#insidefantasy

[sadauroras]

@insidefantasy (josie + pj!)

they were fighting about something. josie didn't really remember how it had escalated. one moment they were texting early in the morning and the next she was banging at pj's bedroom window, looking exasperated, waving her arms up in the air. she mouths something, but she knows for a fact that the other woman can't understand her. but she's desperate, knowing deep down that maybe it was a little bit too far to make a joke about isabel being her new best friend. but in josie's mind, it was warranted when pj had been the one making comments about her love life.

the window finally opens and josie is predicably out of breath. she clears her throat, letting herself be face to face with her friend as she climbs through into the room. "took you long enough. what if it was cold out there? what if i froze because of you?" she's dramatic. it was a hot summer day, but her point still stood. "i was screaming my heart out and you didn't hear me." josie dramatically sighs, walking over to the bed and flopping down on it. "i missed you."

[perfectionreached]

@insidefantasy .... continued from THIS post.

she's always trying to divert attention away from herself. from her own issues. it's funny that she's doing it now, especially when she knows that she's the one who needs to be looked after. that's why she was at shauna's house again after all, she was lucky enough that both callie and jeff were gone for the night. it was weird to once again feel that fear of falling asleep. she almost doesn't even want to, talking with her friend almost as if they were still kids at a sleepover would suffice. "you don't have to watch me like a hawk, you know .." she pauses, a small feeling of guilt that even with shauna's own issues, she was willing to help taissa like this. she knows that the brunette was awake the whole time, she could feel her eyes on her. but she knew better than to bring that up, not now anyways.

it's strange, the way that this makes her think about what it was like back there. they were always the first to know each other's secrets, even knowing that if the other was judgmental it was out of a place of care. it appears that nothing had changed and isn't this what they deserved? after everything? sad eyes look toward the other's, wishing that she could pretend like everything was okay again. her life before was stable. it was safe. but more and more it felt like there was a crack in the foundation that taissa refused to acknowledge. "don't sleep. we can stay up and talk. if you want."

[sadauroras-a]

@insidefantasy ( jo + amy ! )

"you haven't seen my notebook, have you?" she's frantic, already having searched everywhere she would have normally placed it. hands rub her temples, a sigh escaping her as she looks over at amy. she knows her sister isn't the same girl she was before - there's no reason for jo to think she's burned it again, but even still, in the back of her mind she hasn't let it go. "i'm not going to be able to sleep tonight if i cannot write. this is a disaster."

[kindfair]

he had long forfeited his right to get a say in anything cathy did, or rather, in anyone cathy did. and still, despite all of it - them fighting, him betraying her more times he could count, him leaving her high and dry - he still cares. his back still stiffens up at the thought of it, her laughing in richard's bed, talking about oklahoma or whatever fucking show she was in this week that he wouldn't see. it wasn't jealousy per say - more like he didn't want anyone to win at the expense of his own losses.

he'd been the one to leave, he was the one shacked up with elise in a cozy apartment. and god, did he hate it there - each day measuring his successes against hers and finding for once, he'd been beat. he craved that feeling of superiority, and found he had none of it with her. only that same, empty feeling he'd had since that first book came out. ❝ were you fucking him when you were in ohio, when we were married ? ❞ he accuses, so hypocritical it hurts even him.

@insidefantasy !

[madeownluck]

❛  i don't hate you. i actually like you. a lot.  ❜ (perhaps...my romeo and juliet rosaline confusing him with romeo???)

Jack looked at the young woman curiously, not sure what she was trying to say since he had never met her before, "I'm sorry? I think you must have me mistaken for someone else."

[sadauroras]

@insidefantasy ( jo + belle! )

there was something about her. a similarity that she couldn't put a name to. it wasn't often that she had interactions with other women who got it. often, it was an insolating experience, but this was nice. eyebrows quirk, tucking a piece of hair behind her ear. "you do surgery? as a job? they let you?" she's speaking with a tone of amazement, a smile on her face.

[sadauroras]

@insidefantasy: "why must you continuously impose a penance on me for the crimes that i have committed in my youth when i did not know better?" (amy & jo!)

she's sure it does show in her face, but the words that amy had thrown at her punched her in the gut. they had been fighting, like they normally did. maybe jo had even said something mean and cruel as she never really did grow out of her temper. but being confronted with her actions was different.

jo avoids amy's gaze, wanting to be defensive. amy was always held to a different standard, but that was just because jo wanted the best for her and she didn't always understand her motivations. even as adults, she still held the belief that her sister just didn't always get jo. did anyone actually?

"i still mourn some of things that happened. you were a vindictive child. " she says simply, her voice on the more quiet side for once. "is that what you feel like? that i'm still punishing you?"

[wehavefoundthestars]

i was hoping you'd be there. (sara crewe at elio)

"I really did want to come but something else came up," Elio explained while running with his fingers through his curls. "A good friend from our family came over unexpectedly and my parents wanted me to stay since I know him as well. I'm really sorry Sara." He pauses before daring to ask, "Was it that bad without me?"