hello! i have been following your blog for a huge while now and wonder if you may have any tips on what to do when you've been abused for years and also went to therapy regarding it but it seems like there is a deeper reason inside yourself that i haven't gotten 100% better.
I personally consider abuse something devastating to the point where you're never recovered completely, not to the way you used to be. I also can't tell what you're struggling with, and which part of the symptoms you still have, to be able to recognize a cause.
But I do think it's not your fault. There's so much in the abuse that finds a way to linger inside us, to make us doubt ourselves, blame ourselves. Abuse is usually what makes people believe there's something 'deep inside wrong in them', and that's a lie, there's not. There's nothing deep inside of you that causes you to feel bad or that is inevitably why you're suffering or unable to recover. Human beings have minds and bodies that are capable of almost everything, and abuse tries to short-circuit that, to disable us, to convince us something is wrong inside of us, and that is the reason for all of our problems, not the abuse. But, it's the abuse. We're fine as we are.
I hope you figure out what affected you so badly, and you're able to place responsibility on things outside yourself, good luck.
