever he’s disappeared to, and you eat by yourself.
As the day goes on, you continue sorting through your uncle’s things, wondering if maybe the stress of all of this made you hallucinate Jeongguk for some company. Was he really a dream? You shake your head, taping up the last box and carrying it out to the truck. You figure Donghyun might know where you can donate the clothes, so you’re bringing them with you to dinner tonight. At half past six you ready yourself for dinner, brushing your hair, and pulling on a warm flannel over your grey shirt and jeans, adjusting the necklace your uncle gave you in the mirror before hiding it under the collar of your shirt, slipping on your rain gear and heading out to the truck.
You drive through the rain, up the road and into town, pulling in behind the bar to find Donghyun’s house. It’s not quite attached to the bar, but it might as well be. You park on the street and walk up to the door, knocking lightly. Donghyun answers the door with a wide smile.
“Y/N! So glad you could make it.” He moves to the side and lets you in, taking your coat and hanging it up as you slip off your boots. He leads you into the small kitchen where a woman stands over the stove, cooking something. “This is my wife, Saki.”
“It’s nice to meet you!” She offers you a warm smile and you hear a lilt in her words.
“You too! Thank you for having me over.”
“Oh of course!” She puts down the spoon she was holding, wiping her hands on her apron. “Any excuse to cook for someone other than him.” Saki teases. “Why don’t you two sit, dinner will be ready in just a second!”
You thank her again before following Donghyun to the adjacent dining room, surprised to find a kotatsu as the main piece of furniture. You sit down on the pillow across from your host, pulling the blanket over your lap and feeling the warmth of the heater greet your chilled legs.
“I hope you don’t mind the table, Saki’s from Japan originally. She insists she can’t live without it.”
That explains the accent. “Not at all! It’s delightful, I might have to invest in one for my apartment.”
“It’s good for those rainy days.” He agrees. “Which is almost every day here.”
“Time for dinner!” Saki exclaims as she walks into the room carrying two trays. She sets them both on the table and you see three large bowls of curry and rice, along with several side dishes, and cups of steaming hot tea.
“Wow, it smells amazing.” You state as she places a bowl in front of you, the smell dancing through the air as you pick up your spoon.
“Dig in!”
The three of you eat, sharing stories and laughs in the low lighting of the room. Donghyun tells you stories about your uncle; they both got jobs on the same fishing boat when they were eighteen and became close friends, your uncle eventually buying his own boat, and Donghyun taking over the bar for his father’s friend. They remained friends up until his passing, and the memory seems to hurt him as he tells you about how Hogeun used to join them for dinner just like you are now. Saki’s curry was his favorite.
“He always spoke so highly of you. He couldn’t wait for you to come visit.”
A pang of sorrow rings through your chest. “I wish I could’ve come sooner…”
Donghyun smiles bittersweetly, placing a hand on your shoulder. “He knows you were busy.”
You’re thankful for the comforting gesture, nodding in acknowledgment. After the meal is finished, Donghyun brings out old photo albums and shows you the years of your uncle’s life that you missed, showing you what he was like without the stress of your family’s ideals weighing on him. He looked so happy.
So why did he end his life? The question nags in the back of your mind, but you don’t want to bring it up right now.
“So could your friend not make it tonight?” Saki questions. “Dongie said you might be bringing one.”
You shake your head. “Unfortunately not.”
“Too busy?”
“I’m not really sure.” You shrug. “I couldn’t find him.”
“You don’t know where he is?” Donghyun asks.
“This probably sounds terrible, but I don't really know that much about him.” Donghyun and Saki exchange a concerned glance. “Hogeun told me about him in a letter. Said he could be trusted. I guess they were pretty close. He said Hogeun was like a brother to him. Hogeun even left the house to him so I don’t have to sell it.”
“What’s his name again?”
“Jeongguk.”
Saki thinks on this for a moment. “What’s his family name?”
“I… I don’t know. I never asked.”
Donghyun shakes his head. “I can’t say I’ve ever heard that name, not even in passing at the bar.”
“He’s harmless, honestly. I swear all he does is eat.” You explain. Another glance exchanged. It’s pointless to try and make them understand.
After a few more conversations, you bid goodbye, thanking them again for the meal before slipping your coat back on and heading out to the truck. You wave as you pull away, driving up the dark road back toward the lighthouse. When you pull into your uncle’s driveway, the house is dark. Jeongguk must not be back. As you unlock the front door, you can’t help but think once more, did he ever really exist? Or Was he something your mind made up due to the stress.
You close and lock the door behind you, walking into the kitchen and placing your leftovers in the fridge along with some assorted banchan they gifted you. You slide off your flannel tossing it on the back of the couch before settling down onto the cushions, running your hands through your hair as you take it down and then turning on the tv. You take off your necklace and twirl the medallion in your fingers.
A few hours later, there’s a bang against the front door that scares the shit out of you, causing you to jump out of the sleep you had fallen into. Just when you start to think you imagined it, you hear light knocking, getting up and walking over to investigate. You can’t see anything through the peephole, so you open the door a crack, peeking out to find Jeongguk standing there in the dark.
“Jeongguk? What the hell?” You open the door and he pushes past you, waltzing into the house, seemingly unbothered, though he is absolutely drenched from head to toe. “Are you alright?”
“Hm?” He barely turns toward you as he walks to the kitchen, tracking water across the floor. “I’m starving, do we have anything to eat?”
“Where have- Eugh, Jeongguk…” Your sentence is interrupted as you move to cover your nose, catching a whiff of him, the strong scents of salt and sea wafting off of his body in waves. “You smell like low tide.”
You watch him lift his arm up to sniff himself before shrugging. “It’s not that bad.”
“Yes it is.” You disagree, walking over to him and grabbing his arm. “You’re dripping all over the floor! And is this…?” You grab something off of the back of his shirt. “Seaweed?” You hold the green plant up between the two of you to show him. “What the hell have you been doing?”
“N-nothing, I was just-”
“Come on.” You start dragging him toward the bathroom.
“What? Hey-”
You open the bathroom and pull him inside with you. “You’re not eating until you shower.”
“A shower?”
“Yeah you know, when you wash yourself with soap and water?”
He groans. “Do I have to?”
“Yes. Jeongguk, you stink.” You explain, turning the shower on for him. “Please.”
Jeongguk rolls his eyes. “Fine.” He states, grabbing his shirt and pulling the wet fabric off over his head, allowing you full visual access to his toned torso. You blush, only allowing yourself a quick glimpse before turning your head to look away.
“I-I’ll have something ready for you to eat when you’re done.” You mumble, immediately leaving the bathroom and shutting the door behind you.
Pausing for a moment against the door to slow your heart rate, the image flashes in your mind again; was that a tattoo you saw? You shake your head in an attempt to clear it. Why couldn’t your uncle have befriended some weird old man instead of a hot guy your age? And why was he so goddamn weird?
You sigh to yourself as you walk to the kitchen, flicking on the lights and taking your leftover curry out of the fridge, putting it in a bowl and then sticking it in the microwave to warm up. You grab a towel and use it to mop up the puddles of water Jeongguk leaked all over the floor. When you finish that, you realize Jeongguk will need a change of clothes so you walk into your uncle’s room, or you suppose it’s Jeongguk’s room now… You walk into the room, and grab Jeongguk some sweatpants, boxers, and a shirt. You can hear the microwave start to beep back in the kitchen, so you walk back out to shut it off, but as you pass by the bathroom, you hear the most beautiful sound you’ve ever heard.
It’s low, but melodious, immediately catching your attention. You don’t know what it is, it almost sounds like the distant crashing waves, the lull of the open sea, a sweet word on the wind, filling your heart with so much emotion you feel like it might burst, and yet, you feel nothing at all, only a deep want, a voracious need in your chest that has you turning toward the bathroom and opening the door before you can stop yourself.
Your vision goes blurry as you open the door, the sweet sound hitting your ears at a higher volume, echoing off the round acoustics of the bathroom walls and bouncing right back into your brain. As you walk toward the source, the shower curtain pulls back and the final barrier between you and the voice is removed, your reach for it when suddenly the sound stops. Your eyes focus to find Jeongguk standing before you, a terrified expression on his face as he takes in your drugged-like state.
“Y/N?”
“J-Jeongguk? What-” You suddenly notice Jeongguk is still standing in the tub, naked as he’ll ever be and you turn away. “Oh god! I’m sorry I was, uh-” What were you doing? You look around for clues and see the pile of clean clothes you dropped to the floor. “Ah!” You bend over and pick them up. “I was just bringing you some dry clothes.” You place the clothes on the sink counter. “You can use my towel to dry off, I’ll wash it tomorrow.” You mumble before quickly leaving and shutting the door behind you.
What the hell was that? You don’t remember anything, it’s like you blacked out as soon as you came out of Jeongguk’s room. Weird. Maybe it’s just because you’re tired? Despite the odd feeling creeping up the back of your neck, you walk back into the kitchen, pulling Jeongguk’s food out of the microwave and setting it on the table for him just as he walks out of the bathroom.
You’re still a bit too flushed to face him, looking down at your lap as you sit down at the table, watching out of the corner of your eye as he takes a seat next to you. He seems oblivious to your embarrassment as he immediately digs into the food, shoveling mouthfuls past his lips, making you wonder if he breathes when he eats. When he finally starts to slow down, nearing the end of his meal, you lift your head, still unable to meet his gaze as you mumble an apology.
“I-I’m sorry for, you know, walking in on you. Like that.”
“It’s alright.” He says between bites.
“I don’t even know why I did that. Honestly, I don’t remember doing it.”
“You don't?” He quirks an eyebrow, eyeing you under the hair that falls across his face.
“It’s the weirdest thing, right? I must be really tired or something.”
“Hm. Maybe…” He stretches and yawns, his spoon clinking against the bowl as he stretches his arms above his head. “Thanks for the food.” He smiles, taking his dishes to the sink and washing them quickly.
“So, where did you go, if you don’t mind me asking.”
He shrugs, “Just had a couple things I had to do.”
“In the rain? Without a jacket? Or shoes?” You question, having noticed his footprints in the water he left on the floor.
“Shoes are uncomfortable.”
“Right…” you watch him as he places his dishes in the rack to dry before turning and walking towards his room. “Jeongguk-” You call out to stop him.
“Hm?” He stops, spinning back around to face you, his doe eyes wide in question.
“N-nothing, never mind. I’ll talk to you in the morning I guess. If you’ll be here?”
“Sure.” He simply nods before walking away into his room and shutting the door.
You sit at the table, temporarily stunned at the interaction you just had. God he’s strange. You get up, grabbing your necklace where it fell on the floor, shutting off the tv, and flicking the lights off on your way to your own room. You place the necklace on your nightstand, slip into some pajamas, and crawl into bed.
Just a few more days. You think to yourself. And then you can go back to your normal life. Or… at least what’s left of it.
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Jeongguk quickly shuts the door behind him, glad to finally be alone as he takes a deep breath. Damn. He’s going to have to be more careful. He didn’t think he was being loud enough for you to hear him over the sound of the shower, that could’ve been a disaster if he hadn’t opened the curtain and seen you. Jeongguk drags his hand over his face, trying to wipe away the worry as he strips out of his clothes and flops down into bed with an exasperated sigh.
Jeongguk appreciates you. He’s grateful that you let him into your home, or, well, his home he guesses. You don’t ask too many questions. And you’re nice. You’re so much nicer than he ever thought you would be for some reason. Most people, especially in this town, aren’t particularly welcoming when it comes to him. He wishes Hogeun was here. It would make things so much easier…
He wishes he could tell you something.
He wishes he could tell you everything.
He wants to tell you everything, but Hogeun specifically told him to keep you out of it. He already hid all of their research in his room, hoping you won’t find it. Jeongguk pulls the letter addressed to him out of the bedside table, the one he found with yours, reading over it again.
Figure out what happened to me. Hide the research. And most importantly, make sure Y/N gets out of here as soon as possible. I would only blame myself if she got caught up in this mess that I made…
Hogeun didn’t want you anywhere near the Ineo, so being near Jeongguk while you sorted things out was as close as you were going to get. Jeongguk has put up a firm wall, and tonight was too close for comfort. Jeongguk has to continue like this, sneaking away in the early hours to do what he needs to do. To find the answers. Jeongguk is determined to find a way to lift this curse.
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When you wake up the next morning, it’s cold again. It’s early, you check your phone, unable to sleep because of the cold; it’s only just turning to eight o’clock. It takes everything in you to get out from underneath the warmth of the blankets; wanting to stay cocooned in them for the rest of the day, but you have things to sort. You shiver as your bare feet hit the cold wood of the floor, quickly reaching for warmer clothes; socks, a sweater and sweatpants, and slipping them onto your body.
You open your door and walk out to the living room to check the thermostat again. 60 degrees. What the hell? You turn the temperature back up to 70, feeling the heat immediately pouring out of the vent beneath your feet. Much better. But how did it get turned down? There isn't an automatic adjustment feature on it, it’s too old. Did Jeongguk…?
You huff, walking over to his room and knocking while you open the door to see Jeongguk sprawled across the mattress in nothing but shorts, blissfully unaware of the temperature. You walk over to him and are about to wake him when you see the tattoo etched into his skin, swirls of dark blue ink surrounding hands as they sink into the depths of color. You swear you’ve seen this before, but you can’t place where. Oh well, back to the task at hand.
“Hey!” You smack Jeongguk in his bare chest, startling him awake. His eyes dart around the room until they land on you standing over him.
“Y-Y/N?”
“Did you mess with the thermostat?”
“The what?” He sits up.
“The thing that changes the temperature. Did you turn it back down?”
“Hm? Oh, yeah.” He nods, unbothered. “I’m used to cold weather.”
“Aren’t you from Jeju?” He tilts his head as though he doesn’t understand why that matters. You pinch the bridge of your nose. “Okay, normal people get cold at this temperature, so I’m going to turn it up. Can you leave it alone until I’m gone please?”
He shrugs. “Sure.”
You’re about to say more, but decide against it. He doesn’t talk much anyway. “Thank you.” You state as you turn and walk out, closing his door behind you. You barely make it three steps before the door opens again and Jeongguk follows behind you, he reminds you of a lost puppy sometimes.
“Are you… going to make food?” He asks, pulling a shirt on.
You chuckle, should’ve known that was coming. “I can, what would you like?”
He thinks for a moment before his eyes light up. “Hyung used to make these things,” He forms a circle with his hands. “Like little cakes? They were sweet.”
Sweet cakes? “Like, rice cakes?”
“No. Um… fluffy?”
“Hotteok?”
“Hotteok!” He points at you as he says it, clearly excited.
“Okay,” You giggle, turning to fish ingredients out of the cabinets. “I can make Hotteok, but you’ll have to wait for the dough to rise.”
Jeongguk nods, taking a seat on the couch and watching closely as you mix up the dough, putting it in a bowl and covering it before joining him. You set a timer for an hour and turn on the tv. You put on something mindless, dozing off as you watch until the timer goes off and jolts you awake. You get up and check the dough, kneading it before covering it for another 20 minutes or so. When that times up, you get the skillet ready, turning the heat on, and Jeongguk watches you carefully.
You look at him over your shoulder. How is he going to take care of himself after you leave? “Do you… want to help?”
His eyes go wide. “Can I?”
“Sure.” You wave him over. “It’s easy once you have the dough.”
You turn the dough out onto a floured cutting board and instruct Jeongguk how to separate it into balls while you mix cinnamon and sugar for the filling. You show him how to add the filling to the dough balls and then have him watch as you fry one up, waiting until it turns a golden brown before flipping it, squishing it down with the spatula, and then covering the pan with a lid so the sugar melts into a syrup. When it’s done, you scoop the pastry up out of the pan and place it on a plate.
“Voila.” You hold the plate out to him. “Hotteok.”
Jeongguk takes the plate, smiling. “Amazing.”
“It’s hot, be careful.” You scold when he picks it up immediately, burning the tips of his fingers.
“Hot. Right.” He nods, blowing on it carefully.
He waits for you to cook a few more before you both sit down at the table together and eat. You can’t help but watch him, fascinated by the way everything seems new to him. He carefully eats the hot pastries, focused on nothing but the food in front of him the entire time. If anything, at least he’s amusing to spend time with. You smile as you observe him and his odd mannerisms.
“So what are you going to do today?” He asks as he licks the remains off his fingers, you barely hear him, entranced by the flick of his pink tongue. No. You scold yourself. You can’t start thinking about him like that.
“Um, I’m going to try and bring some things up from the basement to go through.” You state, leaning back in your chair. “I didn’t realize how much was down there until yesterday. It’s going to take me a while to get through it all.”
“Can I help?”
“You want to spend all day going through boxes of junk with me?”
He shrugs. “I don’t really have much else to do.”
“Sure. I could use your muscles.” You nod. It’ll be easier to have Jeongguk lug everything up the stairs for you since you don’t want to do anything in that creepy basement.
As you do the dishes, Jeongguk carries up box after box for you, covering most of the floor in the kitchen. You tell him that should be enough for now, and the two of you get to work sifting through the miscellaneous items your uncle collected over the years. One box has old movies on VHS and a video camera that doesn’t work anymore. Another is full of old fishing ledgers that he never got rid of. Jeongguk opens a third box and pulls out a series of old CD’s and vinyl albums.
“What are these?”
“Hm?” You look up from the notebook you’re skimming through. “Oh those are just CD’s. You know. Music?”
“Music?” He takes one out and turns it over in his hands. “Who is Sonyeo Sidae?”
“Did you really just ask me that?” You scoff. He looks up at you with wide eyes. “You’ve never heard of Girl’s Generation? The nation’s girl group?” He shakes his head. “God have you been living under a rock?” You mumble, grabbing your phone and crawling over to Jeongguk, sitting down at his side and pulling up youtube. “Here,” You hand the phone to him. “This is their debut song. It’s one of their most iconic.”
The intro to Into the New World plays, and you immediately feel nostalgic, reminded of all the times you listened to this very song with your uncle when you were younger. His favorite was Gee. You watch Jeongguk, his head nodding along to the beat of the song as it plays, enraptured by the scene on the screen.
Several hours later, you and Jeongguk are dancing around the living room, having just taught him the moves to I Got a Boy, the two of you scream-singing along as the song blasts from the tv.
“Ayo stop! Lemme put it down another way!”
The two of you dance like crazy until at some point during the last chorus you both crash into each other and fall to the floor in a heap, laughing until you can’t breathe. As the song fades out, the two of you catch your breath, both of you sweating from the unprompted exercise.
“I didn’t know dancing could be so much fun.” Jeongguk smiles as he sits up, his breath heavy.
“Would you believe me if I told you Hogeun knows every step to that song by heart?”
“Hyung? No.”
“Oh yeah, he is… well, was the biggest SNSD fan.”
“Really?”
“Yeah…” You nod softly, pulling your knees into your chest.
Jeongguk studies you for a moment, taking in your suddenly silent state. “You miss him.” It’s not a question, but a statement. An observation.
You sigh. “I do miss him.” Jeongguk opens his mouth to say something, but before he can, you stand up, stretching. “Wow, four o clock already?” You look at the mess on the floor, realizing that you didn’t get much done as your stomach rumbles. “Hey, why don’t we have seafood tonight?” Jeongguk’s head perks up at this. “Would you be able to get stuff from your friend this late?”
“Of course.” Jeongguk stands with you. “What do you need?”
“Hmm, mussels and shrimp if he has them. Maybe some clams? Oh, and squid! I have everything for the stock, I just need to run to the store and get some noodles and veggies.”
“Okay, I’ll bring everything back here.”
“How much?”
“Hm?” He turns back to you.
“You know, money? How much will it cost?”
Jeongguk shakes his head, smirking. “Don’t worry about it.” And with that he walks out into the rain, barefoot. You watch him walk down the path toward the lighthouse and disappear into the mist.
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About an hour later, you come back from the store with a bag full of ingredients as you hurry to the kitchen and start on the stock. Just as the stock is finishing, Jeongguk comes back through the front door, a bag of his own in hand, once again, soaking wet from head to toe.
“What the-”
“Here!” He walks over and hands you the bag, shaking his hair as he does and sprinkling you with salty droplets.
“Jeongguk!” You squeak, wiping some of the drops off your face. You open the bag and look inside to see everything you asked for. It’s all extremely fresh, so fresh that some of it is still moving. “Did you just dive into the ocean and pluck these out?” You ask incredulously.
“What? N-no, my friend had them.”
You eye him suspiciously, giggling. “I was joking, but you sound defensive.”
He looks anywhere but at you. “I’m going to go shower!” He runs off before you can ask him any more questions.
“Clean up the floor when you’re done!” You call after him as the bathroom door closes.
You quickly clean and prepare your seafood, chop up the veggies and stir fry the pork while your noodles cook. You add the pork and veggies together and pour in some broth before adding your seafood and noodles and covering the pot, letting everything marinate together for a few minutes until your mussels all open up.
Jeongguk strides out of the bathroom just as you pull the lid off, filling the house with the warm scent of salty broth and seafood. He quickly mops up the floor as you divvy out two large servings into bowls, placing them on the table and waiting for Jeongguk to join you before you both dig in.
It's delicious; the freshness of the seafood only adds to the delectability of the broth. The table is silent aside from the sounds of slurping broth and noodles, occasionally a groan or grunt of contentment slipping into the mix. When you’re done, you lean back in your chair, lifting your arms and resting your hands on your forehead to help you get a full breath.
“That was so good.” Jeongguk states, putting his bowl back down from slurping up the extra liquid, the shells from the mussels clanking together against the porcelain as it hits the table.
You smile, letting your hands drop back down into your lap. “I'm glad you enjoyed it.” You look back over at the living room and the mess you left before checking the time with a sigh. Only seven? God it feels like midnight. It’s hard to keep track of the time when the sky’s always dark. You suppose you should sort a few more things before bed.
Jeongguk insists on keeping the entirety of Hogeun’s album collection, stashing them all away in his room. You pick through a few more boxes of clothes, as well as old books; text books that don’t even look like they were cracked, almanac’s where the pages are worn thin, and a few cookbooks with recipes missing; separating everything into sell, donate, and toss piles. When you finish it’s about ten pm, and decide to shower before heading to bed, wanting to wipe some of the feeling of dust off of yourself.
You grab a change of clothes from your room before heading into the bathroom and locking the door. You start up the shower, letting it get warm before you strip down and hop in, letting the water wash over you. As you wash your hair, you can’t help but let your mind wander to Jeongguk, thinking about him licking his fingers clean this morning.
You sigh in frustration; you know it’s been a while since you’ve had sex, but thinking about him like this… Your mind flashes to the glimpse of his nude form that you saw in this very shower. God he looked so good with the water trailing over his muscles. Stop it. You’re not going to be here long enough for it to be worth starting any sort of situationship, and a one night stand feels like it wouldn’t be… enough. You need to focus on finishing what you came here to do, and then get back home to… To fix the mess you made when you left.
When you’re done, you turn off the water, stepping out to grab your towel and dry yourself off. You dress and then /dry your hair. After that, you come back out to the living room to see Jeongguk sprawled out on the couch watching tv. You smile at the way he reacts to the scene on screen; some sort of horror drama.
Damn. He really is handsome.
You turn into your room and shut the door behind you, heaving out another heavy breath before flopping down onto your bed and checking your phone to find a text. It’s from Donghyun.
Donghyun (11:03pm): Hey, how’s the sorting going? Listen, we’re having a memorial tomorrow night at the bar for Hogeun if you want to come. There will be food and drinks and friends!
A memorial? That’s so nice of them. You deserve a drink or two.
You (11:07pm): What time?
Donghyun (11:07pm): 8pm!
You (11:08pm): I’ll be there!
And with that you close your phone and set it on the nightstand before the energy you spent today catches up to you, and you fall asleep.
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The next morning you wake up to the sound of birds chirping. That’s weird. You don’t think you’ve heard a single bird since you arrived here five days ago… Your eyes flutter awake to see a bright beam of light streaming in through the slits in the blinds. You’re so used to the gloomy weather, the sight of light confuses you as you sit up and reach a hand out, turning it around in the beam where it lands on the bed. Sunlight. You jump out of bed and race to the window, immediately opening the blinds to see that sure enough, the clouds have dispersed enough to let the sun poke through above the trees as it starts its journey across the sky.
You practically sprint to the front door, sliding into your slippers and throwing the door open to feel a warm breeze immediately caress your face as you step onto the front porch. You inhale deeply, the warm mix of early spring and late winter air filling your lungs.
“Noona…?”
You turn around to see Jeongguk walking groggily out of his room, rubbing the sleep from his eyes. “Jeongguk, the sun’s out!” You don’t know why you whisper it like a secret the island isn’t supposed to know; feeling like if you say it too loud, the sun might disappear and then the rain will come back, but as you look outside again, it rises steadily from the horizon, showing more and more of itself every minute, a few rays landing on your face where you stand, warming your skin.
“Wow…” Jeongguk breathes, walking up behind you and observing the sky as it lightens. “Hey, why don’t I show you around the island a little bit todau?”
Hope springs in your chest, but you stuff it back down. “You- You don’t have to do anything else?”
He shakes his head. “Not on a day like this.”
You smile. “Breakfast first?”
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You make breakfast and you both eat before getting dressed. You pack a quick lunch for the both of you which Jeongguk offers to carry, not knowing how long you’ll be out. He slings the backpack over his shoulder and you both put on your sneakers before Jeongguk leads you out of the house and up the road.
Jeongguk shows you around the island, everything feeling vaguely familiar from long ago when you spent time here as a child. You walk around town on the south side of the island before making your way up the eastern coast, following along the pathway as you chase the sun, over rocky outcroppings and through dense forests, talking casually the whole way about nothing.
You stop to take pictures, showing Jeongguk how your phone works and having him take some for you, as well as selfies of the two of you together and taking pictures of him alone as well. For someone who’s never used a camera, he’s surprisingly photogenic. No matter how many you take, Jeongguk doesn’t seem to have a bad angle. In more than one, he stares wistfully out at the ocean, and you wonder what he’s thinking about.
You and Jeongguk cut across the island to the west side, settling down to eat your lunch on one of the rocky outcroppings in the sea that Jeongguk convinces you to jump to, laughing every time a large wave comes and mists you both as you munch on your sandwiches.
After you’re finished, you both wander along the coast back toward the house, enjoying the scenery as you arrive back at the dilapidated lighthouse. You stroll up to the side of the old white building, looking up at the glass paneling at the top, wondering what this must’ve looked like in its prime.
“I guess ships don’t come to this side of the island anymore.” You think out loud.
“Not really. Most of them try to avoid it.”
“Why?” You ask, continuing to walk forward until you’re on the cliffs in front of the building, taking a seat in the grass.
Jeongguk shrugs as he walks over and takes a seat next to you. “Rumors.”
“Rumors?” You repeat. “What kind of rumors?”
“Mermaids mostly.” Jeongguk chuckles.
“Mermaids? Mermaids put an entire lighthouse out of service?”
“You know how superstitious sailors are.” Jeongguk explains. “One or two ‘sightings’ and suddenly this side of the island was basically deserted.”
“Mermaids…” You scoff. “Well, I guess if they can cause a rift in my family, they can stop boats.”
Jeongguk scoots closer to you. “Hyung never told me why you stopped visiting him.”
“It was my mother.” You sigh. “When I was little, she used to bring me here all the time to visit her parents; this is where my family is from originally.” You begin. “Since Hogeun was so much younger, he still lived here with them. The two of them never really got along, they were constantly fighting with each other.
“One day when we were visiting, Hogeun took me out to sightsee, and my mother, not trusting him, tagged along. We were walking along the low cliffs, when my mother suddenly fell into the water. My uncle followed to make sure she was okay, and ended up saving her. When she came to, she was convinced that Hogeun had pushed her in. She claimed she heard someone tell him to do it and she never forgave him.”
“What… What does that have to do with mermaids?”
“Well, mother doesn’t remember anything from after she fell, but Hogeun… When he jumped in to save her, he claims he saw… something. It looked like a human, but their teeth were razor sharp, and their skin was painted with swirls of blue. They had grabbed hold of mother, and he had to fight them off of her. I don’t know if you ever noticed the scar on his face.”
“The one on his eye?”
You nod. “That was from them, they cut him with something during the fight. Hogeun became obsessed with finding it again, convinced the island was home to these mermaid-like creatures, but no one wanted to hear it. My mother’s parents moved to Busan a few years later to be closer to my parents and me, but Hogeun stayed behind here, saying he wasn’t finished. My mother never took me here again, still convinced that Hogeun had tried to kill her that day.”
It’s quiet for a moment before Jeongguk repeats a phrase he’s already said to you. “You miss him.” Another observation, but this time, it’s an invitation to talk about it.
“I reached out to him a few years ago without my mother knowing and we became like family again.” You mumble, looking down at your lap. “I… I regret not coming here sooner to see him… And now it’s too late.”
“He talked about you a lot.” Jeongguk states.
“Really?” You look to see Jeongguk’s focus on you.
He nods. “Every time he got a letter or message from you, he got so excited. He was really proud of you.”
“Thanks, Jeongguk.”
“Did you ever figure out what you wanted to do?”
“What do you mean?”
Jeongguk looks out at the ocean again before looking back at you. “Well, he always said you didn’t seem happy. He said you needed to figure out what you wanted to do. Did you?”
You shake your head, pulling at the grass under you. “No, I… I Didn't. And sometimes I think it’s too late for me to change my mind.”
“It’s not too late.”
You chuckle as you lay back against the grass. “Jeongguk, no offense, but I don’t think you know enough about the world outside of this island to decide that.”
“Maybe not.” Jeongguk lays down next to you as you both watch the sinking sun begin to paint the sky with bright streaks of oranges and pinks. “But I know he was right, you’re not happy.”
You smile bittersweetly. “I don’t have to be. As long as I’m doing what I’m supposed to do.”
“Why do that, when you could do what you want to do instead? You could do that picture stuff he talked about. He said you loved doing that.”
“Photography?”
“Yeah!” Jeongguk smiles. “He said you were good at it.”
Hogeun was the only one you ever told about photography; how it was what you really wanted to do, but you never had the nerve to tell your parents, so you shoved your want down, and settled for something realistic that they would approve of; taking over your father’s business. “I could’ve been. But it was just a silly dream… It doesn’t matter anymore.” You sigh.
“Why not?”
“I’m almost done with school for business, I’m learning how to operate the shop, I did what I had to do and I have what I need, nothing… Nothing more.”
“But is that what you want?”
“I don’t know what I want…”
The two of you lay there in silence for a long minute, nothing but the sound of the wind through the grass, and the crashing waves far below. You can feel Jeongguk’s gaze flick towards you on occasion, but you can’t bring yourself to meet it. As the sun finally dips below the horizon, you sit up, taking one last look out at the ocean before standing and walking up the path back toward the house. You hear Jeongguk’s footsteps behind you, and you slow down, allowing him to fall into step beside you. As you reach the front door, you pull out your phone to check the time; seven thirty. The memorial starts soon. As Jeongguk walks into the house ahead of you, you stop in the entryway to grab your keys.
“Jeongguk,” You catch his attention and he stops in his tracks and turns to you. “They’re having a memorial for Hogeun tonight at the bar if you want to come.”
“A memorial?”
“Yeah, it’ll probably just be a few people; mostly drinking and telling old stories about him.”
“And you want me to come?” He checks.
“Of course. I feel like you were the closest to him.” You remind him. “You should be there. To help honor his memory.”
“Okay.” He nods, walking back over to stand in front of you. “I’d be happy to.”
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Thirty two minutes later, you park the truck in front of the bar and the two of you hop out. It’s dark as you and Jeongguk walk up to the front door, a chill settling in the air now that the sun has disappeared. You tug your jacket closer as you open the door, stepping foot into the bar.
“Y/N!” It’s Saki. “You made it.” She walks over and gives you a tight hug.
“Hi Saki.” You return the embrace and as you step back she notices Jeongguk next to you, her eyes going wide as her demeanor suddenly changes, she seems almost nervous.
“A-and who’s this?” She questions, looking him over.
“This is Jeongguk, the friend I told you about.”
Jeongguk nods shyly in greeting. “Hello.”
“Nice to finally meet you.” Saki smiles politely. “I’m glad you could come.” And with that she walks away behind the counter where Donghyun stands talking to someone. You watch as she tugs his arm, grabbing his attention to whisper something in his ear and then nod in your direction. Donghyun looks up and meets your gaze, offering a small smile as he walks over.
“Y/N! You’re here!” He places a hand on your shoulder as he gives Jeongguk a once over. “And this is Jeongguk?” You nod and Donghyun sticks out his hand. “I’m glad you’re here to help us honor Hogeun.”
“Of course.” Jeongguk shakes his hand. “Anything for Hogeun hyung.”
“Great, well, there’s food on the table, and if you want a drink just come ask, they’re on me tonight.”
“Thank you, that’s very kind of you.” You smile warmly at him.
“Feel free to walk around, we hung up some pictures of your uncle. We’ll do a toast in a bit.” Donghyun nods again before walking away back behind the bar.
You turn to Jeongguk. “Hungry?”
You walk over to the food table and pile some warm food onto your plate before finding an empty table where you have Jeongguk sit as you grab drinks. Hogeun pours you both ‘something strong’ as he calls it, and you take the drinks back to the table, handing one to Jeongguk, his plate already halfway empty. He takes a drink and lets out a harsh cough as he sets the glass back down.
“What is that?” He asks, his face twisted in disgust.
“Alcohol.” You explain. “You’ve never had it before?”
Jeongguk shakes his head. “Hyung used to share his beer, but they didn’t taste like this.”
“This is a stronger kind. It’s more concentrated.” You take your own swig, your face matching his at the taste.
“What's the point of drinking something you don’t like the taste of?”
“It helps.”
“Helps with what?”
“It helps with this.” You gesture to the sad faces around you. “It dulls your senses. Makes it so it doesn’t hurt as bad.”
Jeongguk looks around the room before drinking the rest of the glass in one go. You stare at him in surprise, watching as he goes back to eating. After you finish what’s on your plate, Jeongguk goes back for seconds, and you take your time strolling around the room, looking at the different photos of your uncle that have been temporarily hung along the walls.
Mostly the pictures are of him with a blank expression as he holds various sizes of the catch of the day. There’s one of him mid-wrangling a very large fish, shock and surprise on his features as the fish attempts to wiggle out of his grasp. You chuckle, closing your eyes you can almost imagine yourself standing on the deck of the boat, drenched by sea spray as you watch the scene unfold; Hogeun yelling in surprise as you cackle at him, trying to take the picture before the fish escapes.
When you open your eyes, you feel a presence next to you and turn to see Jeongguk laughing at the image in front of you, a sad fondness on his face as he’s reminded of the brother he lost. You circle around to the last photo, the big one they chose as the centerpiece on the small altar they built, a few envelopes on the table in front of it with words of condolences written on the front. The picture is of Hogeun when he was younger, in his prime, and in his lap sits a small child.
It’s you.
You’ve never seen this picture before, but the sight of it has a tear slipping down your cheek. Mostly because he’s smiling. Your uncle wasn’t known to smile in pictures, like shown in the rest of the photos around the room, but in this one, he’s beaming at the camera and you realize you know why.
This was taken when he still had a family that loved him…
“Is that you?” Jeongguk walks up behind you, pointing at the picture. He looks at you and sees you crying. “Noona? What’s wrong?”
“Hm? Nothing.” You turn away from him and wipe away your tears before standing upright again. “He just looks so happy.”
Jeongguk nods as if he didn’t realize it before. “He does.”
Just then Donghyun walks up to the two of you with two more drinks. “Another round?”
You nod, taking the drink from him and taking a long sip from it. “Where um, where did you get this picture?”
“I took it!” Donghyun explains, handing Jeongguk his drink and watching as the younger boy downs it in one go. “Hogeun brought you down to the dock one day, he said you wanted to see what he did. I was still working on a boat with him back then. I found it in one of our albums.”
“It’s perfect.” You state.
“Are you ready to toast?” Donghyun asks.
You shake your head. “You go ahead and do it.”
“Are you sure?”
You only nod, turning to watch as Donghyun grabs the attention of the room. He thanks everyone for coming before starting in on his speech. He talks about how he met Hogeun, and how they became friends working on the same boat. He tells several stories about Hogeun, getting several laughs from the other sailors in the room. When he’s finished, he raises his glass and toasts to the memory of his beloved friend.
“To Hogeun!”
“To Hogeun!” The crowd repeats, and then you all take a drink.
As you turn back to look at the picture again, out of the corner of your eye you see someone enter the bar. His eyes immediately scan the room, searching for something until they finally land on it: Jeongguk. He starts walking over to you and something inside you is screaming to run away. Instead, you stand your ground and nudge Donghyun who turns to see what you need as you nod your head at the stranger.
Donghyun’s eyes go wide before he moves to stand in front of you, blocking the stranger's path to Jeongguk. As he gets closer you see that he’s tall, his hair has greyed with age, and his beard has the same salt and pepper look. His eyes are different, one dark brown, and one cloudy grey with an unknown blindness.
“Hwan, what are you doing here? Bar’s closed tonight for a private party.”
“Private party?” Hwan looks around at the tables. “Over half the town’s here.”
“And you still didn’t get the hint that maybe you’re not invited?” Saki spits as she walks over to stand beside her husband.
Hwan scoffs. “I heard the prince of the Ineo himself was here. I simply wanted to come pay my respects. Ask him to stop crashing my ships.” He pushes Donghyun and Saki out of the way and stalks up to where you stand in front of Jeongguk.
“I don’t know who you are, but you’re being extremely disrespectful disturbing the memorial service of my-”
“Protecting them just like your uncle, huh?” Hwan glowers down at you, his blind eye shining in the low light, before elbowing you aside, effectively shoving you to the ground.
“Y/N!” Jeongguk immediately bends down to check on you, but he’s pulled back up by the back of his shirt as Hwan yanks him upright, standing toe to toe with the younger boy, a perpetual frown plastered to his face. You see anger flash across Jeongguk’s features as Saki and Donghyun help you to your feet.
“Hwan-” Donghyun tries to interrupt, but Hwan ignores him.
“It’s nice to see you up close. Now I know who to look for in my nets.” Hwan hisses.
“What do you want?” Jeongguk stares down at the shorter man, suddenly seeming much more intimidating than you’ve ever thought with his tall, muscular stature.
“To remind your kind that you’re not supposed to be here.”
His kind? He called Jeongguk an Ineo. Does he think Jeongguk is a mermaid? What the hell is this crazy guy talking about? Jeongguk only rolls his eyes. “I don’t know what you mean.”
“You know exactly what I mean.” Hwan inches closer to Jeongguk’s face, cracking his knuckles. If it comes to a fight, you're sure Jeongguk could handle himself, but you don’t want it to get that far.
“Stop!” You yell, grabbing Jeongguk’s arm and tugging him away from Hwan. “We’re leaving.”
“Y/N, don’t-” Saki tries to protest, but you shake your head.
“It’s alright.” You turn to Hwan. “Listen, I don’t know who you think you are, but you need to back the hell off. Jeongguk is a good person. You’ve got salt in your brain. Ineo don’t exist.” And with that, you drag Jeongguk with you as you walk toward the door.
“Be careful young miss. I may have salt in my brain, but you’re sleeping with the enemy!”
“Bye Donghyun, Saki, thank you for tonight!” You call as you open the door.
“What do you think happened to your uncle?” Hwan yells after you. You can still hear him as the door shuts behind Jeongguk. “It’s only a matter of time before he kills you too-”
You huff as you drag Jeongguk over to the truck, both of you climbing in. “What the fuck was that guy’s problem?” You mumble as you start the truck up, quickly pulling out of the spot and driving up the road back towards the house. “He was crazy, right?” You flash a glance at Jeongguk who laughs.
“Very crazy.”
“God, just because you’re not from this god-forsaken island.” You curse. “Obviously you have to be evil, right?” You didn’t realize how upset that encounter made you, but now that you’re outside it, you realize your heart is racing, and your hands are gripping the steering wheel tightly as you drive.
Jeongguk seems to notice this as he puts a hand on your arm. “Are you alright, noona? He didn’t hurt you, did he?”
You take a deep breath, trying to calm yourself down. “No, he just knocked me off balance. I’m alright…”
Jeongguk squeezes your arm in understanding, and the small gesture comforts you. You pull into the drive, parking before you both get out and walk into the house. You both slip off your shoes, but as you go to move further inside, Jeongguk slides in front of you, cupping your chin out of nowhere.
“W-what are-”
“Are you sure you’re okay?” He asks again, concern evident in his big brown eyes as he gazes down at you.
You get caught in his stare for only a moment before you shake him off. “I’m fine. I promise.” You assure him before walking into the kitchen and grabbing a beer out of the fridge, cracking it open before taking a long swig. Jeongguk watches as you kick the fridge closed with your foot before walking towards your room. “Goodnight Jeongguk.” You nod at him before shutting the door, leaning against it for good measure as you take a deep breath. You chug the rest of your beer before changing into some pajamas and flopping onto the mattress, face first, with a long sigh.
You lay there for several hours, unable to sleep as your thoughts churn like the sea itself. Mermaids. Mermaids? There’s no way they exist, but at the same time, it can’t be a coincidence how many times you’ve been warned about them since you arrived. The crazy old man outside the bar when you arrived, the north side of the island being shut down, your own uncle having seen one, and now this Hwan character…
You toss and turn as your brain attempts to put the pieces of an incomprehensible puzzle together without a guide. You check the time on your phone, groaning when you see it’s already 4:03 in the morning and you aren’t the least bit tired. You huff as you get up, tugging on a sweatshirt as you quietly walk back out to the living room, looking around for something to do. You decide you might as well sort through some more things while you have the time. The faster you’re done, the faster you can get off this island.
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You flick on the basement light, heading down into the murky room to grab a box before quickly bringing it back up the stairs. It only takes you about twenty minutes to get through this box, and when you’re done you head down to grab another. This one is full of old picture albums, and you take your time paging through it, but it’s mostly just pictures of fish from when he still worked on boats.
When you reach the bottom of the second box, you head back down the stairs to grab a third full of books, but as you pick this one up, an old worn book falls off the top of the pile and onto the ground. You put the box back down and pick the book up, dusting it off when you notice the single word stamped on the spine. Ineo. Your heartbeat thumps at the sight and you turn the book over in your hands. The front cover is dull, bleached from the sun, but you can still see the faint outline of words: Legends of the Ineo. You roll your eyes as you flip through the pages. Of course your uncle would have something like this lying around. How could anyone ever-
You nearly miss it, but the splay of blue ink across the page catches your eye, causing you to flip back, wanting to make sure you didn’t just see what you thought you saw. But sure enough, as you flatten the page with your palm, there it sits.
A drawing identical to the tattoo adorning Jeongguk’s ribs.
You hurry upstairs, needing better light to read the faded words on the page. You sit on the couch and grab your phone flashlight, shining it on the book as you read:
The Drowning Mark – A dark, swirling tattoo resembling water pulling downward, hands dragging the wearer into the depths. It slowly spreads over time, symbolizing the fate of the Ineo, the blue becoming more pronounced the more lives they take; until eventually they lose their soul completely, along with their human nature. Their skin then turns a deep cerulean, matching the color of the waters they inhabit.
Your breathing suddenly feels heavy. There’s no possible way that Jeongguk could be… He couldn’t…
Right?
It has to be a coincidence.
A million thoughts rush through your mind at light speed, not giving you a chance to focus on any one thing. You shake your head in an attempt to clear it as you slip back to the start of the book, wanting to learn as much as you can.
As the hours tick on and you make your way through the book, your incomprehensible puzzle starts to become, unfortunately, comprehensible. He eats and sleeps so much because using their human form takes more energy. He’s ethereally beautiful like they’re all said to be. He doesn’t know a lot about how the human world works. His general disdain for shoes. They way that he’s never cold. Piece by piece things slot into place and the thought you didn’t want starts to form in the back of your mind.
Is Jeongguk… an Ineo?
You run your hands through your hair as you flip back to the page with the tattoo and stare down at it. It taunts you, the blue swirls seeming to come off the page and twirl in the air directly in front of you, and yet just out of your reach. You’re going crazy, right? It’s just because you haven’t slept. You need air.
The book falls to the floor as you get up off the couch, rushing to slip on some shoes and fumbling as you unlock the door, quickly rushing out of the house so fast that you don’t even close the door behind you. It’s not enough. As the sun rises behind the low clouds, mist hanging in the air, you race to the edge of the cliffs, gasping for breath as you stand at the edge. Your eyes flick over the scenery, from the overcast skies, to the roiling waves far below you as you attempt to breathe.
Could everything you’ve ever known be a lie? Could creatures like Ineo really be out there? You stare down at the rocks, the very same place where they found your uncle’s body. Could this have been the reason? Did he know? Did he feel this too? This feeling of betrayal, like nothing is actually real. You gasp, trying to force air to your lungs as you fall to your knees, everything feeling like it’s just too much.
“Noona!”
It comes from the direction of the house, but you can’t bear to turn and look, still trying to ground yourself. You can hear him running through the dirt and grass until he skids to a halt beside you, crouching down next to you.
“Noona? You left the door open, I was worried.”
It doesn’t hit you until he touches you. Until this creature you thought was your friend rests his hand on your shoulder, his breath ghosting your face as he tries to get you to look at him. You throw him off with surprising force, causing him to fall back on his behind as you scramble a few inches away from him.
“Don’t touch me!” You hiss, lifting your foot with an obvious threat to kick his gorgeous face.
“N-noona?” His eyes are wide with concern as he takes in your semi-rabid state. “What’s going on?”
“You lied to me!” You cry, tears suddenly streaming down your face as you grab a handful of dirt and chuck it in his direction. “Did you do it? Did you really kill him?”
Jeongguk’s hands are out in front of him like he’s corralling a feral animal as he gets back up on his knees. “What are you talking about? Come on, it’s not safe out here.”
Looking into Jeongguk’s eyes, for some reason, you are no longer afraid of what he is, you’re no longer afraid of him, only angry, furious with him. “I want you to tell me the truth.” You state, trying to calm the shake in your voice. He nods. “Are you an Ineo?”
“Noona I-”
“The truth!” You remind him. “Only the truth.”
Jeongguk sighs, glancing out over the water before looking back down at the ground between you. “I will tell you everything if you come back inside.”
You hesitate. Could this be a trick? Although, you suppose if he wanted to hurt you, he could just push you off the cliffs right now. You sniffle, wiping your face as you nod. He tries to help you to your feet but you smack his hands away, standing by yourself and cautiously leading him back toward the house.
You both walk in, slipping off your shoes as you walk over to the living room. Jeongguk sits down on the couch and pats the cushion next to him, but you ignore him, choosing to pace in front of the tv instead. Jeongguk runs an exasperated hand through his hair, looking down at the floor, and that’s when he sees it; the book. He chuckles to himself as he picks it up.
“Where did you get this?”
You see what he’s holding and immediately snatch it out of his grip. “In the basement.” You state, flipping through it until you find the page with the drawing. “I didn’t think anything of it until I saw this.” You turn the book toward him and show him the picture. His hand immediately moves to his ribcage, his thumb rubbing over the fabric of his shirt.
“Ah, I see…”
“Tell me.” You slam the book shut and put it down on the table in front of you.
Jeongguk takes a deep breath as he looks up at you, his hands folded neatly in his lap. “It’s true.”
“And you?”
“I am.” He nods. “An Ineo.”
A lump forms in your throat but you force yourself to swallow it back down. “And Hogeun?”
Jeongguk’s face twists in anger. “I didn’t do that.”
“But you kill people.”
“No.”
“No?”
“It’s… complicated.” He shakes his head. You simply cross your arms, waiting for him to explain and he sighs again. “Ineo are more like mythological sirens than mermaids. We are born of trauma, of death, and accidents. We’re made to lure humans to their deaths, to crash their ships, or tangle them in their nets. When a human dies by the ocean, some of them are given a second life as an Ineo; a slave to the sea, forced to do her bidding for her. We are given human features to help our purpose, but meant to spend our lives beneath the waves. Sometimes, Ineo can be born the natural way. It’s rare, but it happens.
“That’s what it was for me. My mother, like me, was born of another Ineo. She mated with another Ineo.” Jeongguk pauses. “She died of complications during my birth, so Yeongsu, my birth father, was left in charge. Something you have to understand, not all Ineo want to be what we are, we resist it, we fight it; and then there are some that give themselves over to the ocean fully, those are the true monsters.
“That’s what happened to Yeongsu. After my mother died, he became inconsolable. And went on a rampage. He is the reason the north side of this island isn’t inhabited. He set up just off shore, killing anyone he could get his hands on. He claimed so many lives that day…” Jeongguk trails off. “In the book, did you read about our marks? And how they spread?”
You nod. “It spreads with every life you take, eventually turning your skin blue as you lose your soul.”
“Right. And it does.” Jeongguk confirms. “My father… He killed enough people that his mark spread instantly. So much so that his mark had covered him completely in a matter of seconds.”
You walk over and sit next to Jeongguk on the couch as you process everything he’s said. “Why… Why didn’t you tell me?”
“Because Hogeun, he didn’t want you anywhere near this. Humans aren’t supposed to know about us. It’s dangerous.”
“Then why did he know?”
“He was helping me. Which is even more dangerous.”
“Helping with what?”
Jeongguk looks down at his feet for the first time. “He was helping me find a way out of this. To not be what I am.”
This surprises you. “Like a cure? Why?”
“I don’t want to be a monster…” Jeongguk holds his head with his hands.
You’re afraid to ask it, but your curiosity gets the best of you. “How many have you…?”
“One. But it was an accident.” He explains. “I was young. I didn’t know what I was capable of. I was just by the shore singing and someone heard my song. He jumped from the cliffs on the east side of the island and hit the rocks. I was a mess for days… I-I didn’t understand what had happened until I went back home and someone explained it to me.”
“Then my uncle…”
“If any Ineo knew he was helping me, or that he even knew about me, they would have tried everything in their power to kill him. ”
“Jeongguk-”
“Y/N, you can’t let anyone know what you know. Hyung’s death is on my hands, but I won’t let yours be too. Please.” He pleads, grabbing your hands and looking at you with a certain desperate sadness in his eyes, the feeling nearly tangible.
“I won’t. I promise, but Jeongguk I need you to know that Hogeun’s death was not your fault. If someone killed him or not, it will never be your fault.”
Jeongguk offers you a weak smile. “Thank you…”
It’s silent for a long moment before you stand up. “I should get some sleep.”
“You were up all night, weren’t you?”
“Yeah…” You admit, walking toward your room. “If you need anything just wake me, okay?”
“I’ll be alright, noona, sleep well.”
You give him one last nod before disappearing behind your closed door, tossing your sweatshirt to the ground before crawling under the covers. Images of scaly tails and gills flash in your mind until sleep overtakes you.
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When you wake up next, it’s some time in the afternoon. The house is quiet except for the pitter-pat of rain against the roof. Still tired, you get up, stretching your arms as you stand and change out of your pajamas, into some jeans and a t-shirt and securing your necklace around your neck. It was a long morning, but you have things you need to do anyway; like go to the grocery store. With the way Jeongguk eats, it’s no surprise you’re already running low on food.
When you walk out of your room, you still don’t hear anything. When you check Jeongguk’s room, it’s empty. You hope he doesn’t disappear for too long this time… You grab your wallet and keys before heading out to the truck and making your way to town.
You decide to stop in at the bar and grab some lunch since you haven’t eaten yet today. You park and head inside the dimly lit building to find it mostly empty, with Donghyun wiping down the bar. He looks up as the door jangles, his eyes widening when he spots you.
“Y/N!”
“Hey,” You walk over to him and take a seat at the bar in front of him. “Is the kitchen open?”
“For you? Always.” He offers you a warm smile. “What’re ya having?”
Donghyun quickly whips you up a spectacular lunch as the two of you chat. It isn’t until you’re finished your meal and go to pay that he finally brings up the previous day.
“Nonsense, it’s on the house. An apology for last night.”
You wave your hand at him. “There’s nothing for you to apologize for. I know better than anyone that new people in a small town aren’t the most welcome; and Jeongguk is no exception.” You place a handful of small bills on the counter.
“Y/N-”
“Please, it’s the least I can do to thank you and Saki for everything you’ve done for me already.” You push the money toward him until you’re sure he’s going to take it before taking your hand off the counter.
“At least take this.” Donghyun slides something across the counter for you. You pick it up to find the original picture of you and your uncle used to make the larger copy from last night. “He’d want you to have it.”
You offer him a smile. “Thank you. I’m still in town for a few more days, so I’ll see you around.”
“Alright, we’ll have to have dinner again before you leave!” He calls as you start to walk to the door.
“Of course!” You wave one last time before walking back out to the truck.
You drive the short trip to the grocery store and grab a basket as you head in. You take your time shopping, perusing the aisles as you think of things Jeongguk might enjoy, even though he’s never had a bad thing to say about anything you’ve made. You grab the box of sweet cakes he likes as you wander over to the meat section. They have some fresh seafood options, but nothing can compare to the fresh seafood Jeongguk brought you. You wonder if he actually just went out into the ocean and caught it himself. You suppose that would make sense…
You stop in your tracks as you realize just how much you’re thinking about him during this simple trip to the grocery store. You begin to wonder when exactly your mind became a whirlwind of all things Jeongguk. You shake your head. You have been living with him for the last week, so it’s only natural that he’s become the focus of your thoughts, right? You start to wonder about what he and your uncle were working on, if they had actually found anything worthwhile about a cure. Or if there even is one…
You finish your shopping, packing everything in the seat next to you so it doesn’t get wet. As you start the truck, a light dings on the dashboard and tells you that you’re almost out of gasoline. You drive to the gas station by the docks to stop and get some gas. As you’re pumping, you start to hear the strangest noise.
It sounds like singing, but you’re the only one in sight. It almost sounds like it’s coming from offshore somewhere. You hold your hand up to block the relentless drizzle from falling in your eyes as you search the waves around the dock. It sounds… familiar. Like you’ve heard it before, but you can’t place it, the song sounding too similar to the crashing waves against the cliffs nearby.
You look around one more time, and when your gaze passes by one of the rocky outcroppings, you swear you see something moving. A shadow of some sort. Is that a person? You run over to the edge of the gas station where the cliff drops off, thinking they might need help, but when you look again, the shadow is gone.
The sound of the gas nozzle clanking as it shuts off brings your attention back to your truck. You look out over the waves one more time, but there’s nothing there. You have a strange feeling in your gut as you walk back over and put the gas nozzle back in its place, screwing the gas cap back on the truck before climbing back into the cab. As you pull out of the gas station and drive back up the road, you hear the sound again, but it fades into the distance as you drive away.
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Jeongguk comes home as you’re putting groceries away and you watch him out of the corner of your eye as he kicks his shoes off and walks over to you, smelling of salt. His eyes go wide when he sees the snack cakes, immediately ripping into the box and pulling one out, making you giggle at how excited he seems. He offers you one and you take it, observing him as you both munch on the cakes. You take in the sight of his strong jawline and soft eyes, wondering what he might look like underwater.
“So where’d you go today?”
He looks up at you as he unwraps another cake. “Nowhere, just around.”
“Jeongguk, you don’t have to lie to me anymore, remember?”
“I was just asking around about some stuff.”
“Stuff?”
“Stuff.” He repeats.
Suddenly it clicks inside you, the final piece of the puzzle. “You’re looking into Hogeun’s death, aren’t you?”
He avoids your gaze, guilt on his features. “Noona, I told you, you shouldn’t get involved in this.”
“But-”
“Trust me, the less you know, the better.” He shoves the cake in his mouth and then turns away, walking toward the bathroom.
“Hey,” You grab his arm, forcing him to turn back. “Listen, I know it’s risky, but-”
He shakes his head. “No, you really don’t know.”
“Jeongguk if you’re looking into my uncle’s death I want to help.”
“No.” His voice is firm as he shakes you off of him. “This is exactly why I didn’t want to tell you.”
“But if you’re still looking for a cure-”
“Noona!” Jeongguk spins and pins you against the fridge, his hands on either side of your head as he stares at you. You’re caught in his gaze, unable to look away; he’s so close, too close; the smell of sweet cakes on his breath ghosting across your face. “Hyung said no. Please, just let it go.”
“I won’t.” You can’t stop the words before they’re out of your mouth. He drops one arm, moving back a bit in surprise at your stubbornness. “Jeongguk, he’s gone. And I could be next, but even if I am, you’re my friend. As long as you’re searching for a cure, I’m going to want to help you. No matter how dangerous it is.”
Jeongguk sighs, taking another step back as he rubs his hands over his face. “Noona-”
“You said you guys had research. At least let me look at what you have already.” You offer. “I might see something you didn’t.”
“Fine.” Jeongguk nods, starting to walk away again as he strips his shirt off over his head. “After dinner.” And with that he disappears into the bathroom.
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Just as you finish cooking, Jeongguk emerges from the bathroom wrapped in a towel and heads to his room, coming back out a few minutes later in a change of clothes. You can feel his eyes on you as you put everything on the table. You sneak your own glances as you sit down and eat. His hair’s still wet, all of it pushed back off of his face, small droplets falling onto his shirt as he eats. God, you can’t stand how beautiful he is. Couldn’t he have been average looking? Once he glances up at you at the same time and you both panic, nearly choking as you immediately avert your gazes. You want to try to fix the awkward silence, but you can’t think of anything to say.
After you eat, Jeongguk gets up and disappears into his room. You hear him rooting around in there while you put dishes in the sink, and as you finish packing away the leftovers, Jeongguk comes back out with a box. He places it on the table in front of the couch with a loud thunk and then turns to you.
“Here you go.” He sits on the couch as you walk over to investigate. “This is everything we had.”
You look in the box to see papers with notes scribbled haphazardly on them on top. You begin pulling things out and sorting them, a stack of loose-leaf papers, several large books, and even more notebooks with notes and pictures all taped inside with no sense of order or organization in sight.
Jeongguk turns on the tv and you eye him closely. You run to your room and grab a spare notebook and a pen before heading back out to the living room and sitting down next to him, beginning to read through things. You take notes as you read, writing down what you think might be important, or things you want to come back to or look up later.
You read into the early hours of the morning, quietly going over everything you can get your hands on, and Jeongguk sits beside you as you do. He watches you, mumbling to yourself, but you can feel his eyes on you as you turn page after page.
At some point, you must fall asleep, because you wake up to the feeling of Jeongguk’s arms around you and you stir just enough to feel your bed underneath you as he sets you down on it, pulling the covers up over you. You relax back against the mattress when you feel him brush his fingers over your cheek. The touch is fleeting, and you’re not entirely sure it was real, but as quickly as it’s there, it’s gone. And then you hear your door shut. You touch your cheek where you felt his fingers only moments ago, humming pleasantly as you are pulled back into slumber.
TW: MAJOR CHARACTER DEATH, swearing, mafia talk, sex talk, death mention/death, creampie mention, cunnilingus, eating out there's a thing with a tie but i don't know what to call it lmao, fingering, blowjobs, torture mention, guns/gun mention, shooting, drowning mention, murder, blood/blood mention
AN: *nervous laughter* DONT HATE ME
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It’s been a week since the fire, Christmas was yesterday. Even though you were worried about it, Yoongi still had the whole family come together at the restaurant for dinner. It felt… wrong. You were grateful to have everyone together, sure, but you couldn’t stand the stares. The looks of sympathy, the glances of worry; you’ve had to deal with so many in your life already; but now that it’s your own well-being that’s in danger, it all makes you want to rip your hair out.
Not to mention the fact that you and Yoongi have spent the last week apart.
Big Kim thought it would be best to make it harder to target both of you at once, so until things die down, you’re crashing at Taehyung’s parent’s house, and Yoongi remains at your apartment. And it's killing you. You miss your husband; sleeping beside him and waking up to his soft snores, his arms wrapped around you. Just when you finally started to feel like you and Yoongi had things figured out, of course something had to come and ruin it. You didn’t even get to spend your first Christmas morning together…
You just ate dinner with Taehyung’s parents, locked up in their house. Despite being here, you really haven’t seen Taehyung much at all. He’s always off somewhere being, well, Taehyung, and since you can’t go with him… Yoongi was extremely adamant about not letting you go anywhere until things settle down a bit, but now you’re restless, relaxing on your bed in the guest room, and texting Yoongi every bored thought you’ve had throughout the day; the latest of which being what you ate.
You (7:32 pm): Samgyeopsal.
Yoongi (7:34 pm): Was it good?
You (7:34 pm): Not as good as it would’ve been with you
Yoongi (7:34 pm): Y/N…
You (7:35 pm): Yoongi
Yoongi (7:35 pm): We’ve been over this.
You (7:36 pm): Doesn’t make it suck any less…
Yoongi (7:37 pm): I know, my love, I miss you too
You smile at his message, your heart still fluttering when he calls you that. You sigh, resting your phone on your chest as you stare up at the ceiling, wishing more than anything to be in his arms, when an idea pops into your head.
You (7:40 pm): What if we go away for the new year?
Yoongi (7:42 pm): Away?
You (7:42 pm): Yeah, you know. Like on vacation
Yoongi (7:43 pm): Hmm, a vacation?
You (7:43 pm): Your dad and Big Kim have everything handled right now anyway
You (7:43 pm): Why not take advantage of it?
You (7:44 pm): We never really *did* get a honeymoon…
Yoongi (7:45 pm): Where?
You (7:45 pm): Anywhere that’s not here!!
Your phone goes silent for a few minutes and you wonder if he’s going to say no. You sit up as your phone buzzes again.
Yoongi (7:55 pm): I’ll pick you up tomorrow morning at 10.
Yoongi (7:55 pm): Let me know anything specific you want packed
You (7:56 pm): Where are we going??
Yoongi (7:57 pm): It’s a surprise. I’ll see you then, love.
Your heart thunks with excitement. You’re going away with Yoongi! The first time since he came back into your life that you get to really, truly be alone with him. No family, no worries, no pressure; just you and him together. You run downstairs to alert Big Kim to the sudden change in plans before heading to take a shower, wanting to wash all of the stress and boredom off of your body for a fresh start in the morning. After your shower, you watch a movie before reading a book until you fall asleep, thrilled at what tomorrow is going to bring you.
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When you wake up to your alarm, you quickly get dressed and head downstairs, eating a simple breakfast as you wait for the car. Yoongi sends Seokjin to pick you up, and when he arrives you grab your things and make your way out to him, greeting him quickly before jumping in the car.
You and Seokjin chat casually as he drives you to the airport, but when he arrives, he pulls off to a separate side terminal instead of the usual passenger terminal. He drives you down a side road to a secondary hangar where a private plane sits; Yoongi standing in front of it as he waits for your arrival.
Seokjin wishes you a good flight and you jump out, running over to Yoongi where he quickly wraps you in his arms.
“Hello my love.” He whispers into your hair, giving you a squeeze.
“Yoongi, what…?”
“All part of the surprise.” He smiles before taking your hand and leading you up the stairs of the plane.
It’s small, but oh so luxurious. You take your seat and Yoongi sits across from you, leaning his head on his hand as he watches you take in your surroundings. It takes no time at all for the plane to take off, and soon enough, you’re cruising through the air, sipping on champagne the flight attendant brought you.
“So are you going to tell me where we’re going yet?” You ask as Yoongi takes a swig from his glass.
He shakes his head. “I told you, it’s a surprise.”
You lean across the table and lay your hand out, silently asking him to grab it. He obliges without a word and your heart warms. “I’m glad we finally get to spend some time together away from everything.”
“Me too.” He smiles at you, giving your hand a squeeze.
“How long until we get there?”
“About three hours.” He answers. “So just relax.”
You release his hand and lean back in your seat, looking out the window to your left and watching the clouds float past you. Honestly, you already feel relaxed. In fact, you haven’t felt this relaxed in over a year. Part of you is happy to leave everything behind you for a while. The other part of you is terrified of what might happen in Yoongi’s absence. You can only hope everything will be okay.
You pick at the snack given to you before dozing off in your chair, only waking when you hear the ding of the intercom and faintly hear the captain say something.
You open your eyes to find Yoongi’s gaze on you, the corner of his lips turned up as he watches you wake up, stretching as the blanket wrapped around you falls into your lap. He must’ve put that on you after you fell asleep. “How long was I out?”
“We should be landing here shortly.” He muses.
You sit up and look out the window to see the airport from above, surrounded by water, a light snow dusting the ground. It takes no time at all before the plane is on the ground. You both quickly gather your things, thanking the flight crew, before stepping off onto the tarmac where a sleek black car is waiting for you. Yoongi opens the car door for you and you slide in, watching him go around to the driver’s side and hop in before starting the car and turning out onto the road.
Your eyes are peeled, looking for any sort of sign or clue as to where you are, it isn’t until you start seeing signs, directing you to the highways where you finally see “Tokyo - 60 km”.
“Tokyo??” You squeal in excitement. “Are we really in Japan?”
“I know you’ve always wanted to come.”
You clap your hands together. “I’m so excited!”
Yoongi smiles brightly at your excitement. “I’ll show you the itinerary when we get to the hotel.” He lets go of the steering wheel with his right hand and grabs your thigh, giving it a squeeze. “First stop, Tokyo city.”
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You spend the first three days in Tokyo, enjoying the scenery and visiting everywhere you can. You visit a few parks before walking to Harajuku and Omotesando, before ending the first day. The next day is spent in Shibuya and Shinjuku, getting lost in Shibuya station before Yoongi follows you around as you go shopping. You head up to Shibuya Sky, looking out over the vastness of Tokyo, and feeling relaxed despite your slight fear of heights. Surprisingly, it doesn’t seem to bother you as you watch the busy streets below.
Next stop is Shinjuku Gyoen National Garden, where you and Yoongi take a long stroll along the pathways before ending the night at a fancy restaurant for some dinner and drinks. Day three is Akihabara, Ueno Park, and Asakusa, where you stop by Tokyo Skytree. This one has your nerves a bit more on edge, and you decide to simply admire it from the ground.
The next day is spent at Lake Kawaguchi, admiring the beauty of Mt. Fuji. You both choose to relax this day, having been on the move since you arrived in Japan, it’s nice to have a day to rest in between all the traveling and sightseeing. Yoongi treats you to a luxurious spa day, which works out, as it turns into a very snowy afternoon anyway. You have dinner at the hotel restaurant and a few drinks later, you and Yoongi are tumbling into bed, exhausted from the energy you spent the last few days.
On day six, you travel to Kyoto for New Year’s. Bright and early you visit the torii gates at Fushimi Inari Taisha, heading to a famous temple afterwards. When you’re finished at the temple, you stroll around the shopping district, collecting some souvenirs and street food that sends your taste buds soaring, and unfortunately being so tired you fall asleep before midnight, with Yoongi waking you just for a sweet New year’s kiss.
Day seven is spent at the Arashiyama Bamboo Forest, walking through the towering bamboo grove. It soothes you. Listening to the soft sounds of the bamboo bending in the light breeze. Snow crunching beneath your footsteps. Afterward you visit a monkey park, but you spent so much time wandering the bamboo earlier, that you run out of time to do anything else. The next day you spend on the scenic railway, taking a train tour through some of the most beautiful scenery you’ve ever seen. You head to your next destination around dinner time, hopping on another train and then riding to the hotel of your last destination: Osaka.
Your last two days in Japan are spent in Osaka. You do everything you can; visit Osaka Castle, towers, shrines, Osaka Aquarium, you even check out the cup noodles museum before heading to the Suntory Whiskey Distillery. And of course, your favorite part of Osaka was the night market. The food alone made you want to pack up your life and move there.
On the final evening, you bid goodbye as you make your way to the airport, sad that the trip is over already, but Yoongi needs to get back, and you don’t want to stay without him.
As you wait for the plane to take off, you flip through the pictures you took, smiling at the memories you’ve made. Japan amazed you more every minute, and yet it filled your heart with a sense of longing. You don’t remember your life in the states, and besides visiting Seoul on occasion, and Jeju every summer, you’ve never really been out of Daegu, so this trip made you feel something you’ve never been able to feel.
Freedom.
It made you wish for a different life. A life where you and Yoongi could just be you and Yoongi, not worrying about what new tragedy might be waiting at home for you. Not worrying about always watching your back every second of every day. Not worrying about who you can trust, or who might try to kill you if you say the wrong thing. God, sometimes you just wish you could be anyone else.
Yoongi smiles at you from where he sits across the table and your heart aches. This man; who has given you everything you could ever want, whom you love more than you could ever express; has shown you a taste of the normal life you crave so desperately, and he knows it. But at the same time, you both understand that it’s something you can never have. You know that’s why he did it. To show you exactly why neither of you can escape your destiny.
Because the only people left that matter to either of you, are all part of your family already.
One family that you would do anything for…
You check your messages with Taehyung to see he still hasn’t responded to any of the texts or photos you sent him. Well that’s frustrating. You see the faint grey text under your last message: “Read Yesterday”. What’s wrong with him?
Yoongi reaches out his hand and takes yours where it rests on the table, squeezing it, the warmth of his skin against yours instantly comforting you.
“Did you enjoy the trip my love?” He gazes up at you from under those beautiful long lashes of his.
“I did.” You nod, squeezing back, your fingers automatically finding the ring on his left hand and tracing along the edge of it, as if reminding you that he’s yours. “It was incredible.” Your eyes meet his and your body is flushed with a warmth that fills you from head to toe.
He kisses the back of your hand and the contact has your cheeks heating up. You realize that while you enjoyed the trip, you and Yoongi were so busy and tired that you never enjoyed, well… each other, and you haven’t since before the fire. Wasn’t that the whole point of a honeymoon?
You shake your head, pushing the heat away. You’ll have plenty of time for that when you’re back home. You don’t feel particularly inclined to join the mile high club at this moment. You both tend to take your time with each other when you can, and with it having been so long, you know neither of you will be satisfied with anything rushed like fucking in an airplane bathroom.
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When you arrive back at Daegu airport, it’s already the early hours of the morning, but you smile at Jin as he greets you both warmly. He shuffles you both into the back of the car before starting the drive. As you pull up in front of Taehyung’s parents house, you see the silhouette of Big Kim waiting for you in the driveway and sigh, having thought you were going home. Yoongi sees the disappointment grace your features and whispers to you.
“It’s only for a little while longer, I promise.” He places a lingering kiss on your forehead, mumbling how much he loves you against your skin before allowing you to get out of the car.
Big Kim grabs your bags before quickly ushering you into the house toward the guest room where you’ve been staying. You’re surprised Taehyung isn’t there to greet you, but Big Kim explains he’s been staying out late the last few nights. You nod, thanking him before he leaves and you crawl into bed, letting exhaustion overtake you as you’re pulled into sleep.
When you wake up the next morning, it’s already well into the afternoon. You didn’t realize how tired the trip had made you. You stretch and check your phone seeing only a single message from Yoongi.
Yoongi (8:47 am): I had so much fun with you my love, hopefully by the end of the week I can have you back here with me.
You can’t help the smile that pokes at your lips. You didn’t realize Yoongi was such a romantic when you were first put together, but he always seems to know how to make your heart skip a beat.
You (1:13 pm): I love you
You (1:13 pm): I’ll see you tonight when I stop by the club?
He responds almost immediately.
Yoongi (1:13 pm): I can’t wait baby
You close your messages and stand up, quickly changing into some clean shorts and a t-shirt before walking out into the living room, seeing Taehyung sitting across the way in the kitchen eating something.
“Well, if it isn’t Kim Taehyung.” You say as you walk behind him, seeming to startle him out of staring at his phone.
“What the- when did you get back?” He asks, turning to watch you as you open the fridge.
“Early this morning.” You grab a yogurt and shut the door again before walking over to the coffee pot, seeing it’s still warm. You silently thank Auntie Kim as you pour yourself a cup. “Do I want to know where you were that early?”
Taehyung shakes his head. “Here and there.”
“Uh huh. Your dad said you’ve been out late the last few nights too.”
Taehyung rolls his eyes. “I’m here now, aren’t I?”
“Okay sasshole, turn it down please.” You scold. “Why are you so defensive, it’s just me?”
Taehyung runs his hands through his hair, a sign that he’s frustrated with something. “Sorry, just tired.”
“Tae,” You walk over and take a seat next to him. “What’s going on?”
He sighs. “Promise you won’t be mad at me?”
“No, but I'll at least listen first.” You repeat the phrase you always do when he does something he shouldn't.
He takes a deep breath. “I’ve kind of been-”
“Afternoon you two!” Taehyung’s mom cheers as she walks into the kitchen.
Taehyung immediately clams up, putting on the usual front for his mother. “Hi Auntie.” You greet back.
“What are you both up to today?” She asks, pouring herself some coffee.
“Nothing much, I’m probably going to the club later tonight to help Yoongi with some things.”
“Just can’t stay away from him, can you?” She giggles. “I knew you two were a perfect match.”
“Just have to catch up on work after the vacation.” You laugh with her. “You know how it is.”
“Alright, well have fun. I’ll see you both for dinner.” She smiles as she walks out of the room.
You immediately turn back to Taehyung as he stands up. “You were saying?”
“Come on, let’s go upstairs.”
You nod, following him up to his room, sitting down on his bed as he shuts the door and leans against the door frame before sinking down to the floor. You study him as he types something out on his phone, smiling to himself. He’s wearing an old overused t-shirt he’s had since high school, his blonde hair messy from sleep, or probably lack there of. You notice his roots are starting to come in. Strange, usually he’s on top of his hair appointments… As you study his face, he looks tired. More than he usually does, the bags under his eyes are puffier than usual as he flicks the hair out of his face and looks up at you.
“What?” He questions when he sees you staring.
“Nothing, I just feel like I haven’t seen you in forever.”
He lets out a soft chuckle. “It’s only been like… three weeks?” He starts counting on his fingers. “Yeah, since Christmas.”
“Three weeks? Tae, when was the last time we went three weeks without even speaking? You didn’t respond to any of my texts. Since when do you leave me on read? What’s going on with you?”
He leans his head back against the door and sighs, closing his eyes. “Nothing… How was Japan?”
“Don’t change the subject.”
“I’m not,” he groans. “Please, just tell me about the trip.”
You purse your lips, unwilling to give in, but when you see the look in his eyes, you realize he’s changing the subject to distract himself, not you. Something happened, and he wants to forget about it. This time it’s you that sighs, giving up and telling him all the details about your trip and how amazing it was; showing him all the pictures you took of places that you visited and foods that you ate, explaining everything as you go.
When you’re done, you’re sprawled out on the bed, but he remains in his seat up against the door.
“Sounds like it was good for you.”
“Yeah,” you nod, tossing your phone on the bed next to you. “It helped me forget… For a little while, anyway.”
“Forget?” This word gets Taehyung’s attention.
“Forget that I’ll never have a normal life.”
Taehyung scoffs at this. “Why not?”
“What do you mean ‘why not’? Because of this, because of who we are, our families, what we do, what we live and deal with every day. Nothing will ever be normal for us Tae, you know that. We’ve been stuck in the same place for seventeen years, and we can’t move on, always looking over our shoulders.”
“I know… You’ve always wanted more, Y/N. That’s one of the things I love about you.”
“Did you just call me by my government name? Not ‘doll’? Seriously, do you need a doctor? Should we go to the hospital?” You tease.
He laughs at this, his smile finally returning to his face before his expression lights up with an idea. “Why can’t we be normal though?”
“What do you mean?”
“What’s stopping us?” He asks, finally standing up.
“Well, I mean-”
“No, not who we are, or the people we know. What’s really stopping us?”
“What are you getting at?” You sit up on your elbows as you stare up at him.
“Get dressed, we’re going out.”
“Tae-”
“Come on,” He grabs your arm and starts pulling you up. “I’m serious. I’m going to show you.”
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Fifteen minutes later, you and Taehyung are climbing into his car and pulling out of the driveway. He quickly merges onto the freeway and heads south, about thirty minutes into the drive you give up asking questions. After an hour you doze off, watching the landscape fly by you.
When you wake up, you check the time, it’s almost 5pm already, you slept for about an hour. You look up, trying to place where you are, not able to determine much from the landscape. After a few minutes some signs appear overhead and your heart thunks with fear in your chest. “Busan Station” With an arrow pointing the direction you’re traveling.
“Taehyung…”
“Hm?” He seems oblivious to your impending panic.
“Did that sign just say Busan?”
He simply shrugs. Soon enough you start seeing signs for Haeundae, one of the most popular beaches in Busan, and before you know it, you have the city to your left, and the ocean to your right as Taehyung drives down the road, seemingly carefree. After another minute or so, Taehyung pulls into a lot and parks, and sure enough, you see Haeundae beach directly in front of you. It’s sparse, being January it’s not exactly prime beach weather, but a few people are still out walking along the shore here and there.
“Taehyung, what the fuck are we doing here?”
“Proving a point.” He states, turning off the car and moving to open the door before you quickly grab his arm to stop him.
“This is your plan? Downtown Busan? Taehyung, they could have people anywhere, everywhere. They know what I look like, they could-”
“Y/N!” Taehyung interrupts you. “Come on,” he nods toward the beach. “Let me show you. Nothing is going to happen to us.”
“Tae…”
He shrugs. “Or stay here and be a sitting target.” And with that he gets out of the car and you scurry out your own door after him.
You take out your phone and open your messages with Yoongi, wanting to tell him where you are, but you know if you do, he’ll send an entire army to get you back to Daegu, so you settle for something where he won’t ask questions.
You (5:39 pm): Change of plans. Going out with Tae tonight, so I’ll see you at the club tomorrow!
He responds quickly.
Yoongi (5:40 pm): Be safe, see you tomorrow love
Taehyung leads you down the street, around a corner, and up to a traditional open market, the smell of food overwhelming your senses. You stick close to Taehyung’s side, constantly looking over your shoulder. Taehyung stops at a few stalls, buying you both some snacks like fish cakes and seed hotteok, and looking through the various goods laid out for purchase. When you come to the end of the street, a strange feeling comes over you, like you’re being watched. You look through the crowd, but can’t seem to find the source.
“Tae, can we go home?”
“Not yet.” He smiles at you, walking back toward the beach.
“Yah, Kim Taehyung, will you tell me what’s going on?”
Taehyung doesn't answer, he simply keeps walking until you come to a wooden bench looking out over the beach, and he takes a seat on it. You sit next to him, pulling your coat tighter around you as you wait for an explanation.
He sighs. “This is where I've been coming.”
“What?”
“The reason you haven’t seen me. I come here almost every night.”
“Why?” You question. “That’s a long drive to make.”
“It started as an experiment.” He begins. “I wanted to see if I could come here undetected. I didn’t want to do anything, I just wanted to get away from… Well, everything. I was so tired of the family, and my parents. I just wanted to see what it was really like here. With no strings attached.”
“And you’ve been fine?”
He nods, looking out at the setting sun. ”I’ve been fine.”
You sigh, knowing the point Taehyung is trying to prove, but it’s not enough. “Taehyung, I know. There’s more to Busan than the people running the city, just like Daegu. There’s so much that people like us don’t get to see, because we’re always behind the scenes, making sure things are safe, but this?” You gesture to the city behind you. “We shouldn’t be here. It doesn’t matter if nothing happens to us now, if word gets out; if one of them sees us? It’ll get back to their leader in no time, and who knows what they’ll do next.”
“But-”
“Taehyung, they killed my dad. They burnt down my parents house; they tried to kill me; hell, they almost killed Yoongi…”
“I just wish things were different.”
“I know… I know you want things to be different. I want them to be different too, but for us, it never will be, and there's nothing we can do to change that.”
“Yeah…”
It’s silent for a long moment, the only sound being that of the waves lapping at the shore, and the city noise behind you, until you remember something.
“So is that it? What you wanted to tell me without me getting mad?”
“Ah, that’s part of it.”
“Okay, and? What’s the rest?”
“Well, around my third trip here I sort of…” Taehyung looks down at the ground, unable to meet your gaze. “Well, I um… I ran into someone…”
“Who? We don’t know anyone here.”
That’s when you hear someone shout in the distance. “Taehyung!”
You both turn toward the voice, and Taehyung’s face suddenly lights up as he stands, walking over to meet the person jogging toward you. You watch as he wraps his arms around the mysterious figure and then leans down to kiss them.
“What the fuck..” You mumble to yourself. Is he really dating someone from Busan? No wonder he keeps coming here. Taehyung grabs the person’s hand and drags them over to you, it isn’t until they’re in front of you that you recognize their face from the pictures you’ve seen on Taehyung’s phone and your stomach churns, a sudden bout of unease filling you with anxiety.
“Y/N-ah,” he sighs. “I’ve been… seeing-”
“Jimin??!” Your mouth drops open, so stunned that you can’t formulate words. It’s silent for a few moments until the initial shock wears off and you can speak again. “Tae-”
“I know!” He interrupts you. “Believe me there’s nothing you can say that I haven’t already said to myself.”
“Tae, I just… I don’t… I don’t understand.” You state, remembering just how fucked up he was after the breakup.
“I know… But we ran into each other one night when I was here and we talked about things and everything’s-”
Taehyung stops talking when you stand up, watching you closely as you march up to Jimin, his expression turning to one of horror as you raise a hand and slap Jimin clean across the face as hard as you can, his glasses flying off into the sand.
“Y/N, what the fuck?” Taehyung squeaks.
“That,” You huff. “Is for breaking my best friend’s heart.”
Taehyung and Jimin both stare at you in disbelief. “Why-”
“Do you not remember what he did to you? How badly he hurt you?” You’re on the verge of yelling now. “How many times did you come over to my house crying because of him? And you went back to him?!”
“Y/N-”
“You’re going to regret that.” Jimin hisses, dusting the sand off his glasses.
“Fuck you. If I ever see you again, it’s on sight, you hear me?” You spit, poking Jimin in the chest. “Taehyung,” You turn to face him, ignoring the tears falling from his eyes. “Give me the keys, I’m going home.”
“But-”
“Do you want me to call my husband instead? I’m sure he’d be thrilled to know where we are.”
Taehyung rolls his eyes, fishing in his pockets for the car keys before tossing them at you. “Y/N, please…”
“This is probably one of the biggest mistakes I've ever seen you make, Tae. I’ll see you when you get back.” You turn to leave before remembering something. “And don’t let him anywhere near your parents house. I don’t trust him. You know my gut is never wrong.”
And with that you storm away, back up the beach to Taehyung’s car where you hop in the driver’s seat, start the car up and immediately pull out on the road, making your way back home, back to where you feel safe.
You cry silently to yourself as you drive, having never really fought with Taehyung before, it hurts your heart and you feel as though you’ve betrayed him, but something about Jimin in person makes your skin crawl and you can’t ignore that feeling, even for Taehyung.
When you get back to Taehyung’s parents house, you park the car, sighing as you turn off the ignition, but not getting out of the car yet, you need a few minutes to decompress before going inside. You don’t see any lights on, so hopefully you can sneak in and just go straight to your room.
You finally get out of the car, locking it before heading inside the house. You can hear the tv in the living room and sigh to yourself. Sure enough, when you turn the corner, Taehyung’s mom is seated on the couch, watching some game show as she sews something.
“Y/N-ah, hi honey.” She smiles as you come in. “Are you hungry?” You shake your head, depositing Taehyung’s car keys on the kitchen counter on your way past. “Where’s Taehyung-ah?”
You sigh. “He’s… with a friend.”
She makes one of those ‘all knowing mom’ sounds, but doesn’t pry. “Ah, I see. Going to bed?”
You nod, making up an excuse. “Still a little tired from the trip.”
“Goodnight honey.”
“Goodnight, Auntie Kim.”
You make your way back to your borrowed room, shutting the door behind you. You undress and shower before laying down for the night. You stare at the ceiling for a while, wondering how badly you fucked up your friendship with Taehyung. You can’t help but wonder if you’re just looking for an excuse to distance yourself from him; knowing that anyone that gets too close to you gets hurt…
You’ll have to worry about that tomorrow.
For now, you close your eyes, and fall into an uneasy sleep.
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You wake up the next morning and immediately sigh, remembering the events of the day before. You wonder if he even came home last night. You get up and dress yourself, walking out to the kitchen to see Taehyung’s shoes at the front door. Good. You think. At least he’s home.
You make yourself a simple breakfast before sitting down to watch tv. You know you need to apologize, but you don’t know what time he got home last night, so you’re going to let him sleep. After a few hours you hear the shower upstairs kick on and realize he must be awake. You wait for a few minutes after he’s done, letting him get dressed before you make your way up to his room and knocking lightly.
“Yeah?” You hear from the other side.
“Tae?” Your voice cracks, so you clear your throat and try again. “Tae, it’s me. Can we talk?”
It’s silent for a minute until the door opens before you and Taehyung nods at you before walking back over to his bed.
You enter and shut the door behind you, standing awkwardly and shuffling your feet as you try to find the words to say. “I just… I wanted to apologize. I’m sorry for yesterday, the way I acted was unacceptable.”
“No, it’s exactly how I expected you to react.” He states, looking up at you from where he sits on the bed. “Down to the slap. But I thought you’d slap me.”
“I’m just worried about you, Tae.”
“I know.”
“He really hurt you.”
“I know…” He nods, flopping down against the mattress. “I just can’t help myself… Not all of us get to take cute little trips to Japan with our perfect husband.”
“You of all people know how long it took Yoongi and me to get to where we are now. And we’re still far from perfect.” You remind him. “Listen, I don’t give a fuck about Jimin or what you do with him, you can do whatever you want together, it’s not my business.” You pause. “I just want to make sure you’re okay.”
“I don’t really know…” Taehyung admits with a small huff of laughter. “I don’t think I am. It really feels like he’s using me. Did you really get a bad feeling from him?”
You nod as you sit down next to him on the bed. “I know you don’t want to hear this, but purely based on that answer and nothing else, Taehyung, I think you need to end it. For good this time.”
He sighs again, rubbing his hand over his face. “You’re right… It just sucks.”
“I know.”
He picks up his phone and types away for a few moments before closing it again. “Done. And Blocked.”
“Good. And no more trips to Busan. If your dad found out he’d kill you before they would.”
He smiles up at you. “I know, I won’t. I promise.”
“I’m proud of you.”
“Thanks, for always being there for me.”
“Of course, what are best friends for? You and me, Tae. Till the world caves in. Always.”
“Till the world caves in, doll. You and me.”
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You spend the rest of the afternoon with Taehyung in an attempt to cheer him up and get his mind off of things; laughing, watching movies, and silly videos. At one point during a dance scene in a movie, he pulls you up off the bed and sways you along with the music, making you cackle with laughter, happy to have your best friend back to his normal self.
After dinner, you get dressed and Taehyung drives you over to the club. You walk in the back entrance, waving hello to everyone as you walk past and head up the stairs to Yoongi’s office. His door is closed, so you knock lightly.
“Come in.” He calls from the other side, probably assuming you’re someone else here to bother him about something. You poke your head in to see him bent over his desk, nose deep in paperwork. You smile at the familiar sight as you enter, shutting the door behind you.
“Evening, boss.” You coo at him.
His head shoots up at the sound of your voice, his face softening the moment he lays eyes on you. “Y/N-ah, what? I wasn’t expecting you until close.” He smiles, walking around the desk to wrap his arms around your waist, placing a kiss on your cheek.
“I got bored at Tae’s house.” You state. “I wanted to see you.”
“You miss me already?” He smirks, his hands rest on your hips.
“I always miss you when you’re not with me.” You admit. “Figured you might need some help catching up on things too. Did anything happen while we were gone?”
“Thankfully, no.” Yoongi lets go of you and walks back over to his desk, taking a seat in his chair. “But the autopsy report on Moon Jongin came back.”
“Ah… What did it say? Smoke inhalation or burning?”
“Neither.”
”No? Then what…?”
Yoongi sighs. “The cause of death was drowning.”
“Drowning?” You walk over to him and he hands you the report. “How is that…”
“Apparently he was submerged and brought back to life several times judging from the injuries to his ribs, before he was finally put under for good.”
You back up and sit on the chair opposite Yoongi, shocked and terrified. “But isn’t that-”
“The Busan leader’s M.O.? Yes… It is.”
“Are we in danger, Yoongi?”
He scoffs. “We’re always in danger, love, it’s part of our life.”
“You know what I mean.”
Yoongi runs a hand through his hair. “As far as we know, they haven’t tried anything yet, but they definitely have a head start on us if they do want to try something. We also haven’t tried to infiltrate from the inside since Choi was… Well, it could’ve been sloppy planning on my part.”
“Yoongi, I…”
“Y/N-ah,” Yoongi sees the worried expression on your face and gets up, walking around his desk to kneel in front of you. “I won’t ever let anything happen to you.”
You nod in agreement without even thinking about it. Of course he won’t. He loves you, but that’s not why you’re nervous. “I know, but…”
“But what?” He tilts his head in confusion.
You should tell him. You need to tell him. If you don’t tell him, he’s probably going to find out anyway, so it’s best if he hears it from you. No matter how pissed he might be when he knows. “Taehyung and I, w-we went to Busan last night.” You blurt. Well, that’s one way to do it.
“W… What?” He chuckles, clearly thinking that you’re joking, but when he sees the look on your face, his own expression darkens. “What do you mean you went to Busan last night?” He spits the word at you.
You take a deep breath before you relay to him the events of the previous night, watching his brow crease more and more as you go on. “And so I slapped him across the face, and then, well, then I left…” You pause, watching him process your words. “Yoongi, if I had known that’s where he was taking me, I never would’ve gone I swear.”
Yoongi grabs you and pulls you into a tight embrace. “Y/N, you know how dangerous that is. You should’ve told me where you were.”
“I know, I’m sorry, I just… I didn’t want you to worry.”
“Worry? I-” He moves to say something, but stops himself, shaking the thought out of his head. “I’m just glad you’re safe.” He presses a kiss to your temple. “Please, promise me you’ll never go there again, okay?”
“I promise.” You nod. “I’m apprehensive about Jimin though… Something about him really made me uneasy. And when he said ‘you’ll regret that’. It definitely felt like a threat.” You look back up to see Yoongi studying your face. “Am I… Do you think I’m thinking too much into it?”
“Do you know anything else about him?”
You shake your head. “Just that I guess he lives in Busan, but I know that’s not necessarily enough to make him a bad person.”
He reaches a hand up and brushes a stray hair from your face, sighing softly. “No matter what happens, I’ll always protect you, you know that, right?”
“I know.” His sincerity makes you smile. “I love you, Yoongi.”
“I love you, Y/N.” He leans forward and presses the sweetest of kisses to your lips.
“Is there anything that you need help with?” You ask, though Yoongi’s lips are still hovering over yours, waiting for something.
“Now that you mention it,” Yoongi smirks, lifting your chin with his finger so you meet his gaze. “I can think of one thing.”
“Oh? What’s that?” You question, though judging by the shift in his eyes, you think you already know the answer.
Yoongi stands, walking over to his door and flicking the lock shut before strutting back over to you. “Something I believe you’ve been wanting too.”
You grab the end of his tie and pull him toward you so that he’s leaning over you, his lips brushing yours again. “That’s definitely something I can help you with.”
“Good.” Yoongi seals his words with another kiss, and this time, his lips stay pressed to yours.
You let all of the bad thoughts in your mind float away for the time being, wanting nothing but Yoongi to be on your mind during this moment, and his mouth always does a fantastic job of letting you forget everything except for him. It’s only a few moments before Yoongi is flicking his tongue against your lips, begging for access, to which you give in whole-heartedly. His hand comes up to hold your neck, lightly squeezing it as he tilts his head, kissing you deeply, desperately, as if nothing else matters but the taste of you against his tongue. His other hand rests on your thigh, slowly sliding up your jeans to your waist.
You lace a hand in Yoongi’s hair, tugging gently at the base of his head and earning a soft groan from deep in his chest, the sound rumbling through you all the way down to your bones. Yoongi breaks from you and begins to trail soft kisses across your jaw to your neck, down your throat and along your collarbone, nipping occasionally at your skin and blowing cold air against the wet spots, making you shiver with delight. As he bites down on the spot beneath your ear, his fingers make quick work of the clasp of your jeans, popping the button open and tugging the zipper down before using both hands to grab the waistband and tug them down your legs with your underwear, leaving you in just your t-shirt and bra.
Before you can react, Yoongi grabs your thighs and pushes them back into your chest, revealing your core to him, his eyes raking in the sight of your wetness.
“God, I’ll never get tired of seeing you like this.” He groans.
“Y-Yoongi-”
In lieu of a response, he ducks his head down between your thighs and slides his tongue into your folds. The sensation is instantly gratifying, somehow Yoongi already knows your body well enough to get you worked up quickly and easily. His tongue circles your clit with seemingly practiced ease as his thumb rubs gently against your entrance, making you wiggle against him, whining for more. He teases for only a few moments longer before dragging the muscle across your sweet spot, making you throw your head back at the feeling, trying your best not to be too loud. You don’t want anyone to come knocking and interrupt this moment.
Yoongi ravishes you so well that you’re already panting, flicking and dragging and sucking and licking everything he can before ever so slowly sliding two fingers deep inside of your core, angling them just so to rub against that spot inside you that has your head spinning in ecstasy. You don’t know if it’s his oral expertise, or the fact that it’s been weeks since you’ve been touched, but you’re already teetering on the edge, and with one more wrap of his lips around your bud, your flung into a brief but hard orgasm that has you gasping for breath, toes curling as your eyes squeeze shut. Yoongi’s tongue remains in place, letting you ride out the high before gently letting go with a pop. You watch him slip his fingers into his mouth, cleaning your juices off of them before smiling up at you.
“When you come home,” he begins, letting your thighs go and standing up as he starts undoing his belt. “I’m going to spend all day with my face between your thighs.”
You stand, albeit on shaky legs, but you don’t need them to be strong as you press your body against his. “Is that a promise?” You ask, your lips brushing his.
He smirks. “It’s a threat.”
You latch your lips back to his as you loosen his tie and toss it on his desk, working your fingers along the buttons of his shirt. When you get the last one undone, you allow your hands to explore the expanse of his exposed skin while your tongues tangle. You follow the lines of his body down to his waist, nearly ripping the clasp of his pants off before tugging on them and his boxers, letting both pool on the floor around his feet before dropping to your knees.
“Y-Y/N, what are-”
“It’s your turn.” You state simply, grabbing hold of his already hard length and stroking it as you stare up at him. “You’re not the only one good with your mouth.”
“F-fuck…” He leans against his desk for support as he watches you take him in your mouth for the first time.
The salty taste of his precum is already present on your tongue as you wrap your lips around his head, sucking gently on the tip as you stroke the rest. You don’t know what he likes, with this being the first time you’ve gone down on him, so you’ll have to give him a little bit of everything. You lick long stripes up the underside of his cock, flashing him a wink which has his face flush red, before you put him back in your mouth and begin to work your way down.
You’re obsessed with the way he seems to fit perfectly between your lips, rubbing your tongue against him as you go deeper and deeper before you finally take a breath through your nose and sink as far down on him as your throat will allow. You can’t stay down long, it’s been a while since you’ve done this, but after a few more tries, you’re able to hold Yoongi’s length deep in the back of your throat with ease for a long moment, listening to the curses falling from Yoongi’s lips as you pull off, saliva still connecting your mouth to him as you look up at him.
You’ve never seen Yoongi look so fucked out before. His hair is messy from running his hand through it, his chest heaving with each breath, his whole torso and face flushed a bright pink. You grab him again and dip your thumb into his slit, watching the way he reacts to your touches, relishing in the softest moans that fall from his mouth. You take him in again, this time digging your tongue into the spot just under his ridge, looking up just in time to watch his eyes roll back. So that’s where he’s sensitive… You lower your lips so they sit just below his ridge before hollowing out your cheeks and sucking hard, stroking the rest of him with your hand.
“Ohh fuck~ Love, please…” He pushes you off of him just before he cums, pulling you to your feet and planting his lips on yours, panting heavily into your mouth as he reaches down and grabs your ass roughly before sliding down to your thighs and picking you up, walking you over to the wall and slamming your back against the cold surface before using one of his hands to grab his length, quickly lining it up with your entrance and holding it there. “Do you want me?” He breathes, his lips still brushing yours.
“Yes, god, Yoongi please…” You whimper.
You feel instant relief as his cock fills you up, letting your head thunk against the wall behind you as you gasp, overwhelmed with pleasure after not having him for so long. You wrap your arms tightly around his neck, holding on the best you can as he fucks up into you, peppering your neck with sloppy kisses. He feels so good inside you, it isn’t long before your head starts spinning. You forget that you’re supposed to be quiet as small moans begin slipping from your lips, too caught up in the feeling. Yoongi attempts to silence you by pressing his mouth back to yours, but it isn’t enough, your whimpers are still slipping through.
“You wanna be loud?” Yoongi grunts, slipping out of you and carrying you over to his desk where he sets you back on your feet, ignoring your whines of protest before reaching for something behind you; his tie.
Anticipation rolls through your nerves with what he might be thinking as you watch his fingers deftly fold the fabric up. He spins you around, bending you over his desk before slamming back into your core. You can’t help the moan that falls from your lips, but then you feel Yoongi’s hand reach around and grab your chin, opening your mouth and shoving the fabric of his tie inside, muffling your noises.
“Now you can be loud.” He groans, grabbing your hips tightly before he begins pounding you into his desk. He’s right though, the fabric does a great job of muting your sounds of satisfaction.
You whimper at the feeling between your legs, scattering papers all over the floor as you attempt to grab hold of the edge of his desk, trying to ground yourself to this plane of existence as euphoria floods your senses. One of Yoongi’s hands lets go of your waist and comes down hard on your ass, leaving a sharp sting behind that he rubs over with his palm.
“You look good like this baby.” He pants, his hand now trailing up your spine. “You know how much I love this ass, goddamn. Look at how it bounces.” Another smack comes down hard on your skin and you push back into his hand, the filth spewing from his lips only making you want more. He quickly gets the message and picks up the pace, slamming into you harder and harder, chasing highs for the both of you.
Until there’s a knock on the door.
“What?” Yoongi barks in response as you whimper beneath him in a panic. Why did you do this at work of all places? You can’t even hear the person on the other side of the door, too wrapped up in Yoongi’s length as he buries himself deep inside you before he answers them. “I'll look at it tomorrow, Jin. I’m busy.”
You hear the footsteps receding and relax again as Yoongi massages the flesh of your ass. He can feel your center squeezing him, and he knows you’re close. He adjusts his hips, thrusting more purposefully as he finds your spot, and pushing hard against it to bring you over the edge with him.
You moan low in your chest around the fabric, dazed as your orgasm washes over you and threatens to swallow you whole. Your legs shake as your grip on his desk tightens, trying to hold yourself up as waves of bliss fill you over and over. You hear Yoongi’s breathing quicken behind you as he fills you to the hilt with one last push of his hips, and then his release paints your walls in hot, sporadic bursts.
He rests against your back for a few moments, pressing kisses to your slightly sweaty skin before he stands up and pulls out, groaning as he watches his cum start to dribble out of you.
“Shit…” He mumbles, but you’re not sure if it’s because he likes the look of you like this, or if he’s kicking himself for not pulling out again. Before you can stand up you feel his fingers against your center as he slowly dips them inside you, gathering the mixture of your releases and dragging it through your over-sensitive folds, making your legs quiver as you whimper.
Without warning, Yoongi flips you over so you’re facing him before lifting you to sit on the edge of his desk, dropping to his knees in front of you and spreading your legs. His tongue is on you almost immediately, flicking deep into your center as he swipes up the evidence of your tryst. His nose keeps bumping against your clit, sending shockwaves of pain and pleasure through your body. Even though you try, Yoongi doesn’t let you close your legs, instead, tilting his head to move his nose, and slowing the movement of his tongue until your hips start pushing back against his face, suddenly searching for more instead of less, to which he relents.
Yoongi groans against your center, licking you clean before focusing back on your sensitive bud. He slips three fingers in and immediately angles them up, causing you to throw your head back as he rubs them into your spot, your breathing ragged. He sucks hard, swirling his tongue around it and quickly sending you into your third orgasm, making your entire body shake, your toes curling from the sheer feeling of bliss flooding you. Yoongi’s mouth is already there, ready to lap everything up as you cum hard on his tongue.
When he deems you clean, he stands up, licking remnants of his lips and fingers before he settles himself between your thighs, smiling as he taps your jaw, signaling you to open your mouth before he tugs the wet fabric out, allowing you to speak again.
“Fuck… Yoongi~” You whine.
He shrugs before leaning in to kiss you softly. “I couldn’t just let you walk around with cum running down your legs for the rest of the night.”
You both chuckle as he helps you down from his desk, moving you to a chair as he gathers your clothes. “Ah, sorry about your desk.” You mumble as you take in the sight, a large wet spot where you were just sitting; a sweaty, but fading outline of your body and breasts across the polished glass top; as well as most of the previously neatly stacked and organized papers and folders sprawled all over the floor around it.
Yoongi simply shakes his head, kneeling down in front of you to slide your underwear back up your legs. “Worth every second. Are you alright?” He asks, pressing a kiss to your forehead before helping you into your jeans. “I didn’t go too far, did I?”
You shake your head. “Not at all,” you assure him. “I liked it.”
He looks you over, smiling softly as his eyes follow the curves of your body before handing you your shirt. “Good.”
The two of you get dressed and then attempt to reorganize all of the things you knocked off of his desk, laughing and chatting as you do until you look at the clock and realize it’s already time to close. You say goodnight to everyone left in the building before Yoongi leads you out to his car, ushering you into the passenger seat before he climbs into the drivers side and heads toward Taehyung’s house.
Yoongi’s hand sits firmly on your thigh as he drives, his thumb rubbing your leg through your jeans. As he pulls into the driveway he smiles and turns to you. “Have a good night, my love.”
“You too.” You sigh as you lean over and kiss him goodnight. “I’ll see you soon.”
“Soon.” He nods, finally letting go of your leg as you get out of the car, waving goodbye to him as you hurry up the driveway and into the house for the night.
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Yoongi (9:20 pm): Get your things, It’s time for you to come home.
It’s Friday night, and your phone buzzes on the bed next to you, drawing your attention from the movie you and Taehyung are currently watching. You open your phone and a thrill runs through you when you see the message, quickly jumping up off the couch and running to the guest room to do what he says.
Taehyung follows behind you, watching you pack your things. “I assume this means you’re going back to the apartment?”
You nod happily. “Yoongi just texted me.”
“Good, doll, I’m glad.” He helps you gather your belongings strewn throughout the room, backing them away into your bag before dragging the bag to the front door for you. Yoongi arrives about ten minutes later and you throw on your coat and shoes before heading to the car. Taehyung puts your bag in the trunk and you hug him goodbye, reminding him to tell his parents that you’ve headed back in the morning before climbing into the car with Yoongi, waving as you drive away.
When you arrive back at the apartment you sigh contentedly in the entryway, having missed your home. You kick your shoes off and head into the living room, but stop dead when something catches your eye. Something that wasn’t there before.
Sitting on the far side of the living room, is a Steinway grand piano. Your legs immediately carry you over to it with curiosity, forgetting about your bag as it falls to the floor. Could it be? You lift the music stand upright to see that this is not just any grand piano. There, carved into the black of the wood, is your mother’s name, put there by your father after he bought it for her. Your hand moves to cover your mouth as you gasp, astounded that this instrument is sitting here in front of you. Your eyes become watery as you look over at Yoongi, who’s watching you closely from across the room.
“H-how…?” You ask, your fingers rubbing over the carving. “I thought the fire… I-I thought it was gone.”
Yoongi shakes his head as he walks over to you. “I’d like to say I’d planned it, but it was a lucky coincidence. I had been moving some things out of your parents house and into storage to keep them safe for you, and this just so happened to be one of the last things I moved.”
“Wait, what?” Did you hear him right? “There’s more?”
He nods. “Not all of it, just some of your parents' more important things; photo albums, jewelry, some furniture, and of course, this.” He places his hand on the piano as he sits on the bench next to you. “With you staying at Taehyung's house, I was able to move everything over here without you getting suspicious of what I was doing.”
“Yoongi, you have no idea how much this means to me… Thank you.” You wrap your arms around his neck and hold him tight, burying your face in his neck as you sniffle.
“Of course.” He kisses the side of your head.
You pull back and cup his cheek, wondering just how you got lucky enough to have someone like him in your life. “It’s yours.” You nod at the piano.
He tilts his head in confusion. “What do you mean?”
You giggle at his cute expression. “I had planned to give it to you for Christmas, but then the fire… I thought I’d lost it.”
“You… you were going to give me the piano?”
You nod. “I was talking to your mom one day, and she reminded me that you used to play, and I thought back to our wedding night, when you showed me your room, and I started thinking about how much you used to love music, so I thought I'd give you something to help you remember that.”
“It’s perfect.” He pulls you back toward him, placing a kiss against your forehead. “You’re perfect… Thank you, so much.”
“Will you play me something?” You ask, lightly squeezing his thigh.
“Ah, I’m a little rusty.” He admits, rubbing the back of his neck.
“That’s okay, I don’t mind.”
“You sure?”
You nod, standing and walking over to the couch, taking a seat so that you can see him and waiting patiently. Yoongi looks at you once more before he turns toward the piano, he adjusts his sitting position before resting his hands delicately on the keys, plunking out a few notes to get familiarity back before the muscle memory kicks in, and a low, beautiful melody begins. You sit, enraptured by the way Yoongi plays, his hands gliding effortlessly from note to note, chord to chord, amazed at this new, secret side of him that he’s allowing you to glimpse.
When he’s finished, the last notes ring out before he rests his hands back in his lap and looks over at you. You break into a wide smile and start clapping for him, telling him how beautiful it was, that you can’t even think of words to describe it. He rolls his eyes playfully at you, closing the lid over the keys before walking over to where you sit and sweeping you up, making you giggle as he whisks you away to bed with him, making good on the promise he made you on Monday by spending all night between your thighs.
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A week has gone by since your trip to Busan, and today, Sunday, is the one year anniversary of your father’s passing. You get up early, before the sun, unable to sleep. You have this horrid feeling in the back of your mind that something is going to happen today, but with nothing to back it up, you have to continue as normal. You look out the window as you sip some coffee. It’s snowing lightly, dusting the city around you and absorbing all the sound, dampening the early hour noises into nothing. You hear a noise next to you and turn to see Yoongi stumbling out of the bedroom.
“Y/N-ah?” He rubs the sleep from his eyes. “What are you doing so early?”
“Couldn’t sleep.” You mumble, turning back to look out the window.
“Mm.” Is all Yoongi says as he walks over to you, resting a hand on your shoulder in understanding. He knows exactly what day it is; he was there. The memory burdens his mind like a plague, replaying the scene in his head over and over. He gives your shoulder a squeeze before pouring himself a cup of coffee.
As he drinks his, you return to the bedroom, dressing warmly. You don’t know how long you’ll be there today. Yoongi joins you shortly, throwing on his usual work attire before you both slip on your shoes and head out to the car.
Yoongi drives you to the early market where you both buy flower bouquets before you head to the cemetery outside the city. He pulls into the lot and parks, turning the car off, but saying nothing as he waits for you to be ready. It takes a minute. You forgot how hard this is. You take a few deep breaths before nodding and popping the door open.
The chill of the early morning wind greets you, your hair and the falling snowflakes dancing around your face. You begin walking, and Yoongi quickly falls in step beside you, grabbing your free hand for support.
You finally reach their aisle, their row, and then… them. You brush the collected snow off of their headstones, the marble chilled by the weather makes your fingers numb. You place one of the bouquets against your mother’s headstone, before taking the other one from Yoongi and resting it against your father’s.
Yoongi mumbles a few quick words before kissing you on the cheek and walking to the end of the aisle to wait for you, giving you some privacy. You kneel down into the snow covered grass. You haven’t been here since October, and you feel terrible for not visiting them as much as you want to, so you apologize to them first. You tell them about how things are going; about Yoongi’s injury, but mostly you tell them how your father was right.
“I thought you were crazy, I really did.” You whisper. “But he really loves me, abeoji. And I… I love him too. I love him so much that it hurts sometimes.” You look over at your husband as he gazes up at the falling snow. “You were right.” You giggle. “You always had to be right, didn’t you.” You sigh, the wind gently caressing your face. You tell them about the horrible fire, and how grateful you are that Yoongi managed to save so many of their things. You tell them about Taehyung, and how you slapped Jimin, and how proud they would be of you for trusting your instincts. You tell them other odds and ends, updating them on everyone before you bow your head in thanks. “I miss you both so much…” You sniffle, trying to force back your tears. “I’ll come visit again soon, I promise.”
And with that, you stand, your body nearly frozen solid, snow piling up around you as a few sun beams break over the horizon, illuminating their headstones with the early morning glow. You didn’t realize how long you had been sitting there, but from the ache in your legs, you can tell it was a while. Yoongi looks up from his phone when he hears your footsteps, smiling as you walk back over to him.
“Ready?” He asks as he cups your cheek, brushing away a stray tear. You nod, taking his hand and walking back to the car just as the sun has finished coming up over the mountains, showing the fog of your breath in the air as you reach the parking lot.
After you climb back in the car and crank the heat, Yoongi drives you to a small cafe that sits on the way back into the city. You both get a nice warm coffee as well as a selection of pastries and breads before climbing back into the car and heading home.
You both change into something comfortable when you arrive before sitting on the couch together, turning on a movie as you indulge in your pastries. When you’re finished eating, you throw a blanket over both of your laps and snuggle up against Yoongi’s side, and before you know it, your eyelids become too heavy to keep open, and you fall asleep in Yoongi’s embrace.
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You wake up a few hours later, Yoongi’s arms still wrapped around you as he dozes quietly next to you. You carefully untangle yourself from his limbs, trying not to disturb him, but it proves useless when his phone begins ringing on the table next to you. Yoongi’s eyes spring open as he immediately sits up, giving your waist a squeeze as he reaches for his phone.
“Hello?” His voice is still laced with sleepiness as he answers. “Mhm… yeah.” He nods along in agreement to the mumbled voice on the line. “Okay, no problem, I can do it. Sure. Mhm.” And with that he quickly hangs up.
“What’s up?” You ask as you stretch.
“Ah, nothing, they just messed up the schedule. They thought I’d be in today, and wanted to know if I could come look at a few things. I was planning on going over closer to close anyway; less people to ask questions, but I guess they need me sooner.”
You pout, Yoongi’s been working late all week, and you’ve barely seen him except for this morning. You were hoping to spend a little more time with him today. “Can I come with you?”
“You want to?” A smile pokes at the corners of his lips.
You nod. “I have a few more things to do for the valentine’s banquet, and I could use the distraction today. And some lunch.”
He chuckles when his stomach growls, as if on cue. “Apparently I could too. Let’s go then, yeah?”
You both get up, getting dressed once more before heading over to the club. Yoongi parks around back as per usual before grabbing your hand as you walk across the parking lot and into the building. You follow him up to his office, grabbing a stack of invitation designs and other assorted paperwork off of his desk before you give him a kiss and go your separate ways, heading back downstairs to the dining room.
You order some lunch and manage to get a few things done before it arrives. You’re in the middle of a catering phone call when you see a tuft of blonde hair enter the room out of the corner of your eye before it makes a beeline for your table.
“Hey doll.” Taehyung takes a seat next to you and you hold up your finger to tell him to wait before pointing to your phone. He waits patiently until you’re finished.
“Great, that would be perfect. Of course, I’ll talk to you soon. Thank you!” You hang up, writing down the confirmation number they gave you before turning to Taehyung. “Hey Tae.”
“Busy?” He questions, noticing the stack of papers in front of you.
You shake your head. “Not necessarily. Just trying to get a jump on the valentine’s banquet. What’s up?”
“Nothing, was bored at the house.”
You eye him suspiciously. “Uh huh, sure.”
“What?” He feigns ignorance. “It definitely has nothing to do with the fact that I called your husband to check in on you to make sure that you’re okay on the anniversary of your father’s death and he told me you were here doing things.”
“There it is.”
“I’m just being a good friend.” He assures you. “Are you okay, though?”
“Surprisingly, yes.” You pause, putting your pen down. “We went and visited them this morning and I feel… okay. Right now.”
“Hmm. Are you sure throwing yourself into work is the best thing to do?”
“It’s the only thing I can do.” You state. “I need the distraction, if I think about it too much…” You trail off, not wanting to think about it at all.
Just then, the head chef, Seunghan, brings your lunch out to you.
“Here you are,” he states, placing the plate down in front of you.
“Ah, perfect.” You push the paperwork aside before thanking him and then looking up at Taehyung. “Now either order something, or leave me alone.”
Taehyung rolls his eyes before looking up at Seunghan. “My usual please, Seunghan.”
“Coming right up, Little Kim.” He ruffles Taehyung’s hair before heading back to the kitchen after which Taehyung turns back to you. “Do you think he’s ever going to retire?”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean… He’s been head chef since we were kids. He’s got to be set by now, with what you guys pay him. Not that I mind, his cooking is the best in town.”
“He’s comfortable here.” You shrug. “He doesn’t really have anyone else. He never got married as far as I know. We’re his family.”
“We’re everyone’s family.” Taehyung reminds you.
“I know, Tae.”
The two of you continue to chat casually as you wait for Taehyung’s lunch to arrive. When it does, you ask Seunghan to bring Yoongi up a plate, and to make sure he actually eats it. You and Taehyung eat together, continuing to talk, and after you eat, he helps you with a few things until people start saying goodbye for the night. You don’t realize how late it is until you check the clock to see it’s already almost six, closing time on Sundays. You’ve been at this for four hours already. What a great distraction.
You gather all your paperwork and take it up to Yoongi’s office, Taehyung trailing close behind. Yoongi’s office door is open, and you walk in, putting the stack back in its place, happy when you look over and see Yoongi’s empty lunch plate.
“I’ll be down in a second. Is anyone still here?” Yoongi asks.
“The kitchen’s cleaning up, and I think Iseul has to count the registers still.”
“Alright, tell her to go home, I’ll do the count tonight.”
You nod. “We’ll get it started.”
You head back down to the bar area and tell Iseul to head home for the night, she thanks you repeatedly before grabbing her things and heading out the front door. As you pop open the first register, the kitchen staff is quick to follow Iseul, waving goodbye to you and Taehyung before heading out the back entrance. Taehyung immediately turns up the music on the overhead speakers as you begin counting. You’ve just finished the second register when Yoongi comes around the corner.
“Alright, I’ve locked the back.” He states, walking up behind you and wrapping his arms around your waist. “How’s it going?”
“Good.” You nod as he looks over your shoulder. “The first two are even, just need to do the bar register and put everything in the safe.”
“I’ll do that one, you go sit.” He gives you a quick kiss on the shoulder before gently ushering you out of the way. You finish bagging the first two registers as Yoongi walks up to the center of the bar and opens the third drawer.
“We should grab dinner after this,” you suggest. “Tae you want to come?”
“Free dinner? I’m in.”
You shake your head with a soft chuckle, and as you zip the money bag closed, a familiar tune comes over the speakers, Set Me Free by Taeyeon.
“Oh, hell yes.” Taehyung cheers, immediately walking around the bar and pulling you toward him as he begins to sway you both to the music.
“Tae,” You giggle. “What are you doing?”
“We are dancing!”
“But this is a slow song… Why do I feel like we’ve danced to this before.”
“We have.” He confirms. “We danced to this at your wedding.”
“We did?”
“You don’t remember?”
You try to think back, but you might’ve had too much to drink that night. “I had a lot of champagne…”
“Then you don’t remember this?” Taehyung dips you down to the floor behind where Yoongi’s standing, but he goes a little too low and drops you to the ground before falling on top of you. The two of you collapse on the floor, nearly in tears from laughing as Yoongi rolls his eyes at you both, smirking as he writes down a few numbers.
You smack Taehyung’s arm for dropping you, and are about to stand up when suddenly Yoongi holds out his hand to the two of you, signaling you to stay down. Your heart skips a beat at the gesture and you look up to see Yoongi’s eyes tracking something, and then you hear the bells above the front door jingle as someone opens it. Did you forget to lock that…?
“I’m sorry, we’re closed for the night.” Yoongi states.
“Ah, sorry. I didn’t know you closed so early on Sundays.” The mysterious voice says. Something about it sounds familiar.
“That’s okay, have a nice-”
“I’m actually looking for Min Y/N. Is she here?” The stranger cuts Yoongi off, and your chest thunks at the mention of your name. You weren’t expecting anyone.
“I’m afraid she isn’t.” Yoongi states, remaining calm as he faces the stranger, but his hand, the same one that told you to stay down, taps the underside of the bar twice signaling for you to grab the gun taped to the inside of the shelf next to you. As quietly as you can, you grab the gun from its holster, feeling the weight of the metal in your hand, not nearly as heavy as the air around you has become. You steady your breathing; remembering when your father taught you that the only thing more dangerous than a gun, is one in the hands of someone who is nervous.
Taehyung quietly moves between you and Yoongi, grabbing the gun out of the safe beneath his feet. Yoongi’s still a good ten feet from the both of you. He’s exposed, and worse, he’s unarmed.
“And you are…?” The stranger asks.
“Her husband.” Yoongi states, walking down to the end of the bar, trying to draw the stranger toward him, and away from you. No…
“Ah, it’s Yoongi, right?” The voice sounds like it’s smiling, but it also changes, just enough for you to finally recognize it. You've heard it before, and you know it’s one that Taehyung is unfortunately a little too familiar with. “Sorry we have to meet under such circumstances.” A distinct Busan satoori begins to leak through his words. “He might not be happy about this, but I suppose,” A sigh. “You will have to do.”
There’s a pause. A breath. Only the shortest moment before-
“Yoongi get down!” Taehyung shouts as suddenly everything around you begins to happen in slow motion.
Bang.
Yoongi presses the alert button under the counter as a gunshot rings through the air, countered only by the blaring sound of the emergency alarms going off. You watch Taehyung launch himself toward Yoongi at the same time, jumping in front of your husband, and subsequently, the bullet fired at him. You can see the moment it hits Taehyung, the force pushing him backward into Yoongi’s chest.
“No!!” You screech, shooting to your feet, aiming without a second thought. The stranger barely has time to face you before you fire two shots off.
Bang.
Bang.
The assailant across the room crumples to the floor, the pistol falling from his hand. You feel like you’re moving through syrup as you leap over the bar. You begin to hear sirens as you carefully walk over to the stranger’s body, gun drawn.
“Yoongi!” Your own voice rings in your ears through the sound of the alarm.
“I’m okay.” He calls back.
You were right. You hate when you’re right.
Jimin’s body… It lies there, his empty eyes wide open, with two gaping bullet holes in his forehead. You kick the gun away from him before crying out.
“Tae?” Nothing. “Tae??”
“Y/N-ah…” Yoongi yells to get your attention, you whip your head around to see Taehyung in Yoongi’s arms.
“Shit!” You run back to the bar, fighting the air, thick as honey, grabbing a towel on your way down as you drop to your knees in front of them both and time finally resumes as normal. “Taehyung??” You whimper. Yoongi helps you roll Taehyung toward you, and that’s when you see the blood stain on the left side of his shirt.
“Hey doll…” Taehyung finally wheezes, blood dripping from his lips.
You rip his shirt open to see the bullet hole in his chest and quickly move to press the bar towel into it, making him wince as you apply pressure. “Don’t you dare leave me Kim Taehyung.”
“Y/N-ah…” He smiles weakly.
“Is the um… The guy…?” Yoongi questions. You can only nod, focusing on trying to save Taehyung.
“I didn’t get a good look at him, but it was Jimin, wasn’t it?” Taehyung asks.
You sigh. “It was…”
“That’s my bad then.” He jokes. Even like this, he’s joking. “I can’t believe I didn’t see it.”
It’s silent for a minute, the only noises being the sound of Taehyung’s labored breathing and the alarm, until Yoongi breaks the silence.
“Taehyung-ah, why did you do that?” Yoongi’s voice cracks as he asks.
“Just doing my job boss.”
“No!” You scold him. “Your job is to stay here. With me.”
Taehyung cracks a smile. “Thank you doll. For being the best friend I could’ve ever asked for.”
“Stop it!” You can't hold back your tears as you yell at him. “I know what you’re doing, stop!”
“Tell my parents… Tell them I’m sorry…” Taehyung coughs, blood coating his lips. “And that I love them.”
“You can tell them yourself!” You hiss. “You’re not going anywhere!”
“Y/N-ah,” Taehyung puts his hand on top of yours where you’re holding the towel in place against his wound. Flashing red and blue lights begin to shine through the front door as you hear yelling outside. “You know I love you, right?”
“I know…” You break, beginning to sob as you watch the light start to leave his eyes. “I love you too, Tae. Please… Please don’t-”
“Yoongi, take good care of our girl, okay?”
“Of course… Little Kim.” Yoongi puts his hand on top of yours and Taehyung’s in comfort. Taehyung smiles once more at the nickname, his body beginning to shake as the front door jingles. The police are here.
“Tae, please, don’t go.” You whimper, but you know it’s useless. From the amount of blood pooling around your feet, you know he’s lost too much of it.
“I’ll always be with you doll… Till the world caves in, right? You and me.”
You nod, your tears slipping down your cheeks. “You and me… Always.”
“Thanks for dancing with me… One… One last t-time.” He coughs again, his breath stutters as he lets it out, and then finally, his body goes still.
“Tae…? Taehyung… Taehyung!” A wave of crushing emotion crashes into you as your brain attempts to register what just happened. You cry and you scream, throwing yourself across the body of your best friend as you weep for him. Yoongi joins you, tears silently slipping down his cheeks as the police approach the bar. He holds a hand up, signaling them to wait as he sits with you.
You curse Taehyung’s name, staring down at his beautiful face through the blur of your tears; the face that always had your back, the face that could always make you smile, always knew what to say, always knew exactly what you needed.
The face that’s been with you for twenty years, now lies empty; his bright blonde hair that you loved so much, coated with his blood; his sparkling brown eyes now lifeless, gazing eternally at nothing. He’ll never be there to comfort you, or drink hot chocolate with you, or watch tv with you. You’ll never feel his arms around you, never smell his cologne on your clothes after leaving his house, never laugh until you can’t breathe at something stupid with him.
You’ll never see the way his eyes crinkle up when he thinks something is hysterical.
Summary: Jeongguk finally decides to let you help him search for a cure, but could it create more trouble than it's worth?
Pairing: Siren!Jeongguk x Reader
Genre: Fluff, Smut, Angst
Word Count: 14.5k (I STILL have nothing to say...)
TW: Sexually explicit content, mentions of suicide/death, physical altercation, drowning mentions, near death experience, drinking, verbal altercation, panic attack
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The next morning when you wake up, you faintly remember Jeongguk carrying you to bed last night, and touch your cheek again as you think of it, smiling. You get up and change into clean clothes before heading out. As you open the door to your room, you smell… something? You look up to see Jeongguk standing in the kitchen and walk over to find out what he’s doing; surprised to find him cooking.
“Morning noona.” He greets without looking up.
“Morning. You’re cooking?” It’s more an observation than a question.
He nods. “Hyung taught me how to make a few things, it’s not much, but I figured rice and eggs would be okay?” He finally looks up at you and your stomach flutters for some reason at his smile. You beat the feeling down inside you before returning the smile.
“Sounds great.” You walk back over to the living room, wanting to pick up where you left off last night as you sit on the couch and pick up a few loose papers.
After a few minutes, Jeongguk walks over and places a plate full of food in front of you before sitting on the floor next to you. He watches you carefully for a few minutes as he eats before speaking.
“So, have you found anything yet?”
“Um, well, there’s about a million mentions of this cave? Someplace called… ‘Antrum Ventis’. Have you heard of it?”
“The Cave of the Wind? Of course.”
“Right, there’s supposed to be all kinds of things in there that might be able to help. We could start there?”
“I’ve already checked there.”
You purse your lips. “Well, maybe you didn’t know what to look for. We should try anyway.”
“There’s just one problem.”
“What now?” You sigh, thinking Jeongguk is being intentionally difficult.
“It’s at the bottom of a cave system, the entrance is in the ocean, and last time I checked, you can’t breathe underwater.”
“No, I can’t…” You admit, but perk up when you remember something. “But maybe I can.”
Jeongguk tilts his head in confusion. “How?”
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Two hours later, you pull back up in front of the house where Jeongguk is waiting for you. The sun peeks rays through the cloud cover as you open the tailgate of the truck to show Jeongguk what you’ve got.
“Ta da!” You pull the equipment toward you.
“What… What is this?” He asks, reaching out to touch the tubes attached to the backpack.
“Scuba gear!” You explain. “Self Contained Underwater Breathing Apparatus. It hooks up to these oxygen tanks,” You tap the tanks, “and it’ll let me breathe underwater for a few hours.”
“Really?” His eyes go wide and you nod enthusiastically. “Okay, let’s go.”
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After you change into your bathing suit, Jeongguk helps you lug the equipment down past the lighthouse to a narrow staircase that heads down the cliffside. It leads you to a dock where a small boat with an electric motor is tied. Jeongguk loads your equipment into the boat before jumping in and making himself comfortable next to the motor. You climb in with him, sitting down on the seat in front of him. When you’re situated, Jeongguk starts the motor.
“Are you ready?” He asks. You nod and Jeongguk unties the boat from the dock before you both begin to zip away into the water.
As Jeongguk drives the boat to the cave entrance, you busy yourself with readying the equipment you borrowed from Donghyun. You slide on the scuba jacket that you borrowed from Saki before setting up your tanks and checking your regulator. When everything is ready to go, you finally look up to see the island sinking away into the distance.
“How far out is it?” You turn and ask as the wind whips your hair around your face.
“About two miles. You’ll see the marker when we get closer.” Jeongguk states, his eyes focused on the horizon as he navigates without any equipment.
“How do you know where you’re going?”
Jeongguk smiles at this and points upwards. “The same way the sailors used to. The sky.” You look up at the cloud cover, your eyes drawn to the few rays that poke through, beaming down into the deep blue waves.
After a few more minutes, you start to see a shape sticking out of the sea in the distance, and as you get closer, you see it’s a large outcropping of rock. You point at it in question and Jeongguk nods. He was right; he knew exactly where he was going.
You pull up next to the outcropping, and Jeongguk anchors the boat before tying it to a hook jutting out from the rocks to secure it. Small waves lap at the boat as Jeongguk helps you into your scuba gear, clicking all the buckles shut and tightening them before securing your goggles on your forehead and testing your regulator to make sure the oxygen is flowing.
“Okay, everything’s good.” You state.
“Are you ready?” Jeongguk asks.
“Let’s go.” You nod.
Jeongguk stands and whips his shirt off over his head, dropping it into the boat. Your eyes go wide as he hooks his thumbs in the waistband of his shorts.
“Wait!” You exclaim, causing him to stop and look up at you before he can pull them down. “A-are you going to pop a tail or something?”
He smirks at this. “Are you afraid?”
“No.” You roll your eyes. “I just want to be prepared.”
“Guess you’ll have to wait and see.” With that, he turns away from you, exposing his ass to you as he slides down his shorts before diving head first into the water, splashing you lightly.
“Jeongguk?” You lean over the side of the boat, searching the water for him until he pops up right in front of your face, nearly scaring you half to death as you fall back into the boat. “Fuck!”
Jeongguk giggles, resting his arms on the side of the boat. “Are you coming?”
You smack him in the head with one of your flippers before perching yourself on the edge of the boat, pulling your goggles down over your eyes and sticking your regulator into your mouth before allowing yourself to fall backwards into the water.
It takes a second for you to orient yourself, pushing away from the boat as you look around. It’s pretty shallow here, maybe only 12 or so feet. You feel a hand on your arm and turn to see Jeongguk next to you. His hair floats in the water around him, his smile bright. Your eyes trail down his toned chest out of curiosity, and sure enough when you get to his waist, you see the beginning of it; Jeongguk’s tail. It looks to be a dark shimmery copper color with highlights of deep gold and amber fading into a dark brown and black towards the rather large tailfin. His tail looks absurdly strong, pure muscle rippling in the light of the waters.
“Is everything okay?” He questions, trying to get your intense gaze on his face instead of his body.
You nod, giving him the okay sign with your fingers. He motions for you to swim with him and you follow along past a large school of fish and over to a large gaping hole in the ocean floor.
“This is the entrance.” He holds out his hand to you. “It gets dark, and the current can be pretty strong. I’ll be able to see, but I don’t want you to get separated from me.”
You take his hand, nodding your readiness.
“Stay close, noona.”
You squeeze his hand in assurance, taking out your flashlight with the other and flicking it on as Jeongguk leads you into the darkness.
Jeongguk was right, the cave system is dark, and if Jeongguk wasn’t holding your hand, swimming against the strong currents, you would never be able to make it down here. You keep going deeper and deeper, turning several corners, you’re having a hard time getting your bearings, and you’re not sure how Jeongguk knows where he’s going as you start to feel a little claustrophobic, but he assures you that if it was easy to get to, it wouldn’t have what you need. You keep an eye on your air level, trying to calm yourself, knowing that if you start to panic you’ll use up your air a lot faster and you only brought two tanks. You’re already at only 50 bar; you’re going to have to surface, or change tanks soon.
How long have you been swimming? As you go to check your watch, your flashlight goes out. You squeeze Jeongguk’s hand twice, signaling a problem and he stops, you feel him grab your shoulders.
“What is it?”
You wave the flashlight in front of his face.
He smiles, “Close your eyes.” You give him the hand signal for Why? “Just trust me.” You do as he says quickly, not having much time to waste, and close your eyes. After a few moments he speaks again. “Okay, open.”
You open your eyes and realize there’s some sort of dim light illuminating the cave around you. It takes you a moment before you notice, it’s coming from Jeongguk. He’s… He’s glowing? His tail has some sort of bioluminescence that lights up the water around you. It’s so… beautiful, like the soft glow of fireflies at dusk. You float there, temporarily awestruck by him; amazed at the moment you’re in; the two of you swimming in a cave underground, practically chest to chest as Jeongguk lights up the area around you. “Come on, we’re almost there.” He grabs your hand again, wrenching you out of the moment as he pulls you further in.
Suddenly as you swim, you’re moving up, and up, the area around you growing lighter and wider. The walls of the cave are a dark grey now, and small fish flit about the corals that grow here, everything suddenly bright and colorful, strikingly beautiful the farther up you go until suddenly you pop up out of a hole and into what looks like a picturesque fish bowl, aquatic plants waving gently in some invisible current, sunlight streaming down through the water and shining on colored fish as they dash between plants. Jeongguk points up and you follow him, swimming upwards and finally breaking through the surface.
You spit out your regulator and breathe in the fresh air, taking off your goggles as Jeongguk’s head erupts from the water, his hair slicked back off his face.
“Welcome to Antrum Ventis.” Jeongguk smiles at you.
“Wow,” You gasp, looking around. There are several holes in the roof of the cave where sunlight shines in. The water leads to a small rocky shore, and on that shore, filling the cave from wall to wall, are piles and piles of treasures. It looks straight out of a pirate movie. Gold, silver, books, chests, furniture, paintings; anything you can imagine sits in front of you.
Jeongguk swims over to the shore and sits himself on the rocky edge, his tail dangling into the water below as small waves lap at him. You swim over, taking off your gear and handing it to him before hoisting yourself up on the ledge next to him, looking around the cave.
“What is this place?” You ask as you stand up.
“It’s sort of a… special place for Ineo.” Jeongguk explains. “It’s where they hide their treasure; old relics, things from the ships they sink, things they find.” You walk up to an old mirror and run your hands over the jewels hanging from it, listening to the way they clink against the glass.
“What if someone finds us here?”
“Impossible.” Jeongguk shakes his head, his tail flicking in the water.
“What do you mean impossible, if this place is so special-”
“I’m kind of the only one who knows where it is…” Jeongguk admits.
You turn and stare at him, blinking in confusion. “What?”
He sighs. “When Yeongsu went on his rampage, it wasn’t just humans he killed. He killed Ineo first. When he ran out of Ineo, that’s when he turned to humans. Aside from the elders, who are protected and never leave their thrones, I was the only one that was spared. New Ineo aren’t told where this cave is for at least twenty years, and those who lose their humanity forget about it, so I’m the only one who knows where it is.”
“Right… Well, are you going to come help me look?”
“You want me to get out of the water? I didn’t bring any clothes…”
Your face flushes hot at the thought of having to keep Jeongguk’s naked form out of view. You look around, finding a cloth tapestry and tossing it at him. “Use this, come on.”
You turn away, listening to Jeongguk get out of the water and waiting for him to wrap the tapestry around himself so you aren’t tempted to look as you begin searching for something that might help cure him.
“So what exactly are we looking for?” Jeongguk asks, strolling past you to dig through some chests. “Some sort of magical item?”
“Don’t be ridiculous.” You wave him off. “One of the books said that there are written records. Records from the beginnings of the Ineo. They could have a cure in them.”
“So a magic book?” Jeongguk teases. You offer him only the most scalding side-eye you can muster before continuing to search the pile of books in front of you.
The two of you search for what feels like hours, but you’re unsure how much time actually passes. You dig through chests, trunks, piles of books, behind furniture, under piles of jewels, inside vases, and behind paintings. After a while, you sit down in a huff, worried that you won't find anything, and Jeongguk might be stuck like this, but as you push your hair out of your face and look up, you notice a hole in the wall, just above your standing eyeline, and if you tilt your head just right, you think you can see something inside it.
“Jeongguk,”
“Hm?” He pops up from behind a pile of gold coins. He watches as you stand and make your way over to the wall.
“Grab me something to stand on.”
Jeongguk grabs one of the now empty chests and drags it over to you. “What is it?”
“There’s something in there.” You point at the hole before climbing up on the trunk.
You stretch and stretch, but it’s still out of your reach. Jeongguk jumps up next to you and tries as well, but he can’t get to it either.
“Let me lift you.” He says, holding his arms out to you.
“What? Are you crazy?”
“Do you want to see what it is or not? Don’t you trust me?”
“Fine.” You spin toward the wall and Jeongguk grabs your hips, lifting you into the air with ease. You reach your arms up again. “Just a little higher…” He puts you down again, this time wrapping his arms around your legs and then lifting you higher than before. Your fingers are just able to graze what’s inside, quickly dragging everything you can to the edge of the hole and grabbing hold of it all. “Got it!”
Jeongguk carefully lowers you until your feet are on the trunk with him again, and then you both jump down onto the floor. You take everything over to the table and spread it out; two scrolls, a hand mirror, and a book. Jeongguk opens the scrolls to find both are paintings, and you blow the dust of the book to reveal an old, handwritten title; Ineo: Oceani Immortalitate.
“The Ocean’s Immortality. Jeongguk,” You look up at him. “This is it.” You walk over to one of the beams of sunlight and sit on the ground, cracking the book open as Jeongguk looks over your shoulder. You skim through page after page, telling tales of the Ineo’s beginnings and why the ocean created them, until about halfway through the book you get to the section you’re looking for titled Oceanum Maledictionem. The Ocean’s Curse. There’s only half a page of scrawled handwriting beneath the title and you take a deep breath, hoping it will tell you something useful.
Though the ocean’s curse is strong, there is a way to defy her gift. One must find that which we Ineo do not naturally come by. Though the allure of our voices is irresistible, in order to return from whence we came, an Ineo must find someone to redeem them of their sins; someone that wants them beyond their enchanting voice. That is to say, an Ineo could fully regain their humanity, if a human were to truly love them, but aside from the fact that human fraternization is forbidden by the elders, no matter how we’ve tried, no one can see beyond our voices. It is a useless venture for any Ineo to take upon themselves. It will only end in the despair we are so used to…
“What does it say?”
“It says… love.”
“What?”
You read him the words. “An Ineo could fully regain their humanity if a human were to truly love them.” You point to it and Jeongguk takes the book from you, reading over the paragraph for himself.
“It says it doesn’t work.”
“We don’t know that-”
“It says it right here! It will only end in despair!” Jeongguk slams the book shut and stands up. “I knew it was too good to be true.”
“It wouldn’t hurt to try.” You point out.
He scoffs. “Who? Hm? Who on this fucking island is going to love me, huh? Name one person who doesn’t already hate me for being what I am!”
“Well, maybe we can go to the mainland and-”
“I can’t leave the island. It’s part of the curse, I can’t leave the water for that long I’ll die.”
“But we can try and find another way. W-we could always-”
“Just face it, Y/N.” Jeongguk stops you, standing on the edge of the rock. “I’m stuck like this.” And with that he jumps into the water, the tapestry floating up to the surface where he dove in. You stand and walk over to the edge, searching for him. As you retrieve the tapestry.
“Come on,” He pops his head back up above the surface. “We should head back.”
“Jeongguk-”
“Please.” Jeongguk says softly. “Let’s just go home.”
You nod. “Okay…”
You grab your waterproof bag and stuff the book, the mirror, and a few other things into it before sealing it back up. Jeongguk floats in the water, staring up at the holes in the roof as you switch out your oxygen tanks. When you’re done, you slip the tanks on and jump back into the water, tightening the buckles before sliding on your goggles and checking your regulator. You take one last look at the cave for your memories and then signal to Jeongguk. “Let’s go.”
Jeongguk takes your hand and you head back down into the entrance to the labyrinth below. Jeongguk’s bioluminescence is dim this time, making it much harder for you to see, so you allow Jeongguk to just tug you along with him as he navigates the tunnels. Your mind is preoccupied anyway, thinking of ways you could break Jeongguk’s curse.
It isn’t until your oxygen meter beeps at you, signaling that you’re low on air, that you’re pulled out of your thoughts. You must be traveling a lot slower than you were on the way in. You squeeze Jeongguk’s hand twice and he stops. You show him you’re already at 30 bar and signal to him; that’s less than ten minutes of air.
Jeongguk’s eyes go wide, seeing the panic on your face, he grabs you with both arms, wrapping them around you as his tail whips behind you, sending the two of you off faster than you’ve seen him swim before. He holds you tightly as he navigates the tight corners of the tunnels, hurrying to get you to the surface. You can only sit, your face tucked into Jeongguk’s shoulder as you watch your oxygen meter slowly decrease.
25…
20…
15…
10…
Soon the readout just says ‘low’; you take short, measured breaths, trying to conserve your oxygen. You take your last breath before you run out of air, squeezing Jeongguk tightly.
“Noona! Hold on!” Jeongguk swims as fast as he can, the tunnel growing lighter as things start to go fuzzy.
Suddenly Jeongguk erupts from the entrance to the caves, rushing to the surface as you start to go limp in his arms, your regulator floating beside you. He bursts up through the water, holding you against him as you gasp, inhaling deeply and filling your lungs with sweet, sweet oxygen.
“Are you alright?” you nod, slipping out of Jeongguk’s grip and sinking back below the waves for a moment until he catches you and holds you out of the water again. He carries you over to the boat as you splutter, helping you into it. You close your eyes as you lay in between the seats, trying to calm your breathing as you hear Jeongguk climb in beside you. “Noona, I’m sorry.” You open your eyes to see Jeongguk leaning over you, tugging his shirt on. “I wasn’t paying attention to the time.”
“It’s okay.” You wave him off as you sit up.
“No, it’s not. I was careless, you could’ve died!”
“Hey, I’m right here.” You put your hands on his shoulders to help calm him down. “It’s alright.” You unbuckle your tanks and let them fall into the boat before unzipping your scuba jacket. “But let’s not do that again.” You add.
Jeongguk nods as he moves back towards the motor. You twirl the medallion of your necklace in your fingers as Jeongguk pulls up the anchor and unties you from the rocks, starting the boat and steering you back towards shore.
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You’re exhausted as you walk back up the steps of the cliff, trudging your way back to the house. Jeongguk leaves your gear on the front porch as you unlock the front door. You grab the waterproof bag with your new items in it and are just about to cross the threshold when you hear something.
It’s that voice again. The melodious song fills your ears and Jeongguk’s eyes go wide as you look at him.
“You hear it too?”
“Get inside.” Jeongguk shoves you over the threshold and slams the door shut behind you.
“Hey, what the hell?” You rub your shoulder where he pushed you. He doesn’t respond. He’s too busy turning on the tv and increasing the volume to drown out the singing. “Jeongguk, what is that?”
“It’s bad news.”
“Wait, is that another Ineo?” You ask as you kick off your shoes.
“Don’t listen to it!” He exclaims, dragging you away from the front door.
“I don’t think-”
“Just go to the bathroom. I’ll let you know when it’s safe to come out.” He starts pushing you toward the bathroom.
“But I already-” You turn to face him, forcing him to stop pushing you.
“Y/N- you can’t ever listen to it. You can’t ever speak to them. They’ll kill you.”
“Will you listen to me for a second?” You smack his shoulder. “I’m trying to tell you I've already heard this.”
He’s listening now. “When?”
“Yesterday, I was down at the docks getting gas and-”
“You were alone??”
You roll your eyes. “Yes, and look, nothing happened.”
“Wait,” He pauses, looking you over. “You remember it?”
“Um, yes?”
“Noona,” He leans closer to you, now looking very obviously at your chest.
“Um-”
“Where did you get this?” His hand reaches out and he grabs the necklace nestled between your décolletage, rubbing the medallion between his fingers.
“Hogeun sent it to me.” You explain. “A few weeks before he died. He told me he found it when he was fishing one day.”
“I gave this to him.” Jeongguk states, his thumb twirling the gold metal.
“You did?”
“It was my mother’s. It’s from the Cave of the Wind too; it’s like an Ineo relic. ” Jeongguk lets it go.
“Really?”
“Were you wearing this yesterday?”
“Of course.” You nod. “I always have it on.”
“That doesn’t make sense…” He whispers, dropping the necklace as he thinks out loud. “Then you shouldn’t have…”
“I shouldn’t have what?”
He looks back up at you. “The other night, when you walked in on me in the shower, were you wearing it then?”
“Hm? Oh, um…” You think back. “No, I took it off and it fell on the floor. I remember picking it up before I went to bed.”
“So it really does work.”
“Will you tell me what’s going on?”
Jeongguk sighs. “That singing you heard just now, and yesterday, that’s an Ineo. They were trying to lure you into the water.”
“W-why didn’t it work?”
Jeongguk points at your chest. “The necklace. It’s meant for protection. It’s supposed to make it so the wearer isn’t affected by an Ineo’s song.”
Your hand moves to grab the necklace automatically. “I-it is?”
“If it didn’t work and you really did hear that yesterday, you… You would be dead right now.”
You swallow hard. You hadn’t realized how much danger you were in already. “Wait, so that night in the shower?”
Jeongguk hangs his head. “I didn’t think you could hear me. I thought I was being quiet enough.”
“What would have happened…?”
“Nothing!” Jeongguk moves to reassure you. “I wouldn't have done anything, I promise.”
You eye him with caution, but you see the sincerity in his gaze, and above all else, after today; you really do trust him. You place the waterproof bag in his hands. “I’m going to take a shower, add this stuff to our collection and see if you can find anything else out of that book.”
“Right.”
“I’ll make dinner when I get out.” You call over your shoulder before shutting the bathroom door behind you.
You take a second to rest back against the door, letting out a long sigh before you start up the shower. As the water heats up, you look at yourself in the mirror; hair waved from the combination of salt and wind, skin slightly tanned from being out in the sun; necklace dangling from your neck. You lift the necklace and study it, knowing now the origins of such a beautiful piece. It’s a gold chain, a golden medallion with the imprint of a mermaid, or you suppose an Ineo, hangs from it, and a single large pearl dangles from the medallion. It belongs with the rest of the jewelry inside that cave and yet here it rests in your hands.
You leave it on, stripping out of your swimsuit before stepping into the tub and under the warm water of the shower. He said it belonged to his mother. You wonder what she was like. If she meant to bring a child into such a harsh world, if she knew what would happen to her mate. Would she like you? Would she agree with what Jeongguk was trying to do in finding a cure? What would she think? You can only imagine what your own mother would think if she found out everything your uncle talked about was real. You know exactly how she would react to Jeongguk, and what she would say if she found out you had been living alone with a strange man since you arrived here.
You find your mind wandering to Jeongguk today; how he trusted you enough to show you his true form, tail and all. He was even more graceful and beautiful in the water than you could’ve imagined. Your mind flashes to the image of him jumping out of the boat, his bare ass facing you, and you giggle. Even like that, he was gorgeous.
You’re torn. You know you’re going to have to leave the island eventually and go back to your real life, no matter how much you don’t want to, but even then, Jeongguk can’t leave the waters around this island for very long. What will he do once you leave? Will he be able to find another cure? Will he be able to survive out here on his own? On land? Will the islanders be kind to him? You can’t help but think of the night of your uncle’s memorial, how cruel that man was to Jeongguk. Even Donghyun and Saki, while they’re kind to him, you can tell they don’t really know what to do about him.
And honesty, neither do you…
When you’re finished you turn off the water, stepping out of the tub and drying yourself off. You dry your hair quickly before wrapping a towel tightly around you and leaving the bathroom. You see Jeongguk on the couch as you walk to your room; shutting the door and changing into some comfortable clothes before heading back out. You hang the towel up in the bathroom before padding into the kitchen, trying to decide what you want to eat, but you notice the stove is hot, and something smells like cooked food.
“Jeongguk did you-” You stop short when you look over at him to see he has two warm bowls of stew set on the table in front of the tv as he waits for you. “What- You cooked again?”
He nods. “I used one of hyung’s old recipes. He taught me how to make it.”
“Really?” You ask, taking your seat next to him on the couch to see what looks like kimchi stew in the bowls.
“I wanted to apologize again, for being so careless today.”
“Jeongguk please-”
“I really am sorry.” He takes your hands in his. “I was just so upset about what we found.”
“I know, Jeongguk. But thanks to you, I’m still here.” You point out. He smiles softly in acknowledgment before picking up his bowl.
The two of you eat, silent except for the sounds of the tv in front of you. When you’re finished, you place your bowl back on the table and notice the book and the hand mirror laid out next to your bowl.
“Did you find anything else in the book?” You ask, grabbing it off the table and cracking it open in your lap.
“Not much, just some stuff about this mirror.”
“Oh? Is it special?”
He nods. “It’s supposed to show you your future, but I think it’s broken.” He picks the mirror up. “I can’t get it to work.”
“Wait, it shows you the future?”
“No, just specifically tailored to you. Here,” He puts the mirror back down before taking the book from you. He flips through several pages until he finds what he’s looking for. He points to the paragraph and reads, “The Mirror of Sinjike is intended to show the user that which they cannot see. The mirror is enabled to describe the near or far future pertaining specifically to the lifeline of the user, they need only ask the right question.”
“What’s the question?”
“I’m not sure… It doesn’t say anything else about it.”
“Huh…” You pick the mirror up and turn it over in your hands. It looks like an ordinary mirror to you. “Well, we can look at it more tomorrow. I’m exhausted.” You stand up, grabbing your bowl and taking it over to the sink and Jeongguk follows. You rinse it out before heading back towards your room.
“Goodnight, noona.”
You turn and smile as you move to close your door. “Sweet dreams Kook. Thank you for saving me today.” And before he can apologize again, you shut the door.
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You went to bed super early last night, so it's no surprise that you wake up before the sun rises. You sigh, knowing you won’t be able to fall back asleep with how wide awake you feel, and sit up, checking your phone to see a text from your mother, asking when you’ll be returning home. You don’t open it, not wanting her to know you’ve seen it, or she’ll just keep bothering you. Instead, you put your phone face down on the nightstand and climb out of bed, slipping into some clothes and heading out to the living room.
You don’t feel like watching tv… or anything really. You spot the book where you left it last night and walk over to grab it and the mirror, deciding to go for a walk.
You stuff both items into your bag and slip on some shoes, grabbing a flashlight and a sweatshirt before walking outside. It’s dark as you shut the door behind you, the dawn still a ways off. Just below the cloud cover, between that and the horizon, you can see a layer of stars shining brightly. You slide the sweatshirt over your head as you begin to walk towards the lighthouse, taking your time and enjoying the early morning sounds of crickets and birds just waking up.
You walk along the cliffs for a bit, following the path down through the forest, listening to the waves crash below you as you wander. You should’ve brought your phone so you could take pictures, but you didn’t think about it. You feel the weight of the book in your bag and take it out, flipping aimlessly through the pages. You circle back to the lighthouse just as dawn begins to break over the sea, casting a bright orange glow over the grass as it rises. You climb the lighthouse stairs to the very top, seating yourself on the observation deck as you take out the mirror.
It’s a simple round mirror, laid in silver filigree that traces over the backside and then down along the handle. You study it closely in the dim light of the rising sun; searching for any sort of word or clue as to how it’s supposed to work, but nothing catches your eye.
You open the book once more, searching for the page Jeongguk showed you last night. You finally find it and delicately flatten the frail page with your palm. It shows a detailed drawing of the mirror at the top, with the name printed in a script different from that of the curse page, showing that this was added by a different person. Unfortunately, the words Jeongguk read to you are the only other thing on the page.
“they need only ask the right question…” You mumble to yourself. It’s supposed to show you the future, right? It can’t be that simple, can it? You pick up the mirror and hold it in front of you, to look inside it. “Can you show me the future?”
Nothing. Figures. You try all kinds of questions, changing the vernacular around to try and get it to work. “Will you show me the future? What does my future look like? Can I see my future?” Nothing seems to be working. You reread the passage over and over, searching for some sort of clue in the wording as the sun finally begins to peek over the horizon.
The Mirror of Sinjike is intended to show the user that which they cannot see.
Wait a second. Hmm… You wonder.
You hold the mirror up again, taking a deep breath. “Sinjike, will you show me that which I cannot see?”
Suddenly, your reflection changes in the glass, turning into fog that swirls around in a circle, as if it’s waiting for you to say something else. You read the passage again.
The mirror is enabled to describe the near or far future pertaining specifically to the lifeline of the user, they need only ask the right question.
“Near.” You say to the mirror.
The fog vanishes, and it’s replaced by an image.
It shows you, sitting in the lighthouse where you are now, but it zooms out, showing someone else climbing the stairs to the observation deck to join you as the sun fully crests the horizon; Jeongguk. And then the image fades away, and you’re staring at your reflection again.
You’re ecstatic. You finally got it to work. You want to try it again, to make sure it wasn’t just a fluke, but you don’t know if there’s a limit to how many times per person, or per day, that it works. That’s when you hear the soft crunch of bare feet on grass. You look to the horizon to see the sun cresting over the sea, bathing the sky in bloody shades of red. Your heart thunks in your chest, you know that a red sky has an ominous, foreboding meaning behind it. Those who live on the sea have always agreed that skies that turn red in the morning hours are sure signs of impending troubles.
You hear Jeongguk behind you and turn to greet him, but his eyes are also trained on the warning signs of the sky.
“Red sky…” He comments, turning to look at you. “Storm’s coming.”
You nod, “I have good news though.”
“Oh?” He sits down next to you, observing the things in your hands and perks up. “Wait, did you figure out the mirror?”
“Mhm! Here,” You hand it to him. “You have to ask to be shown what you can’t see, and then you have to choose the near or far future.”
“What did you see?”
You chuckle. “I chose near, and it showed me you just now walking up here to find me. You should try now!”
“Right, right okay.” He holds the mirror up in front of him, taking a deep breath much like you did before. “Show me what I cannot see, far.”
The mirror swirls again, fading quickly this time into an image of Jeongguk what looks to be a few years from now; out on a boat with someone. He’s smiling and laughing. He jumps in the water without taking his clothes off, and a few moments later, he pops up, floating in water, swimsuit still intact, no tail in sight.
“Oh my god…” He whispers. “I-I’m cured?”
“It looks like it.” You agree. The image stays on him playing in the water for a few moments before it swirls away and shows his reflection again. “See, I told you we’d find a cure.”
Jeongguk smiles before suddenly wrapping you in his arms, squeezing you tightly. “I can’t believe I’m going to be normal; finally. Thank you, noona.”
“Of course.”
“Did you look at your far future?” He asks, pulling back.
“No, not yet.”
“Don’t you want to know?”
You do, but you’re also afraid. Afraid it will show you working under your father for the rest of your life.
“I won’t watch if it makes you feel better.”
Might as well know now. “Thanks.” Jeongguk hands you the mirror, and then looks away as you repeat the phrase. “Show me what I cannot see. Far.”
The mirror swirls before showing a picturesque scene on top of a hill. It shows you running, laughing in the light of a summer sunset as you hold up your camera to face what’s coming after you, then in the corner of the frame it shows a familiar frame chasing after you with bare feet.
Jeongguk.
You gasp, watching intently as he catches up to you, the lighthouse you’re sitting on appearing in the frame as he wraps you in his arms, picking you up and swinging you around as you squeal in delight. He places you back on the ground, and leans down, capturing your lips with his when suddenly a child appears in the image, walking up to both of you, arms open wide. Jeongguk picks her up, and you both place a kiss on her cheeks as you walk back toward the house. The child, a spitting image of Jeongguk.
And then your reflection is staring back at you, a tear running down your cheek. You quickly move to wipe the evidence of tears away as you put the mirror down.
“Well?” Jeongguk waits impatiently for you to tell him what you saw, but you can’t look at him, staring out at the sky as it fades from red to oranges and pinks. “Noona? Is everything alright?”
You nod. “Of course, just something I wasn’t expecting.”
“A happy ending at least?”
“Very happy.”
“Good. I’m glad we both get what we want.” He smiles at you and your heart flutters. “Are you hungry?”
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The two of you make your way back to the house and Jeongguk makes you a quick breakfast while the images from the mirror shine in the forefront of your mind. Was the mirror trying to tell you something? Do you need to actually admit the feelings that have been growing that you’ve been repressing for several days now? Are you… the one that can free Jeongguk of his curse? But how? Do you really end up together?
So many questions run through your mind that when Jeongguk places a plate in front of you on the table, it makes you jump. He eyes you suspiciously, but doesn’t say anything, choosing to simply sit down and eat instead.
After breakfast, Jeongguk sits himself down in front of the tv. You try doing the same, picking up the book to read through it again, but you can’t sit still, too much on your mind. You decide to busy yourself with sorting, but that doesn’t do anything to soothe you either. You decide you need to get out of the house. You tell Jeongguk you have to run out for a bit, and he offers to come, but you tell him he should stay this time. He seems hurt, but listens, waving as you walk out the door and asking you to pick up more sweet cakes if you go to the store.
Dark clouds are gathering out over the ocean, still a ways off as you haul your borrowed scuba gear into the truck before climbing in the driver's seat and starting it. Might as well bring this stuff back while you have the chance.
You pull up in front of Donghyun and Saki’s house, putting the truck in park before grabbing the gear out the back. The rain is looming closer as you walk up to the door and knock, but no one seems to be home. You leave the gear on the porch and start to walk back to the truck when someone calls after you.
“Evening missy!”
You look across the street to see a figure walking toward you. Oh god, not the crazy guy from the bar. “Hello.” You wave politely as you open the door to your truck, trying to get away from him as quickly as you can.
“How the fish boy treatin’ ya?”
Wait a minute. He might not actually be crazy. You wonder if he could know anything helpful. “You’re, Hajoon, right?” You ask, turning toward him.
“Aye, that’s me.” He nods as he walks up, leaning against the bed of the truck. “You heard stories ‘bout how crazy I be yet?”
You rub the back of your neck, light shame dusting your cheeks pink. “Something like that…”
He chuckles. “It’s alright missy, ain’t nothing I ain’t already heard.”
“My name’s Y/N.”
“Oh I know. Hogeun used to talk ‘bout ‘cha all the time.”
“Did you know my uncle well?”
“Of course. I was the first one to hire him. Worked on my boat fer five years.”
This is news to you. “Did you guys ever talk about… uh, well…” It’s still strange for you to say it outloud.
“The merfolk? Who do ya think gave him all them books?”
“How do you know so much about them?”
Hajoon takes off his hat and holds it over his heart, smiling fondly at some sort of memory. “I fell in love with one once, a long time ago.”
“Really?”
He nods. “She meant the worl’ to me.”
“What happened?”
His eyes go dark. “Her people found out she was seein’ me, they took things into their own hands, an’ had ‘er killed fer meetin’ a human.”
“I’m so sorry.” You bow your head, your mind immediately moving to Jeongguk; what if he’s next?
“You best hold that boy tight missy.” He puts a hand on your shoulder. “Don’t let ‘em take him from ya.”
“Can I ask you something?”
“Of course.”
“I read something the other day that said ‘an Ineo could fully regain their humanity, if a human were to truly love them’. Do you know how to do that? To… to make him human? Did you ever try it?”
He smiles bittersweetly. “I do, but ya don’t want the answer.”
“Please, I do. I want to help him.”
He looks down at the ground before looking off into the distance, avoiding your gaze. “I’ll give ya a hint. The ultimate show of love for one of ‘em… Is a sacrifice.”
“Sacrifice? What-”
“Think of what you would give up to be with him. That’s your answer.” He starts to walk away. “Better spend as much time with him as ya can, missy. I seen ‘em around the docks; they’ll be after ya’s soon enough.”
It’s silent as you mull over his words, wondering what exactly he means as you watch him turn the corner and head to the bar. You climb into your truck, sitting for a moment before his last words hit you like a brick to the face. They already know. It’s only a matter of time before they try to take him away.
It’s time to admit your feelings to Jeongguk.
It’s just started to rain as you start the truck up, driving a little bit faster than you probably should as you head back to the house, working up the courage and thinking of what you’re going to say as you drive. The tires skid as you pull up and park, the rain falling in sheets as you yank the keys out, rushing out of the truck to get to the front door, the downpour soaking you in the short walk to the house.
“Jeongguk!” You call out as you open the door and kick off your shoes, searching for the only person you want to see as you shut the door behind you.
He emerges from his room, his eyes widening at your soaked state. “Noona, you’re back already?”
You forget every single word you thought about in the car as you hurry over to him. You gaze up into his warm brown eyes, as wide as the sea is vast, before you lean forward, wrapping your arms around his neck as you press your lips against his for the first time.
He’s unsure how to react for a solid minute until he relaxes into your hold, grabbing your waist and pulling you closer to him as he finally returns the kiss. You’re greedy, hands finding his hair and tugging gently, eliciting the most delicious sounds from the back of his throat. You push him backwards, guiding him into his room until his knees hit the bed and he falls back. You waste no time climbing on top of him, pulling your sweatshirt off over your head and tossing it to the side as you straddle his waist.
Jeongguk sits up, pulling you back to his mouth, he tilts his head this time, deepening the kiss as you flick your tongue against his bottom lip, begging for access, which he grants, surprised by how eager you are as your tongue finds its way into his mouth, flicking against his own as he groans softly against you.
His hands slide along your back up under your shirt, caressing your skin gently as you pull him closer to you, loving the way his lips feel on yours, your body growing hotter by the second. You slide your hands under his shirt, tugging on it until he helps you slide it off of his body and onto the floor. Before he can return to your lips, you yank your own shirt off with haste, wanting to feel his bare skin against yours as soon as possible. You pull him back to you, your lips latching onto his neck before tracing their way up to his jaw, pressing light kisses against him as you find your way back to his mouth.
Jeongguk’s kiss is more aggressive now; he pulls your hips down against him as his tongue slips past your defenses, making your body shiver with pleasure as you feel the beginnings of his erection against you. You press your torso against his, feeling the unusual coolness of his skin against your feverish, desperate warmth.
His hands follow the curve of your spine up to the clasp of your bra, fumbling with it for a moment until it comes undone, he moves his mouth to follow the strap down your shoulder, leaving hot kisses in his wake as he tugs the garment off of your body. He deposits it on the floor, your bodies still pressed together as he looks up at you, his hands squeezing your waist again.
“Noona, I-”
“Shhh…” You quiet him with another simple kiss before mumbling against his lips. “You don’t have to say anything.”
His mouth returns to yours as he flips you underneath him, and then it begins to wander, across to your jaw, down your neck and shoulder, before sliding down your chest to your breasts. Jeongguk’s hands move up to cup them, rubbing his thumbs over them gently and then leaning down, flicking his tongue across each nipple, gauging your reaction as you moan softly in response to his touch. His kisses continue south, across your abdomen until he comes to the waistband of your jeans. You watch him, breathless as he pops open the button and then tugs the zipper down.
He grabs your jeans and underwear, slowly tugging them both down your legs, kissing them all the way down, before dropping the clothing on the floor with the rest. His mouth traces back up your legs, just barely brushing the insides of your thighs as he slides one of his hands up and around the backs of them, squeezing your ass tightly as he gently spreads your legs with the other, situating himself between them as he climbs back up your body, kiss by kiss, touch by touch, until he finds your lips again, connecting to them with a sort of urgency.
You’re already a mess, you can feel yourself dripping onto the sheets beneath you as you wait. His teeth graze the spot beneath your ear, and your hips buck up into his waiting hand. He cups you gently, his long, slender fingers sliding between your folds in an exploration, wanting to know what spots have you coming undone the fastest. Your hands grab onto his shoulders as he circles your clit clumsily, constantly rubbing across it when his fingers slip in your wetness with inexperience, causing you to whimper into his hair.
Finally, finally you feel his fingers wander lower, searching for more spots. He traces over your entrance, collecting your juices before the tips of his two fingers slide into you. He quickly pulls them out when you moan, checking to make sure he didn’t hurt you, but when he sees the flush adorning your face, he quickly understands, finding your entrance again and purposely slipping his index and middle fingers back inside you, as deep as they will go, following the curve of your core.
“Fuck…” You whine, gripping his arm and trying to move it. “L-like this.”
He learns quickly, but moves slowly, pumping his fingers in and out of you at an agonizing pace, but even so, it feels so good, too good. He watches your face twist with pleasure, relishing in the sounds you make as he presses his hips against your side, searching for relief of his own. You slide a hand down his body, brushing against his hard length to locate it and then squeezing the tip.
The sound that leaves Jeongguk’s mouth has you tightening around his fingers as he buries his face in your neck. You can feel the desperation in his movements as he thrusts faster inside you, but it’s not enough. Your body aches to feel him fill you.
“J-Jeongguk~” You whine, pawing at his sweatpants, silently begging him to take them off. He sits up in question, his hand stilling between your legs. You smile up at him, grabbing his arm and pulling his fingers out of you, bringing them up to your face and sucking them into your mouth so you can clean up your mess.
He can’t resist, leaning down and kissing you, fingers and all, both of your tongues flicking out to grab a taste of you. You tug at his pants again, and he seems to get the message, using his now clean fingers to remove his sweats. You’re surprised to see he has no boxers on, watching his cock spring free as soon as his sweats drop to his knees. Your mouth waters at the sight of his pleasant thickness.
When his pants hit the ground, he looks back up at you, suddenly shy as his hands move to cover his indecency. You smile warmly, guiding him back between your legs and pulling him down for a soft kiss as you reach a hand between your bodies. Your fingers brush against him, making him gasp softly in your ear as you hold his dripping tip, lining it up with your entrance.
“N-noona-”
“Just push your hips forward.” You guide him.
You feel his heat press against you and use your free hand to press his lower back, urging him forward until he slowly slips inside you, the most delectable moan falling from his lips as he inches further in, wanting nothing more than to feel your warmth fully envelop him. He’s a stretch, that’s for sure, but your body doesn’t show it, greedily pulling Jeongguk in, begging for more.
He keeps pushing until he realizes he can’t go any further, pulling his face out of your shoulder to look down at your flushed cheeks, the way your lips part as soft pants leave them. Very tentatively, he pulls back, groaning at the feeling of your walls squeezing him before he pushes back in.
“Y-yes~” You whimper. “Just like that~”
Jeongguk huffs, repeating the motion over and over, setting a slow rhythm. The pulse of your walls is steady around him. He feels so good, but you need more.
“Faster…” You mumble in his ear, wrapping your legs around his waist and encouraging him to go deeper. Jeongguk grunts in agreement, thankful for the permission as his hips increase their pace, thrust by thrust, the new angle allowing him to fill you entirely, his hips slapping against you with a satisfying smack.
“Oh god~” Jeogguk whines. “I- Fuck…” His eyes are fixed on your face, watching it closely as pleasure fills your body in waves, your chest burning red with embarrassment. You pull him down and lock your lips with his, anything to get away from the intensity of his gaze. Jeongguk pants heavily against your mouth as he thrusts into you harder, your head spinning from the pleasure, but he’s still lacking experience, and his increase in pace causes him to slip out.
The second time it happens, you kiss him again before pushing him away. As he begins to protest, you silence him by flipping him onto his back and crawling on top of him, straddling his waist once more. He watches, enraptured by you as you slide back down onto his length, letting him fill you to the hilt and holding yourself there for a moment to adjust, satiating the burning need between your legs. When you’re ready, you brace one hand on his abdomen before slowly lifting your hips and then dropping back down onto his length.
Jeongguk groans, his head falling back against the pillows, but his eyes once again stay focused on you as you bounce yourself in his lap, setting a quick, but heavy pace, allowing him to fill you completely each time before lifting your hips again and again. When he grabs your hips, you lean forward, bracing both of your hands on his chest as you move faster, the feeling of your high bubbling up inside you more easily than you thought it would. You can tell he’s getting close too; the way his eyes seem a bit unfocused, the way his chest heaves beneath your touch, and the way his hips have started to chase after yours.
You’re so close you can practically taste it, you just need that final push. You take one of Jeongguk’s hands off your hips and bring his fingers to your mouth, wetting them for him before guiding his hand between your legs. He looks up at you, intrigued by your movements.
“Touch me~ Like this…” You move your fingers against his in the way that you desperately need him to, showing him how to take you over the edge. He follows your instructions to the tee, deftly circling your clit again before squeezing the bud between his knuckles and dragging the pads of his fingers across it in turn.
“Ah~ Yes!” You throw your head back, your high rapidly rising to the surface. Jeongguk’s fingers slide along your folds in sync with his thrusts, and before you know it, your walls clamp down on him, earning a strangled moan from his throat as you fall off the edge and into bliss. “Jeongguk~!” You cry out his name as your core contracts wildly around him, seeing stars burst behind your eyelids as the sensation overflows into your every nerve ending, pulsing with satisfaction, unlike anything you’ve ever felt before.
Jeongguk doesn’t fare much better, the spasming of your center too much for him to handle as he buries himself as deep inside you as he can, milking the feeling of his own high as long as he can. He whimpers beneath you, his eyes squeezed shut with ecstasy as he fills you with spurts of his hot release.
Your body gives out and you collapse against his chest, your breathing coming in shallow pants, his cock still inside you as your skin sticks to his with sweat. The two of you lay entwined together for a bit, neither of you wanting to disturb the moment you’ve created.
You press soft kisses all over Jeongguk’s face, watching as he smiles before you get off of him, grabbing tissues off of his nightstand to clean the both of you up. When you’re finished you lay back down with him, slipping under the blankets as you lay your head on his chest, listening to the sounds of rain and distant rolling thunder coming from his open window, enjoying the occasional breeze blowing through the room. Jeongguk holds you close, not seeming to want to let you go now that he has you.
And boy, does he have you.
Jeongguk takes the chance to admire you up close, watching your fingers absentmindedly tracing shapes across his skin while you hum to yourself. He brushes your hair out of your face, enraptured by the way you look, the way you smell, the way you taste. He didn’t know it was possible to feel like this, but looking at you here, now, in this moment, he’s captured by you. He is nothing but a terrified creature, tangled in your nets as you smile up at him in a way that makes his chest flutter with excitement and agony and desire all at the same time.
“Is this what you saw?” He breaks the serene silence, his curiosity getting the best of him. “In the mirror?”
You giggle, sending vibrations through his body as goosebumps erupt on his arms. “Not exactly.” Your eyes flash up to meet his before you look away, a light blush adorning your cheeks as you think of the future that played out on that mirror. God you hope that mirror was right. “But something like that. It encouraged me to finally tell you.”
“Tell me what?” He cups your cheek, rubbing his thumb across it gently, as if afraid he’s going to break you.
You scoot up his body, pressing your lips to his in the softest kiss, resting your forehead against his for a moment before answering. “How I feel about you, silly.”
“How do you feel?” He tilts his head, waiting expectantly.
He’s going to make you say it out loud. He can’t just read between the lines? You take a deep breath, steadying the nerves rolling in the pit of your stomach. “Jeongguk I-I really like you. And I think I might… I think I’m falling in love with you.”
Jeongguk’s eyes light up and he breaks into a wide smile, his nose crinkling up. “Is that what this feeling is? Is it love?”
“It’s different for everyone, but it could be.”
“I like you so much; I think I love you too, noona.”
Your heart swells at his words as he wraps his arms around you, pulling you close. He seals your exchange with a peck on your forehead, and the two of you lay together in Jeongguk’s bed, tangled in each other’s limbs, exchanging soft kisses and caresses until you drift off, safe in his embrace.
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The next day you wake up to the sound of Jeongguk snoring softly in your ear. You smile to yourself, shifting back into his arms. You think back to yesterday; after the two of you woke up, you made dinner and then quickly jumped back into bed, too wrapped up in each other to keep your hands off of the other’s body for longer than a few minutes. Jeongguk is eager to learn how to pleasure you, and you have no problem teaching him exactly how to do just that.
You turn over in his hold, reaching a hand up to run your fingers along his cheek, enjoying how serene he looks when he sleeps. Your touch must disturb him, because it isn’t long before you feel his hand squeeze your waist, his eyes fluttering open as he stirs.
“Noona…?” He gazes at you in awe, still half asleep. “You’re still here.” He smiles at the observation.
“Of course I’m still here.” You giggle. “Where else would I be?”
He presses his lips to yours as his hand wanders down lower, finding your ass and grabbing it roughly. He pulls your body flush against his as he buries his face in your neck, inhaling deeply.
You both crawl out of bed; Jeongguk throws on some sweatpants and you slip into your discarded underwear and shirt before heading out to the kitchen to make breakfast together. Jeongguk is practically attached to your hip the entire time, his hands never really leaving your waist unless it’s to reach over and help you hold something; his face in the crook of your neck and shoulder, pressing light kisses to your skin.
After you eat, you both settle down on the couch in each other’s arms, turning on something mindless as you enjoy just being together. Thunder rolls long and loud outside, carrying a warm spring breeze through the house as rain falls in spurts. You lay with your back against Jeongguk’s chest, settled comfortably between his legs as his hands trace over your exposed skin.
After a few hours, Jeongguk gives your waist a squeeze. “Noona?”
“Hm?” You look back at him over your shoulder.
“Does this mean… Are you going to stay here?”
“Stay?”
“With me?”
“Oh, um, I haven’t really thought about it.” You admit. It’s true, the only thing you’ve thought about was telling Jeongguk, not what would happen after you did.
“Do you want to?” The hope in his eyes has your heart stuttering.
“W-well, I do, but-”
“But?”
You think about your life back in Busan; your friends, your family, your job, all the things you would be leaving behind. “It’s complicated.”
“How? We want to be together, so we should be together.”
“I know, but my entire life is back in Busan. I can’t just drop everything because of how I feel.”
“Why not?”
“Because,” You sigh. “The human world is… things are harder. I can’t just disappear.”
“It can’t be that hard.”
“Jeongguk,” You sit up in his lap, turning your body to face him. “I’d have to quit my job, and leave my family and friends behind. I’d need to quit school, get out of my apartment lease and move all of my stuff here. Not to mention finding a job here, or all the paperwork I’d have to do if I wanted to move. Plus my father’s business… He’s counting on me to take over for him.”
“Noona, you know I can’t leave this island, right? Not as long as I’m still this. Besides, you told me you didn’t want any of that.”
“I know, but just because I’d rather be here doesn't mean I can just uproot my life. That’s not how things work.”
“But you’d be with me.” He offers. “Isn’t that enough?”
You know what he wants to hear, he wants this to be a fairytale, and so do you, but you don’t know how to explain to him that real life isn’t like that. Yes, every fiber of your being wants to stay on this island for the rest of your life and spend every waking moment you have with Jeongguk, just like the mirror told you that you would, but is it really that simple? “I…” You hesitate, and he takes your hesitation the wrong way. You know he does. You can see the shift in his eyes the moment it takes you too long to respond.
He chuckles; for a moment you think he’s going to brush it all off, but he stares at you with a dark gaze, hurt evident on his beautiful features; not exactly the reaction you were hoping for. “I see.” He lets go of you and stands, walking over to look out the window in the kitchen.
“Jeongguk, please.” You follow close behind. “I love you. I want to be here with you, it’s just-”
He shakes his head. “Y/N, I-” He sighs. “I want to believe you, but how do I know you aren’t just saying that because it’s supposed to be the cure.”
“What?” You haven’t shown him any reason to doubt your feelings until now, and the distrust stings. “Jeongguk, I've never lied to you.”
He takes a deep breath before turning to face you. “If you hadn’t learned what the cure was, would we even be here? Would you have said you liked me?”
“Of course!”
“Really?”
You scoff. “Eventually.”
“Right.” He just shakes his head, walking away from you toward the bathroom. “How am I supposed to know you really love me?”
“Until last night you didn’t even know what love was!” You point out, trailing him. “And I’m supposed to believe that you love me? How do I even know you’re capable of love?”
“Capable?” He whips around, his eyes ablaze with fury at your words. “Because monsters like me couldn’t possibly have feelings. That’s all I am to you, right? A horror story?”
“You’re everything to me! Can’t you see that?” You raise your voice, you don’t want to but it’s all bubbling up over the sides, erupting out of you with force. “Why do you think I’ve stayed here as long as I have?”
“And now you want to throw all of that away!”
“I didn’t say that! I said it’s going to be complicated! We can’t all just run away from our lives when things get hard!”
“You know exactly why I left… And now I’m supposed to believe you?
“I’ve never given you a reason not to trust me! I’m not the one who lied about who I am!”
“I lied because I knew this would happen!” He finally yells back. The house is silent for a moment before he takes a deep breath. “I knew this was too good to be true. It always is.”
“I don’t know how to make you believe me…” You whisper, trying to force back the tears that have started streaming down your face.
There’s a long pause. “I don’t know if I can…”
You look up at him, meeting the gaze you had fallen so hard for, before turning and walking away, crossing the threshold to your room in a huff.
“Y/N…” He calls after you, but you ignore him, tugging on some jeans before slipping right past him to the front door, sliding into your shoes and raincoat before grabbing your keys. “Where are you going?”
“Anywhere but here.” You hiss, opening the front door and stepping out into the rain.
“Noona, don’t leave!” He runs after you, grabbing your arm, but you shake him off, hopping into the truck and starting it, giving him one last look before backing out.
“Fine, now who’s the one running away!” He calls after you as you begin to drive away.
You manage to make it all the way to town before you shatter, having to pull over into an empty parking lot, not able to see the road through your tears. This is so dumb; a stupid thing to fight over, and yet here you are.
Alone.
After a solid half hour, your tears begin to subside. You feel as though your heart has been rubbed raw inside of you as you try to figure out what to do next. You look up to see the bar and decide it’s better than sitting alone in your truck. You drive the short distance and park in front of the bar, hopping out and striding up to the door.
The bell jingles a familiar ding as you open the door and you look around to see there’s no one in here, which isn’t surprising seeing as it’s only about two in the afternoon. Even the bar counter is empty as you walk up and plop yourself in a chair, desolation obvious on your face as you lay your head down on the counter. You hear the shuffling of feet, and then something heavy is placed on the counter next to you before you hear a familiar voice.
“Y/N?”
You barely lift your head to look up, seeing Saki standing in front of you, a crate of beer next to her on the counter. “Hi Saki.” You mumble, laying your head back down.
“Thought that was you.” Her lilting accent soothes you immediately. “What’s brought you in here honey? Are you alright?”
You sigh, forcing yourself to sit up and make eye contact. “I’ve been better.”
“Hm, I know that look.” She takes a clean glass out from under the counter and pours a generous amount of brown liquid in it before placing it in front of you. “Relationship problems?”
You take the glass, happily swigging the drink, your face twisting from the strong burn of the alcohol. “How could you tell?” You grumble, placing the empty glass back on the counter. She shrugs, refilling your glass. You sigh, quickly downing the second drink before pushing the glass away from you. “Saki, what would you do if you knew you had the power to change someone’s life. Like, permanently.”
“It depends.” She takes your glass and puts it in the sink before handing you a small bag of chips to even out the liquor now swirling in your stomach. “What does this person mean to you?”
“Everything…”
She watches you as you crunch down on a handful of chips. “Then I think I'd do anything I could to help them.”
You mull over her words. You know you would do anything to help Jeongguk, you just don’t know what the ‘anything’ is that he needs. “How much do you know… about Jeongguk?”
She shoots you a knowing glance and you raise your eyebrows in surprise. “So it’s the local fish giving you trouble, then?”
“You know?”
“I know a lot of things.”
“He doesn’t want to be… well, that anymore.”
“Your uncle used to come in here all the time, talking about that with Donghyun after a few drinks.” She nods, looking around as if to assure you both the bar is still empty and you can speak freely, yet leans on the counter to get closer to you anyway, whispering. “Have you found anything out?”
You run your hands through your hair, frustrated. “The only cure we found is ‘love’.”
“Love?”
“It said he could fully regain his humanity, if a human were to truly love him.”
“And you…?”
You nod. “I confessed.”
“And nothing happened?”
“Nothing.” You confirm. “And we got into this huge fight this morning about it. He said he doesn’t believe me, that I just said it to try and lift the curse.” She smiles softly at you, placing a hand over yours in comfort as you shake your head. “If I don't love him, then why does this hurt so much?”
“I’m not the one you have to convince.” She reminds you.
“He doesn’t want to talk to me.”
“Aw honey. If only you could see how much he loves you.”
You sniffle, looking up at her. “What do you mean?”
“The way he looked at you the other night at the memorial? Anyone could see the way he felt.”
You were so focused on everything else that night, you didn’t stop to focus on Jeongguk. “Saki, when did you know you were in love with Donghyun?”
“Hmm…” She pauses to think. “The first night he took me fishing.”
“What?” You snort, that wasn’t the answer you were expecting.
She laughs with you. “I fell out of the boat that night. He jumped in after me, sacrificing his life for mine. It was the first time he saw me as I truly was, and seeing me like that… It didn’t change how he felt.”
You think over her words before you realize something. “Wait, Saki are you…?”
She only smiles. “Go find Jeongguk before it’s too late. You’ll figure it out, honey.”
You nod, standing up and saying goodbye before heading back out to your truck. You make the drive back, parking the truck and running toward the house.
“Jeongguk!” You call out as you open the door, but the house is dark. Is he gone? You search every room, but there’s no sign of him. You head back outside, and are about to walk to the lighthouse when you hear that low melodious sound ringing in your ears once more. It’s coming from the cliffs. Could it be him trying to get your attention?
You walk over to the edge of the cliffs, rain pelting your face as you look out into the ocean and see a face. It’s familiar and yet unfamiliar at the same time, like something you’ve seen in a dream you can’t quite remember. Suddenly there’s a voice right in your ear.
“You want to save him…” It’s like a whisper in the wind. You look around to see that there’s no one around you before looking back down at the face to see it’s moved closer, now in the water directly underneath your feet. You watch their lips move as they repeat. “You want to save him?” It’s a question this time.
You think back to Jeongguk’s words of warning; You can’t ever speak to them. They’ll kill you. Though every nerve ending in your body is screaming at you to run away, you can’t bring yourself to listen. What if they know something you don’t?
“Yes.” You reply. “I want to save him.”
“Even if you will lose everything?” The voice is grating and beautiful at the same time, as if two people are speaking.
You nod, getting down on your knees and leaning over the cliff to look at them. “What do I have to do?”
“Love requires sacrifice.” The Ineo hisses in your ear.
“What’s the cost?”
“One human life for another.”
“One life…” Your eyes widen in understanding. “I have to-” You swallow hard, staring down at the swirling waters below. The same waters that took the life of your uncle. “But the mirror-”
“The mirror of Sinjike’s predictions can differ if the future is altered. You only have one choice left: his life, or your own.”
“I…” You stop, sitting back on your heels. Could this really be the only way? Can you give up the beautiful life you would have with Jeongguk just to give him his humanity back? You can’t imagine a life without him, and you need him to know how much you love him. You need him to believe you. He should be coming back from the lighthouse any minute now…
“His.” You whisper. “I choose his.”
“Take off the necklace when you are ready. You won’t feel a thing under the trance of my song.”
The Ineo begins to sing again, their voice filling the air, loudly and clearly as you stand up, looking once more at the ocean below you. You think of the life you’ve had; your mother and father waiting back home for you in Busan. How they’ll react when they receive the news. The way that they’ll have to compartmentalize your life into boxes after all, going through all of your things, and thinking of everything you could’ve been, everything you tried so hard to be.
You think of your friends back home, of Donghyun and Saki here, how kind they were to you, of them holding another memorial in their bar, this time for you. Who would show up?
You think of your uncle, how he stood here in this same spot, contemplating the same things you are now before he made that final leap of the edge, seeing the world one last time before he stopped breathing. Was it painless? Did he regret it as he jumped? Did he know, somehow, that you would be right here with him, committing the same act purposefully.
Mostly you think of Jeongguk. You think of how much you love him, how full your heart feels when you’re with him. No matter what, at the end of every road, he was good to you. You’ve always been afraid of growing old, of being alone, you've been worried for your soul, where it would end up; but Jeongguk, he puts all those fears to rest. You’re closing every door you’ve ever opened, sick of always wanting something more, something different. He’ll understand, right? He’ll know that you’re sorry. That you did this for him, so he could live the life he’s always wanted. You feel so scattered, not wanting to leave Jeongguk on such a sour note, but even an apology can’t save you now. You can only hope he’ll get to you in time…
Thunder cracks above your head, rain falling harder as you faintly hear your name being called from behind you. You turn to see Jeongguk emerging from the treeline by the lighthouse. You see it on his face, the exact moment he hears the song echoing through the air around you, as though the ocean herself is calling to you.
“Y/N, what are you doing?” He starts to run towards you.
Your heart aches as you look at him, but all the same, you reach up and unclasp the necklace from around your neck, letting it drop to the ground as you make peace with your decision; tonight you’ll make your bed at the bottom of the sea. Your senses are immediately taken over by the Ineo’s song, your vision going black as you’re filled with a desperate need, your body turning toward the cliffs.
Jeongguk sprints with all his might, desperate to reach your side in time as he watches you step closer and closer to the edge of the cliffs like it’s happening in slow motion. He’s so close, he can smell your perfume on the wind, his legs carrying him as fast as they can in his panic induced rush. Not again. He can’t lose you; not here, not now, not ever. He’s loved you since day one; you are everything to him, and he’ll be damned if he lets another Ineo take that away from him. Your toes dangle over the edge as you pick up your right foot, taking one final step and not finding anything to catch your body as you begin to drop through the air. Jeongguk lunges, using everything in him to push his body forward as he leaps, grabbing for you.
“No!” He screams, feeling your shirt slip through his fingers.
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By a breadth of skin, he manages to grab your wrist, landing harshly on his stomach as he grips you tightly, the momentum of your body falling yanks him forward through the dirt, but he digs his feet in, using his other hand to grip the edge of the cliff as he attempts to support you.
“Jeongguk, let me go.” He hears your voice, but he knows it isn’t really your voice. He looks down at you to see your eyes have gone black. “It’s okay.”
“No!” He yells again. Sensing Jeongguk’s stubbornness, the Ineo makes you wriggle in his grasp, the song filling your head telling you to do everything you can to plunge yourself into the dark water below where a clash of teeth awaits you. Jeongguk struggles against you, but manages to ignore the scratches you dig into his skin with your free hand as he tugs you up over the ledge. He pulls you back with him, away from the edge as he pushes you face down into the dirt, ignoring your cries and pleas as he grabs your arms together with one hand, reaching for your necklace with the other.
Jeongguk takes the chain, holding the ends together, and drapes it over your head, letting it sit on your neck as he prays to whoever is listening, begging them to bring you back to him.
After a few moments, you stop struggling. He remains on top of you, holding his breath as he waits,
“J-Jeongguk…?” You mumble, face still half in the dirt.
“Noona?” You lift your head and he tilts your chin toward him, seeing your beautiful, familiar soft eyes once more. He lets your arms go, taking a second to fasten the necklace around your neck before he crawls off you, allowing you to sit up.
“What… What happened?” You rub your head, looking around to see you’re sitting on the edge of the cliff. “You saved me?”
“Y/N!” Jeongguk tackles you back to the ground, wrapping his arms tightly around you as he begins to sob softly. “I thought I was going to lose you! Noona, why? Why would you do that?”
“Love requires sacrifice.” You repeat the words the Ineo told you. “And I love you, Jeongguk.”
“I-” Before Jeongguk can say anything, a ray of sunlight suddenly breaks through the clouds, shining down through the rain and landing directly on where the two of you sit.
A rainbow reflects from the raindrops and you watch as the rays seem to pierce Jeongguk directly as he clutches his chest. His body emits a faint glow as the rain and clouds suddenly disperse all together, leaving just that single ray of light, shining brighter than the rest. You watch closely as Jeongguk’s breathing slows, his body shining in the light as all the raindrops evaporate from his skin and clothes, his body warming from the inside out.
When it’s done, the light recedes with the rapidly moving clouds, leaving you and Jeongguk sitting on the cliff, staring after it.
“What the-”
“Jeongguk,” You reach out a hand to test your theory, placing it on his arm to feel his normally cold skin is replaced by a warmth you can only describe as being distinctly human. “You’re warm…”
“I am?” He looks down and touches his chest, feeling the warmth of blood circulating through his body. “I am.” His hands shoot up to his face, feeling himself with ecstatic anticipation of what this means.
“You’re human.”
He looks up at you, his eyes wide with wonder. “Y/N… You did it. You- You cured me. You saved my life.”
“And you saved mine.” You stand, pulling him up with you. “Like I knew you would.”
“Noona… Don’t ever do that again.” He scolds. He wraps his arms around you, pulling you into a sweet, warm kiss. “I don’t know what I'd do without you.”
“I love you, Jeongguk.”
“I love you too, Y/N.”
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“Hey! Wait up!”
You hold your camera up, snapping a quick picture of him as he chases after you, wanting to capture the beauty of the setting sun reflecting off his features. He reaches you just as you pass the lighthouse, quickly wrapping his arms around you, picking you up and spinning you around as you squeal with delight. He puts you back on the ground and pulls you close, leaning down to place a soft kiss against your lips.
“I told you to wait for us.” He chides.
“You were going too slow!” You point out playfully as you start to get lost in his eyes. “Can’t take pictures of the sunset if the sun has already set.” You hold your camera up, snapping shots of the sun bouncing off the windows of the lighthouse.
“Appa!” Yumi’s voice rings out, her arms open wide as she toddles into your husband’s arms.
“There’s my girl.” Jeongguk smiles, and you both lean in, planting kisses on her cheeks, making her giggle before he turns to you. “Are we still going to Donghyun and Saki’s tonight for dinner?”
“Oh! That’s right I almost forgot!” You nod as you both begin walking back toward the house. “We should probably get going soon.”
Jeongguk puts Yumi down when you reach the front steps. “Go get dressed sweetie!” He encourages, watching her toddle off to her room. “God, I can’t believe she’s four already.” He sighs, wrapping his arms around your waist from behind.
“Time’s moving fast now that you’re not immortal, huh?” You tease.
He spins you around in his embrace. “Time always stands still when I’m with you, my love.” He smiles before leaning down, pressing the sweetest of kisses to your lips.
“You know,” You whisper, leaning back against the door frame. “This is it.”
He tilts his head in confusion. “This is what?”
“This,” You point towards the lighthouse and the sun as it sets the sky on fire in shades of red. “This is what I saw in the mirror that day.”
“This?” He repeats. “You… You saw Yumi?”
You nod. “I saw all of us. That’s how I knew you’d save me in time.”
Jeongguk smiles brightly, pressing another kiss to your forehead. “I’m so glad you did.”
In honor of Hobi's discharge, bathroom encounter at a Halloween party? Any idea you'd have around that's perfect
A/N:LMAO I don't know if this even makes szense i had to much to drink so enjoyyyyyy
“Oh my god, that’s so funny!” Jiyeon cackles as the guy next to her whispers what you can only assume are jokes in her ear.
You take another sip of whatever concoction is in your cup before you hear what sounds like a very familiar voice from behind you. Your ears perk up as you swivel your head, looking around for the source and sure enough, after a few moments of scanning the room you spot him dressed as a basketball player, nearly spitting out your drink as you do.
Hoseok?
You thought he was still away at his military service. Did that end already? Shit. You grab Jiyeon’s arm and abruptly tug her away from her new friend, dragging her to the hallway out of sight.
“Y/N, what the hell?” She squeaks.
“Unnie, he’s back.” You state, eyes wide in terror.
“Who?”
“Hoseok.”
Jiyeon’s eyes widen. “There’s no way.” You nod your head in his direction and she turns to look. “Oh shit.” She turns back to you. “Do… Do you want to leave?”
You immediately shake your head no, knowing how much fun she’s having. “I think… I think I'm just going to run to the bathroom real quick and clear my head so I don't do anything stupid.”
“Okay, let me know if you change your mind.” She rubs your arm in an attempt to comfort you and you nod before turning and heading down the hallway to the bathroom.
You enter the small confines of the room and shut and lock the door. You grip the counter tightly, looking down at the sink as you try to breathe. He’s back. You can’t believe he’s back just when you thought you were finally rid of him.
Truth be told, you had the biggest crush on him. You were close friends once upon a time, but you let your feelings get in the way of the friendship around the time he found out he was leaving for his military service. You were told by his friend and you were heartbroken that he didn’t tell you himself. The two of you had begun seeing less and less of each other as you kept canceling plans, or blowing him off because you thought he didn’t care enough about you to even tell you he was leaving. The day he left you went to see him with the rest of your friends and the two of you got into a huge argument where you ended up slapping him across the face when he asked “Why do you even care if I leave, it’s not like you want to see me anymore”.
You haven’t seen or contacted each other since.
But now he’s back. And of course he’s at the halloween party too. You sigh heavily as you look at yourself in the mirror. You turn on the cold water and flick a few droplets in your face to help calm you down. You’re just going to have to avoid him. Yep that’s what you’re going to do. And if he sees you? At least you look sexy as hell. He can eat his heart out.
You check your makeup in the mirror before standing up and adjusting your nurse costume, letting a little more cleavage show. You do a once over one more time before unlocking the door and opening to find someone about to knock on the other side. You lock eyes with the only person you don’t want to see.
“Y/N-ah…”
“Hobi…”
You both just stand there staring at each other for a solid minute, searching each other’s faces for something before Hoseok quickly pushes you back into the bathroom with him and locks the door behind him.
“I-I’ve been looking for you.” He mumbles. “I saw Jiyeon.”
“Why… Why were you looking for me?” You question, genuinely confused.
“Because I wanted to talk to you.”
“About what?”
Hoseok sighs. “Listen… I know things were, well, rough when I was leaving. I really wanted to apologize.”
You scoff. “Apologize? Hoseok, it's been a year. I’m over it.” He raises his eyebrows at you and you look away, both of you know you’re lying.
“Look, Joon told me why you were so upset with me and now I understand what happened.”
“Right.” You roll your eyes, hopping up to sit on the counter.
“Forgive me or not Y/N, I need you to know that I was going to tell you.”
“You think I was upset because you didn’t tell me your service was starting?”
He furrows his eyebrows. “I… I thought so yeah.”
“That was such a small part of it.” You shake your head.
“What was it then?”
“Ugh, Hoseok I was-” You sigh, dragging your hands over your face. “I liked you, okay? I had the biggest crush on you and you didn’t feel the same way. When you didn’t tell me you were leaving, it kind of just solidified that for me, so by distancing myself from you I thought I was doing you a favor… And then you thought I didn't want to see you anymore? Are you kidding? I didn’t… I didn’t know what to do with myself when you left.” You admit, devastated to finally tell him the truth.
He raises his hand to his cheek as if feeling the true sting of your slap for the first time. “So we haven’t talked in a year because of a misunderstanding?”
You nod, twisting your fingers in your lap. “I didn’t want to ruin our friendship… and by doing that … I ruined our friendship.”
“I thought you just hated me.”
“Hobi, I could never hate you.” You stare down at your lap until you feel a hand tilting your chin back up. You meet Hoseok’s gaze for only a second before he leans forward and presses his lips against yours. You pull away after only a few seconds, your eyes wide. “What are you doing?”
He chuckles, his thumb brushing your chin. “Y/N-ah… don’t you know I’m crazy about you?”
“W-what?”
“I was going to tell you the same night I was going to tell you I was leaving, but someone told you first, and then you kept blowing me off; you never gave me the chance. And then that fight.”
“Hoseok, I’m so sorry.” You shake your head in amazement, giggling a bit at the fact that it really was just a big misunderstanding.
He shrugs, brushing your hair out of your face. “We were both really dumb, huh?”
“So dumb.”
And with that his lips are back on yours. You let yourself get lost in the feeling this time, loving the way his mouth seems to caress yours so gently and yet so desperately at the same time. He stands between your legs and wastes no time in prodding at your lips with his tongue. You accept his request, letting his tongue tangle with yours as your hands grip his shirt, pulling him closer, having waited so long for this moment you never thought would happen.
It isn’t long before you feel something pressing against your center and you quickly slip a hand down, cupping his hardening length over his shorts as your own arousal begins to soak your panties.
“Y/N-ah, what-?” He gasps at the touch.
“I need you inside me.” You whine, tugging at his waistband.
“N-now? You don’t want to wai-”
“I don’t want to wait for you any longer.” You insist, finally managing to slip his shorts down his legs.
“Shit that’s hot.” He curses, dropping his boxers to the floor as well. You watch his thick length bounce as he pulls you up to the edge of the counter, slipping one of his hands under your costume and pulling your underwear to the side before scooting as close to you as he can. His cock presses against your core and your body flashes with heat. “Are you sure about this?”
You nod with a whimper. “Please.”
WIth one hand still holding your panties to the side, and the other gripping your waist, he presses his hips forward. You slide a hand down between the two of you to guide him to the right place, and you feel his tip slip past your walls. A low moan leaves your mouth as he stretches you open at an agonizingly slow pace. A slow burn builds between your thighs as he fills you completely, your head falling back as he finally stills.
Your core pulses around him and you feel his lips on your neck, placing light kisses across the exposed expanse of skin. He grunts when you contract particularly hard around him and he takes that as the sign to start moving. His pace is slow at first, almost unbearably so as he takes his time, making sure to feel the entirety of your body reacting to him.
“H-Hobi…” You gasp, begging him to move faster. He seems to get the message as his hips pick up the pace, rocking into you faster and faster until the bathroom is filled only with lewd squelching sounds from between your legs, and the rapid, heavy breathing of you both.
After a few minutes of this he seemingly grows tired of smacking into the sink and slips out of you. Before you can protest he helps you down off the counter and spins you around, bending you over the counter and yanking your underwear down just enough before immediately slipping back into your entrance, both of you groaning at the feeling.
“God, how are you tighter than you were five seconds ago?” He growls.
You can only whimper in response, gripping the counter as Hoseok begins to slam into you, his hips smacking harshly against your ass, the sound echoing around the room. He feels so good, hitting all the right spots inside you that you start seeing stars. The feeling of him inside you is the only thing you can focus on as the feeling sitting low in your abdomen begins to swirl and bend with malicious intent.
“Hobi I’m- fuck.. I’m gonna cum.” You whine in warning, the sensation between your legs just too good.
“Shit.” He swears, his grip tightening on your hips. You chance a glance in the mirror to see his eyes focused on the spot where you’re joined together, a light sheen of sweat glistening on his brown as he fucks you oh so deliciously.
The sight alone is enough to snap the coil of your orgasm, slapping a hand over your mouth as you cry out, your core tightening relentlessly around Hoseok’s length as colors explode behind your eyelids. It’s not much longer before Hoseok groans low in his chest, his hips faltering before filling you to the hilt. His grip bruises your hips as he cums, his release hot inside you as he milks the feeling. His hands move to rub your back soothingly, staying seated inside you for a long moment.
“Fuck… I’ve wanted to do that for so long.” He hisses before slowly pulling out of you.
As your senses return to you, you feel Hoseok’s release drip out of your center, but that's not the only thing you feel. You keep your hand clamped over your mouth, small whines of overstimulation slipping out as Hoseok bends down and slips his tongue into your folds, effectively cleaning up the mess he made as you try not to make a sound, your legs shaking from the feeling when his tongue glides across your clit.
“Hobi, please~” You beg, trying to pull yourself away from the onslaught of his mouth. When he deems you clean enough, Hoseok pulls your panties back into place and helps you stand, his arm catching your waist when your legs buckle.
“You taste good.” He states like it’s a casual thing. “I should’ve done that first.”
“Do you think anyone heard us?” You ask, pulling your costume back into place as Hoseok cleans himself up and then does the same.
He shakes his head. “Nah, we were quiet.” He pulls you to him and places one last kiss against your lips before unlocking the bathroom door and opening it only to find several questioning faces on the other side, including that of Jiyeon.
“Well,” She smirks wildly at the sight of you two on the other side of the door. “I guess it’s a good thing we didn’t go home.”
TW: swearing, mafia talk, sex talk, drug mention, death mention/death, creampie mention, the l word, cunnilingus, eating out, fingering, break ups, cock warming, fire, arson, murder
AN: Hi... uhhhhhhh yeah my first fic back and it feels so right *kiss*
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"Wait, what did you say?"
He looks at you, suddenly seeming nervous. “I-I’m sorry…” he mumbles. “It just slipped out.”
You nod once, stilled in thought as you process the moment.
“Y/N-ah?” Yoongi looks up at you, grabbing your chin.
“Sorry.” You shake your head and force a quick smile, realizing that you’re still on top of him, and he’s still inside you. “Shower?”
He studies you for a moment, his gaze lingering on yours before he nods in return. You gingerly raise your hips, whining a little as he slips out of you and his cum begins to drip from your center.
“Oh shit. I-I didn’t mean to…” Yoongi gestures to the white drops now decorating his lap.
You tilt your head as you stand up before you realize exactly what he’s talking about. “Oh…” It’s barely a whisper. “D-don’t worry about it.” You mumble, shaking him off as you collect your discarded clothes. That's not something you can bring yourself to think about at the moment. You help him up off the couch and lead him through his room and into the bathroom.
You don’t talk much as you shower, feeling like your brain might be smoking from just how fast it's reeling. Yoongi doesn’t seem to notice as he presses up against you, his hands gently resting on your waist for a few moments before he starts washing your back for you. When you’re finished, you exit the shower first and change into your pajamas before climbing into bed and pulling the covers up to your chin.
He said he loves you…
Yoongi jumps into bed with you and snuggles up to your back, much like he does every night, his arm draped over your waist.
Yoongi said he loves you…
You feel his breathing even out behind you as he falls asleep.
What the fuck are you supposed to do?
You're avoiding Yoongi. You know you’re avoiding him. He knows you're avoiding him. Hell, who doesn't know you’re avoiding him. All you know is that ever since those three words fell from his lips, your brain gets all fuzzy when you’re near him.
It's been almost a week, and you've said maybe three entire sentences to Yoongi in passing. Every morning before he wakes up; you’re already gone, and every night when he gets home, you’re already in bed. You rarely stop by the club unless something desperately needs your attention. You spend most of your days either at your parent’s house, reminiscing about when things were simpler; or wandering the park, with Seokjin or Namjoon at your side as a guard. You visit your parents twice, but you don’t know what to say to them either, only replacing their flowers with fresh ones.
It's not that you don't love Yoongi. It’s that you’re not sure if you love Yoongi. To you, love is a strong word. A dangerous word.
There are definitely feelings inside you for Yoongi of some capacity, you’re simply trying to sort through them before you say anything, and that seems to be more difficult than you originally thought it was going to be.
There are too many questions running laps around your mind to decide on anything. Why can’t you bring yourself to trust anyone else? Could Yoongi ever actually fall in love with you? The girl from hell? How could you ever let him get this close to you? You’re so incredibly fucked up after all. You blame yourself.
You’ve watched more loved ones get lowered into the ground than anyone should have to and that makes you terrified to lose him the same way you seem to lose everyone else. You want to love again… but can you? You appreciate that he hasn’t pressed you about it, not that you’ve given him a chance to. He’s too busy planning his infiltration of Busan anyway.
Today you’re sitting on a blanket at the park, enjoying the early October air as you read next to the pond, sprawled out on a blanket. Seokjin is sitting on a bench a few yards away, his eyes flitting between you and the crowd around you both. You’re almost through the shitty romance book you picked up, and when you finish the chapter you’re on, you feel a heavy sigh leave your body; the main characters have just confessed their love for each other. Even your book knows you're avoiding him.
Seokjin’s gaze flicks back to you, raising an eyebrow at the sound. “Something the matter?” He questions.
You slot your bookmark into its place and slam the book shut. “Yes. There is.”
He raises both eyebrows at you now. “Go on.” He nods.
“Why does everything have to be about love?”
He snorts at this. “You do realize you’re reading a romance book, right?” His eyes go back to scanning the people around you.
You roll your eyes and toss the book onto the blanket in front of you. “Romance is a sham…”
“Someone's bitter today.” Seokjin notes. You only huff at him in response. “Does this have anything to do with the fight you and Yoongi are in the middle of?”
“It’s not a fight.” You state.
“Please,” He scoffs. “Everyone can see you’re avoiding each other.” You know. “You’ve been leaving early, he’s been staying late. Obviously something’s going on.” You know.
“It is not a fight!” You reiterate, beginning to stuff your things into your bag.
He shakes his head at you, putting his hands up. “Hey, if you need someone to listen, I am judgment free.”
You look down at the ground, mulling it over, before meeting his gaze once more. “If you tell a soul…”
“It’s not my place.” He shrugs, holding his pinky out to you. You stare at him for a second more before linking your pinky with his and pressing your thumbs together.
“Okay… do you know the truth about us?”
“You mean, the reason you actually got married?” He nods. “Wasn’t hard to pick up on that transaction.”
“Well, Yoongi and I… We’ve gotten closer.”
“Obviously.” Seokjin snorts. You shoot a glare at him. “Sorry, continue.”
“So, the other night, Yoongi may have said… That he might… Love me… For the first time…” You trail off, not wanting to say it out loud. “But-!” You continue. “He said it just slipped out. A spur of the moment kind of thing.”
“And what were you doing to elicit such a phrase?” Seokjin furrows his brows at you. You roll your eyes, raising your own eyebrows as you look at him. He gets it. “Ah, I see. Hmm…” He pauses, thinking for a minute. “I mean, it could have been an accident like you said, but-” Seokjin stands, stretching his arms up over his head. “Maybe it wasn’t.” He shrugs.
You stare up at him, dumbfounded. “What do you mean? Yoongi doesn’t love me. He can’t.” You shake your head, gathering your things and standing up. “Right?”
“Well, first of all, how do you feel?”
You shake your head again. “That doesn’t matter.” Seokjin stares at you knowingly. “Ugh, I don't know!” You throw your hands up in defeat. “I don't know how I feel…” You begin to walk away from Seokjin toward the car.
“Why not?” He asks, following you
“Well, I've never really thought about it before.”
“Why not?”
“Because!” You hiss. “It was a transaction! Everything’s a transaction. It’s all about business, all the time! This wasn’t supposed to be any different.”
“So that's what you’ve been doing for the last week? Thinking?”
“Exactly.” You state.
“Well, now that you’ve thought about it,” He begins. “How do you feel?”
You pause, searching for the right words in your brain to phrase your feelings for your husband. “I… I mean…” You pause again. “I like him?” It comes out as more of a question.
“Are you sure?”
“I like him.” You repeat. “There’s… There’s this feeling there, but I'm not sure how to describe it.” You explain as you reach the car.
Seokjin thinks on this for a moment. “Well, how do you feel when you’re around him?”
You close your eyes and think about Yoongi, a small smile gracing your lips as you run through the memories you’ve made together since you got married; dancing at your wedding, sharing drunken kisses, opening wedding presents, getting to really know each other, making meals, laughing on the couch, the first real kiss you shared, the first time you felt each other, how you felt when you thought you lost him; something in your brain clicks, and for the first time in a week, the fog covering your thoughts clears. “I don't know…” You mumble. “Do I… Do I love him?”
Seokjin shrugs again. “I mean, you’ve known each other for a long time, so it’s possible.”
“A long time?” You scoff. “I’ve known him for like a year.”
He chuckles at this. “Maybe you don't remember, but you two used to hang out when you were kids.”
“What? No we didn’t. You’re thinking of Taehyung.”
“No, I’m not. This was before you met Taehyung.”
“What are you talking about Seokjin?”
“You’ve known Yoongi since your parents got married.” He explains. “He was the first friend you met here, but since Taehyung was closer in age, I guess you hit it off with him better. I don’t know the details; I’ve only really seen pictures while he talked about it.”
“Pictures?” As you walk, you think back to times when you were little, trying to remember something, anything from the time before you met Taehyung. A young Yoongi? Maybe. You see it in flashes, barely able to recall.
“Holy shit…”
“Told you.” Seokjin says as he unlocks the car. “The only difference is, he remembers.”
“He does?” You ask, opening the car door.
He nods, sliding into the car and you follow. “Like I said. He’s known you for a long time.” Seokjin repeats. “I would be more surprised if he hadn’t developed feelings for you.”
You nod, remembering something you said to Yoongi the night he proposed. We’ll what? Fall in love and everything will be okay? That’s not how this works. Could you have been wrong? “So you think…?”
Seokjin shakes his head as he pulls out of the parking lot. “It’s not for me to say. You need to talk to your husband.”
You need to talk to your husband. Shit. The rest of the car ride is silent as you think about Yoongi. When Seokjin finally pulls up to your apartment building, you sigh, turning to him with your hand on the door handle.
“Thanks, Seokjin.” You offer him a small smile. “For listening.”
“Anytime.” He nods at you. “And please, call me Jin.”
“Jin.” You get out of the car and lean back down. “Thanks Jin.” You shut the door and wave as he drives away. You walk up the stairs into your building and head to your apartment.
You immediately toss your things aside as you shut the door behind you, heading to your room and opening the closet doors. You walk inside to the very back and crouch down on your knees, digging through some old boxes until you find what you’re looking for: three old, dusty photo albums. Your mom loved taking pictures and documented every occasion, so if there’s any proof you knew Yoongi before, it’d be in here.
You flip through the first one to find nothing but baby pictures; you know they’re in order of your age. You put the first one back and open the second to see it starts when you’re about 2 and goes until you’re 5. You put that one back as well. It’s got to be in the last one. You crack it open, searching for your sixth birthday, knowing you moved to Korea soon after.
The first picture of your mother and father makes your eyes misty, and you stare at it for a moment, loving how happy they looked. You smile to yourself and keep looking. There’s their wedding pictures, including some of you as the flower girl. A picture of your father and Uncle Min. And, wait. Who…? You find a picture of you on the next page at your favorite park, the one you were at today. You’re sitting on a bench, smiling at the camera, and there’s a boy next to you, smiling at you. You slip the picture out of its protective plastic covering and flip it over hoping to find an answer.
Y/N-ah (6) and Yoongi-ah (9) at Moonlight Waterside Park, June 2002.
It's written in your mothers handwriting. How do you not remember this? At all? You flip through the book to see if there’s anything else, but this is the only picture of you and Yoongi. You keep the picture out, putting the last photo book away before heading back out of your room. You place the picture on the dining room table, dumbstruck as you look at it once more. You shake your head as you walk into the kitchen checking the time. It’s already 8pm. Perfect. You have about four hours before Yoongi gets home if he stays out late again. You start up the oven, readying yourself to cook a very special dinner.
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After all the food is set, you run back to the kitchen to grab a lighter. You managed to whip up some choice steaks you had saved, perfectly medium rare, seasoned with salt and pepper the way you know Yoongi likes, along with smashed garlic red potatoes, and a nice mix of roasted veggies.
You set the table beautifully with a red tablecloth and matching candles, pulling out some of the tableware you got as a wedding gift and making both of your place settings look exquisite. You put on a simple t-shirt dress, nothing too fancy, just black, and begin to light the candles. Just as you’re lighting the last one, you hear numbers being punched into the keypad and sure enough at 12:07, the door opens quietly and Yoongi walks inside. He doesn’t see you at first, his eyes adjusting to the dimness of the low kitchen lights.
“Y/N?” He tilts his head, taking in the scene. “What’s going on?”
“Dinner.” You state simply. “I figured you were tired of eating out every night.” You look over at him to see his dress shirt is unbuttoned about halfway down his chest, and he’s not wearing anything under it today, his bare skin catching the flickering reflection of the candles. His hair is tousled messily as he runs a hand through it, his eyes meeting yours, confusion evident on his features as he walks over to the table.
“Steak?” He licks his lips as he takes in the sight before him. “Smells amazing.”
“Have a seat.” You gesture to his chair.
He hesitates for only a moment before taking his seat. You grab the bottle of wine from in front of you and pour him a glass before taking your seat next to him and pouring one for yourself, the picture hidden on the seat on your other side.
It’s quiet as you both dig into your meals, the only sound being that of the soft music playing in the background and the clinking of utensils on plates. Every time Yoongi takes a sip of wine, he glances at you curiously, studying the way you’re eating. It isn’t until he only has a few bites left that he finally breaks the silence surrounding you both.
“So I know your birthday isn’t for a few months. Am I forgetting some type of anniversary or something?” He questions. You only shake your head. Yoongi stabs a piece of broccoli and holds it up to his mouth. “Okay, what’s today then?”
You take another sip of your wine. “Tuesday, I think.”
He chuckles at your smartass answer. “Tuesday…” He repeats. “Got it. Anything else?”
“Just thought it might be nice to sit down for dinner together.”
Yoongi’s eyes narrow at your words as he puts down his fork. “Y/N, it's been almost a week since you said anything of substance to me. Am I supposed to believe everything’s just okay now?”
You take the last bite of your food and he watches carefully as you put down your utensils and drink the rest of your wine. “I need to talk to you about something.”
He tilts his head, raising an eyebrow. “Something?” He questions. You nod. “I’m all ears.”
You pause to gather yourself, taking a deep breath before you begin. “Yoongi I… I appreciate that you gave me space this week. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking, and I have something important we should discuss.” You state.
“Do you… want a divorce?” He asks quietly.
“What? No, that’s not-” You can't help but giggle. “You thought I was going to ask for a divorce?”
“I mean,” He shrugs. “Didn't seem like there was any other option.”
“I don't want a divorce Yoongi. But I do have a question for you.”
“Oh?”
You grab the picture from where you hid it next to you and hold it to your chest. “I was talking to someone today-”
“Jin.”
“-Jin.” You agree. “And he told me something interesting about you.”
“What’s that?” Yoongi leans back in his chair.
“He told me,” You hold out the photo to him. “That you remember this.”
Yoongi takes the outstretched photo from your hand and studies it closely, a small smile gracing his lips when he realizes what exactly he’s looking at. “Of course I do.” He runs his fingers across the photo fondly. You stay silent waiting for an explanation. “This was one of the last days before you met Taehyung.” He begins. “Our moms took us to the park to get ice cream because we were driving them crazy. Not long after this was taken, you smashed your ice cream cone on my head.” He chuckles, reliving the memory in his mind.
“What?” You snort. “Why?”
“Because I told you girls had cooties.” He hands the photo back to you. “That was pretty much the end of our friendship. When my mom told me to apologize a few days later, you had already met Tae and seemed to have forgotten all about me.” He finally meets your gaze, his brown eyes endearing.
“Why don’t I remember?” You ask, more to yourself than him.
“Probably because I was a little older.” He explains. “I think it had more of an impact on me anyway.”
“Why’s that?”
“I didn’t think you had cooties. I had a crush on you.”
“Y-you did?” You lean closer to him.
He nods, placing his hands on top of yours where they lay on the table. “My mom teased me about it all the time. But I was too late, and the feelings mostly faded.”
“Mostly?” You rub your thumb across the back of his hand.
“Until the day I was inducted.” He admits. “The first time I saw you again after all the time I spent away at school. I know you were bored out of your mind at that meeting, but I couldn't take my eyes off of you.”
You nod, thinking over Yoongi’s confession. “And… now?” You question.
“And now…” He sighs, taking your hands in his. “Now I know.”
“Know what?”
“That I never stopped loving you.”
Your heart thumps in your chest as your eyes lock onto his, surprised at the admission, but at the same time, the feeling you’ve been trying to describe all week fills you from head to toe. “Yoongi I…” Your words falter and he shakes his head.
“It’s okay, I know.”
“No.” You stop him from pulling away. “You don’t. You don't know anything, do you ever listen?” You huff out a small laugh. He seems shocked by your words and his body goes rigid, waiting for you to continue. “Yoongi I love you too.” You blurt. You’re not even sure if you said it out loud. Was that just in your head? “I don't want a divorce, you fucking idiot, I love you too.” You repeat, smiling as you wipe away your happy tears.
Yoongi is silent for a minute, not daring to move, afraid he’ll wake up if he does. One more beat and suddenly he's pulled you up out of your seat and his lips are on yours. It’s the best kiss yet, needy and passionate, Yoongi letting you know just how long he’s been waiting for you to say those words. He grabs your waist and pulls you flush against his body, taking the breath from your lungs as his lips part yours, kissing you as though his life depended on it. Your hands quickly find purchase around his neck and in his hair, pulling him closer, as if there was any space left between the two of you.
“Y/N-ah…” He pants, breaking the kiss and resting his forehead against yours. “You’re the best thing that's ever happened to me.”
“Yoongi…” You blush, trying to look away, but Yoongi’s lips reattach to yours. Everything feels perfect. Right now, right here in this moment, it feels like your world is finally spinning in the right direction. “I love you…” You mumble against his mouth, making him smile against yours.
Your hands slip under his suit jacket and it falls to the floor just before he grabs your waist, guiding you backwards toward the table. He carefully picks you up and sets you down on top of it, making the silverware clink against the plates.
“What are you doing?” You giggle as he pulls back to brush your hair out of your face. He only smirks, pressing his lips to yours again as his hands reach up under your dress, taking hold of your underwear and shimmying them down your legs, stepping out of the way to get them off completely before situating himself between your thighs, gripping them and pressing himself close to you as his lips find your neck. “Ah~” You whimper as he bites you just under your ear. You know it’s only been a week, but you sure did miss this feeling.
“Lay back.” He growls, sending shivers down your spine. You obey, leaning back on your elbows, watching Yoongi curiously as he sits down in the chair behind him. He scoots up to you, spreading your legs and wrapping his arms around your thighs, not giving you time to react before his tongue slips into your folds.
“Ah, Y-Yoongi!” You moan, your head falling back at the first ever feeling of his mouth between your legs, reveling in the absolute bliss it brings you, electrifying your senses.
He groans against you, his tongue making quick, calculated swipes around your clit as he warms you up, not yet touching the sensitive bud. His tongue dips into your entrance and you lay back completely with a soft moan, your hands searching for something to grab and finding the table cloth beneath you.
“You taste so good, baby.” He mumbles against you, making your body run hot. Once he’s got your cheeks flushing with heat, he finally acquiesces, his tongue trailing up to the sweet bundle of nerves begging for his touch. He flattens his tongue and drags it up your slit, your back arching off the table at the feeling.
“God~ Yoongi…” You whimper, your hands reaching down and finding purchase in his hair, tugging gently.
“I should’ve done this sooner.” He chuckles against you, sending vibrations through your core as he brings one of his hands down to tease your entrance, tracing just his fingertips around it. “You look so fucking hot like this Y/N-ah.”
“Don’t stop…” You whine, attempting to bring his mouth to you again, but he ignores you, standing up instead.
“What’s that?” His fingers linger just on the outside of your entrance, dragging them around agonizingly slowly.
“Please, don’t st-ah~!” As you’re speaking, Yoongi takes two fingers and thrusts them inside you, making you gasp out mid sentence.
Your eyes meet his and he lets out a low moan. “God I love when you make that face.” He pumps his fingers slowly in and out. “You just look so… Desperate.” He smirks at you, hitting your g-spot and causing you to throw your head back in pleasure.
He pushes you back on the table and leans over, his lips finding your center again. You’ve never known anyone's tongue to move so fast, but it makes your body feel like it's on fire. You chance a glance down at him to see his eyes closed as he ravishes you, seeming as though he thoroughly enjoys pleasuring you like this. The combination of his tongue and fingers has you approaching your high at a record pace, feeling the tingling in your body as it creeps up.
“Yoongi~” You whimper his name, alerting him as your hands find his hair again.
“Mmm…” He acknowledges you, he knew first, he could feel it from the light clenching of your core around his fingers. You always do that around his cock before you cum. His tongue flicks through your folds one more time before he wraps his lips around your clit, sucking on it gently and increasing the rate at which your high hurtles toward you ten fold. Yoongi hooks his fingers up into your g-spot once more, this time his fingers stay there, rubbing against it with his fingertips as your legs tense up around him.
“Fuck~! Yoongi!” You gasp as your orgasm slams into you, making your head swirl with just how good it feels, your back coming up off the table, and your thighs squeezing around Yoongi’s head. Your toes curl as Yoongi watches you, coasting you through it, amazed at just how beautiful you look in this moment.
You pant heavily as you come down from your high, sweat sticking your back to the tablecloth as your brain attempts to right everything. Yoongi licks up the last of your release, slipping his fingers out of you. He grabs a napkin off the table, wiping his fingers and his chin before finishing off his glass of whine where he stands, still between your thighs.
“Good dinner babe.” He smirks down at you.
You chuckle lightly, trying to catch your breath. “Yoongi, that…” You begin as he pulls you into a sitting position. “That was-” You’re cut off by the sound of your phone ringing from where you left it on the kitchen counter.
He smiles at you smugly, motioning for you to stay seated on the table before he walks into the kitchen and grabs your phone for you. He looks at the caller ID and sighs, quickly answering. “Yes, Little Kim?” You sigh as well, knowing that if Taehyung is calling this late at night, it’s not good news. “Yeah, she’s right here, hold on.” Yoongi furrows his brows as he walks over to you, holding the phone out for you to take.
You grab the outstretched phone and hold it up to your ear. “Tae?”
“Y/N…” His voice is robbed of its usual happy lilt, sounding strained instead.
“Are you alright?” You question, concerned.
“I…” His voice cracks, and you can hear just how hurt he is, his voice barely a whisper. “Jimin broke up with me…”
“Oh, Taehyung… I’m so sorry.” You respond. Yoongi looks at you, concerned, walking up and placing his hands on your thighs in comfort. He tilts his head as if to ask what's wrong? You hold your finger up, asking him to wait.
“I don't know what to do Y/N, I really liked him.” Taehyung sniffles and you can tell he’s crying.
“Aw, honey it’ll be okay. Why don't you come over here?” You offer. “We can have movie night.”
“Are you sure it's okay?” He asks. Another sniffle. “It's pretty late.”
“I know you’re already out, get your butt over here.” You state.
“Alright. I’ll be there soon…” And with that he hangs up. You frown as you see the call has disconnected.
“What’s going on?” Yoongi asks, cupping your cheek.
“He got dumped.” You explain, pushing him back and hopping down off the table.
“Aish, really?” Yoongi shakes his head. “I was hoping to have you for a bit longer tonight.” He pulls you close and kisses your forehead before letting you go. “How long until he gets here?”
You shrug. “I don't know. He always drives around when he’s sad, he could be in Daejeon if he’s been driving long enough.” You sigh again, starting to walk away toward your room.
“Forgetting something?” Yoongi stops you. You turn back around to see him holding up your hastily discarded underwear, a small smile playing at his lips. You walk back over to him and grab the pair, planting a sweet kiss on Yoongi’s mouth as you do.
“We will continue this,” You point back and forth between the two of you. “Tomorrow.”
“Can’t wait.” He kisses you once more before watching you walk down the hall.
When Taehyung arrives at your apartment, you’ve just finished cleaning up the kitchen. You yell for him to come in when he knocks, grabbing the soju you’d been chilling out of the fridge. As you shut the fridge door, you realize that while you were changing into your pajamas, Yoongi took the picture of the two of you and put it up on display on the fridge. Your fingers reach up to trace over young Yoongi’s face before you turn to greet Taehyung as he walks inside. His usual stylish attire is replaced with sweats and a t-shirt. His eyes are puffy, very obvious lines of former tears tracing over his cheeks.
“Hey…” He mumbles when he sees you.
You place the soju on the counter and quickly make your way over to him, wrapping your arms tightly around him. “I’m so sorry Tae.”
He returns the hug, burying his face in your neck as he inhales deeply. “I just don't know what I did wrong.” He whines.
“The tv’s set up, pick anything you want, I’ll get the drinks and you can tell me everything.” You pull back, rubbing his arms. He nods, making his way over to the couch and flopping down on the cushions.
You grab the soju, two tall glasses, and some soda to mix it with before making your way back into the living room, putting everything on the table and then seating yourself next to Taehyung. You grab the soju and crack it open, pouring some into both the glasses and topping it with just a splash of soda. You push one of the glasses into Taehyung’s hands and he immediately takes a long swig, downing half of it as he settles on some movie neither of you have heard of.
You take a sip of yours before setting your glass back on the table. You grab the blanket off the back of the couch and throw it over both your laps and Taehyung quickly leans against you, taking another drink.
“Are you two still fighting?” Taehyung mumbles, taking in the absence of your husband for the first time.
“Nah.” You shake your head. “We figured it out. You just get me all to yourself tonight.” You wrap an arm around him as he settles back against your chest.
“Tell him… I appreciate that.”
“Of course.” You nod, rubbing your thumb across his shoulder where it rests. “Now, tell me what happened.”
Taehyung takes another long sip of his drink and then sighs. “I don’t even know.” He shakes his head. “I don’t know what happened. I thought everything was going great.” There’s a pause and you wait for him to continue. He doesn’t. Instead, he digs his phone out of his pocket, opening it up to a text conversation and then handing the phone to you.
You grab the phone and begin reading.
Jimin (12:22 am): Taehyung
Taehyung (12:22 am): Mm?
Jimin (12:23 am): I need to talk to you about something when you get some time
Jimin (12:23 am): It’s important…
Taehyung (12:23 am): Okay, give me a minute, let me finish this.
Taehyung (12:31 am): Alright I’m done what’s up babe?
Jimin (12:32 am): Aish this is harder than I thought it was going to be…
Jimin (12:33 am): Taehyung-ah, I really like you, but this isn’t going to work out.
Taehyung (12:33 am): What do you mean?
Jimin (12:33 am): I mean this. Us.
Taehyung (12:34 am): You… Want to break up? T-T
Jimin (12:35 am): I’m sorry
Jimin (12:37 am): Honestly I never meant for it to get this far… I didn’t think I would like you as much as I do. There are things that I have to do. And I don’t want you anywhere near them. You can’t be involved.
Taehyung (12:37 am): Why not?
Jimin (12:38 am): It just wouldn’t be right. Thank you for everything you told me. I’ll always cherish the time we spent together.
Jimin (12:38 am): I’m so sorry.
Taehyung (12:38 am): Can’t we talk about this?
Taehyung (12:40 am): Jimin?
Taehyung (12:47 am): Please…?
The last three messages don’t show as delivered, letting you know that Jimin either turned his phone off, or more likely, blocked Taehyung.
“Wait, he broke up with you over text??” You hand the phone back to Taehyung. “What a dick!”
“Yeah…”
“There are ‘things’ he has to do? What things? What the fuck does that even mean?”
“I don't know.” Taehyung shrugs, finishing off the last of his glass before grabbing the bottle and pouring himself another, not even bothering with the mixer.
“What an asshole. Taehyung I’m so sorry. That’s a really shitty thing to do.” You give him a squeeze.
“Yeah, it is.” He agrees, downing his entire glass in one go.
You can tell Taehyung doesn’t want to talk anymore, so you simply settle back and get comfortable. The two of you remain on the couch, drinking and watching movies until the early hours of the morning when both of you pass out on the cushions with the help of the soju; you’re pressed between Taehyung and the couch, spooning him as he snores lightly next to you.
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The next morning, or afternoon rather, you wake up with stiff muscles to the smell of something wonderful. You stretch with a groan, your head throbbing as you open your eyes, searching for the source of the scent. Taehyung is still fast asleep, and you give his shoulder a gentle squeeze as you sit up.
The table in front of you has been cleaned of last night's empty glasses and snacks, and on it sits a plastic bag holding some sort of containers, and a note. You reach over your sleeping friend and grab the note, seeing it’s from Yoongi.
Good afternoon my love,
Here’s some hangover soup for you and Tae, get some rest and I’ll see you tonight.
Yoongi
Your heart flutters. ‘My love’. You smile to yourself as you very carefully get up off the couch, attempting not to bother Taehyung. You open the plastic bag to see two large containers of ppyeo-haejangguk. It smells amazing, and it’s still piping hot as you grab one of the containers and a plastic spoon for yourself. You quickly plop yourself down on the floor and open the container, happily digging in.
You get about halfway through when Taehyung finally stirs, sighing heavily with sleep as he rolls over to find where you went.
“Y/N-ah?” He grumbles.
“Mm.” You respond, mouth full of soup.
“What time is it?”
“Not sure.” You shrug. “Yoongi got us soup.” You nod at the remaining container on the table. Taehyung sits up, rubbing his head, probably feeling just as shitty as you do. He grabs the container and his own spoon out of the bag, popping off the lid, and beginning to eat. “You alright?” You ask after a bit.
Taehyung nods. “I’ll be fine. Just need some time, that's all.”
“Do you want to stay here for a few days?” You offer.
“Nah.” He shakes his head. “I’ve got to help them with this infiltration thing.” When your eyes begin to widen he holds his hand up. “I’m not going, I’m just helping plan. And before you ask, Yoongi’s not going either.”
“Who is?”
“Jongin. He’s already there working in the warehouse, he sent us info two days ago.”
“Ah.” You hope everything goes alright.
“Heard that was your idea by the way?” Taehyung questions, finishing off the last of his soup.
“I just suggested it.”
“Reminds me of something your dad would do.”
“Me too.” You put your now empty container up on the table and lean back against the couch.
“So what happened? Between you and Yoongi?”
You sigh, not wanting to bother Taehyung with your happy romance. “He just… he said he loves me.”
“What?” You can feel Taehyung’s eyes boring into you. “When?”
“About a week ago.”
“What were you doing? Was it just a casual thing? Or was it serious?”
“It was uh… right after sex.”
“Oh my god, Y/N what did you say??”
“I didn’t say anything at first, I just ignored it.”
“That’s why you were avoiding him? Then what happened?”
“Well, I was talking to Seokjin and he said some stuff that made sense. I realized that it… It was… mutual.”
“You said it back?”
You nod. “Last night, before you came over.”
Taehyung leans over and wraps his arms around you in a tight hug. “I’m so happy for you doll.” He whispers. “You two deserve all the happiness in the world.”
“Thanks Tae.” You mumble into his arm.
Taehyung pulls away and stands up, stretching his limbs as he does. “Alright, I should head home.”
“Are you sure?” You ask.
He nods. “I think I’m going to go out and look for a rebound tonight.”
“Already?” You stand up with him.
“Just makes it easier to get over him.” Taehyung states, grabbing his things. “I’ll text you later, okay doll?”
“Love you Tae.” You wrap your arms around his waist.
“Love you too.” He returns the embrace before slipping his shoes on and heading out, giving you one last nod before he shuts the door.
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It's been two months. Two months since you said “I love you”. Two months since Taehyung got dumped. It’s a week before Christmas, and two weeks before Taehyung’s birthday and the new year. So far, everything seems to be on the up. You and Yoongi are closer than ever and Taehyung’s been sleeping with anyone that breathes in his direction. He even asked you if you and Yoongi would ever be open to a threesome one night when he was especially drunk and desperate, but you explained that you don’t think your relationship is ready for that. Or if it will ever be ready for that.
Tonight after close, you’re at the bar with Taehyung, waiting for Yoongi, discussing plans for Christmas next week. You’re hosting a big dinner here at the club for the entire family, and you’re still trying to pull things together.
“Okay, and then do you know what your mom is bringing?” You ask Taehyung.
“Probably some sort of dessert like always.”
“Alright, I’ll just put dessert then.”
“So did you figure out a present for him yet?” Taehyung asks, knowing you’ve been having a hell of a time trying to come up with something to give to Yoongi.
You nod excitedly. “I’m going to give him mom’s Steinway. I just have to figure out how to get it into the apartment.”
“You’re giving him… A piano?”
“You don’t think it’s a good idea?” You pout. You thought Yoongi would love it…
“No, it’s fine. I was talking about how you are going to wrap yourself up for him.” Taehyung smirks at you. “Do we need to go shopping?”
Before you can call him a pig, a different voice asks for your attention and you look up to see the head chef, standing in front of you. “Hey Y/N?”
“Hey, what's up Seunghan?”
“We’re closing up, do you need anything before I head out?”
“Oh, I didn't realize it was that late.” You state, looking up at the clock on the wall to see it is, in fact, that late. “I should be okay. You guys go home.” You assure him.
“Have a good night you two.” He nods at you and Taehyung before turning and heading out the backdoor.
“Damn.” Taehyung swears. “I didn’t know it was already 11:30. I guess I should get going too. You want a ride?” He asks as he gets up.
You shake your head. “I’m going to wait for Yoongi. He shouldn’t be much longer.”
“Alright doll. Just remember, you should let him play your keys.” He gives you a wicked smile and you smack him on the arm in disgust before he heads out as well.
You sigh to yourself and gather your things, making sure the doors are locked before flicking the lights off and heading into the back hallway towards Yoongi’s office.
You rap your knuckles gently on the door as you crack it open. “Yoongi?” You peek your head inside the room to see Yoongi fast asleep in his chair. You chuckle to yourself as you enter, putting your stack of papers away before walking over to your husband. He looks so peaceful you almost don’t want to wake him. You brush a stray hair out of his face before leaning down and pressing a soft kiss to his lips. “Yoongi, wake up.” You mumble against his mouth.
“Mm?” His eyes flutter open and he quickly takes in the sight of you standing in front of him and smiles. “Y/N-ah, what are you doing?”
“You fell asleep, come on. Let’s go home.” You offer your hand to him, but instead of standing, he takes it and pulls you into his lap. His lips meet yours again for a kiss that makes your knees weak, his arm wrapping around your waist.
“Do we have to?” He mutters against your cheek.
“Yes~ We’re the only ones still here!” You giggle, pressing on his chest to get him to separate from you and standing back up. “Let’s go!”
This time he allows you to help him stand. He quickly grabs his things before following you out into the hallway. He locks the door behind you and wraps an arm around your waist, escorting you out to the car. You take the keys from him, deeming him too tired to drive and he only rolls his eyes, climbing into the passenger side before you pull out of the parking lot and out onto the street. Yoongi’s hand remains situated on your right thigh the entire way home, rubbing his thumb against your jeans absentmindedly as you drive.
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When you reach your apartment, you both immediately head to bed. You slip on one of Yoongi’s t-shirts before crawling under the covers, waiting for him to do the same. When he does, Yoongi automatically snuggles up behind you, pressing himself against your back as he wraps his arms around you. He places kisses on your shoulder, trailing up your neck and you sigh contentedly, loving the feeling of him against you. After a few moments, however, you feel something else pressing against your lower back.
“Well, hello.” You giggle. “Didn’t we do this earlier this morning?” You did, in fact you and Yoongi had very soft, very hot shower sex this morning.
Yoongi rests his forehead against your shoulder. “Ugh, I know. I’m sorry baby.”
“You don’t have to be sorry.” You squeeze his hand where it rests on your stomach. “It’s not like I mind doing it again.” You turn over enough that you can see his face.
He huffs out a breath of laughter against your skin, placing another kiss on you. “I’d love to, but god, I didn’t realize how tired I am.”
You frown at this, having just started to think about it made a small swirl of arousal form in your stomach. “Maybe…? Ah, no, never mind.” You shake your head, like Yoongi would ever-
“Maybe what?” He mumbles against your shoulder. “Did you want something?” His hand starts to wander down your stomach, finding the waistband of your underwear.
“I just uh… I had an idea, but I don't know if it's something you’d be into.”
“If you’re into it, I'll always at least try it.” He meets your gaze, and you melt at the way he looks right now. His eyes are heavy with sleep as he gazes at you from beneath the hair that’s fallen across his forehead, his muscular shoulders on full display due to his lack of shirt. He is absolutely delectable and a small whimper leaves your throat at the sight of him like this.
“H-have you ever tried w-warming?” You ask hesitantly.
He tilts his head in question. “Warming? Like cock warming?” You nod and he seems to ponder this for a moment. “I’ve never tried it, no. Do you want to? Is it something you’re interested in?”
“It was just a suggestion.” You mumble, suddenly feeling very shy.
Yoongi kisses your shoulder again before the hand playing with your waistband begins to tug the fabric down your legs. You let him take them off, loving the way his hands caress you as he does. When he gets them off, he tosses your underwear on the floor before his hand slips back under the covers and removes his own.
Once you’re both naked from the waist down, Yoongi’s hand finds your ass, caressing it gently before he carefully lifts your leg. You can feel his half hard length slide against your folds and you let out a small gasp.
“Are you ready?” He whispers in your ear, his lips quickly finding your neck as you nod. You reach your own hand down and gently guide Yoongi’s length inside you, moaning as he stretches you open without any preparation. He grunts once he’s fully seated inside you, dropping your leg and wrapping his arm back around your waist. “Fuck, you always feel so good.” He groans, his breath hot on the back of your neck. You whimper, his words making you feel hot as your core contracts around his rapidly hardening length.
“Yoongi…” You whimper.
He chuckles behind you. “This was supposed to make you fall asleep, not turn you on more.”
“Kiss me.” You turn as best you can to face him while he’s still inside you. His hand comes up to cup your face and he places the gentlest kiss on your lips, lingering for only a moment before pulling back and placing another kiss on your forehead. “Goodnight Yoongi.” You smile at him before turning back over.
“Goodnight my love.” He responds, rubbing your arm lightly as you both settle down to sleep. You relish in the feeling of Yoongi inside you, but try not to think about it too much lest your own body give it away. It doesn’t take long for your eyes to feel heavy, and soon enough, you’re lulled to sleep by the sound of Yoongi’s soft breaths.
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Your sleep doesn’t last long, unfortunately. Shortly after four in the morning, Yoongi’s phone begins to ring loudly, he tries to silence it, but it just keeps ringing. As he rolls over to grab it off the bedside table, slipping out of you in the process as you whine in protest, your phone starts ringing as well. That’s never good. You are both suddenly wide awake and you scramble to grab your phone, seeing Taehyung’s name flashing on the screen. You answer it immediately.
“Hello?” Your voice is still slightly laced with sleep as you listen.
“Y/N-ah… It’s bad.”
“What’s going on?” You ask, flinging the covers off as you leap out of bed, immediately searching for clothes and notice Yoongi doing the same out of the corner of your eye.
“It’s… It’s your parents house. Someone- you need to get down here immediately.”
“We’re on our way.” You hear yelling and loud sirens in the background as Taehyung hangs up the phone, yelling at someone to watch out.
Yoongi grabs the car keys off his dresser and you both sprint out the door and down to the car. “Taehyung said it was my parents house.” You explain as you slam the passenger door shut.
“Dad said the same thing.” Yoongi starts the car and quickly pulls out onto the main road, not even buckling his seatbelt.
“Did he say what was happening?”
Yoongi only shakes his head, pressing the gas pedal to the floor as he speeds down the road, weaving between the few cars that are out this early in the morning. As you’re driving, your heart finds its way into your throat when a fire truck flies past you. And then another. As you get closer, sure enough, you see an orange glow in the distance, black smoke billowing up into the clear winter sky.
“No… no, no!” Yoongi has barely pulled the car to a stop before you’re throwing open the door and sprinting toward your parent’s house, now fully engulfed in flames.
“Y/N-ah!” Yoongi calls after you, scrambling to turn the car off and catch up to you, but you’re not listening. You begin crying, but as you step onto the curb, you are immediately grabbed by a very strong pair of arms.
“Joka, you can’t.” It’s Big Kim.
“Let me go!” You screech, unable to tear your eyes away from the scene before you.
“There’s nothing you can do!” Big Kim yells, trying to get you to listen to him. There’s nothing you can do. The words repeat over and over in your mind as Taehyung appears in front of you.
“Y/N…” He nods at his father to release you and you fall into his arms, quickly shaking him off and walking to the sidewalk where you immediately fall to your knees, unable to do anything except watch as the fire rips apart your childhood home. The one remaining place you had to connect you to your parents. The only place where you could still touch their things, still smell them on their clothes, still feel them in the room with you, was disintegrating before your very eyes. Everything you had was finally gone.
“Abeoji!! Eomma!!” You wail in desperation, feeling Taehyung’s arms wrap around you as always, tears streaming down your face, screaming until your throat is raw, causing a few of the firemen to turn and look at you as they run past. A few moments later you feel a second set of arms around you as the window that used to be your bedroom shatters with an explosion that shakes the ground beneath you.
“Y/N-ah…” It’s Yoongi. He rubs your back soothingly as you sob.
“Do you have her?” Taehyung asks when he hears his name being called. Yoongi nods and Taehyung disappears.
Yoongi pulls you close and you weep into his chest, listening to the sweet nothings he whispers to you. “It’s okay Y/N-ah. I’m here, I’ve got you. I’ve got you my love.” His mouth rests against your head where he presses intermittent kisses of comfort.
Just like Big Kim said, there’s nothing you can do but sit and watch your home burn to the ground. The firemen do the best they can, using water truck after water truck, but they can only contain the fire at best, something is fighting against them from the inside, making it nearly impossible to extinguish.
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A few hours later, as blue hour creeps over the horizon, the fire has died down, leaving only a few smoldering piles of rubble left to be put out. You’ve been moved to the bench across the street, your eyes never leaving the sight before you as Yoongi sits next to you, rubbing the spot between your shoulder blades with one hand and holding your hand with the other. You shiver, but not from the chill of the early December morning, from the emptiness you feel inside you.
Yoongi’s father walks over to where you sit, kneeling down in front of the both of you and looking up at you, but you can’t look at him, your eyes remaining fixed on the piles of ash across the way. You feel a hand on your thigh.
“I’m so sorry joka…” Uncle Min whispers, giving you one last look before turning to Yoongi. “This,” He takes something out of his pocket and hands it to his son. “Was nailed to the door when the firefighters first arrived.” This is enough to get your attention, and you look over to see a picture with burn marks around the edges. The picture is of you and Yoongi, smiling on your wedding day.
“Do you think…?” Yoongi looks up at his father, already knowing the answer to the question he’s asking.
Before Uncle Min can respond, the question is answered for him, there’s a commotion coming from the front yard as you hear someone yelling to ’not touch him’. All three of you rise to your feet, running across the road to the smoldering house. You follow the voices into the hollow where the front entrance used to be before you are quickly stopped. Not before you see the charred remains of a person laying on the burnt floorboards in front of you. Big Kim is leaning over examining the remains when he looks up to meet your gaze.
“Who?” Is the only panicked word you can muster.
Big Kim shakes his head before looking at Yoongi. “Moon Jongin.”
The name shoots terror through your veins. Moon Jongin. The man that was supposed to be undercover in one of Busan’s drug warehouses right now.
“But-”
“Shit!” Yoongi curses, walking away and running a hand through his hair. You follow close behind. “He must’ve been found out.” Yoongi thinks out loud. “He probably gave them this as the place we lived instead of our real address because he didn’t know it.” He pulls the picture of the two of you back out of his pocket, looking back and forth between that and the charred remains of the house.
“So then this fire…” You put the pieces together.
Yoongi nods, pulling you close. “Was meant for us.”